365 Difficult Ways To Live

Chapter 69

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Chu Yu wanted to hug Xia Yihan and hug her, but she controlled it, just like gossip, and asked, "Why didn't mom find you? Does she not want to play games?"

Xia Yihan rubbed his fingers on the chopsticks, looking a little uneasy: "Maybe she doesn't like me anymore."

Chu has seen more and more, the relationship between lovers has faded, and they have lost interest in each other, but I have never heard that the mother has lost interest in children. Beforehand, she learned from Xia Yihan's uncle Wang Zitao that Huang Nan was originally cheerful and sunny, but after marrying Mu Shangqing, he became gloomy and haggard, like a lotus flower. All that was left was a bare lotus pod, dying.

Chu Yu judged according to the symptoms, such as depression, if coupled with positive symptoms such as delusions and hallucinations, it may be schizophrenia.

Combined with Xia Yihan's current mental condition, Chu Yu suspects that there is a genetic factor in it, because Huang Nan suffers from mental illness, and Xia Yihan has a susceptibility gene.

She investigated the families of Mu Shangqing and Huang Nan and found that neither of them had suffered from mental illness. If Xia Yihan's condition was affected by genetic factors, it should be one of Mu Shangqing and Huang Nan.

Mu Shangqing can work in the "Superman Office", and he still sticks to his post for four years, which shows that he has passed the psychological and mental examination, and not only has to pass the test, but also has to be excellent, otherwise he will not be able to handle the heavy work of the Superman Office, and sooner or later will be punished by the daily routine. The "supernormal people" contacted are biased.

From this point of view, the root cause of the problem should be with Huang Nan, but Chu Yu did not dare to judge on this. After all, before marrying Mu Shangqing, Huang Nan's mental state was still good and his personality foundation was good.

"Why do you think your mother doesn't like you anymore?"

Xia Yihan continued to rub the chopsticks, if she were stronger, the weak wooden stick would have folded her waist on the spot.

"Because she doesn't talk to me anymore, doesn't hug me, and doesn't come to me anymore."

Looking at her drooping eyelashes, Chu Yu said softly, "Are you sad?"

Xia Yihan nodded.

"Did you tell mom that you're sad?"

"No, but I will still hide and let her come to me. I huddled in the corner of the sofa and waited for a long time, but she didn't come to me. In fact, I hid very clearly. As long as she stood up and walked to the balcony, I can be seen, but she never came."

Chu Yu's complexion changed for a moment, she now understands that Xia Yihan hid in order to attract the attention of her mother. She was not like ordinary children, who would cry and play with her mother. A covert way to get the mother's attention.

If her mother comes to her and finds her, she can feel safe and worthwhile because she is valued and loved by her mother.

But later, Huang Nan acted indifferent to her hiding game. Maybe it was because she was accustomed to this form and knew that the child would not be lost, so she was too lazy to look for it. It was also possible that she gradually fell into a state of emotional indifference and reduced her response to external stimuli. small until there is no response.

For Xia Yihan, this was rejection again and again, resulting in emotional deprivation. It was as if she rushed to hug Huang Nan again and again, but was pushed away again and again. If things went on like this, she would stop hugging, and could not feel the warmth of hugs. .

If people lose their sense of security in attachment, their emotional abilities will be impaired, they will show depression, indifference or autism, and they will not experience pleasant emotions such as curiosity, joy, happiness, and love, and they will not experience unpleasant emotions. Such as anger, fear, suspicion.

Chu Yu has been trying to find the cause of Xia Yihan's illness. Now it seems that the source is Huang Nan, but what happened to her, she became ignorant of her own children

"Did your mother tell you anything strange?"

Chu Yu wanted to confirm whether Huang Nan had any language or behavior disorder while being emotionally apathetic.

Xia Yihan fell silent. She didn't look directly at Chu Yu, she lowered her eyes, like a stage covered by a curtain, and the actors stood behind to perform.

She shook her head, put the chopsticks next to the bowl, put her hands on her knees, and didn't move.

Chu Yu picked up her bowl, put another taro bag for her, and changed the subject: "What about Dad, did you find Dad to play with?"

Xia Yihan raised his head, his eyes were blank for a moment, as if he had just woken up and forgot where he was.

"Dad... is too busy to be at home."

"When Dad is at home, will he play games with you?"

Xia Yihan was stunned for a while. Her nerves seemed to be anesthetized and became dull. It would take a long time for words to enter the ears before they could reach the auditory center of the brain and be parsed.

Because of her thinness, her jawbone on the side has a clear line, her ears are down, extending to the tip of her chin, and there is no excess fat. Let her eat a grain of rice.

"Won't."

Chu Yu: "Why?"

Xia Yihan replied calmly: "Because I don't play with him."

Chu Yu: "..."

This is the legendary treatment of discrimination, only play with mother, when father comes, he stretches out his hand, ugly rejection

"Haha, do you think Dad is not playing well?"

Xia Yihan opened his mouth, like opening a door, and bit down half of the meat bun in one bite, "I'm with my dad... not playing games, we'll do something else."

"What?"

"Walk, read the newspaper, grow flowers."

Chu Yu: Is this how old fathers and daughters get along

"Are you going to chat together?"

Xia Yihan shook his head, "I don't want to talk to him, he's too old to have anything in common with him."

Chu Yu: "..." If you guys are about the same age, that's terrifying!

Although she was puzzled, Chu Yu didn't rush to ask questions. According to Xia Yihan's description, her emotional response was sluggish, most likely since she was a child, and she was not as lively as an ordinary child when she treated her parents.

Maybe other children, their parents laugh once when they are teased, cry when they are scared, hold the newly bought toy of their parents, and laugh so much that their saliva drools.

But when he got to Mu Shangqing, he took the toy in his hand and announced happily: Cub, this is a birthday present from Dad, do you like it!

Xia Yihan: Oh, put it here.

This is undoubtedly a big blow to Mu Shangqing. His wife doesn't talk to him, his daughter doesn't want to talk to him, and when he works, everyone he encounters doesn't speak human words. How has his life come about for more than ten years

Chu Yu had learned about Mu Shangqing's character from Chu movingren. He is gentle, enthusiastic, and can be called a walking warm baby. He exudes temperature, which is warm in winter and cool in summer. In addition, God has rewarded him with a unique face, fair skin, picturesque eyebrows, personality and appearance. When she is charming, it can be said to be loved by everyone, and it is quite popular with Chu moving. When Chu moving is talking about being emotional, he can't help but add: If your uncle Mu is a woman, I can't help marrying him!

Chu Yu: You have the ability to say these words, speak to my mother!

Thanks to Chu moving people's high evaluation, Chu Yu has a good impression of Mu Shangqing, not to mention whether he is a good father, a good husband, or at least a good employee, "died" on the job, it can be considered a dedication.

It stands to reason that such a warm baby should be loved by his wife and daughter, but Huang Nan's maiden family was very dissatisfied with Mu Shangqing, including his disappearance later, they didn't make any movement, but hoped that he would disappear and be out of sight. Don't worry.

"Ahan, do you like dad?"

Xia Yihan's mouth bulged, chewing the buns, she looked at Chu Yu, and finally made eye contact: "Yes, who wouldn't like Dad?"

Chu Yu smiled, Xia Yihan was able to say such a thing, it was an official seal for Mu Shangqing, affirming his honorary title of "good father".

She still remembered what Gong Yanhua told her to give to Xia Yihan in Pei County Hospital: Tell her, she has a good father.

Mu Shangqing is so good, is it so good that even the victim recognizes it

After eating the second bun, Xia Yihan opened his mouth and said, "Sister, do you like your father?"

When mentioning Chu moving, Chu Yu's eyes became more and more gentle, the smile just now was filled with relief, and now it adds a bit of warmth, like remembering the favorite roasted sweet potatoes when he was a child, and it is hard to hide the familiarity.

"Like, like you said, who doesn't like Dad!"

For her, Chu movingren is a good father, although he is often so busy that no one can see him, because of the high risk of his career, when he is working overtime, Chu movingren will hold Chu Yu's hand and say affectionately: Xiaoyu, this year I may not be able to get married during the New Year, so you can treat me as a retreat and upgrade, don't miss me too much!

Chu Yu really didn't miss him too much, because she was also busy. Compared with her father, she was even worse—she was a woman who wanted to study multiple subjects at the same time, and she had already made a private lifelong relationship with her studies. Dad is inseparable

Two busy people, they part ways when they are busy, and get together in a nest when they are free. It can be considered that the rhythm is in harmony, and the family and business are not wrong.

Seeing Chu Yu's reaction in his eyes, Xia Yihan nodded, stepped on the crossbar of the chair, and turned to her: "If Dad is a bad person, will my sister still like Dad?"

It was obvious that she was asking the question just now, but now that the other party is attacking, Chu Yu was a little caught off guard, and the smile on her lips remained undiminished, trying to analyze the deep meaning of the words just now.

"Do you think my dad looks like a bad guy?"

Xia Yihan's face was calm, like the surface of a windless lake, the surface was smooth without waves, but the lake was so deep that it was impossible to see the movement at the bottom of the lake.

"I don't know, I haven't been in contact with him."

Chu Yu thought she had finished answering, and just as she was about to answer, she suddenly laughed again, looking a little shy: "I look like a bad person, but my sister still really likes me."

Chu Yu took her hand, put it in his palm, and brought a hamburger, "Do you feel like a bad person?"

Chu Yu was excited for a while, this girl, has her conscience finally found out

Xia Yihan giggled and contributed the fragrance of bean paste and taro to the entire dining room.

"I don't know, I haven't been in close contact with myself."