365 Difficult Ways To Live

Chapter 188

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Hypothesis: What would happen if all Xia Yihan's reactions were half a beat

After Xia Yihan officially joined the Superman Division, Chu Yu took her out to complete the task, but suddenly found that Xia Yihan deliberately avoided her and did not dare to look at her.

Once Chu Yu was talking to her specifically, after she answered, she tried every means to walk away, keeping a distance of three meters from her.

Chu Yu noticed that she was not looking right, and couldn't help worrying, for fear that her PTSD, which had finally improved, would come back again, and she would have a feeling of avoidance.

So Chu Yu took time out in the afternoon, specially invited Xia Yihan to a nearby convenience store, sat under the umbrella outside the store, and ordered two hot milk.

Outside the bright room, Xia Yihan's skin was creamy, and even though he had been injured before, he had recovered well. She also lowered her eyes slightly to avoid eye contact with Chu Yu. Even if she glanced at it accidentally, she would quickly move away, as if Chu Yu's eyes were hot and she couldn't touch it for a long time.

Chu Yu looked at her tenderly. It has been two and a half years for her treatment. Xia Yihan has changed, especially the digestion of trauma, but Chu Yu also knows that this is a tortuous process, and there must be repetitions in the middle.

"Xiaohan, have you felt any discomfort recently?"

Xia Yihan blinked, shook his head and said, "There's nothing uncomfortable, I'm fine."

Chu Yu thought that she had been in contact with her for almost three years, and she had full confidence in herself, but she didn't expect that there was still a hurdle in her heart that she couldn't overcome.

"Why are you avoiding me today? Are you afraid of seeing me?"

Xia Yihan spoke in a low voice: "It's not that I'm afraid, I'm a little embarrassed."

"What's wrong?" Chu Yu became curious and wondered if she had made a mistake.

"You know!" Xia Yihan's cheeks were flushed, and he pursed his lips, looking at her from time to time, then quickly moved away.

Seeing her reaction, Chu Yu quickly searched for special events in her brain, but she didn't get any results for a while.

"That night, my sister was so fresh!" Xia Yihan said, covering her face.

Chu Yu had a question mark on his face.

"It was a night at the Yinchuan Hotel a month ago!"

Chu Yu felt an instant, his brain flashed back.

Xia Yihan covered his face with his fingers, but opened them again, leaving a gap between his fingers, and peeked at Chu Yu. After meeting his eyes, his fingers were closed again, and they fit snugly.

Later, she put her hand on her cheek and fell into a fond memory: "My sister was lying on the bed, it smelled like a piece of cream cake, it felt soft to the touch, the snow-white cream block was also dotted with cherries, ah... . .”

As she was talking, she suddenly let out an intoxicated admiration, as if she couldn't help but recite a lyrical recitation after drinking fine wine.

Chu Yu's blood pressure soared, blood flow accelerated, and she felt like she couldn't sit still. She didn't know why she had invited Xia Yihan out to talk in public.

The passers-by couldn't help but look back at them, Chu Yu suggested, "How about we go back and talk?"

Xia Yihan has been trapped in fond memories and can't extricate himself: "My sister's legs are also very fresh, like white chocolate bars, they are smooth to the touch, and my hands are left with a fragrance, and I couldn't help but lick them, and I touched them all the way from my ankles. , and then I touched the most vivid things, like..."

Chu Yu tilted his body and grabbed her gesturing hand: "Okay, you said it quite vividly, I can make up my mind."

Xia Yihan suddenly clenched his hands, "And my sister's voice is also nice, like smoothing the kitten's fur, making it comfortable, and then it..."

Xia Yihan imitated the long and lazy cat meow on the spot.

Chu Yu felt that she couldn't do it anymore. She was getting old and couldn't stand the shock of being naked.

Finally, she dragged and dragged Xia Yihan back from the door of the convenience store.

After returning to the office, the officers found that Chu Yu had begun to hide from Xia Yihan, daring not to look at her, and kept a distance of three meters from her.

Wangjiang City, suburban cemetery.

Muyu, Fang Datuo, and Song Qingyang watched the coffin be buried. They collectively mourned for a long time, and finally supported each other and left the cemetery.

The new tombstone is next to the old tombstone, and the two tombstones are next to each other, making them neighbors.

A month later, the moon is bright, the surroundings are silent, the autumn is deep, and the insects in the grass are silent.

In the silence, there was a sound, and there was a knock on the door under one of the graves. After a while, the grave was opened from the inside, and a figure climbed out and climbed to the next tombstone.

The man held the tombstone and made an old voice: "Sister, why are you leaving? You haven't worn the wedding dress I picked for you..."

In the dark of night, Xia Yihan cried like an old locust flower with rain, heartbroken. Chu Yu died a month and a half ago. She didn't have any response. She should eat and drink. She died soon after, and she still had no pain before her death.

But now, she felt sad, so she climbed out of the grave and came to pay homage to Chu Yu.

While crying, Xia Yihan opened Chu Yu's grave, opened her coffin board, and lay in and slept with her.

She closed the coffin lid, hugged the corpse beside her tightly, and died again.

After passing through the gate of hell, Xia Yihan came to Huangquan Road. At the end of the road, she saw Naihe Bridge, crossed the bridge, and on Wangxiang Terrace, she took Meng Po's soup, and after drinking it, her mind went blank. The boatman was calling for her, and she sat on it.

The ghost boatman rowed the boat and floated on the river.

Xia Yihan asked, "Where are you taking me?"

The ghost boatman said: "I was supposed to take you to reincarnate, but Lord Yama said that your brain is very valuable for research, and let me take you to see him."

The journey was long, Xia Yihan stayed on the boat for a few days, and suddenly she felt a burst of sadness flowing in her chest. She stood up, she was looking for Chu Yu, she remembered.

So she asked, "Where is the place of reincarnation?"

The ghost boatman pointed behind him: "On the banks of the Wangchuan River, there is a stone called Sansheng Stone, and there is a well beside the stone, which indicates the next life."

After he answered, with a face of vicissitudes, he couldn't help sighing with emotion over the thousand years of reincarnation: "It is exactly..."

Xia Yihan grabbed the oar and slammed him into the river.

She raised her oars and rowed back desperately, finally returning to her original path, heading towards Naihe Bridge, following Wangchuan, found Sanshengshi, and saw Chu Yu who was lining up to jump into the well.

Chu Yu had dyed black hair, so she didn't look very old, but on the forehead, you could still see traces of silvery white and the wrinkles that climbed up the corners of her eyes.

There was a scramble in the team. Some ghosts wanted to jump first, but they jumped early and passed away, so there was a dispute.

In the end, the ghosts came to maintain order, and the incident was settled.

Taking advantage of the chaos, Xia Yihan grabbed Chu Yu's hand and ran. She thought that the two of them could walk like flying, but in fact they ran slower than a snail. Chu Yu was dragged by her, and the speed was faster anyway, and finally ran to more than 30 meters. A long distance, parked on the grass beside the Forgotten River.

Chu Yu finally broke free from Xia Yihan and sat on the ground panting to rest.

"Why are you pulling me out, I've been in line for a long time!"

Xia Yihan sat next to her, put his hand on her shoulder, and said affectionately, "Sister, it's me!"

Chu Yu's presbyopia, vacant eyes, saw her face clearly, suddenly frowned, and his expression became excited.

When Xia Yihan saw that she recognized her, he happily hugged her.

Chu Yu raised his hand and pushed her away: "I look older than me, but I'm too embarrassed to call my sister, pretend to be tender!"

Saying that, she stood up tremblingly and walked towards Sanshengshi.

Xia Yihan had just been pushed by her and fell, and there was a cracking sound in her bones. She supported the old waist, rushed up from the back road, and hugged Chu Yu tightly.

"Sister don't go, I'm here to pick you up!"

Chu Yu twisted and tried to free her, "You bad old woman is very bad, you just want to get in on my team!"

She was so excited that she couldn't control it, and her dentures flew out.

So Xia Yihan supported the old waist again, helped her pick up the dentures and put them back on, took her hand and said, "Sister, I really know you, I'm your wife."

Chu Yu said, "Then how can you prove it?"

Xia Yihan thought about it for a while and said, "In the past, I used to pick you up and go around in circles. You were very happy, saying that it was like sitting on a high-end carousel. Now I'm also picking you up and going around in circles, you can definitely find your way back to the past. a feeling of!"

Saying that, Xia Yihan used the strength of two giants to wrap her arms around Chu Yu's thighs and hug her over her head, but when she turned around, she lost the strength in her hands, and when her arms loosened, Chu Yu flew out.

Xia Yihan shouted and dashed over tremblingly, pinching Chu Yu's people, "Sister, elder sister, are you alright!"

Not long after, Chu Yu opened his eyes and looked into the distance: "Fortunately, I'm already a ghost, and I won't die."

Saying that, she stretched out her hand to Xia Yihan: "Wife, help me up."

Xia Yihan raised her eyebrows with joy: "You remember me?"

Chu Yu shook his head, but there was a smile on the corner of his mouth: "I still don't remember you, but I know that if it wasn't for a lover, who would lift up a bad old lady?"

Xia Yihan touched her grimacing face, her eyes full of affection: "I'll take you back, I know the way back to the world."

"Why are you going back?"

Xia Yihan took her and walked back: "Go back to get married, we are going to have a wedding, I have chosen a wedding dress for you, but you left before you tried it."

Saying that, the corner of Xia Yihan's mouth twitched down, but it turned up again soon, "But it doesn't matter, I'm here to pick you up, let's go back this time, and live a few more decades, if you're tired of living, we'll come back again. , I'm already familiar with the road anyway."

Chu Yu didn't speak, her center of gravity was not stable, but fortunately there was someone by her side who could act as her humanoid crutch. So she took her hand and walked side by side with her.

In the realm of the underworld, by the Wangchuan River, by the Sansheng Stone, and among the flowers on the other bank, an old lady led another old lady and walked slowly forward. Their footprints were close to each other, facing forward.

In the research room, Chu Yu suddenly woke up. She was recently researching the problem of Xia Yihan's "slow emotional response". As a result, she was about to deviate from the research, and some strange-shaped things appeared in her head. Enchanted.

She asked Xia Yihan specifically about her reaction to her emotions.

The final result is that she can feel anger and excitement, but other feelings and feelings, it takes a long time to gradually feel, and after she feels it, it is not like a flood, but it is leaked. The roof, the rain slowly seeped into the walls, the process was slow, and the emotions she showed afterwards were not violent reactions, but turned into memories, which were imprinted in her mind. Sometimes she could detect it, but sometimes she couldn't. , became a subconscious existence, such as her feelings for her mother and Xiaomei.

Chu Yu couldn't help but ask: "Then can you feel how you feel about me now?"

Xia Yihan replied seriously: "Maybe my feeling is very slow, but my feeling towards you is not an intermittent point, but a continuous process, because you make me like every moment, what I feel towards you now is Like, comes from the feeling one month ago, and the me one month later will also like you because of my current feeling, my love for you is endless, so no matter what moment of time, I like you ."

After she finished speaking, Chu Yu was silent for a moment, and suddenly he was surprised, kissed her, and smiled mysteriously: "One month later, secretly tell me how you feel."

The author has something to say: The fan show is over here. I know that some friends will come to squat every night for updates. Don't squat in the future, all the concentrated fan shows are finished.

This article is the longest one I have written. I first estimated it to be written for two or three months, but it ended up being eight months. Looking back now, I feel that I am a little… tolerant, hahaha.

In the long process of coding, one thing I was particularly impressed with was that last semester I was in school. After I finished my professional course every day, I went to the library to study psychology or do my homework. After I finished writing, I started coding. When I looked around, most of them were students who took the postgraduate entrance examination. They were studying hard with a lot of politics or English.

I'm a little embarrassed. I feel that when people run the library, they fill their minds with knowledge. When I go to the library, I imagine a beautiful love story.

And the most amazing thing is that I left later than them, and every time the curator urged me, I came out. Sometimes the building is completely dark, and I just crouch under that staircase, holding my phone to code.

Then I noticed that some people passing by me were a little weird, and they quickened their pace and wanted to get away from me quickly.

I thought it was a supernatural event at first, but I realized it later, because there was a bit of darkness around me, I was squatting there alone, and the light of the phone hit my face, it was pale and scary.

So after I code words, I change direction and try to face them as far as possible.

Although these eight months are indeed a bit tiring, I am really grateful to those who "stayed on the front line", sent me messages and sent flowers, and the friends who followed silently all the way. I remember that I was a little restrained at the beginning. , and then under your constant encouragement (molestation), I became skinny!

This book is here. If you want me, you can go to the book of "The Thousand and One Faces" next door, see if it suits your taste, maybe we will meet again~

Goodbye friends, be happy~

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