The moment he said goodbye to Qin Fanglu and entered the house and closed the door, Ruan Cunyun felt weak all over and fell directly into the bedroom.
Ruan Cunyun lay flat on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, feeling neither sad nor happy, and fell into a state of complete silence and isolation.
Messages kept popping up on the phone screen, all of which were messages of comfort to him from the other three people, but Ruan Cunyun was too lazy to raise his hand to take a look.
It's not because of anything else, I just don't have the energy to watch, I just can't muster any strength in my body.
He held on for the entire afternoon and didn't want to show too much sadness in front of Qin Fanglu.
Because he didn't want Qin Fanglu to be sad with him, and trying to make him happy without knowing the reason would ruin his good mood for the Lantern Festival.
During the afternoon spent with Qin Fanglu, Ruan Cunyun was in a relatively good mood, or rather, he was in a state of paralysis and automatically filtered out the matter.
Now that he was alone at home, his emotions surged up like running water, and he realized that he was really sad.
Ruan Cunyun put his arms across his eyes to block out the light.
To put it bluntly, this matter was his own fault. When he went to add Teacher Dan as a friend, he should have been prepared to be rejected.
Ruan Cunyun smiled: "It works quickly. It works very quickly. I'm fine now."
Rainbow Bear propped up his chin and tapped on the calendar: "Then tentatively set it at 7pm on Wednesday and 10am on Saturday?"
"Although there is still a long time before the comic convention officially opens, it is best for us to start practicing now!" said Rainbow Bear.
Ruan Cunyun subconsciously typed "OK" with his fingers, and when he was about to send it, he suddenly remembered that he had to go to dance practice on Saturday.
Qin Fanglu would never force Ruan Cunyun to answer questions, but he also hoped that Ruan Cunyun could be happy soon, so he tried various ways to make him happy.
Ruan Cunyun was chewing on grilled sausages in the sun, and his heart was as clear as a mirror.
After the three of them selected the repertoire, they immediately began looking for a dance studio and a teacher.
Ruan Cunyun felt guilty. He got off the pendulum, smiled and helped Qin Fanglu calm down. He opened up and said to Qin Fanglu: "Thank you for making me happy. I am happiest when you are with me. But I am sorry... I may not be able to tell you what happened to me now."
Rainbow Bear also lives in Shenzhen. She is a sweet and cool girl with bangs. She looks very cute, but has a sexy smoky voice, which is very distinctive.
Qin Fanglu was always able to keenly perceive his emotions, but he did not ask what happened, but just tried every means to help him get out of it. This was the case when he quarreled with his father last time, and it was the same this time.
Ruan Cunyun also discovered that Qin Fanglu was deliberately trying to make him happy, and he was very grateful.
Bai Qiangwei and Ruan Cunyun are both amateurs no matter what. They haven't danced for a long time, so their limbs are not very familiar with the movements. In addition, the three of them need to practice their movements and coordination, so they need to be fully prepared.
White Rose: "I'm OK."
Take him out for a big meal, to the movies, to the amusement park on weekends to ride the thrilling rides that he fears the most, and try activities that normal couples like.
"So, you don't need to tell the cold medicine why you are sick." Qin Fanglu looked around and saw that there was no one around. He gently touched Ruan Cunyun's forehead with his lips and asked him, "Am I an effective cold medicine?"
His work taught him that investment is always accompanied by risks, so he should not be sad no matter what the result is.
But Ruan Cunyun felt uncomfortable, as if he was slapped in the face by the person he had liked for a long time. It was very painful and a little confusing.
Not only did they reject him, they also put him on the blacklist.
Qin Fanglu's heart was still racing. He finally caught his breath and glared at Ruan Cunyun. "Of course you don't have to tell me what happened! A boyfriend is like cold medicine. It may not know why you have a cold, but once it slides into your stomach, your cold will be cured!"
To put it bluntly, Teacher Dan is just a stranger on the Internet. Why should we let such a distant stranger affect our mood
Ruan Cunyun has such a good boyfriend, several great friends, her own little house, a busy but fulfilling job, a cat to pet, new anime to watch and new peripherals to buy. Isn't that enough? This is such a perfect life!
As for Teacher Dan—huh, I will still like your paintings, but I don’t want to be friends with you anymore!
Perhaps this is the right thing to do. Fans should be closer to the artist's works and farther away from the artist's life.
After a while, Qin Fanglu replied to him, "Okay, be safe," without asking what he was going to do.
Strange, did he offend Teacher Dan in some way? Was he guilty of such a crime? Ruan Cunyun was puzzled.
Ruan Cunyun felt sad and a little bit pretentious, and fell asleep uneasily in a chaotic state.
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Ruan Cunyun has been very depressed recently, and it started from the Lantern Festival. Qin Fanglu easily discovered this.
It can be seen that Ruan Cunyun is really happy every time, but one can still see a hint of gloom under his smile, which leaves a shallow wound in Qin Fanglu's heart.
The company is quite far from the practice room, so Ruan Cunyun has to get off work on time at six o'clock and take a taxi immediately to have dinner before practice.
The Internet is a connection between people. It is enough to just show each other your underwear. Adding friends is unnecessary.
What Ruan Cunyun didn't expect was that Teacher Dan initially accepted his friend request just to reject him.
He knew that Ruan Cunyun must have encountered something and was keeping it to himself and feeling sad.
It had been a long time since I had such a lot of exercise. After dancing all night, Ruan Cunyun felt that his legs were almost useless, and he went home and lay down on the bed and wanted to sleep.
Ruan Cunyun thought for a moment and said, "On weekdays I can only go at night, but on weekends I can go all day."
After various discussions, Ruan Cunyun, Bai Qiangwei and a dancing Rainbow Bear will dance together.
Ruan Cunyun nodded: "Okay."
Ruan Cunyun knew rationally that Teacher Dan did nothing wrong. Because it was her own account, she could freely choose who to reject and block, and she rejected them politely.
In fact, even if he was told, there was no solution to this matter, because it was purely because Ruan Cunyun himself couldn't get over it.
White Rose agreed: "I can start practicing next week. What about Tiger Tooth, are you busy with work?"
Not long after the happy days, Ruan Cunyun and Bai Qiangwei both received polite meeting invitations from the organizers of the comic exhibition.
"What a weird metaphor!" Ruan Cunyun laughed loudly.
The dark clouds in his heart dissipated, and Ruan Cunyun had an epiphany at that moment.
When getting off work on Wednesday, Ruan Cunyun saw Qin Fanglu was talking to Kiki and it was not convenient for him to go over and talk to him, so he ran away with his bag and sent him a message saying that he had something to do and left first.
When he was about to fall asleep, he received a message from Qin Fanglu asking him if he had time on Saturday morning. There was a very valuable art exhibition going on recently and whether he wanted to go and see it together.
Now Ruan Cunyun can no longer send any messages to Teacher Dan, nor can he send friend invitations.
Ruan Cunyun could only reply: [Sorry, I have something to do on Saturday morning.]
Qin Fanglu said: [It doesn't matter, we'll go when you're free.]
Ruan Cunyun has not told Qin Fanglu about his dance practice schedule yet. One reason is that he has been too busy these two days and has not had time to tell him, but the more important reason is that he doesn't know how to say it.
Just tell him he wants to go dancing? If Qin Fanglu is interested, he will ask him what kind of dance he is dancing.
Should Ruan Cunyun tell the truth and answer him that the dance they were performing was a type of dance that 2D fans liked, and that he had to dress up as a girl and dance with two other girls
Even Mr. Dan, who is also a fan of the two-dimensional world, directly rejected his friend request. How should he confess to Qin Fanglu
But Ruan Cunyun didn't want to hide it, nor did he want to tell lies.
Having been with Qin Fanglu for such a long time, he knew that Qin Fanglu was always willing to tolerate him, so he still had some trust in him.
After thinking for a long time, Ruan Cunyun decided to just say to Qin Fanglu: [I have things to do every Wednesday night and Saturday morning, so I may not be able to accompany you during these two periods of time.]
Qin Fanglu immediately replied with a "OK" without asking any further questions.
For the rest of the days, the two of them continued to live their lives as usual, eating together and going home after get off work, and occasionally going out for a walk on weekends.
Ruan Cunyun's life is fulfilling, and he even goes online less frequently, as if he is oblivious to what is happening outside.
When Ruan Cunyun was shopping in the supermarket with Qin Fanglu after get off work, he was stunned when he saw a huge pink chocolate discount counter as soon as he entered the door.
He suddenly woke up from his dream, ah, Valentine's Day is coming.
Qin Fanglu lowered his head slightly and said, "That day is Saturday, how do you want to spend it?"
"I, I don't have much experience." said Ruan Cunyun.
Qin Fanglu glanced at him calmly: "I am very experienced?"
Ruan Cunyun turned his eyes away: "Anyway, I have time that day... after noon."
Qin Fanglu asked: "Follow my arrangement?"
Ruan Cunyun was inexplicably a little nervous: "It's up to you."
"Are the things you are going to do on Wednesday and Saturday going smoothly?" Qin Fanglu asked.
Ruan Cunyun said: "It's pretty good."
Qin Fanglu put the ingredients into the bag with a calm expression, but Ruan Cunyun became more and more unsure the more he watched. Unusually, he made a slightly intimate move in public, grabbed Qin Fanglu's arm, and looked at him sincerely: "I didn't mean to hide what I did those two days from you. I just wanted to tell you slowly..."
"I know, I know." Qin Fanglu's voice was soft, and he seemed to sigh helplessly. His palm slid down Ruan Cunyun's arm, touched his palm, and interlocked his fingers with his.
"Being in a relationship doesn't mean two people will tie their lives together. Everyone has their own private space, which is normal."
How could Qin Fanglu not have noticed that Ruan Cunyun had something he didn't want to tell him
The mysterious activities in the past two days are the most direct signal. Ruan Cunyun’s inexplicable depression before was probably related to this matter.
In fact, if we count further back, when he went out to live with Ruan Cunyun’s friends, Qin Fanglu could easily see the clues.
The three people who were laughing around said that they were speculating in stocks, and they occasionally showed their true personalities, and Ruan Cunyun had an unusually happy evening.
Qin Fanglu didn't like to ask too many questions, nor did he want the two of them to be together all the time.
He hopes that love will only make both of them better, rather than force them to become more transparent.
As Valentine's Day approaches, Ruan Cunyun's heart becomes increasingly anxious.
From middle school to college, Ruan Cunyun was a bystander every Valentine's Day.
He had seen his desk mate secretly slip chocolates into the girls' desks, seen the class monitor and the league secretary eating shaved ice close to each other in an off-campus milk tea shop, and knew that his college roommate would buy a big bouquet of roses and then spend the night outside with his girlfriend.
Ruan Cunyun's way of spending his time is simple: playing games or watching anime with Xu Feifei.
This will be the first Valentine's Day in Ruan Cunyun's life that he will participate in alone.
After thinking it over, Ruan Cunyun went to the group and asked: [@蔷薇少夫人, @齐昌, what do you usually do on Valentine's Day? ]
Madam Rose: [Make love. ]
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Fei Changshuai: [???]
Madam Rose: [What a pity! We still have to practice dancing on Valentine's Day, so we can't do it from morning till night! ]
Cun: [Is this something I can say?]
Fei Changshuai: [You really don’t treat us as outsiders. (Well, we are indeed not outsiders)]
Qi Chang: [It can be postponed to the next morning. ]
Ruan Cunyun's fingertips were shaking a little. Is this really the case? Should we really do things that lovers do on Valentine's Day
He has been very busy recently and he and Qin Fanglu haven't been alone for a long time. The last time they slept together was in the villa during the Chinese New Year.
He closed his eyes and could easily recall how he fell into Qin Fanglu's clutches in the misty bathroom and how he had soiled the clear bathtub water.
At that time, Qin Fanglu was dressed neatly, while he was naked. The huge difference made him tremble all over.
I have to say... I thought about it a little bit.
Ruan Cunyun hugged the quilt tightly, silently calculating the "ten kisses" Qin Fanglu mentioned, and drawing a progress bar in his mind.
Clavicle, navel, chest...
He had only kissed three places up to now, and Ruan Cunyun was a little impatient.
From the spine down to the end of the coccyx, from the depths of the heart, a sense of emptiness gradually arose, shivering and longing for something.
Ruan Cunyun was lying on the bed, thinking desperately that he might as well just invite Qin Fanglu to his house and fulfill something he had fantasized about on this bed a long time ago.
On Valentine's Day, Ruan Cunyun danced very hard and hummed along while dancing.
Bai Qiangwei glanced at him with a smile: "Excited?"
Rainbow Bear smiled with eight white teeth: "Ya Mei is too excited today. She is going on a date later, right?" Ruan Cunyun was caught and immediately stopped singing and shouted: "No!"
Because the three of them had their own plans, they deliberately finished early. As a result, there was a problem with the electronic lock of the dance studio, and they were locked in together.
Ruan Cunyun looked eagerly through the glass door, checking the time frequently: "It's so slow, can you let me out quickly?"
Bai Qiangwei clicked her tongue twice: "What are your plans with President Qin today?"
Ruan Cunyun stopped being restless and pursed his lips and said, "He, he decided it. I'm not sure."
"Damn it." Bai Qiangwei was very disappointed. "You're just going to send yourself out like this? Have you read the popular science tutorial I gave you before?"
Ruan Cunyun fluttered his eyelashes: "I saw..."
Bai Qiangwei said “hmm” and warned: “If he gets angry, just use force and kick him off the bed!”
Ruan Cunyun didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "He won't."
"Men's words are lies." Bai Qiangwei said earnestly, "What rationality will they have left at that time? They will be like hungry wolves."
Ruan Cunyun was secretly frightened. Is he so fierce
The electronic lock was finally repaired, and Ruan Cunyun rushed out like an arrow and ran straight to the flower shop that had been booked before. When he turned around and came out, he had nine red roses in his hand.
The flower shop is located in a small street in the city's cultural district. The whole street is filled with flower sellers. The rich fragrance lingers around your nose. People are shoulder to shoulder, and everyone coming and going is lovers holding roses.
The meeting place agreed with Qin Fanglu was at the fountain at the end of Flower Street. Ruan Cunyun walked forward towards the sunshine, feeling very proud and happy, thinking that he was a lucky man who was about to marry a bride.
Ruan Cunyun suddenly stopped and remembered something important.
He ran to a shop window and checked his hairstyle and clothes against the dark glass. He tucked his slightly long bangs behind his ears and straightened his collar. His face was clean and refreshed, without a trace of sweat from dancing. The rose in his hand was at the most beautiful angle, and he finally smiled with satisfaction.
Just as I was about to leave with satisfaction, the glass door was suddenly pushed open, and a pair of slender legs stepped out, followed by a familiar face with his eyebrows raised heroically.
Qin Fanglu also held a bouquet of roses in his hand and asked with a smile: "Sir, you are blocking the door of the flower shop, do you need any help?"
Ruan Cunyun's face instantly turned red to his ears. Damn, it turned out that he had just been posing in front of the glass for a long time, and this bastard saw it all!
The two held hands tightly, without any scruples, and were inconspicuous in the street full of couples.
As cheesy as it may be, they are just one of thousands of couples in the world today and every day.
I don’t know where the two of them got the tacit understanding from, but each of them bought nine roses and wrapped them in different colored paper.
They exchanged gifts with great ceremony, but it seemed no different from before.
Other couples each held a bunch of flowers, but they held two bunches of flowers symmetrically, like a team of flower vendors selling flowers.
"We are so funny." Ruan Cunyun was overjoyed.
Qin Fanglu was very happy: "It shows that we have a tacit understanding."
Ruan Cunyun thought it was not a good idea for both of them to hold flowers, so he simply suggested: "I saw a news report before that someone put free roses on the street for passers-by to take. Why don't we also scatter the flowers?"
Qin Fanglu agreed readily and thought it was a good idea.
The two bought transparent tape and exquisite cards, and pasted 18 roses on the walls of the streets and alleys, with a card attached that read: [Free roses: for you, or someone you love.]
Just as Ruan Cunyun finished pasting the cards and was leaving, he saw an old couple supporting each other passing by. They stopped tremblingly in front of the roses and looked at the words on the cards through their reading glasses.
The two white-haired old men looked at each other for a long time, then looked left and right, seemingly hesitating.
Finally, the old lady raised her hand, tore off the tape bit by bit, carefully took out the blooming rose, and put it in the old man's hand.
The tall and thin old man suddenly smiled, his face full of deep laugh lines.
The dry hand held the fresh red rose and handed it back to the old lady.
The two old men seemed to be laughing and whispering for a while before they walked away.
After watching from the corner, Ruan Cunyun sniffed, closed his eyes for a while, and then dared to look at Qin Fanglu, and saw that his eyes were also a little red.
His hand was gently held, and Qin Fanglu pulled him: "Let's go."
My hands are empty again, but my palms now contain the warmth of another person.
Ruan Cunyun had no interest in Valentine's Day before, and like many others, he thought it was a vulgar holiday.
But now he thinks, what a wonderful festival it is, a day for human beings to celebrate love only.
After dinner in the evening, the two walked along the riverside, getting closer and closer to the parking lot. Ruan Cunyun thought that this was the end of Valentine's Day and was a little reluctant to leave.
"Are we going back now?" Ruan Cunyun asked.
Qin Fanglu asked back: "Do you want to go back now?"
Ruan Cunyun glanced at his watch and whispered, "Actually, there are still two hours and five minutes left in this day..."
Qin Fanglu raised the corner of his lips: "Can we stay together tonight?"
Ruan Cunyun's throat was dry and he couldn't speak for a while.
"I still say the same thing." Qin Fanglu said, "You always have the right to refuse."
Ruan Cunyun shook his head in panic: "I don't refuse."
"Okay." Qin Fanglu raised his lips even higher.
Ruan Cunyun followed Qin Fanglu, not knowing where he was taking him, and his heart beat faster and faster.
When passing by a convenience store, Ruan Cunyun tugged at Qin Fanglu's sleeve: "I'm thirsty."
"Let's go buy some water." Qin Fanglu stepped in.
Ruan Cunyun's Adam's apple moved and he squeezed into the small convenience store.
Without even looking, Ruan Cunyun quickly picked out a bottle of water, then hesitated in front of the shelf, reluctant to pay.
Qin Fanglu naturally took the bottle of water from Ruan Cunyun's hand and was about to queue up to pay, but was pulled back by Ruan Cunyun.
"What's wrong?" Qin Fanglu asked.
Ruan Cunyun's palms were full of sweat, his voice was so low that it could not be heard, and his eyes drifted to the small shelf under the cash register.
"Those...those things, did you buy them?"
Qin Fanglu followed his gaze and saw colorful small boxes and bottles on the shelves. These were today's popular products, and some of the shelves had already been sold out.
When he looked back, Qin Fanglu's eyes immediately changed.
In fact, Qin Fanglu had thought about this idea, but he really didn't expect it to progress so quickly.
Because Ruan Cunyun's reactions were always very strong and he didn't seem to be prepared, and Qin Fanglu himself had no experience and was afraid of messing up, so he didn't dare to take a single step forward.
He didn't expect Ruan Cunyun to take the initiative to bring it up.
Qin Fanglu asked in a low voice: "Are you going to use it?"
Ruan Cunyun was stunned by this question. Was it him who planned this
I could only stammer: "It's not impossible..."
"Yeah?"
There was surprise and joy in Qin Fanglu's voice, and if you listened carefully, you could also hear nervousness.
Qin Fanglu coughed and looked around the shelves, hesitating.
He read a lot of information, but none of it taught him how to calmly buy a condom at a convenience store.
There were people coming and going in the convenience store. Many couples picked up a box and paid and left without any hesitation, as natural as eating.
The two quails standing near the cashier counter didn't know that their huddled figures, hesitant hands, and thieving glances at the counter seemed to be announcing to the world - the two of us are virgins who are going to have sex for the first time on Valentine's Day!
In the end, it was Qin Fanglu, the user, who took on the obligation to buy. He closed his eyes, grabbed two boxes and a bottle, and put them on the cashier with a fearless attitude. However, the cashier didn't even look at them, but only asked indifferently: "WeChat or Alipay?"
After buying the things, I felt that the revolution was half won.
Ruan Cunyun followed Qin Fanglu with a relaxed mood and headed towards a known night together.
He thought it would be a hotel or something like that, but he didn't expect them to stop at the pier by the river.
A medium-sized cruise ship was docked on the shore, bobbing up and down in the sparkling waves.
Qin Fanglu pulled the stunned Ruan Cunyun onto the ship and walked into the fully equipped cabin.
The candlelight flickered in the bedroom, the glass lights danced, outside the window was a vast river view, and the lights of the tall buildings gradually faded away in the bumps.
The sound of the river waves filled my ears, the boat swayed up and down, and there was a skylight on the roof of the bedroom cabin, so I could see the bright moon when I looked up.
Ruan Cunyun looked around the cabin excitedly.
As I was looking down at the scented candles on the bedside table, my shoulder was gently grasped and then pressed against the head of the bed.
The two kissed with their noses against each other, their breathing as chaotic as the evening breeze.
Qin Fanglu put the things he bought from the convenience store on the bedside, put his hands on Ruan Cunyun's side, and asked in a low voice: "Are you okay?"
Ruan Cunyun leaned back in the moonlight and whispered, "You've only kissed three places, three out of ten. The progress is too slow."
When my legs were lifted up, my calves were shaking.
Qin Fanglu stopped immediately and asked helplessly and nervously: "It's like this now, what should we do next?"
Ruan Cunyun took a breath, his mind as transparent as moonlight, and his thoughts blurted out: "I went dancing this morning, and I practiced for too long, so this happened."
After I said it, I realized, damn, I shouldn’t have said that.
Ruan Cunyun thought Qin Fanglu would ask, "Can I go to see your performance?", or "Why can't you tell me about the dance?", or "What kind of dance do you dance?", and he was so nervous that sweat was dripping down his face.
Unexpectedly, Qin Fanglu smiled lightly and asked, "Are your legs sore?"
Ruan Cunyun felt it and blushed, "A little bit. It will hurt if you raise it higher."
Then the whole person was turned over and fell into a prone position.
Ruan Cunyun's nerves jumped and he turned back anxiously: "What..."
Qin Fanglu kissed the soft flesh on the back of his neck and said, "The fourth place."
Then he forewarned: "I will kiss you down your spine later."
Ruan Cunyun couldn't see his face, but could only hear his low voice behind his ear, and his heart trembled along with the waves.
Qin Fanglu explained the previous question with a hoarse voice: "Because this way, my legs won't be sore."
The glass lamp was extinguished, leaving only the red candle swaying in the waves at the bedside.
As the boat rocked, Ruan Cunyun's mind rang with ancient poems, which he pieced together in a messy way to form a new sentence -
Only the fresh breeze on the river, the bright moon in the mountains, and you and me here.
When the romance faded away, Qin Fanglu gently kissed Ruan Cunyun's ear.
He was very gentle from beginning to end, and extremely slow, so as not to cause Ruan Cunyun any pain.
"Are you okay?" Qin Fanglu propped himself up and took out a wet towel.
Ruan Cunyun curled up in the bed, his breathing still burning: "...Okay."
The kiss fell on his eyelashes, Ruan Cunyun closed his eyes, but what he was thinking was:
You are too gentle, can you be a little more fierce
(End of this chapter)