Young and successful, unrestrained and uninhibited. These eight words seem to belong to me. Playing games in the world of mortals, relying on the fragrance and jade, is like my whole life.
My elder brother has told me more than once that I should change my temper, but I gave up after thinking about it. Being such a rich and idle person saves my father from being on guard and being less cautious. Perhaps the life in the palace is really not for me, so I moved out of the palace very early and had my own mansion.
I have women, but I don’t have wives and concubines. To me, wives and concubines are a kind of imprisonment and shackles.
Because he had no wife, almost everything was taken care of by my eldest sister-in-law, a beautiful and virtuous woman, who was a perfect match for my eldest brother. I once thought that I should marry a woman like my eldest sister-in-law.
But, until I met her, everything about me changed. For the first time, I wanted to start a family.
I remember the first time I met her, I mistook her for a pretty boy. Her graceful demeanor and familiar youthful self-satisfaction made me intrigued by her. I was really surprised, but at the age of fourteen, she had amazing skills. Did that red-shirted figure appear in my mind, bumping and shouting, making me restless? That feeling was actually missing her.
Later I found out that she was not gentle, not considerate, and a little boastful, not to mention virtuous. But I had such an impulse, wanting to be with her. Listening to her playing the piano, watching her painting and reciting poems, and traveling with her in the mountains and rivers...
That strange and vague feeling became so clear after meeting her.
I like her. No, I love her. Xu Zhaopei, the girl with beautiful eyebrows, beautiful smile, light red shirt, and cute appearance. She will laugh without caring about her image. She will not be afraid of your identity, and she will not care about other people's eyes. She lives a comfortable and comfortable life.
However, when my heart drifted away from me, I also knew that her heart was no longer with her.
I guess that after we separated on the Lantern Festival, she must have encountered something. That dazed, dazed, yet excited and happy look must not have appeared out of nowhere.
Later, I gradually figured out some clues. When I accidentally saw a "Vulcan" mask in my eldest brother's study that day, I finally understood it completely.
I tried to test my elder brother. I told him that I liked that girl. Looking into his eyes, I think he should understand. My elder brother has been very good to me since I was a child. Everything he did was based on my preferences. This time, he should be the same.
Please forgive my selfishness. I hurt her heart, but it’s because I love her.
But why did it evolve to this point? After hearing what my eldest brother said about her behavior in Tongtai Temple, I knew that my father noticed her and valued her very much. As a tool for my seventh brother? But did he choose the wrong person? My seventh brother always treats women like dirt and stones. Will such rewards and enticement work
But no matter what, she is my Pepe. I went to find my seventh brother, hoping that he would tell the emperor to take back his order, but he disobeyed me. I was angry and unwilling, but I was also deeply afraid, a kind of palpitation that I could not describe.
Later I went to see her, and she said, "I don't want to marry anyone."
I felt a faint pain from deep in my heart. It was the first time I felt this way since my mother left. I had an impulse at that time. I wanted to say to her: What if I asked you to marry the prince? Would you say the same thing? But I didn't say it after all. I couldn't bear to hurt her like this anymore.
When I saw her fall into the water without warning and sink to the bottom. She was so calm and peaceful, as if she was sleeping, her long black hair spread out and floated, like the gorgeous dahlias in the Western Regions. Her face looked pale and transparent in the water, as if she was silent.
There was no resistance, no struggle. It seemed that she was quietly waiting for death to come. In the silent water, I felt panic for no reason, afraid of losing her, afraid of watching her disappear in front of my eyes.
Without caring about anything else, I hugged her tightly, and only at this moment did I dare to kiss her lips. It was not as sweet as expected, but salty. I didn't know whether it was my tears or hers.
Pepe, no matter what, I will always love you. I will wait for you until the end of time. (To be continued)