(twenty five)
Yu Haiqiao just didn’t have any compulsions in his heart. When the relationship between me and him was barely considered harmonious, I could still listen to a smile when this dog talked shamelessly. At this time, he still had the face to smile with me. I took a look at him : "Yu Haiqiao, is there something wrong with you?"
He looked at me innocently: "What's wrong?"
I said, "Can you get out of my house?"
His eyes narrowed slightly, judging by the judgment I have known him for many years, he was in a bad mood because of what I said, just when I thought he might at least be in a bad mood to sarcasm, I said a sentence or two angrily from When my house left, he smiled and said, "Don't be so stingy for a meal."
I have tried many times in my life to tear Yu Haiqiao's doggy face to pieces, but every time I reach a critical point, I will be stopped by the kindness deep in my heart, and things will develop By now I feel that it is time, all my backlogged anger is like lava in a volcano waiting to erupt at this moment, they broke through the cage made by my reason in an unstoppable gesture.
After graduating from junior high school, I began to advertise myself as a woman in the new era. I want to keep myself eternally independent in spirit and rational in personality. I will never be hysterical when things happen, so I have never been hysterical. My reason puts everything too much Intense emotions are imprisoned in my body.
Now my many emotions broke through the cage, so intense that I felt my brain was burning hot, I yelled at Yu Haiqiao: "I let you go!!"
Yu Haiqiao was probably frightened by my irrational appearance, he took half a step back on the spot, and when he opened his eyes and looked at me, his face was dazed, his eyes innocent It's like a young child waiting for his parents to pick him up when the kindergarten is over.
My brain was burning hot, and my behavior was completely out of control of my own reason: "I told you to go, did you hear Yu Haiqiao?!"
Yu Haiqiao took another half step back, he pursed his lips, raised his steps and took a step forward in my direction.
I was still holding the special kitchen rag that I used to wipe the kitchen before. I raised my hand and threw it in the direction where he came. At this moment, there is only monstrous anger in my mind, and I only hate what I am holding in my hand. Chopper, I should just hack him to death with one knife and finish it all: "Get out!!! Don't fucking show up in front of me in the future!!! I'm divorcing you so that I will never see you again!!! Don't want to see you again!!!"
I was hoarse, because my voice was a little split when I yelled, which is something I would never do if I could regain a little bit of sanity.
Yu Haiqiao was hit by my rag, and he stopped walking towards me. I saw him pursing his lips, and the expression on his face was very ugly, but I think no matter how ugly it is, I am even more ugly now .
I just felt like I was panting like a cow, and raised my finger to the direction of the door: "Get out, if you show up in front of me again, I will resign and move."
Yu Haiqiao's lips pursed into a straight line: "I never promised."
"Get the fuck out of me!" Facts have proved that people can't speak when they are hysterical. As usual, I think I can be called a good language expressive ability, and Yu Haiqiao and Yu Haiqiao verbally attacked each other. There has always been a win and a loss, but at this moment, it seems that they can only say the word "scroll".
Yu Haiqiao bent down to pick up the rag I threw on the ground, took a big step towards me, and I raised my hand and slapped him across the face.
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This slap was very crisp, and I can say that it not only exceeded Yu Haiqiao's expectations, but even exceeded my own expectations. I have never advocated violence. In life, I am very in favor of eloquence to win with my opponents in life. What's more, women have never had any advantage in battle. A slap, this is very wrong, it is an action that is not within the scope of my reason or even my logic.
I subconsciously apologized to Yu Haiqiao, who was physically hurt by me: "I'm sorry."
The back of Yu Haiqiao's hand was covering the face that I just slapped. He stood about half an arm away from me. Yu Haiqiao stood there and said hoarsely: "What are you sorry for?"
"..." I just hit his palm and it was still hot. I was speechless. I did think about all the possibilities in the future between me and Yu Haiqiao, but I never expected such a bad scene to appear. I have also imagined the scene after I divorced him. The time I have known him for so many years should have been a very friendly farewell scene no matter from any angle.
The back of Yu Haiqiao's hand was still attached to his face, he lowered his eyes and smiled faintly, and asked me after letting go: "Is it swollen?"
"..." I took a look, and there were four fingerprints on his face. I looked away, and said to him in a low voice, "You go."
Yu Haiqiao asked me in a hoarse voice: "Shi Ran, how long will you be satisfied if you torture me?"
"Whatever you think, I shouldn't hit you, you feel that you have been hurt, you can call back now." I didn't look at him, and felt that the current atmosphere was too bad, if Yu Haiqiao gave me back If a slap can save me from this terrible situation, I am willing to stretch out my face and slap him. Yu Haiqiao never owes me anything. To be honest, he has made a lot of mistakes in life when I was with him. He really took care of me a lot. Although he married and divorced me and lived my life like he played house in kindergarten, I personally agreed to him asking me to marry him. That means I am willing to accept risks in married life.
I have never had such a moment of enlightenment at this moment. Yu Haiqiao and I are just two dogs who don’t like to talk about people. There is no right or wrong. After I awakened from gender consciousness, everything is in love. Contrary to Yu Haiqiao's argument, Yu Haiqiao said to go to the left, even if I want to go to the left, I will insist on going to the right. I am almost like a courtier named "Yu Haiqiao" who is held up under the throne of the emperor who is very good at maneuvering power. I think what Yu Haiqiao said is true. ,I am horrible.
Others couldn't see the self-righteous soul that I pretended to hide under my rational body, but Yu Haiqiao saw it. He mocked me, disapproved of me, and looked down on me. There was nothing wrong with Yu Haiqiao.
What is wrong is my pride and self-esteem, which has always been worthless, and what is wrong is the ridiculous self-righteous posture I show in front of Yu Haiqiao all day long.
I looked at Yu Haiqiao and said to him with a firmness I had never felt before: "Call back."
Yu Haiqiao's lips parted slightly: "Are you interested in torturing me every day?" His voice was very hoarse, as if something was stuck in his throat.
"..." Yu Haiqiao felt that he was a victim. Maybe I was the Waterloo in his smooth sailing life, and I did hurt him.
From an objective point of view, maybe I should say sorry to him last time, but I think he is sorry for me too. These two sentences of sorry have successfully canceled each other out in my heart. In the next life, we will exchange each other again. Not owed.
"If you don't fight, you can go." I said.
Yu Haiqiao stood not far from me in a straight posture, and there was a palm print on his face that gradually darkened, his hands were hanging on his sides, his eyes were a little red, and his expression showed With his usual sarcasm, he opened his mouth and began to attack me like a poisonous snake: "You will only torture me forever."
"..."
"You said that you found true love and asked me to divorce you. I divorced you. If you want to leave, you can leave and I will come back. Shi Ran is not like you. What do you want me to do? I was thrown away by you and cleaned up my own garbage. Disappear in front of your eyes, don't you just bully me, don't you want to do something to you, don't you just bully me, don't you want to bully me, how much do you want to bully me before you are satisfied, are you human Shi Ran?"
"..." I felt that I couldn't understand the inner meaning of Yu Haiqiao's string of words for a while.
"I wag my tail in front of you every day like a dog, you can't see it, do you have a heart? Your heart is made of stone, right?"
I couldn't help but mock: "What are you telling me, you like me?"
Yu Haiqiao stared at me and laughed sarcastically: "You are tired of pretending that you don't know what I think about you every day, right?" Yu Haiqiao laughed twice, "Yes, there is only You, Shi Ran, have self-esteem. Only you, Shi Ran, need self-esteem. No one else needs it. What do you want from me? Kneel on the ground and beg you not to let me go, please don’t divorce me, okay? I’m fucking The face of this life has been thrown on you, don't you think you have gone too far?"
I couldn't help but sneer: "You like me, Yu Haiqiao, you've lost all your shame on me in your whole life? All the humiliation and perfection in my fucking life have been lost on you. I pretend I don't know what you are What do you mean? God damn I know what you mean, tell me now what do you mean? Is it the engagement ring you threw at me like trash when you proposed to me on my twenty-seventh birthday? Or yours? A long list of theories that we got married to help each other; the shit you said to me in the car while we were getting married and I was rushing back to work the next moment? Me the fuck I found out that you were spreading rumors behind me, and the next morning after I was angry, you threw me a plausible Morse code note with "I love you"; and it was eight o'clock this morning when you stood on the floor of my house When will you pick me up at the Civil Affairs Bureau for divorce?!!!"
Yu Haiqiao's eyes opened slightly, and his voice was intermittent, as if he couldn't believe my excellent memory: "What... what?"
"You said that you like me, you are not ridiculous, you are the one who made me feel that Shi Ran, who lived to be thirty, is not worthy of others to stand in front of me and say to me - I like you. And now You ran into my house, stood in front of me, and condemned me fiercely, saying that you threw all your face and self-esteem on me. I asked myself, except I just couldn’t help giving you a slap this time I have never really felt sorry for you, can I bear your big face and self-esteem Yu Haiqiao!!!!"
Because I was too emotional, my voice broke in the end.
I stared at Yu Haiqiao and told him word by word: "I never deny that I have a strong personality, but I really can't bear the great ability that my hard-hearted heart will not be hurt."