Han Zhihui wanted to hear about Han Han's past, but he wanted to hear even more about the things he didn't know about her...
But he didn't want to embarrass her. She didn't want to say anything, so he compromised: щww{][lā}"
Cheng Weiwan did not speak in a hurry, but tilted his head, as if he was recalling something seriously. After a while, he said aloud: "After leaving you, I did not leave Beijing, because I stayed in Beijing for many years. , relatively familiar, I'm afraid that if I suddenly change places, I'm pregnant, and if I encounter trouble, it won't be easy to solve."
"You asked me to abort the child. Although your secretary helped me hide it, I was still afraid of being discovered by you, so I didn't dare to go to the hospital randomly. I spent a lot of money to hire a private doctor. Even so, I still feel sad every day. I was very uneasy, maybe my uneasiness affected Hanhan, because when I was six months pregnant, there were signs of bleeding."
"That time, Hanhan almost left me."
"Actually, during that time, my mental state was not very good and I was very negative. When I learned that the fetus was unstable, my first thought was not to protect the child, but to think that this would be good. I would accompany him Take the kids with you."
"Hanhan is stronger than me. He survived, and so did I."
"Hanhan was born in the middle of the night. It snowed in Beijing that day and the ground was very slippery. There were still two months before the due date. My amniotic fluid suddenly broke. The nanny I hired happened to be off duty that day. I was alone. I was in so much pain. I couldn't get out of the house at all, and finally Mu Qing came to see me, happened to see this scene, and sent me to the hospital."
"I didn't take good care of the baby, and I was always in a bad mood. When I got to the hospital, Hanhan still couldn't give birth. The doctor was anxious, and so was I. Later, I even suffered from heavy bleeding."
Massive bleeding... Han Zhihui's mind suddenly flashed back to the scene where he hurried to the hospital and saw Li Li lying in a pool of blood.
Was it the same scene the day she gave birth to Hanhan
Han Zhihui said nothing, but his face turned a little pale.
"That was the second time Han Han and I almost left this world together." Compared to Han Zhihui's inner suffering, Cheng Weiwan recalled the frightening scene again with more indifference.
"Hanhan was born two months prematurely. When he was born, he was extremely small and lost his breath from time to time."
"Hanhan stayed in the incubator for three months before he came home with me."
"I was alone during the three months when Hanhan was in the incubator. It was at that time that I suffered from depression."
"It's very serious. It's so serious that I don't want to live in this world. I walked to the window more than once and wanted to jump out. More than once, I stood in the middle of the road and couldn't move."
"Fortunately, during that time, Mu Qing and Brother Yi Nan discovered something was wrong with me and took turns staying with me twenty-four hours a day."
Cheng Weiwan spoke very slowly, stopping to think from time to time as he spoke.
Her tone was very soft, almost the same as when she told Cheng Han stories at night, but with infinite strength, it turned into sharp daggers one after another, piercing his heart.
Han Zhihui was in pain, but he never shouted to Cheng Weiwan to stop.
Before he came again, when he decided to listen to her talk about these things, he already knew that he would be in pain, but he did not expect that it would hurt like this.