He couldn't convey this feeling to anyone. After the mixed feelings, he became rapidly confused.
He didn't know what to say to her, but he could hardly hold the cup in his hand when he heard a servant coming to say that Twelve Mothers had arrived.
Just like the day she left, he closed all the windows in the house and didn't light a single candle in the house. It was dark everywhere and it was difficult to see his slightly panicked expression.
Twelve Niang opened the door and came in.
"This slave has met the Duke."
Her voice was trembling, and he could hear it.
But he didn't speak.
Then she covered her face and cried beside him.
This was no longer the fearless Twelve Mother he knew. She surrendered and shed tears in front of him.
"Why are you crying?" His voice also changed, becoming impatient.
He went to take her hand, but she held it tightly before she even touched him. She refused to speak and just cried, as if she had been greatly wronged.
Unfortunately, he could never hear what she said.
Twelve Niang said, "I did nothing wrong. One day you will understand that I did nothing wrong. I have not sorry for you, let alone anyone. I dare to swear on the sky and the earth."
He looked at her and gradually withdrew his hand from hers.
Twelve Niangs, how could you admit your mistake? She hasn't changed, she has always been the Jiang Twelve Niang with a bad temper, deep thoughts, and who likes to play with men.
"Then what are you doing?" He took half a step back.
"I want to ask you something. Don't bring her to me again, and don't touch her in front of me. I really can't bear it. I know you mean it. I'm already in pain. I I also know that you will attack the Jiang family as soon as I leave. I don’t want to do anything for the Jiang family, but my mother has missed my father all her life. She knows that she knows, and she will not be able to feel at ease. I hate the Jiang family, but my mother is innocent. , She just shouldn't have fantasies about Jiang Wenli. You pity me and let me take a breather. Every day I wake up with Jiang Qinghe's face that looks like her mother. I want to kill her, but I can't. I can't do anything."
The Twelfth Mother who was holding a bag of candied fruits in her hands would not say such words. She would not say, I can't do anything, and I can't do anything.
Gongyang Nong relented.
He raised his head to touch her forehead, but she avoided him.
Her forehead was frighteningly hot, and he already knew it just when he touched her hand.
She was wrapped in a thick robe, but she was still shivering.
Gong Yangnong had no choice but to push her down on the chair by the fire and sit down, pouring a cup of hot tea to warm her up.
Twelve Niangs held tea and looked at the fire.
"I waited for you at home all day and night. It rained heavily at night, but I thought, maybe if I wait, you will come back. I feel that you always come back. If you are not by my side, how can you live? Go on, I'm arrogant. It's just as good for you to leave me. You wrote to me and wanted to say goodbye to me. You left the relationship between husband and wife of more than ten years behind and followed another man. . Twelve Niangs, how could you... how could you deceive me for so many years... You obviously don't love me, but why have you pretended to be a virtuous wife by my side for so many years?" There were tears in his eyes, reflecting the Twelfth Niang's face in the firelight. face.
Twelve Niangs couldn’t give an explanation.
"I want to keep you by my side like crazy and be your husband for the rest of my life. You just think it's ridiculous, don't you?"
"No matter what happened between you and me in the past, we are no longer the loving couple in Changzhou. You are the Duke of Beiqiu County, which is good. I am an actor in Liluoyuan, which is also good. You and I were originally You shouldn’t be enemies. I wish you harmony as husband and wife, abundant children and grandchildren, and I wish Gongyang’s family will last forever.”
"Would you be satisfied if I did that?" He asked her deliberately.
"I don't want you to have an unhappy life."
"So are you happy now?"
"not at all."
"You're not happy, and I'm not happy either. Why do you want to make both of us feel pain?"
"This is the path I chose, and it is also my only choice."
"No... you have many ways to go... come back to me. As long as you are willing to come back, I will not hold you accountable for anything. I am already a county official, and my father has no right to interfere in my affairs. If you are afraid, what should I do? I can help you solve it... I know, you must have some difficulties, tell me, and we will solve it together..." He was already incoherent. Until now, he still held on to a glimmer of hope, that is, Twelve Niang had never betrayed He, she has him in her heart.
"I have to go now."
She stood up and walked out the door.
Wearing layers of thick clothes, he couldn't tell how thin she was now, but when he held her shoulders and asked her to sit down for warmth, he knew that her shoulders were even thinner.
Comparing this skinny woman with the woman who made fun of his seriousness, Gong Yangnong suddenly felt heartbroken.
"Don't go." He stopped her.
"Why?"
"I want you to stay a moment longer."
"Is this a request from Xiang An or an order from Duke Beiqiu?"
He growled at her, "If orders are the only way to keep you here, then you can take that as an order."
"There is nothing wrong with me being a woman from a lowly family, but I am not a dog you raised. If you ask me to sit down, I will sit down. If you ask me to stand up, I will stand up."
"What's the difference? If those men threw money to you, wouldn't you do everything? By the way, it must be that I didn't give you the money." He took off the hosta from his hair crown and threw it to her. Can this thing enter the eyes of Twelve Mothers?"
She lowered her head first. Gongyang Nong thought she would cry again, but she didn't.
She stood in front of him, took off her back robe and every piece of clothing on her body, shivering in front of him.
Gong Yangnong was furious at her, "What are you doing?"
He hurriedly put on the small clothes for her, but she stood motionless and let him do what he wanted.
Gong Yangnong held her in his arms and warmed her with his body warmth. She remained motionless like a hibernating living creature.
He was angry and kissed her with all his strength, just asking for her response.
He cared about her so much that in his extreme indulgence, he even wanted to break her neck. Maybe only by killing her would she truly belong to her.
This idea appeared in his mind more than once.
After dawn, the two people faced each other with their backs to each other.
After a long time, Gongyang Nong slowly turned around and hugged her in front of him.
She looked pale and didn't say a word. Big tears fell from her eyes.
She hugged his neck tightly and pressed against his chest to listen to his strong heartbeat.
Gongyang Nong said, "I don't want to be a county official. You and I leave here and we go back to Changzhou, okay?"
She said in fear, "No... never..."
After she left, he still lay blankly where she had just stayed.
He stared at the pillow where Twelfth Mother had been lying.
He felt that he couldn't live without her. She could leave him and she wouldn't lose anything, but he couldn't let go. If Twelfth Mother was not by his side, then all this would have no meaning.
In the evening he came to Twelve Niang's former house.
The maid came out and said, "Sir, it's not convenient for Twelve Mothers at this time."
"Why?" he asked.
"Peng... Master Peng is here..."
Gongyang Nong laughed at himself and said, "Yes, guests come on a first-come, first-served basis, so it's better not to ruin the interest of others."
A moment of jealousy can do unexpected things.
He took out ten taels of gold and said, "When Twelve Mother calls you, don't forget to tell her that this is her overnight money last night. She forgot to take it this morning, so I came here to give it to her."
After doing these things, he thought for a while, turned around and said to the maid, "Tell me one more thing. After this winter is over, I don't want to see her anywhere in Beiqiu. Otherwise, I will kill her." I do what I say.”
He was exhausted and had no intention of fighting her again, but he never wanted to see her again in his life.
(End of chapter)