[2nd story]
[Lin Xinxin Extra Story]
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I know what I'm missing.
After I've lost.
After everything is settled, I often think about what I have gained and what I have lost.
I never got anything.
I think Li Rong is very stupid, she can't see anything, she has always been stupid, and she is being used by others. I think even if I sell her, she will count the money for me. No exaggeration, I think she is so stupid.
But we had a big fight, and after she left, I stood in the dormitory by myself, and the whole dormitory fell silent, especially after a fierce quarrel just now, this extreme silence makes people sad.
Who knows what I'm upset about.
But a sense of loneliness overwhelmed me, and I followed me out of the dormitory without looking back. I thought I must look sad, but that was the only time in a long time that I wasn't pretending to be sad.
In fact, I can hardly distinguish my sincerity from falsehood. I am used to living with a mask.
But there is one difference, that is, when we cry, we usually pay attention to our own image, but this time, we cried so heartbreakingly that we were not in the mood to cover up our ugliness at all.
I know, I lost a friend.
Someone once took me as a friend.
I start to miss her.
Also began to miss the other person.
I don't know when Tang Mo fell in love with me, but I think he is no different from other people who like me, except for my appearance.
But I wasn't disfigured, but he didn't want me anymore.
Like a demon, I began to recall everything about him. He was warmer and more considerate than the other suitors. I began to recall the hand warmers and breakfast in winter, and I began to think of his blushing every time he saw me, and how many little thoughts he had hidden.
I finally started to feel that he was sincere.
He is sincere.
At that time.
But I missed it after all.
Later, by coincidence, once, I met him in an alley.
He has cat food in his hand.
There is a cat in this alley, and it makes its nest here. I know, I have fed it.
I look at him. His expression is a bit complicated.
He handed the kitten the cat food in his hand, and I saw the boy's profile in the sun.
The tenderness of that moment.
He is different from the previous impression.
I have also fed this cat, but I think my mind must not be as pure as his.
It's not that I don't know that my focus is really not like a very good girl. Therefore, I always consciously feed stray kittens and puppies, and I also readily give money to homeless people on the street.
Whenever this time, I will feel relaxed.
Every time I do such a small act of kindness, it seems to prove that I am a kind girl.
But I know that I don't have the kindness to care for stray animals, nor do I have sympathy for beggars.
It's just a kind of self-comfort, that's all.
But Tang Mo raised his head and told me that this is the place where he first saw me.
He felt that I was very gentle when I fed the cat.
At that moment, I had a dark thought again, and I was eager to tell him that I was really the good girl he thought, and I was just confused for a while.
But another girl came over. She also knelt down to feed the cat, with utterly pure eyes.
Tang Mo introduced, "This is my girlfriend."
So I smiled and said hello.
Finally, I know what I have lost.
After I've lost.