A Book Dedicated to Our Youth

Chapter 18: Time is like a sword (1)

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You are so beautiful that one person plays a triangle, and all triangles are deeply loved by the emperor

Your romance is unforgettable, the whole world changes color

We always relish the stories of the palace and the people

Because we also think, Hongchen smiles and wanders with you

1

Wang Zheng's lover

A girl's heart is like a flower, it will bloom for the person she likes, and it will wither for the person she likes.

Some people bloom and wither like red roses in the sun,

Regardless of whether it opens or falls, it is vigorous and becomes a legend in the memories of others;

Someone blooms and withers like wild lilies in the valley,

Whether it opens or falls, it is silent, becoming a secret buried by time.

I was too focused on my own business, and it was long after the speech contest that I realized that Wang Zheng didn't go to technical school.

At that time, in our city, no matter how bad the academic performance was, technical schools were always required, because technical schools were jointly established with several large state-owned enterprises (now known as monopoly industries). After graduating from technical school, you can directly enter various large state-owned enterprises according to your respective majors, and you will definitely have a stable job with a good income and good benefits.

Therefore, parents with lower requirements are not worried about their children's poor academic performance, because poor grades also have a way out of an iron job. But Wang Zheng was very individual. He ignored his parents' cry and threats, and just didn't go to the technical school. This behavior was a kind of suicide at the time.

Wang Zheng took his drum set and came to "On the Water Side", and found a few like-minded friends to organize a band and began to perform on stage.

At that time, most of the song and dance halls in our city had tape accompaniment, and there was almost no accompaniment by live bands like Li Ge. In addition, Wang Zheng was really handsome. When the lights were on and the drums were playing, there was an air of unhappiness. Wild and uninhibited, it seems that the girls are all confused.

Brother Li found a few beautiful girls, dressed up as the heroine of Qiong Yao's drama on TV, and sang on the stage. Soon, "on the water side" became red in our city, and both men and women rushed to "on the water side". I heard that even the grocery store next door has it, so I can imagine what kind of gold-selling cave "On the Water Side" is.

However, you don’t need to think too much about entering and exiting the dance hall. The social atmosphere in those days was much better than now. The dance hall was a place to listen to songs and dance. One of my classmates’ parents often went to dance, and they brought my classmate and her on weekends. My sister went to play together, and both sisters did well in school.

However, it does not mean that there are no miscellaneous things in dance halls. Among young people, there will be pornography, gambling and drugs, but it must be hidden under the table.

Because Wang Zheng was performing in the ballroom, Xiaofei also began to go to the ballroom frequently.

All kinds of women around are fat and thin. Their dress and behavior are completely different from those of the students in the school. They can change a few times with a simple sentence from a boy.

Wang Zheng became more and more indifferent to Xiao Fei, and even hated Xiao Fei to follow him to the dance hall. Xiao Fei's heart was disturbed, and her confidence collapsed a little bit. In imitating Chen Feier's dress in "Sixteen Years Old Flower Season", it seems that only with the help of the appearance of a star can she overwhelm others.

And these, I don't know anything, I'm busy fighting for the success of the speech contest, busy chasing the shadow in my heart. Until Xiaobo told me: "Qiqi, Ge Xiaofei got drunk and fought with people last night. Brother Li didn't say anything because of your face, but you'd better persuade her to stop going 'on the water'. She He is too young to be in a dance hall without the company of his parents."

I am at a loss, one day in the mountains, has the world been a thousand years old

That night, I also walked into "On the Water Side". Although the school strictly prohibits middle school students from entering and exiting the dance hall, it is obvious that there are still quite a few middle school students entering and leaving. I know several of them. Li Xin from our class and Yunzhu, the flower girl from class (8), all have different faces. Beautiful girl. When the beauties are young, there will be many boys chasing them. Not everyone is as innocent as Guan He. Most of the beauties will choose the latter between boring textbooks and interesting boys.

On the stage, a long-haired woman in a white gauze dress was singing "The Moon Represents My Heart". Couples of men and women danced lightly on the dance floor. The lights were blurry and graceful, like starlight, reflecting their dance steps.

Every small table next to the dance floor is lit by candlelight. At first glance, it is really on the side of the water, so romantic that it is not like the world.

The first time I entered the dance hall, I didn’t know where to put my hands and feet, but I didn’t show any signs of timidity. I walked over calmly, looking for Xiao Fei carefully. After I saw it clearly, I realized that this is definitely not the Book of Songs. In "On the Water Side", the flickering candle is not romance, but desire.

After searching around, Xiaofei couldn't be found. She passed the box and caught a glimpse of a woman with pigtails through the crack of the door. The man beside her was pouring alcohol on her. She lowered her head, her shoulders were shaking, and she seemed to be crying.

I rushed in immediately, a hand suddenly stretched out in mid-air, grabbed my wrist, and pressed the other hand on my shoulder, forcing me to step back. As she stepped back, the woman on the sofa raised her head. She was about twenty years old, laughing hilariously, her whole body trembling slightly, and the man playing with her was Xiao Liu.

I almost got into trouble again.

The person who grabbed my wrist and forcibly dragged me out of the box was Zhang Jun, with his kindergarten teacher girlfriend standing beside him.

Although he saved me once, I didn't appreciate it, glared at him, and threw off his hand.

Zhang Jun asked in a cold voice, "What do you want to do?"

I asked, "Where is Ge Xiaofei?"

Zhang Jun said, "Not here."

His girlfriend said, "Ge Xiaofei? Is he the one who thinks he is Chen Feier?"

I stared at her, she smiled and pointed to the other box: "Over there."

I ran over quickly and saw Xiaofei and a group of men and women huddled together. It is no exaggeration to say "squeeze". Originally, there was only a sofa for seven or eight people, and it accommodated a dozen people. Men and women, you put your arms around me. Clinging to you, sitting together. Someone was drinking, someone was smoking, and in the dim light, the women in makeup looked almost identical.

I couldn't believe what I saw in front of me. My heart hurt so much, I squeezed past them and grabbed Xiaofei. Xiaofei didn't know if she was drunk or if she ate something she shouldn't eat. Pulling her, she reluctantly opened my hand.

The people around her laughed, and many were impatient and scolded: "Go away!" "Don't fight!"

I didn't say a word, and forced Xiaofei to get up. The boy next to Xiaofei became angry, and stood up and wanted to beat me. Zhang Jun said behind me, "Let her go."

The man sat down again, and I dragged Xiaofei out with half hugs and half drags. She was screaming and screaming in my arms, which alarmed the people watching the show. Fortunately, the foreman saw me, but the people watching the show didn't. There was a conflict with me, and the foreman helped me put Xiaofei aside, Xiaofei lay on the sofa, giggling.

I looked at her and didn't know what to do. How did she become like this? Such little braids and such hairstyles really look like Chen Feier, but where does she have Chen Feier's pure temperament? Where is Chen Feier's positive spirit still in the dilemma

I asked the foreman: "She's just drunk, or..."

The foreman leaned down to examine it carefully, and told me, "I'm just drunk, and I didn't eat indiscriminately."

I was a little relieved: "Where's Wang Zheng?"

The foreman glanced at his watch and said, "It's not time for him to play yet, but soon."

"Does Wang Zheng have a girlfriend?"

"The female guests who come to us all like Wang Zheng."

The foreman's answer was very clever, but I didn't intend to give her a chance to play tricks. I pointed at Xiaofei and asked, "How does he treat this girl? Did he bully her?"

The foreman hesitated, and I said, "If Xiaobo stood here and asked you, would you be so hesitant?"

She immediately said: "Normal, even a little impatient, worse than others."

I played with the candle on the table, and the oil dripped onto my hand. Instead of wiping it off, I tilted the candle and watched it drop by drop on my palm.

The foreman sat next to me and said cautiously: "Wang Zheng is not a bad person, there are many people who like him, but he never takes advantage of these girls' feelings to take advantage of others. I think... I think he is bad for this girl, It's for her good. I heard people in the band say privately, Wang Zheng is saving money, he wants to go to Guangzhou in the future, there are many people who like music like him, and there will be companies looking for them to make records."

I was stunned, staring blankly at the oil dripping from the candle onto my palm. The foreman whispered, "I'm going to work. Wang Zheng will be on the field in a few minutes. What would you like to drink?"

"no need."

A girl with double braids sang "Don't Pick Wild Flowers on the Roadside" on the stage. Her typhoon was very lively, which attracted people in the audience to laugh along with her.

After she finished singing, the atmosphere in the dance hall suddenly became quiet, and the older people began to leave the venue one after another, and more and more young men and women poured into the dance floor.

I was staring at the men and women who were gathering on the dance floor. Suddenly, a few electric guitars that cut gold and cracked silk sounded, and amidst the thumping drums, a metallic rock started. It was completely different from the soft sound just now. The dance floor seemed to suddenly change from Wen Tun's middle-aged man to an excited young man.

There are you and me in the crowd

meet acquaintance

It's you and me in the crowd

pretending to be smiling

Don't say too much about yourself

What do you and I want to do

Don't care about a lot, don't be sad

One day you will understand me

See you again in the crowd

as charming as beautiful

Slowly relax, slowly abandon

Still don't care

no longer believe

people are so indifferent

no longer remember what the past

Not the me I used to be

I have felt lonely and neglected by others

But I never felt ashamed

i no longer believe

The men and women on the dance floor were very excited, waving their fists and singing along with the band loudly, as if all the repression had only been vented now.

After I looked at the band's drum set, a handsome man in tight black leather pants and a white shirt was playing the drums attentively. His eyes were downcast, his expression was indifferent, he didn't look down from the stand, but immersed himself in his own world. With the violent movements of his body, his long hair without wind moved automatically, which formed a sharp contrast to the strange calmness on his face. So arrogant, bright, warm, burning, but seeing others as nothing, cold to the point of indifference, it really makes people unable to move their eyes, no wonder girls can go crazy for him.

In an instant, I seemed to understand Wang Zheng in the sound of music. He didn't exist except for what he cared about. No wonder Xiaofei likes him, how much he looks like Xiaofei! No one else lives for his own heart, but what Xiaofei cares about is him, and all he cares about is his music.

I turned around and found that Xiao Fei was no longer on the sofa, so I hurriedly squeezed into the dance floor to find her. Looking at Wang Zheng on the stage, I feel uneasy, how much does Xiaofei like Wang Zheng

After the song was over, the music on the stage was changed to "Nothing at All".

"I used to ask endlessly, when will you come with me, but you always laugh at me for having nothing..."

The crowd was even crazier, the men and women around were roaring, and it was the first time I knew the magic of rock and roll.

I struggled through the crowd to find Xiaofei, and finally saw her. She stumbled up the stage and seemed to want to catch Wang Zheng. The man who was holding her just now appeared and hugged her. Xiaofei tried to push him away, but after several pushes, she finally succeeded. Inside, Xiao Fei turned around and gave him a slap in the face, and he slapped him back unceremoniously.

Amid the deafening music, everyone was still revelling, and no one noticed the chaos on the corner of the dance floor. Although Wang Zheng on the stage saw the scene under his feet, he was indifferent and only played the drum indifferently.

I finally squeezed to the front of the stage, the man still wanted to hug Xiaofei, this time I slapped him in the face before Xiaofei could make a move, he froze for a while, became furious, and wanted to hit me, so I picked up the stage There was a steel pipe lamp on the side, considering whether to swipe directly at his head, he saw a guy in my hand, stopped, and several of his buddies gathered around and looked at me with a smirk.

Because it was in the corner of the dance floor, it was very close to the table next to it, and there were still unfinished wines and drinks on the table. In an instant, I had a particularly vicious idea, if I suddenly poured some drinks on them, I would put the The wires are pulled out and thrown at them, not knowing what will happen, not knowing if the book says that impure liquids can conduct electricity or not.

However, neither Zhang Jun nor Xiaobo gave me the opportunity to test my idea. One of them blocked them and the other stopped in front of me. Xiaobo's face was ashen, he took the lamppost from my hand and pulled me out. Go, the person beside him is holding Xiaofei.

Brother Li was waiting for us in the office. Seeing me, he asked with a smile, "Female bandit, how are you going to deal with several men by yourself?"

I didn't say anything, he glared at me, looked at Xiao Fei who was sober and said, "It's for Wang Zheng again! It's so fucking annoying! Go and call Wang Zheng!"

When Wang Zheng came in, he saw that we were in a room full of people and looked like three court hearings, but he didn't react at all, his expression was very calm.

Brother Li said: "This girl is our little sister's friend. Today, because of you, our little sister and sixth brother's people almost got into trouble. You are here today to tell her clearly, I don't want to watch it in the dance hall again. to her."

I wanted to stop it, but then I thought about it. Although Li Ge's method was cruel, it was a quick cut through the mess.

When Xiaofei saw Wang Zheng, she immediately arranged her hair and wiped away her tears.

Wang Zheng walked up to her, stared into her eyes, and said very clearly: "I know you like me, but I don't like you. I didn't point it out before, because I thought you were young and regarded you as a sister, and hoped that you would be yourself. I can understand, but you are making me unable to work with peace of mind now, and you make me hate you very much, can you disappear from my eyes and let me work with peace of mind?" After speaking, he looked at Brother Li, "Is it alright?"

Brother Li nodded, and Wang Zheng turned around and left.

Xiao Fei's face was pale, she stared at Wang Zheng's back in disbelief, and shouted: "Wang Zheng, brother Wang Zheng..."

Wang Zheng ignored her at all, and soon disappeared into the corridor.

If Xiao Fei burst into tears at this time, I would feel a little more at ease, but she stared at the outside in a daze, as if she had lost her soul. I have never seen Xiao Fei like this, and she cried out worriedly: "Xiao Fei!"

Xiaofei suddenly shouted, "It's all you, why are you doing so much! Who wants you to meddle in your own business!" She said, running out, I was about to chase, Xiaobo grabbed me, facing the person standing at the door Instructed: "Go and stare at the point and take her home."

Xiaofei has never experienced any setbacks since she was a child, but today she was rejected by the boy she liked in front of everyone. I can fully understand her thoughts at this time. I heard Xiaobo order people to look at her. He also decided to stop bothering her and leave her alone.

Brother Li saw that there were only the three of us left in the room, got up and closed the door, and asked Xiaobo with a headache: "Why is she so angry? I saw you fighting back then and thought you were fierce enough. How could she be better than you were? Still fierce!"

Xiaobo stared at me: "Are you sure you hit them just now?"

"No."

"Then I don't think you're afraid at all. You should have a little bit in your heart. You don't think the people watching the show will help you beat the guests, right?"

"I have a lamp in my hand, and there is impure water on the table next to me."

Brother Li didn't understand what I said, but Xiaobo completely understood. He suddenly raised his hand and wanted to hit me, but when he was about to slap me in the face, he pressed down abruptly, trying to hold back his palm. , but it was already too late. I just turned sideways and wanted to dodge subconsciously. He slapped me on the shoulder. He stumbled and took a few big steps back, almost falling to the ground.

Brother Li was taken aback, the color on his face changed, and he rushed to defend Xiaobo: "Qiqi, Xiaobo hasn't been so angry for several years. He is impulsive, don't be angry with him..."

Xiaobo said with a cold face, "I'm not impulsive, I really want to hit her."

It's really strange, Xiaobo wanted to hit me, I was angry on the one hand, but felt very warm in my heart, I began to feel that my brain structure was not the same as ordinary people.

Someone knocked on the door outside: "Brother Li, I saw someone sucking fans in the field."

Brother Li's face immediately turned black, and he rushed out, instructing Xiaobo: "This girl will be handed over to you for education."

Xiaobo and I were the only ones left in the office, neither of whom spoke.

After a long time, Xiaobo asked, "Qiqi, are you still talking to me?"

I kept my head down and said nothing. He suddenly had a sad expression on his face. He wanted to say something, but fell silent. I bit my lip, disarmed and surrendered: "Your question is an idiot, if I answer you, wouldn't I be talking to you? I'm angry, you have to coax me. Xiaobo, you are so stupid, how will you coax your girlfriend in the future?"

"Are you still angry?"

I glared at him: "Nonsense! If you try to be beaten, of course I will be angry! However, if I have a brother who beats me, I will be angry, but I can't be angry for the rest of my life."

He smiled and rubbed my shoulder: "Does it hurt?"

"Well." I simply sat on Brother Li's leather chair and asked him to rub my shoulders.

While rubbing my shoulders for me, he said, "When I was a child, my temper was very similar to yours. When I fought with people, my temper came up, and my shots were completely indifferent. I picked up bricks and dared to say hello to the other person's head. When I met Brother Li, he spent a lot of money to settle it for me."

"for what?"

"Young and impulsive, for some things that were important at the time, but actually not worth it, imagine what would happen if I actually caused a fatal accident in the past?"

"I can't get to know you anymore."

He laughed, knowing that I was avoiding the key points, and he didn't point it out, he just said: "Qi Qi, when you are young, you can make many mistakes and have the opportunity to correct them, but some mistakes cannot be made, and if you make them, there is no turning back. "I didn't say anything, Xiaobo sat on Brother Li's desk, put his arms on the handle of the chair, leaned forward and stared at me: "We are different from other children since we were young. Laughter and love, they have fear and nostalgia, but we don’t. We are pessimistic and hopeless about the world and ourselves. We subconsciously feel that living is a very hard thing, but this is not right, precisely because Fate has given us too little, so we have to learn to love and cherish ourselves. Do you really think I am angry because you want to kill those three people? If there is no law, if you want to kill them, I will help you find a knife ."

"Then...then why are you angry?"