365 Difficult Ways To Live

Chapter 62

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In the dark night, the door was gently opened, and the door shaft made a slight opening and closing sound, which was particularly abrupt in the silence.

Light enters from outside, projecting the silhouette of the human figure on the floor, elongated and deformed, like a ghost sneaking into the boudoir.

Chu Yu stood at the crack of the door, her eyes fell on the bed, she was still sleeping on her side, with her back to the door, motionless.

"A-Xia, are you asleep?"

The voice was extremely low, like a fluttering paper plane, hovering in and landing on Xia Yihan's pillow, but it failed to attract her attention.

There is no response, and the question is engulfed in darkness.

Chu Yu walked in. She stepped on the carpet without shoes, making almost no sound. When she got to the bed, she lifted a corner of the quilt and fell asleep.

The bed was a double bed, more than enough for two people, Xia Yihan slept in the middle, after Chu Yu went up, his head rested on the outside of the pillow, and Xia Yihan's head was less than three centimeters apart, almost sticking together.

When she lay down, the mattress vibrated, and Xia Yihan's body went up and down with it, but she didn't respond, she still lay on her side, silent.

Chu Yu pulled the quilt up and covered the two of them. Although the air conditioner was turned on in the room, if he suddenly lifted the quilt, he would definitely feel cold.

A certain amount of body temperature had accumulated in the duvet. After Chu Yu went in, he felt that he had entered the bathroom warmed by his roommate and felt warm.

The room was unusually quiet, Chu Yu took a light breath, but it was still clearly audible. The gas might spray on Xia Yihan's neck, making her itchy.

However, it seemed that Xia Yihan had a super anti-itch ability, and after "scratching" Chu Yu's breath for a few minutes, there was still no response.

Chu Yu stretched out his hand and placed it on her shoulder. She took off her pajamas and wore a thin autumn clothes. Chu Yu put it on, and she could feel the outline of her shoulder bones through the fabric.

"A-Xia, I'm giving you this gift today, not to remind you of the sad past, but to tell you that I want to get to know you."

Chu Yu leaned inward, "I know your birthday, your childhood friends, your little habit of memorizing card paper, everything about you, I'm fascinated, I want to know, I desperately search for it, also found your past."

Because the distance was too close, Chu Yu could smell the aroma of Xia Yihan's body. It was the smell of shampoo mixed with the body's milky fragrance.

"After knowing your past, I want to accompany you and hug you more and more. I know that I care about you very much. Your past, present, and your future, no matter what is related to you, will let me do my best. Go, I now know very clearly that my mission is not to catch you, but to accompany you. I brought you here, not to imprison you, but to prove to you that as long as you want, I will always be here ."

Her voice was neither high nor low, neither rushed nor slow, but every word was clearly audible and contained the weight of careful consideration.

The voice fell, and fell into silence again, Xia Yihan did not respond, and did not even move his body.

Chu Yu's hand slid down from her shoulders and wrapped her arms around her waist. She leaned her head down and leaned against the gap between her shoulders and neck. For a while, the two were close to each other, and she could even feel the heat radiating between them. flow between.

Chu Yu felt Xia Yihan's heartbeat, like a little rabbit in a cage. Although it didn't jump high, it still jumped vigorously. Every time it jumped, it was just right, and it didn't hit the cage board.

After an unknown amount of time, Chu Yu held her quietly, not expecting her to respond. She was very patient and willing to wait until she opened up.

"She's so small and she looks so soft."

Suddenly hearing the voice, Chu Yu suddenly opened his eyes, but his movements remained the same, still closely intertwined.

"Well, I've seen pictures of her, lots of pictures."

"When we first met, I was sitting on a stone chair in the corridor, looking down at the bougainvillea falling on the ground. Few people go there, but when she came, she asked me what my name was, and I ignored her. After that, she and I often met in the corridor, just me and her. After school, I liked to sit on the stone chair, and she liked to walk around.

Every time she saw me, she would ask me what my name was, but I ignored her. She asked this question for more than a month. Finally, on a rainy day, she was walking in the corridor. I held an umbrella and sat on the pad with my textbook. on the stone chair. Her hair was wet with rain, she was walking with water under her feet, she came over and asked: What's your name

I said: My name is Mu Han.

She said: Her name is Xia Yihan, I will call you Xiaohan in the future.

I said: call me Xiaohan, then what is your name

She looked at the bougainvillea falling at her feet, and said: Call me Xiaomei, just take it as a stage name. "

Chu Yu listened attentively, excited and moved. Telling about the past was the first step in opening his heart. Different from flirting and flirting in the past, this was a kind of trust that flowed like water.

At the same time, she quickly captures key information:

The promenade is relatively remote, and those who like to go alone should not be gregarious people. Even if Xia Yihan goes, Xiaomei often goes there, which shows that she is also very worried.

However, she really has perseverance. When most people ask someone's name, if they don't answer, they may just say goodbye and ignore it. She has persisted in asking for more than a month, which is really commendable for her perseverance!

In such a comparison, Xia Yihan's reaction was also slow. People asked her name, and she answered dozens of times. She directly rejected the girl dozens of times. She was a ruthless person!

And Xia Yihan used the locust flower as her symbol, and now the phantom of the locust flower has also become her "stage name", shouldn't she learn this from Xiaomei

In order to encourage her to go on, Chu Yu asked, "So you keep calling her Xiaomei?"

"Um."

Raising his head and laying back on the pillow, Chu Yu took a long breath, "Xiaomei, isn't she very lively? I heard from teachers and classmates that she loves to laugh and is always warm and friendly. It's pleasant to get along with her."

Xia Yihan fell silent, Chu Yu's heartbeat began to speed up, but she didn't ask again, she didn't want Xia Yihan to feel any sense of coercion, if possible, just say a little bit every day. They can talk about a few words unintentionally in their gossip, and Chu Yu will write them down without leaving a trace. She will guide and persuade them, but she will not ask questions.

Moving his legs, Chu Yu changed into a comfortable position, ready to sleep with Xia Yihan.

Suddenly, the other party's voice sounded again, "Yes, this is her, lively and cheerful, friendly to everyone, always smiling."

Chu Yu opened his eyes, his eyes fell on the back of the head of the person beside the pillow, "What do you think?"

There was another moment of silence. This time, Chu Yu waited patiently. She knew that Xia Yihan would tell the whole story and would not whet her appetite.

"She's vulnerable, she's vulnerable, and she's nice to everyone because anyone can hurt her."

On this point, when Chu Yu looked at Xiaomei's previous information, she had conjectures. She suspected that Xiaomei was an extroverted autistic patient, and she had the characteristics of a pleasing personality, very good at sociability, good popularity, always happy and optimistic in front of people. , cheerful, enthusiastic, confident, aggressive, will agree to any request of others.

However, she is sentimental in her heart, but she doesn't like to show it. She can comfort anyone and bring warmth to others, but no one comforts her. Besides, in the eyes of others, she is strong enough and needs no help for anything.

This type of person will hurt more than the original introvert, because in addition to enduring loneliness, she also needs to disguise and hide her vulnerable side. This alone is enough to make people feel better exhausted.

But later, Xia Yihan appeared in Xiaomei's life, and the two children, one was too sensitive, the other was too slow. With such a far-flung personality, they did not expect to become close friends.

Knowing something in his heart, Chu Yu still guided Xia Yihan to continue: "Xiaomei is so friendly, others will be friendly to her, will anyone hurt her?"

Xia Yihan's voice was astringent, as if the vocal cords were soaked in the water of mugwort leaves, and became low: "Ignoring is also a kind of harm."

"Don't Xiaomei's parents, teachers and classmates care about her?"

"They were kind to her, but it was a ritual kind, like dads should cook for their children, teachers should remind students to turn in their homework on time, that's all. But apart from these kindnesses, there's nothing else, more She has three children in her family. She has a younger brother and a younger sister. Most of the love of her parents is on her younger siblings. For her, there is more expectation. She is expected to be the first in her age and set an example for her younger siblings. , The teacher saw that her students did a good job, and also hoped that she could go up in studies and be excellent in both character and study.

She studied very seriously and seriously, but she was always at an average level. Every time her grades fell, she went to comfort her classmates who had poor exams, but she was very sad because she had tried her best, but her grades still stagnated. "

Chu Yu's breathing became heavier. Fang Datuo's feedback was that when they asked Xiaomei's parents, they all praised her daughter for being sensible and filial, taking care of her younger siblings, always finishing her homework on time, taking the initiative to do housework, and helping to take care of her younger siblings.

They must have thought that this sensible daughter can manage herself in an orderly manner without them needing to pay too much attention, so they feel at ease and boldly share all their love with the younger daughter and the younger son, but they did not expect that what the older daughter lacks is precisely what they think is acceptable. Dispensable attention.

"Luckily, you became friends with her."

Xia Yihan sighed, with an unfathomable melancholy, "Every time I sit with her in the corridor, she always says, I listen, even when she's crying, I won't comfort her, just Watch her cry, then say goodbye to her with a blank face."

Chu Yu was at a loss for words. If there was an award for the most unqualified friend in the world, Xia Yihan would be the second, and no one would dare to touch the first. What's the difference between talking to her and holding a doll, the doll is softer than her and can be pinched.

But maybe what Xiaomei needs is this kind of silent company, she can calm down and listen to her, she has been trying to please others, only Xia Yihan does not need her to please, because she is too cold and ruthless, it is useless to please, but It can act as a qualified tree hole to accommodate her thoughts.

"But all she needs is your company, to be able to listen to her voice and accept her unknown side."

Xia Yihan moved his body and put his hand on Chu Yu's, overlapping hers.

"No, she needs someone to communicate with her and be able to help her solve things, so she went to her head teacher."

Chu Yu's heart skipped a beat, and the class teacher Wang Tong finally appeared.