A Book Dedicated to Our Youth

Chapter 20: Time is like a sword (3)

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I picked up the fruit on the table and smashed the squid with a smile, turned my head to the side, but saw a person leaning against the wall of the box as soon as I entered, it was Zhang Jun. He stared blankly at the screen, Xiaobo also saw him, put on the microphone and asked him to sit down, he smiled and said, "I wanted to ask you for a few drinks, but your friends are having a party, so don't bother."

Xiaobo said politely, "We're just messing around. What do you want to drink? I'll let them bring it up and let's drink while we play."

Zhang Jun opened the door with a smile: "No need, I'll see you for a drink next time." He had already closed the door and left.

Xiaobo's eyes were full of doubts, and the squid said in a low voice, "I was flown by a woman, so my nerves suddenly became abnormal."

"When did this happen?"

"Just yesterday."

The following song is still a chorus, I dragged the enchanting to sing together: "I understand my heart clearly, I long for a true feeling..."

"My song, my song..." The squid grabbed the microphone from my hand and sang with the enchanting duet. The two were worthy of being veterans of K-song. They didn't need to look at the screen at all, they looked at each other, held hands, and sang affectionately.

you have tender eyes

you have an understanding mind

if you are willing to

please keep me close

I think you will understand my heart

I grinned at Xiaobo and touched my arm, indicating that it was all goosebumps, and Xiaobo shook his head and smiled.

Zhang Jun was dumped by a woman, I am very happy, I am very happy.

Occasionally, I will examine whether I am too dark in my mind to base my happiness on the suffering of others, but before I can truly reflect on myself, I realize that my unease of conscience is completely unnecessary.

One day, when I went to look for Xiaobo, I found that he was not there, and neither was the squid. I caught someone and asked, only to find out that they were gambling with others.

I feel puzzled, Xiaobo hasn't been betting with anyone for a long time, why did he suddenly play with someone? Looking at this situation, it is still a big gamble.

I hurried to the game room and found that I haven't been here for a long time, and the changes have changed a lot. Brother Li should have bought the store next door. The two rooms are connected, much larger than before, and the game machine looks more advanced than before.

I didn't know the person who looked at the store, but he knew me and said with a smile, "Are you looking for Brother Xiao Bo? He plays ball in there."

"thanks."

I went straight into the inner courtyard.

Beside the billiard table, there were clearly two groups of people standing. I didn't see Xiaobo. The first thing I saw was Zhang Jun. Beside him stood a beautiful woman with curly hair like a tide.

The woman took his arm and watched people play billiards, but she didn't seem to understand. She asked Zhang Jun in a low voice, and Zhang Jun explained a few words from time to time.

I stared at them, forgetting what I was going to do, I just felt something in my chest hurting.

Zhang Jun turned his head to see me, his face was expressionless, I stared at him blankly, wondering how he could do this? !

The woman looked at me curiously, and tugged at Zhang Jun's arm. He turned around, smiled and kissed her on the forehead, wrapped her arms around her waist, and pointed to the pool table to explain.

I felt tears welling up in my eyes, I wanted to turn around and run away, but why should I run away? Why should I care about him? I don't care about him! Does he have a girlfriend, how many girlfriends does he have, and what does it have to do with me? It has nothing to do with me at all!

I forced my tears back with a smile, and walked to Brother Li with a smile: "Brother Li."

Brother Li patted my head: "I haven't seen you for a long time, and you've grown taller again."

I curled my lips and said, "It hasn't grown a centimeter since the last time you saw me. As evidenced by the school's medical examination form, it's still 1.63 meters. Why did Xiaobo suddenly play with someone again?"

Brother Li said seemingly relaxedly: "It's nothing, my friends and I have some things to solve, and we haven't negotiated a good solution. We simply decided to win or lose by betting."

Sixth brother smiled coldly on the side, Xiaobo smiled at me when he got up after playing a ball. I didn't dare to interrupt, I stood beside Brother Li and watched quietly.

The situation on the table, Xiaobo has a slight advantage, but his remaining ball position is not very good, the opponent's remaining ball position is better, and it is easier to hole.

I sneaked up to the squid and asked in a low voice, "What are you betting on?"

The squid attached to my ear and said, "On the water side."

I didn't understand, looked at him suspiciously, he explained: "their people were playing chasing the dragon in the arena. Brother Li and the sixth brother talked a few times, but they couldn't reach a deal, so they bet 'on the water side', If we win, they won't be allowed to play Dragon Chasing on Brother Li's field in the future; if they win, Brother Li will give them the 'on the water side'."

Chasing the dragon is taking drugs. Brother Li's principle is to never touch drugs, no matter whether they are soft or hard. This time, he even made a bet on the "water side" of Rijindoujin, thinking that he was forced to do nothing by Xiaoliu.

Brother Li is desperate, and he has already seen whether he wins or loses, but Xiaobo has a delicate and deep mind. He has to take the gamble for Brother Li, but if he loses, he will take the responsibility on himself.

My palms were sweating, I didn’t dare to look at the pool table, I closed my eyes, and I just recited in my heart, “I beg all the gods to let Xiaobo win. I won’t make any wishes this year and next year, just ask Xiaobo to win”, over and over again. Repeatedly, the squid was also very nervous, and the gasping sound became heavier.

I don’t know how long it took, when I heard everyone’s cheers, I opened my eyes and looked at the squid first, seeing his ecstatic face, and realizing that Xiaobo had won, I immediately rushed over, holding Xiaobo’s arm and jumping and shouting:” Treat me to dinner, treat me to dinner, I have been praying for you just now, and I have given you all my blessings."

Xiaobo smiled and said, "Okay, let's see if there are any bird's nests. If so, please eat them." Beside him, he could see fine beads of sweat all over the back of his neck.

Brother Li was so happy that he smiled at Xiao Liu and said, "Acceptance, acceptance! Let's have dinner together in the evening, and I will treat you as a guest."

Xiao Liuhan frowned, ignored Brother Li, and left with someone.

Standing beside Xiaobo, I looked at Zhang Jun with a bright smile and smugness, as if I was trying to recover from the gaffe that I suddenly saw him have a girlfriend, and at the same time, I seemed to be trying to prove to myself that he was nothing and could not affect my feelings. mood.

Zhang Jun held his girlfriend's hand and walked past us without even looking at me.

I acted so hard, but no one watched it. It was like I used all my strength to punch a punch, but it hit the air. I didn't hurt anyone, but made myself a mess.

Brother Li happily arranged the evening meal and asked Xiaobo what he wanted to eat. Xiaobo lowered his head and asked me what he wanted to eat. Brother Li smiled and said, "Forgot to ask our lucky general, Miss Luo Qiqi, what would Qiqi want to eat?"

I looked at Brother Li and said, "How could you agree to this? You know Xiaobo..."

Brother Li was a little embarrassed. Xiaobo pinched the back of my neck and made me bend over. I hit him with a backhand.

Brother Li immediately said "OK" and asked someone to go to the restaurant to give instructions.

3

remorseful youth

When I was young, I didn't know kindness because I was never hurt;

Because we have no fear, we don't know how to give in. We are willful and wanton, and we don't care about hurting others.

When one day, we have experienced being hurt and understand pain and fear, we will understand kindness and concession.

But at this time, the flying and presumptuous belonging to youth are gradually leaving us.

We have grown up with a heart already mottled in our chest.

When the new semester started, Li Xin and Ni Qing were still hanging around Lin Lan, and they were still keen to spread the word about what the handsome men and women in each class had done.

In our grade, the girl with the most scandal is Xiao Fei and the boy is Zhang Jun. Li Xin is now hanging out with a few high school students. I don't know if it is because she has heard about my relationship with Xiaobo. She is very flattering to me. She knows that Xiaofei and I have a good relationship, so she never talks about Xiaofei's right and wrong.

They can't talk about Xiao Fei, naturally they can only talk about Zhang Jun.

Zhang Jun's new girlfriend is very different from his predecessor's personality. The previous one was low-key and quiet, but this one is flamboyant and aggressive. He doesn't mind the fact that he is a few years older than Zhang Jun. Sometimes, he even comes to school to wait for Zhang Jun to finish school.

She was dressed in fashion and modern, with permed hair and heavy makeup, standing in the small garden of the junior high school, like a movie star, and we girls with noodles in clear soup are completely two worlds.

Zhang Jun's scandal has become the best talk for every girl. Even the quietest girl will lie down in front of the glass window and take a curious peek at Zhang Jun's girlfriend.

Li Xin and Ni Qing were chatting, and I wanted to leave, but I couldn't help but listen.

Li Xin asked Lin Lan, "I heard that she shares a unit with your mother?"

"Well, the art students who were just assigned last year, dance modern dance, and have a very aggressive personality." Lin Lan smiled slyly, "Zhang Jun is only afraid that he will meet his nemesis this time."

Ni Qing asked, "Is it true that no one likes her?"

"How is that possible? My mother and her unit are all beautiful women. Everyone is chased by a bunch of people. She is lively and many people chase after her."

Ni Qing was confused: "Then why does she like to be with Zhang Jun? She is so old, why does she like boys younger than her?"

It was just a very common sentence, but Lin Lan suddenly became unhappy and said coldly, "Whoever she likes is her freedom, if you want to like it, Zhang Jun doesn't even look down on you at all!"

Ni Qing's tears almost fell out, Li Xin gloated a little, Lin Lan ignored them, turned around and left.

After a while, gossip spread from the class gossip that Lin Lan's parents were getting divorced.

Divorce was relatively rare in those days, but what was even rarer was that Lin Lan's mother divorced for a young man who had been assigned to our city for a few years after graduating from college. The man was only about ten years older than us. There was a lot of uproar about this incident at the time. Almost everyone knew that there was a woman in the city art troupe who had an extramarital affair with a man seven or eight years younger than him. Even my parents heard about it.

Mom and Dad were talking about this at the dinner table, but neither of them understood at all, and they didn't understand what happened to this woman.

My mother asked me if there was a girl named Lin Lan in my class. I nodded unhappily, thinking that my mother would be like the other aunts in the building. I heard that I was in the same class as the daughter of a divorced slut, so I asked about Lin Lan with concern. It seems that Lin Lan looks very deformed. Unexpectedly, my mother told me not to gossip, not to ask Lin Lan about her parents, not to deliberately alienate or deliberately approach Lin Lan, how to get along with her in the past, and how to get along in the future.

I was surprised, but thinking of the divorce between my grandfather and grandmother, my mother was probably just because she understood, so she was compassionate.

Lin Lan was still proud, still beautiful, still laughing with Li Xin and Ni Qing, but there was an age-appropriate indifference in her eyes. If you pay attention, you will find that she is often in a daze when she is alone, but as long as someone looks at her, she will immediately use a smile as a weapon to protect herself.

My relationship with her has become more and more "gentlemen's friendship is as light as water". We are not usually very enthusiastic, but I can feel that she believes in me. When she is with me, she can not say a word, laugh or make trouble. , just sitting quietly. Maybe it's just because she knows that I never say what's right, and I'm never interested in what's wrong with others, so she feels at ease by my side.

One morning, when I just arrived in the classroom, she asked me, "Can you go out with me?"

I looked at the bloodshot eyes in her eyes and agreed immediately.

The two of us didn't ask the teacher for leave, and didn't tell anyone. We rode our bicycles and rode for a whole morning to the ancient city where film and television dramas were filmed. She gave a lot of money and spent a lot of money. We I rented countless sets of costumes and props, and took countless photos.

Lin Lan paid a large deposit, rented two sets of Tang Dynasty princess clothes, and used her dexterous hands to comb a beautiful bun for each of me and her. We both wore the ancient costumes of Tang Dynasty princesses and were in the ancient city. Hu Guan, walking around, she suddenly said, "My parents are divorced."

I didn't know how to react, let alone how to comfort her, so I could only be silent, but she seemed to appreciate my silence, holding my hand, happily being a princess, and visiting the ancient city.

That day, we both ate all the snacks, drank the most expensive drinks, and saw anything fun, whether it was something I liked or something she liked, and she bought it right away.

Growing up, it was the first time I spent money so recklessly, but on that day, I realized that money can't buy happiness in this world!

Lin Lan and I missed school for a day, but the cornucopia didn't criticize us. He probably heard the news that Lin Lan's parents were officially divorced. He had pity on the intelligent and capable Lin Lan. Later, he chose Lin Lan as the representative of the English class. Lin Lan is particularly fond of it.

At that time, Lin Zhiying was very popular, and everyone hummed "Seventeen Years Old Rainy Season".

when i was a child

There are many jasmine flowers in front of the door

Exudes a light fragrance

as i grow up

Those jasmine flowers in front of the door

Has slowly withered and no longer sprouted

what kind of mood what kind of age

what kind of joy and what kind of weeping

Almost all the girls in the class had Lin Zhiying's stickers on their stationery boxes. Everyone was busy collecting Lin Zhiying's tapes and posters. Because of her relatively good family conditions, Lin Lan used to be a loyal follower of pop culture, but now she is uncharacteristically, putting her hands together. All the posters were given to Li Xin and Ni Qing. I think she has grown up quickly due to her parents' marriage change and discrimination from the outside world.

If adults become self-willed like children and refuse to take responsibility to protect children, then children can only grow up quickly and protect themselves like adults.

Generally speaking, a parent's marriage change will always affect the child, not to mention the sensational marriage change of Lin Lan's parents, but Lin Lan's academic performance has not been affected by the family at all, and she still organizes classes to participate in cultural performances, she is stubbornly bright, Lively and flamboyant, she uses her own invariance to smash all curious and peeping gazes, but she is obviously no longer the Lin Lan I met in the first year of junior high school.

Once, when the two of us were sitting by the artificial lake at the school, she suddenly said, "Remember the female monitor who transferred away?"

"Remember."

She smiled: "probably neither of us will forget her, we owe her more than one 'sorry'."

People often say that youth has no regrets, but in fact, how can youth have no regrets

When we were young, our hearts had naked tenderness and cruelty. We were easily hurt by others, and also easily hurt others. Over time, we will forget many people, but those who have hurt us and those we have hurt will always be clearly engraved in our remorseful youth.

If you are young when reading the story, please remember to treat the person you meet with tenderness, not for his or her gratitude to you, but only for many years later, when you look back suddenly, there will be less regret in your youth.

Through a relationship, Brother Li bought an old jeep that was eliminated by the Public Security Bureau. Although some places were so old that the paint fell off, he became one of the few private car owners in the city.

I heard that he became friends with the son of the chief of public security, and invested in commercial buildings with Song Jie, another rich man who eats both black and white. His circle of friends gradually became less and less, so and so. The section chief, the chief of a so-and-so department, and the chief of a so-and-so gradually increased. Everyone no longer calls him Brother Li, he is called Mr. Li in a Western style, and Boss Li in a more earthy way.

From the 1980s to the 1990s, it was the era of the most drastic social changes in China. In just over a decade, China has created a miracle that has attracted worldwide attention. Many things we take for granted in today’s life are the first times we have experienced them back then, such as the first time to take a shower with a water heater, the first time to take an elevator, the first time to drink Coca-Cola, the first time to eat Master Kong instant noodles, the first time Using Rejoice, Pantene, and eating KFC for the first time...

The speed of change in our city is also fast. In order to keep up with the speed of change, people are also changing rapidly, or is the city changing fast because people are changing rapidly

I can't figure it out, I just see the whole city changing with each passing day, and thankfully, there are still the same.

Brother Li bought himself an old car, but he bought Xiaobo a motorcycle imported from Japan. It was definitely a 100% luxury at the time, but Xiaobo rarely used it, and still used his broken bicycle to travel to and from the city. In the streets, I often sit in the back seat of Xiaobo's car and go to the alleys to find snacks with him.

We sat together by the dark and heavy wooden door, watching the old man pouring sugar paintings on the streets.

A pole carries a small coal stove and pot at one end, and tools and materials at the other. When they got to the place where the children gathered, the old man put down the pole, set up the stove and the pot. The pot was filled with melted brown sugar juice. With a big spoon, the old man poured out everything from the giant dragon that roamed around for nine days to the little mouse with eyes.

A compass with all kinds of animals painted around it, turns fifty cents once, and the old man pours you whatever it turns.

Every time I want to switch to Phoenix, but I can't. The more I can't, the more I want to switch, Xiaobo always smiles silently on the side. In fact, he and I both know that the compass is weird. It is not difficult to break this cheating method, but it is not important. The high-rise buildings in this city have already oppressed the living space of these people to the most corners of the city.

Probably after reading too many books written by adults, I gradually found that I have become a person who is out of touch with the times, and I like to miss everything that is passing by. "Four Heavenly Kings" and their songs, I also listen to them, but I don't really like them. I first fell in love with Teresa Teng, then I got to know Zhou Xuan from Teresa Teng, and I heard Han Baoyi back from Zhou Xuan, so I was immersed in the sound of extravagance and could not extricate myself.

Dad's unit eliminated the old-fashioned record players and a bunch of old records that looked like black flying saucers. There were songs by Teresa Teng and many revolutionary songs. At that time, everyone was busy realizing "modernization", and no one liked these old records. I picked it up and put it in Xiaobo’s office, reading novels and listening to it, or doing homework and listening to it.

"The ends of the earth, the corners of the world, the search for a soulmate, the little sister sings to the accompaniment of the Lang, the two of us are one heart..." or "As soon as I send (Lige) to the Red Army, (Jiezhi) goes down the mountain, and the autumn rain (Lige) continues , (Jie Zhige) the autumn wind is cold, the trees (Lige) and the plane trees, the leaves are all falling, the melancholy (Lige) is a thousand and one, pressing in the heart..."

Once, Brother Li pushed in the door and heard the song praising the Red Army. He immediately closed the door. After a while, he opened the door again, touched his head and said, "I didn't go to the wrong place!"