(twenty)
After we finished our lunch, Yang Xiongwei bluntly said that the relationship between us was too complicated and chaotic. He couldn't understand it. Relationships have a reason to exist, you don’t have to understand but don’t comment on other people’s lives.”
In the end, I added Chen Xie's contact information, saying that we will do nails together when I have time, and I wanted to ask her where she lives now and ask Yu Haiqiao to drop by.
Yu Haiqiao sat in the car with a cold face and said to me: "It's not on the way."
He has rarely had such a bad temper. Chen Xie and I stood at the door of the car chatting and looked back at him. Chen Xie laughed and said, "Yu Haiqiao, you still have such a bad temper. Forget it, I'll take a taxi back by myself."
After she finished speaking, she waved her hand and said goodbye to me, then turned around and left, I was still thinking about Yu Haiqiao, who behaved like a dog all day long except when facing me, and was gentle and polite when facing any strangers, Chen Xie said that Yu Haiqiao has a bad temper. Although Yu Haiqiao is not very good at anything, I don't agree with this point. Anyway, I have known him for so long and he has never lost his temper seriously.
I turned around and climbed to the back seat of the car. Yu Haiqiao glanced at me in the rearview mirror. He didn’t say that it wasn’t my driver who asked me to sit in the front as usual. He started the car and asked me, “Where are you going?” The voice is very calm, not like the usual sloppy look.
This person may really be in a bad mood right now.
I also remained calm: "Go home." After calming down, I added randomly, "If you have something to do, you can put me down and I will take a taxi home by myself."
Yu Haiqiao didn't speak, and stepped on the accelerator.
The car drove for about 20 minutes along the way. Among them, we passed five traffic lights, two of which were green lights, and two of which were yellow lights. There was only one red light after waiting for about a minute. In the parking lot under the complex, Yu Haiqiao sat in the car with the lights off and asked me, "Shi Ran, what do you mean?"
I sat in the back seat of the car with my arm around my chest: "What do you mean?"
Yu Haiqiao's voice came from the front seat, without any emotion: "You have been picking on me since half a month ago. I asked you many times what happened to you and you didn't say anything. I thought you had a bad temper. Forget it, think about it after a while, anyway, you have a bad temper since you were a child."
I sneered coldly: "Who has a bad temper since childhood?"
Yu Haiqiao said coldly: "Your temper is not strange? When you were in elementary school, you shaved your hair and rolled in the fields like a little boy every day. As a result, you wore pink clothes in autumn when everyone in school wore cotton clothes. At that time, the group of boys in our class thought you were a boy and played with you, and you scared them so much that they dare not play with you anymore."
I sneered: "What kind of sexist are you? Girls can't shave their heads and roll around in the ground?"
Yu Haiqiao said: "You know what I mean. Every time I talk to you, I use such strong words to make sense. You pretend you don't understand when you understand it. Does pretending not to understand make you feel naive?"
I leaned on the car, and couldn't help shaking my feet: "Then your sloppy talk every day makes you feel very humorous?"
Yu Haiqiao said: "If you are soft with others in this life, you will die, right? You have to win or lose everything, you have to win a fight with outsiders, you have to win a fight with me, and you have to win a fight with me. If I make you angry, you don't care. You have to get angry, why are you always so small-minded, why are you arguing with me, yes, if you win, how do you want to give you a trophy, okay?!"
"Yu Haiqiao, let me return the original words to you. If you are happy with me every day, will the country give you a trophy or what?" I said.
"..." Yu Haiqiao was silent for a moment, "You always have to be reasonable, and you can find some unreasonable reasons even if you don't have reason."
I didn't speak, I felt so bored. I have known Yu Haiqiao for more than 20 years, so in his eyes, I have always been a person with a weird temper, strong words, and unforgiving appearance.
So boring.
In my eyes, at least he still has the advantages of being handsome and tall.
After I didn't speak for a long time, Yu Haiqiao said again: "In the summer vacation of the second year of high school, everyone is making up lessons at school. You said that the classroom has no air conditioner, and the electric fan can't reach your place. You feel hot and go to the barber shop to shave your hair. Among the many students, you are the only girl who goes to class every day with a head that is almost bald, and in the end you were scolded by your own mother so that you almost couldn't enter the house, don't you blame it?"
Oh, I see, in Yu Haiqiao's eyes, the kind of people who are different from the general public are called weird. No wonder he can remember Yang Xiongwei so clearly, because in Yu Haiqiao's eyes, Yu Xueba This kind of person who doesn't have good grades and likes to be a monster in appearance is weird. I should have really looked up to Yu Haiqiao for so many years. Maybe he really thinks that marrying me is helping me to help the poor. After all, he even took other people's college entrance examinations. I can remember the forty points in the test very clearly and can complain to me with disdain as a point of view. I also did poorly in the mathematics college entrance examination, and I guess in the eyes of Yu Haiqiao, it is more like helping the poor.
Yu Haiqiao: "When I was in high school, I asked you which university you applied to. You said that the local university is convenient for eating at home. Do you think you are funny?"
When I was in high school, there were a lot of random things, and I don’t remember it at all. The reason why I applied to the local university in the college entrance examination was of course because I didn’t have enough scores, and the local university was better.
On the contrary, he himself got such good grades because of the convenience of going home on weekends and is still in college in this city. How could he use this to blame me.
"When you were in college, you told me that you would definitely be DINK in the future. At that time, I didn't even know what DINK meant. When I went back and searched, I found out what it meant. Shi Ran, you just want to be different from others to be happier. ?” Yu Haiqiao asked me in the dimly lit car.
I reached out and shook my bag, thinking of getting out of the car and leaving at any time. I have known Yu Haiqiao for so many years. Leaving aside the emotional matters, I probably can’t explain clearly. Anyway, it’s a chaotic group. It's not just that simple, lover, I don't think there is any lover like the two of us. But at least I thought this person understood me quite well. Now that I think about it, the feeling of "this person understands me" must be the most absurd illusion in the world. He is expressing to me all my different behaviors from others It's all grandstanding, maybe when Shu Qin and Chen Xie casually chatted about open marriage at the dinner table today, he also sat across from him and felt that I was grandstanding again. I think it's a little ridiculous, and there are some elusive disappointments hidden under the ridiculousness. This kind of disappointment may bring me more frustration than "Yu Haiqiao has always liked Chen Xie and decided to be with Chen Xie". Perhaps, I felt that all the bonds that could maintain the relationship between me and Yu Haiqiao were broken at this moment.
Relying on the degree of acquaintance between us, relying on the tacit understanding that I have known for more than 20 or 30 years, I have lived with him for three years. In order to maintain a balance point, now Yu Haiqiao began to mock my attitude towards life and my behavior. In fact, he has never been satisfied with me. He thinks that he is really helping the poor by marrying me.
Maybe it’s true that I don’t know him well enough. The few words he said to me when we were arguing with the Civil Affairs Bureau may be words from the heart, and he may really think so in his heart—— Shi Ran, you two No one wants me at seventeen and I don't want to be bound by marriage for the time being, so we help each other out. You are still DINK, now who gets married and does not have children? Even if you and your partner don't want to have children, don't your parents and your partner's parents want to have grandchildren
I sat in the dark car for a while, and Yu Haiqiao didn't speak for a long time after he finished the above sentence. After a while, he said to me in a calm tone: "I have to go back to other places on business tomorrow. I shouldn’t be able to go home for half a month.”
I sat in the back seat of the car and said "oh".
Yu Haiqiao turned his head back, but I thought he couldn’t see anything due to the poor lighting inside the car, so he turned his head back and asked me as if nothing had happened: “Going home, going to watch a movie this afternoon? "
I didn't answer, Yu Haiqiao pulled out his car key and opened the door. The lights in the parking lot were very dark, and a haze entered the driver's seat where he was sitting. Like the usual him, he unbuckled the seat belt and opened the door with a relaxed voice: "Let's go, are you full just now, do you want to go home and cook something?"
He opened the car door and stepped out, his voice still very relaxed: "I just heard from Yang Wei that a new movie was released recently. It's pretty good. Let's go watch a movie this afternoon."
I said, "Yu Haiqiao."
He hadn't stepped out of the car when he heard an "um" from his nasal cavity.
"You will only whitewash the peace in this life, and what happens can always be treated as if it never happened in the next second?"
Yu Haiqiao was sitting in the driver's seat. Hearing this, he turned around and looked back at me. The light was not very good and I couldn't see the expression on his face clearly. His voice seemed innocent: "I let you Angry, how can I get better this time?"
I sat in the backseat of the car and pursed my lips. Now I have realized that I am a very unreasonable person in his context. I always get angry for no reason. I thought this was some harmless joke I made in my life with him, but He thought I was genuinely angry, I thought we were on the same channel for a long time, but we weren't. I even thought it was a bit ridiculous, and I said: "In your eyes, I am a very bad person. I have no merits or advantages. I am terrible from all aspects of behavior, personality, and life."
Yu Haiqiao's head was still looking in my direction, and he tried to chat with me for a while: "No."
I groaned: "It's good that you can say it, otherwise I would always think that I am a fairy in your eyes."
Yu Haiqiao laughed with a muffled voice: "You think too much."
Of course I knew that I was thinking too much, and I didn’t really need his reminder. I asked him: “Do you remember when we went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to apply for a marriage certificate a few years ago? The company continues to work, what did you say to me while sitting in this car?"
"..." Yu Haiqiao said, "I talked a lot."
I said: "You told me at the time that I was not qualified to manage your love life, and that you would divorce after you found true love."
"..." Yu Haiqiao was silent for a long time and asked me without any emotion in his voice, "What do you mean?"
Today he asked me this question many times.
Then I just went back to him and said, "literally."