Zhao Lanyin didn't understand how he did this, "Lan Ruo will not agree to your proposal. She can recognize your face at a glance. Do you think she will marry you?"
As soon as she finished speaking, she understood the secret.
He was shocked and said, "You lied to her!"
The reason why she never got married at the age of marriage was because she was an official, but because of what happened back then, her reputation was ruined. For a woman who lost her virginity, no matter how much money her family had, she would still be rejected by a well-established family. However, she refused to marry, so she stayed at home for these years.
If she is willing to take the Women's Prison Examination together with her and enter the Inner Academy, that is possible. The Zhao family has wide connections in Liangzhu, so it would be easy to get a place for her to enter the Women's Prison, but she is unwilling to study and is afraid of studying. Supervisor, the rules of the inner academy were strict, but she said she was still at home.
Zhao Lanyin thought that he might not have appeared in front of her at all, but someone came to propose marriage, and he had some influence in Li'er, so her father was tempted to let her get married.
I guess I didn't know Sun Qingchen was back when I came home.
He smiled and took half a step forward, deliberately leaning into her ear and saying, "Don't you think it's too late to think about repairing books for the Zhao family now?"
"You know, I can't." She took a step back.
"What can't you do? It shouldn't be difficult for you to kill me again so that the road to your Zhao family can be clear."
"I never wanted to kill you." She finally said what she had wanted to say for so many years.
No matter how tragic the outcome was, she never thought about wanting him to die. She had hoped that he would come back alive to see his mother. That woman who could never see the world again would be very happy to hear his voice. But these years, her mother has been waiting for him. Over the years, there has been no news from him.
She thought he was dead, so she never looked for him again, and she didn't dare let his mother know about his skeleton body.
How could such a thin woman withstand the final blow? She swore never to tell her the truth, and she had done it all these years.
Seeing that he was still alive, Zhao Lanyin regretted even more. Maybe she should go find him. At that time, she should firmly believe that he was still alive. If she found him, maybe he wouldn't be unable to see his mother for the last time.
Behind her is the Zhao family. She has countless sins she has committed over the years, but because she chose to stand in front of the Zhao family, she has also committed many sins.
He said, "You guys surnamed Zhao may sound nice, but if anyone really believes it, you are really stupid. I was just too stupid to reach the point where I was at the end of my rope ten years ago."
"Atonement is long overdue," she murmured.
"You are right, but the Zhao family is not worthy of putting down the butcher's knife and becoming a Buddha immediately, and neither are you. You can tell them that I am back and let them raise the butcher's knife to point it at me again, so that I can take revenge openly and honestly. .”
Zhao Lanyin raised his head and said word by word, "I hope you will realize your long-cherished wish soon."
"You want to stop me?"
"I won't stop you, but I won't help you either. Ten years ago, I chose to stand with the Zhao family. Ten years later, I will not make the same choice again."
"You want to escape from the Zhao clan and ask me to spare you. It's ridiculous."
"I never thought about it that way. The promise I made to you back then will never change for the rest of my life. If you want my life, you can come and take it at any time."
She said this, and suddenly all those burdens disappeared. She had been overwhelmed by guilt and nightmares all these years. His fierce eyes before leaving scared her into nightmares every night, remembering that his mother held her hand before she died. The hand asked her how long it would take before Qingchen came back. At that moment, she knew what heartbreak was.
She was no longer so afraid of him. She said, "You'd better kill me before destroying the Zhao family. You don't have to see my own family destroyed. It's also a gift to me."
The two of them looked at each other, and the moonlit night of Shangyuan Festival ten years ago was moving, and now they had become an inconspicuous piece of gravel in the family feud. But it was clear that she was blushing in his arms at that time, and he couldn't help but lower his head and get closer. on her forehead. Years later, compared to the sea of blood and hatred, this episode is simply a joke.
On the night he married Lan Ruo, she stayed in the palace, thousands of miles away. No matter what happened, she could not stop him.
She has been weird since she was a child. When her thoughts are extremely elusive, and she can't even figure out what she wants, she will take out all the accessories she wears daily in her jewelry box and wipe them. , she never said a word, others thought she was thinking and worrying, but only she knew that she didn't think about anything, she just found a space for herself to relax.
It was only in those moments that she didn't have to keep her grudges in her mind, and she didn't have to live with her family and justice on her back.
She has lived a very tiring life.
I could only sleep for about two hours a day, and sometimes I couldn't sleep for even two hours. When I closed my eyes, all I could see were the people the Zhao family had killed.
One year, the Zhao family's ginseng was not as good as the new ginseng from another family in Li'er City. That family followed the Zhao family in growing ginseng, and they were regarded as the Zhao family's apprentices. Later, they became apprentices and grew better than the Zhao family. Inexplicably, that family grew ginseng. A fire broke out in the ginseng warehouse, and half the street was burned to the ground. Everyone said that it was dry and they should not put cotton wool and ginseng together.
Zhao Lanyin felt like a mirror in her heart.
If that family hadn't left earlier and walked faster, they might have risked their lives.
The money that left the Zhao family flowed into the county government gate, and there were few high-ranking officials in Li'er who were not immune to bribes from the Zhao family.
The Zhao family’s ginseng sticks to the blood of the people.
She was always hesitant in her heart. She wanted to lower her eyes and not look at the Zhao family's sins, but those voices kept drifting into her ears.
Therefore, she could no longer swallow delicious food or drink fine wine.
Being an imperial merchant is not something that ordinary people can do. It looks noble to outsiders, but if you make a mistake, it will cost you your head.
The Zhao family's ginseng was found to be dried ginseng that had been used as medicinal herbs and had lost its effectiveness. From this point on, Zhao Lanyin already knew that the Zhao family would never turn around again.
As she said, the day he becomes strong, he will be able to overthrow the Zhao family. Now he is strong enough to become a general and is favored by His Majesty. Such power is more than enough to deal with a mere imperial merchant family.
Like him, Zhao Qingyun was exiled to Diaoti, but unfortunately, like Sun Qingchen, he encountered a pack of wolves on the way and was gnawed down to only bones. He was sent back to the Zhao family, crying loudly.
It had been three months since the family letter was delivered to Liangzhu. Zhao Lanyin had the opened letter beside him. After a quick glance, it was all expected.
She took out another waist pendant that she usually wiped clean and wiped it again and again.
The colleague didn't know what she was getting into, so he said helplessly, "You haven't gone out all day today and you haven't eaten. Do you want to starve yourself to death or suffocate yourself to death?"
"Yeah." From beginning to end, she only said this one word.
(End of chapter)