Coming to this era was purely an accident.
I was originally an actor, and I had taken on many plays and had gained some fame. One time, I found a very good script, which was about the story of the Southern Dynasty. In the play, I played the concubine of the emperor. She was a smart and beautiful woman, and I liked this role very much. So I read the script over and over again and consulted historical materials to learn more about this role. In the script, the ending of this concubine was that she was wronged by a traitor and had no choice but to commit suicide by jumping into a well.
After several months of filming, it finally came to an end, with only the final scene of jumping into the well remaining.
I remember that day was very hot. I walked to the well in my heavy costume, reciting my lines while crying. It is said that it is an ancient well with a history of 1,500 years. However, it has been filled up today. It has become a dry well with a depth of no more than one meter, which is very safe.
After I finished the last line, I jumped without hesitation. I was so happy that the play was a great success and finally finished. However, things were not as perfect as I imagined. It was just a one-meter-deep well, but why couldn't I step on the ground?! And my body kept sinking, the light was getting darker and darker, and I could never reach the bottom.
I panicked. It was just a small pit. How could it be... How did the staff check the ground conditions? But it was too late to say anything now...
I thought that this time it was all over. Wouldn’t I die at the bottom of the well just like this concubine
At this moment, a faint beam of light appeared. My mind was in a mess and I had no time to think or marvel. I just felt that the beam of light penetrated my body, and I kept turning over and over. The light gradually became warmer, and I heard noise and clamor, and then it flowed out along with the water...
So, I came to this era as a baby. I really couldn't understand why such a ridiculous thing, such a shocking plot, happened to me.
Later, I gradually understood the general context, and my parents in this life turned out to be Xiao Yi and Xu Zhaopei. I had read about them when I was researching the script, and I knew the general trend of history, and I knew their ending. However, at that time, I would rather not know history. I thought... ..history is just speculation by outsiders, and maybe the truth of history is not known to everyone.
My "mother" Xu Zhaopei lived a quiet and happy life with Xiao Yi. Xiao Yi loved her, and therefore loved me even more. Such a passionate and tender look always made me blush. But Xu Zhaopei's heart was only with Xiao Tong. He was a man worthy of being admired, and the most elegant and gentle man I had ever seen. I think every woman would fall in love with him, including me. But I warned myself that I was more than 1,500 years younger than him, so I didn't have such a fantasy.
Zhaopei loved him so deeply. She often hugged me and murmured, and then burst into tears. But she had her world, and he had his world. I understood her hesitation and conflicting struggle, but Xu Zhaopei just watched from afar without disturbing her. She seemed to think that as long as she could see him and know his movements, she would be satisfied.
At that time, I really regretted knowing the history and the ending. I wanted to tell her that her infatuation and dedication were unrewarded and fruitless. I also wanted to tell her that Prince Zhaoming... would pass away at the age of 31. I wanted to tell her so much, but I couldn't and didn't dare.
Some things are more hurtful if they are said than not said. Besides, I was afraid that they would treat me as a monster. So I could only watch this woman in sorrow and loneliness.
After all, I can't change history.
I think I should just stay within my limits and be a carefree child. No, I should act like a child. (To be continued)