Not good.
This was Zhu Shijiu’s first reaction when he saw Su Chan huddled in the quilt.
The reason why he was able to get Su Chan to cooperate with him in completing Misha's smuggling plan was because Su Chan was rational enough. She was able to analyze and judge the situation after she refused, so she agreed to assist him after careful consideration.
But...what if Su Chan regained her emotions
When driven by emotions, fear, worry, and confusion can lead people to make irrational judgments. After Su Chan regains her emotions, will she report him to the organization? Can she still think rationally and continue to be used by him
Zhu Shijiu really didn't know what would happen.
He once heard Su Chan say that she was like two completely different people before and after her emotions were wiped out. In order to see Su Chan before her emotions were wiped out, he took the initiative to approach her during the assessment.
He remembered that Su Chan at that time was extremely cowardly and a complete social phobia in his impression.
But in fact, he still didn't know Su Chan's true nature well enough. Would the real Su Chan hinder his use of her? Zhu Shijiu still had to confirm this.
"Su Chan..."
“Ah, ah, ah—don’t, don’t, don’t talk to me… I want to die, I’m sorry, sorry, sorry…”
Su Chan had already started to talk nonsense, her voice trembling and distorted from under the covers. If Zhu Shijiu hadn't had good hearing, he probably wouldn't have understood what Su Chan was saying. Zhu Shijiu was somewhat surprised by Su Chan's apology, because he was the one who should have apologized more, after all, he was the one who dragged Su Chan into this.
Zhu Shijiu ignored Su Chan's refusal, strode forward, and pulled away the quilt that was tightly wrapped around Su Chan!
“Ah! No!!!”
Zhu Shijiu's physical fitness was much better than Su Chan's, so even though Su Chan held the quilt tightly, she still couldn't stop Zhu Shijiu from lifting the quilt into the air!
"Fuck, why don't you put on some clothes."
Su Chan was only wearing underwear under the quilt, and Zhu Shijiu quickly turned around.
"Wow... I'm sorry..."
Su Chan's face flushed red, and she hugged her body tightly and apologized in a mosquito-like voice.
"No. It's my fault. After all, you were in your room and you could wear whatever you wanted. I entered your room without permission. Anyway... you should put on your clothes first." Zhu Shijiu still reflected on it, and said with his eyes closed while covering his back to Su Chan.
Su Chan: "... Clothes... on the sofa... oooh..."
There was a tone of grievance and crying in her voice, which made Zhu Shijiu feel guilty.
Zhu Shijiu sighed. For some reason, he still felt that Su Chan was easier to approach after her emotions were wiped out. At least, he would not feel guilty about how to treat that perverted woman. He shook his head, walked straight to the sofa, and found a student uniform.
Carefully, he backed up to the bed and threw his uniform on it: "Put it on now. I have something to tell you later."
"Okay, okay."
There was a rustling sound. It was the first time that Zhu Shijiu heard the sound of a girl getting dressed. He felt a little uncomfortable. After standing there stiffly for a long time, he finally heard Su Chan's voice, which was as low as it could be: "Put on..."
Zhu Shijiu said stiffly: "Then I'll turn around."
"Um... Ok, okay."
Zhu Shijiu turned around and saw a woman with a red face and a tired look, curled up in the corner of the bed with her legs hugged... Is this woman really Su Chan? The moment he saw Su Chan, Zhu Shijiu actually doubted his own eyes. This weak look was far from the Su Chan he knew.
If I have to describe it, it's like a heroic female general suddenly turns into the delicate and frail Lin Daiyu.
This style of painting is obviously wrong.
Su Chan raised her head and glanced at Zhu Shijiu quickly. Her body suddenly stiffened and her red lips slightly opened: "Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu..."
Zhu Shijiu was startled. What happened? Was the robot stuck
"Zhu Shijiu." Zhu Shijiu helped Su Chan finish what she wanted to say.
"babble!"
Su Chan's face became even redder, and it was almost bleeding. She seemed to be ashamed of her stuttering again, and she wanted to curl up into a ball and bury her head between her arms.
I want to die - this is Su Chan’s only feeling now.
Zhu Shijiu was somewhat helpless. In Su Chan's current state, it was obvious that she couldn't even say a few words to ordinary people, let alone communicate normally with him. He thought for a moment and said, "I know you have social phobia, but... I didn't expect your social phobia to be so serious. Should you find a psychologist to help you with treatment? Or should I apply for a re-injection of the drug for you?"
"No!" Su Chan's reaction suddenly became intense, and she raised her head suddenly, but the moment she saw Zhu Shijiu, she buried her head again in the blink of an eye.
"Can I communicate with you normally now?"
“Kekekekekeke…” Su Chan was stuck like a robot again.
Zhu Shijiu had a blank expression on his face: "Is it possible? But obviously not."
"Back off, back off, back off..."
"Step back?" Zhu Shijiu was now guessing what Su Chan would say. It was really difficult to communicate with Su Chan, who had social phobia.
Zhu Shijiu took a big step back: "Is this okay?"
Su Chan quietly released her eyes from between her arms, and looked at Zhu Shijiu through the only gap, then stuttered sullenly: "Step back again..."
"so?"
"Back off again..."
"Is this okay?"
"Back off a little further."
“…Okay, how about this
"That's it... that's about it." Su Chan finally dared to raise her head and look at Zhu Shijiu, but she still didn't have the courage to look him in the eye, and her whole face was flushed.
"… "
Zhu Shijiu was speechless, looking at the door beside him... He had already retreated to the door, but Su Chan was still curled up in the corner on the bed. He even suspected that if the room was a little bigger, Su Chan would let him retreat further.
At this distance, if it were an ordinary person, they would have to shout to each other to hear each other. But fortunately, Zhu Shijiu's enhanced hearing surpassed that of ordinary people.
"What I want to tell you is to take..."
No, the matter of sperm collection must be put aside. Zhu Shijiu stopped talking abruptly. Although this was the purpose of his coming here today, it was obvious that Su Chan couldn't think of any effective plan in her current state. Moreover, he was worried that Su Chan would be so ashamed that she would die on the spot after hearing this.
So Zhu Shijiu changed the subject: "I want to confirm your thoughts now that you have recovered your emotions. Our chess club requires absolute loyalty. If you regret joining the chess club now, I will give you a chance to quit."
Su Chan, curled up on the bed, froze: "Rebel... Yes, I have become a rebel now..."
Zhu Shijiu's breathing stagnated - so you didn't even realize your current identity after you recovered your emotions, but you realized it now? Then what were you thinking about before
…
Zhu Shijiu obviously didn't understand what Su Chan was thinking after she recovered her emotions.
Because people are different, if two things are put in front of different people at the same time, the priority of each person will be different due to their own characteristics. Socially anxious Su Chan and rational Su Chan are two different people, so the way they choose to think about problems and the priority levels are naturally opposite.
The rational Su Chan was always thinking about how to survive. After joining the chess club, the first thing she thought about was how to fight for promotion and get the help of the chess club.
The first and only thing that socially anxious Su Chan thought about after she recovered her emotions was the bold courtship behaviors she performed during the period of emotional closure that made her want to die immediately!
After she recovered her emotions, she was almost overwhelmed by the shame gushing out of her heart. Fortunately, her memory was still very good. She recalled everything she had communicated with Zhu Shijiu over and over again, and her whole brain felt like it was burning out.
Pervert, shameless, shameless, lunatic, nymphomaniac... a series of derogatory words seemed to be applicable to her. The more she thought about it, the more she felt that she was pure garbage and it would be better for her to die on the spot.
She had no time to care about the trivial matter of becoming a rebel.
Yes, in the eyes of Su Chan, who suffers from social phobia, this is a trivial matter.
So Su Chan was just frozen for a moment. She lowered her head and shed tears silently, already surrounded by her dark history: "That kind of thing... doesn't matter now."
Zhu Shijiu really didn't expect Su Chan to give this answer.
He rubbed his brows and said, "You mean, you still don't object to joining the chess club now, right?"
Su Chan leaned against the wall with a pale face: "Kill me, I don't deserve to live."
"… "
"I think it would be better to find a psychiatrist for you. Your current condition is really... Sigh."
"I'm sorry, it's my fault. I shouldn't have said so much nonsense to you. Please forget all the things I did after I was emotionally closed."
Why are you still using honorifics
Although Zhu Shijiu really wanted to complain, he also understood what Su Chan cared about now.
She was simply dissatisfied with the rational Su Chan's behavior. The key point was that she was the one who committed those nymphomaniac courtship behaviors. She tortured herself repeatedly in shame.
"Don't worry, I don't care that much. I've also been injected with the drug, so I know that the feelings before and after the emotional erasure are completely different."
Zhu Shijiu comforted him.
"That's not your true intention, I know that."
“Really? Really?” Su Chan looked at Zhu Shijiu as if she was a poor stray puppy covered with scars.
"Really. And what's that? It's just using reasonable means to ensure your own survival in a rational state. I've heard of a scumbag who cheated on a woman in order to get promoted, and then immediately dumped her. You haven't been so unscrupulous, have you?"
Su Chan froze: "... I'm sorry, I had even more unscrupulous thoughts."
Zhu Shijiu was embarrassed: "Have you really thought about it?"
"I've thought about this before. Even if I get pregnant, I may not have a more complete follow-up protection measure. What if the organization continues to use me as a secret soldier after I successfully give birth to your child? So the best solution is to find an opportunity to kill you after I get pregnant with your child."
Zhu Shijiu almost choked on his own saliva and gritted his teeth and said, "What did you say?"
"… This is the only solution that makes me feel more appropriate. Because after I become pregnant with your seed, the organization can still arrange for you to be bred in other women, so my existence is not irreplaceable, but what if you die?"
"As long as I conceive your child before the organization arranges for you to provide sperm cells and kill you quietly, the organization will definitely choose to protect me with the most stringent protection measures in order to reproduce your talent. And because I am the biological mother of your only offspring, I will declare to the organization that no one knows you better than me. I will apply to the organization to train the child to be the next you. Even if I cannot be the child's trainer, I can provide a training plan behind the scenes..."
I wish Shi Jiuren numbness.
If Su Chan had not recovered her emotions and confessed to him, he would not have known that Su Chan decided to kill him after she succeeded.
Zhu Shijiu looked at Su Chan expressionlessly until Su Chan trembled all over.
She burst into tears: "You might as well kill me!"