Those years of distress for the white lady
Those years when I was annoyed for Xu Xian
Those years of singing loudly "the fate of thousands of miles to meet"
I hope that I will meet fate, but I don't know if it will pass the test.
1
my first dance
In ancient times, when a girl was fourteen, her father would hold a wedding ceremony for her, which meant that she had grown up;
In the West, at a daughter's wedding,
The father would hold his daughter's hand and accompany her through the last leg of her girlhood.
A father is the first important man in a woman's life.
The party branch of my father's unit organized middle-aged and elderly cadres to learn ballroom dancing, and prepared to form a ballroom dance team to compete with other units before New Year's Day. Dad practiced in the unit during the day, and at night took Mom to the park to dance.
During the summer vacation, my sister and I have nothing to do, and sometimes we go to the park to watch everyone's open-air dance party.
Once, my father thought that my mother was stupid. I taught it several times, but I still didn't learn it. My mother was annoyed. When I waved my hand, you thought I was stupid, and I stopped dancing. The aunts, uncles, grandparents and grandparents who were dancing beside all laughed.
Dad laughed dryly, went down the stairs and said to his sister, "My wife won't learn, so I'll teach my daughter to dance."
The younger sister happily followed her father to learn how to dance. The father held her hand and laughed while dancing to the music. The bow tied around the younger sister's waist was flying beautifully.
The old men and ladies around were all having fun, constantly complimenting my sister for dancing well. My mother looked at her and laughed, and my father was so beautiful that she could do everything.
After the dance was over, my father and sister came back to rest. Seeing that I kept looking at them, he asked with a smile, "Qiqi, do you want my father to teach you how to dance later?"
I restrained my inner excitement and nodded as calmly as possible.
After a while, the music started again. I was nervous, but my father hurriedly put down the water glass, grabbed his sister beside him, and rushed out.
I was like a taut rubber band. I was nervously preparing to pop it out with all my strength, but I didn't. I just slowly and slowly loosened my strength, and it slackened without anyone knowing.
I laughed and watched for a while, then said to my mother, "I went to find my classmates to play with." I left the park alone.
Some people say that the daughter is the lover of the father's previous life, but if he has two daughters, is it not one of them? A man has two hands, but he has only one heart.
I walked around the street for a while, trying to find someone to play with. Xiaofei's mother doesn't let Xiaofei go out at all now. I just went to find Xiaofei during the day. It's obviously inappropriate to go again now. I remembered that I hadn't seen Xiaobo after the holiday, so I wandered around to find Xiaobo.
It was noisy and lively outside the karaoke hall, but he closed the door and worked hard under the lamp.
I just remembered that he was in the third year of high school, and the last stop of the legendary carp jumping to the Dragon Gate was the painful torture of peeling off a layer of skin.
I asked him how he did in the final exam. Xiaobo smiled and said that he ranked in the top 100 in his grade, and told me with confidence that his grades would continue to improve, and his goal was to be in the top 50.
According to the college entrance examination situation of No. 1 Middle School over the years, if Xiaobo can really achieve this goal, he will have a good chance of being admitted to a famous university.
He suddenly asked: "You are going to be divided into classes next semester. How did you do in the final exam this time?"
I said listlessly: "Guess what."
He smiled and said: "It should be good, I will definitely be able to enter the fast class, what gift do you want me to give you?"
I said disdainfully: "What does it mean to be in the fast class? I'm the number one in the class."
Xiaobo stared at me in disbelief, and suddenly he jumped up from his chair, tucked his hands under my armpits, and held me high, laughing and spinning in circles.
In an instant, my unhappiness disappeared, and I laughed along with his laughter.
He finally put me down and asked in amazement, "How did you do it?"
I was dizzy and said loudly: "This is not a pie from the sky, I work very hard! I memorize every day until late at night, and I can memorize the selected readings in small print in history books, algebra papers, geometry papers, physics papers. Paper, I have worked out every question twice, and I am sure there is absolutely no mistake."
Xiaobo smiled and asked, "You have worked so hard, what gift do you want?"
I turned my head to think, but the way my father and sister danced just now appeared in my mind.
"I want to learn to dance."
Xiaobo immediately agreed: "Okay, I'll teach you." He looked me up and down, "Go and buy you a dress."
I immediately shook my head: "That's not good, my mother saw it, she must ask me where I came from, I can't explain it." As soon as I said it, I immediately regretted it. Why should I pay attention to what my parents think? I wanted to indulge myself once, so I changed my mouth: "Okay, I just don't wear it at home."
Xiaobo looked at his watch and said with a smile, "It's too late to go to the mall now."
I grimaced at him, ran to the phone, and called Brother Li, who was very surprised: "Qiqi, what happened?"
"It's nothing, just tell you that I passed the final exam first."
Brother Li was very happy and said with a smile: "It seems that we will be more than a college student. In the future, whoever dares to say that I have no culture, I will let them see the diplomas of my younger brother and sister. What reward do you want?"
"I go to the mall with Xiaobo."
Li Ge said happily: "I'll reimburse you, but don't save your brother Li. Don't learn from Xiaobo. Xiaobo is good at everything, but his personality is too strong."
I said with a smile: "I only choose the good ones, not the expensive ones."
Brother Li hurriedly said, "Yes, yes, yes!"
My goal was achieved, I happily put down the phone, but Xiaobo wasn't too happy. Although he didn't show up, he still smiled, but we've known each other for almost five years, so we don't need to look at the expressions to judge each other's mood.
I stood by his old bicycle and whispered, "After you graduate from college, you will buy me gifts with your first month's salary. I asked Li to give me gifts, not just gifts, I don't want to show too much Yu Jie, I don't want Brother Li to think that we are trying to draw a line with him."
Xiaobo was already half-riding on the bicycle, just waiting for me to get in the car. Hearing my words, he stayed for a moment, and immediately got off the bicycle, turned around and went to the house to get the keys and helmet of the motorcycle.
He put the helmet on for me, got on the motorcycle, put on a cool pose, and said with a smile, "Get in the car."
I immediately got into the car and said worriedly, "This is my first time riding a motorcycle, please slow down and don't fall on me."
He hit me with his elbow, motioned me to stop talking, and drove his motorcycle onto the road.
At that time, many young people in our city were riding motorcycles, wearing leather jackets, leather pants, and leather boots, racing and gambling for money to pick up girls.
Xiaobo's motorcycles are imported from Japan. Brother Li took some time to get them. There are not many of them in our city. It is very cool to drive on the road. But Xiaobo played very few times, but the squid borrowed money to bet with people twice. After being told by Xiaobo, he never played again.
The first time I rode a motorcycle, I had my hands on the sides of the seat, nervous to death, lest I fall off.
I didn't expect Xiaobo to drive the motorcycle like a bicycle, and he didn't accelerate for a long time. I asked in puzzlement, "Can you drive?"
Xiaobo's voice came muffled from inside the helmet: "It was the first time I brought someone, and I suddenly remembered that the person sitting behind the motorcycle has to hold the waist of the person in front of him where there is no support."
I laughed, no wonder the people on the TV were all about hugging the waist of the person in front of me. I thought it was to highlight that they were a couple. It turns out that motorcycles are meant to sit like this, so I hugged his waist generously. His speed Go up immediately.
As the speed soared, I finally understood why men like motorcycles, not just to pretend to be cool, but to really feel like flying in the wind when driving a motorcycle.
The speed was too fast, and the wind blew across our skin. I was wearing an ordinary dress. Although Xiaobo blocked most of the wind for me, it still felt like a knife was cutting. I clung to Xiaobo's waist, closed my eyes, and felt the wind cut on my skin.
I think Xiaobo and I both have the desire to take risks and seek liberation. When we first got into the car, I reminded him not to drive too fast, and he seemed to intend to drive cautiously, but when we felt the thrill of flying , but discarded reason, just want to chase the instinct, to enjoy the relaxation brought by stimulation.
He passed car after car, and most drivers scolded at most, or honked their horns, but when he passed another motorcycle, the owner didn't know whether he was provoked by us, or he just wanted to win. With a heavy heart, I started chasing Xiaobo.
Xiaobo called my name out loud: "Qiqi..."
The speed was too fast, the wind was too strong, I couldn't hear him at all, and I could only hear my name vaguely, but I already understood what he meant.
I looked at the motorcycle driving side by side with us. The owner was wearing a black leather jacket. The girl behind the car had long curly hair like algae. She couldn't even hold down her helmet. She fluttered in the wind with her little red skirt. very beautiful.
I was greedy for this flying and uninhibited beauty, and I hugged Xiaobo with a little strength on my arms. Xiaobo understood what I meant and knew that I was up to this challenge. He started to let go of his speed and concentrate on playing against the opponent.
The other party obviously played a lot and was very familiar with the roads in the city. They consciously led Xiaobo to the road with less traffic flow. As the traffic flow decreased, their speed became faster and faster.
I think our speed has exceeded 140 kilometers per hour, which gives the illusion that we are really flying in the wind. For a moment, I have the urge to let go of Xiaobo, and let life stop forever at this moment of lightness, beauty and unrestrainedness. middle.
I wondered in a trance, is it because of this hallucination
Xiaobo's car is better than the other party's, but the other party's driving skills are better than his. The ruthlessness hidden in Xiaobo's temperament was forced out, and he gradually felt a life-threatening feeling. The speed was still rising. The opponent was not afraid at all, and followed Xiaobo to speed up, and using a corner, his skills surpassed Xiaobo again.
Xiaobo's technology is not good. At extreme speed, the car drives a little drifting. If there is a slight accident, we will definitely crash the car, but I don't feel afraid. It's not entirely external persecution, but also our original character.
The two motorcycles ran in tandem for a while, and suddenly heard a siren blaring in the distance. The person in front slowed down, and Xiaobo also slowed down. When passing a car repair shop, the other party turned in. , stopped the car, Xiaobo also parked the car with him, it seems that the racing car is so sympathetic, and wants to get to know each other and make friends.
He and Xiaobo took off their helmets, saw both sides clearly, froze for a moment, and both laughed.
Zhang Jun said with a smile, "Brother Xiaobo's car is really nice."
Xiaobo said with a smile: "The car is not as good as the technology."
Zhang Jun's girlfriend's face was pale, but her expression was very excited: "It's so exciting!" She reached out to Xiaobo and introduced herself cheerfully, "I'm Zhang Jun's son, I watched you play last time and thought you were weak and scholarly. I didn't expect to play with cars so hard."
Xiaobo smiled and shook hands with her, and said humbly, "Not as good as Zhang Jun."
Zhang Jun's girlfriend looked at me and asked Xiaobo, "What's the name of Xiaobo's horse?"
She seemed to be curious about what Xiaobo's girlfriend looked like. I didn't want to take off the helmet, but I didn't want people to think that I was different, so I could only take off the helmet and nodded at her with a smile. Without concealing his disappointment, he probably didn't expect to be an unattractive little girl with glasses and a ponytail.
Xiaobo smiled and said, "She is Luo Qiqi, not a girlfriend, but a friend."
The woman's expression seemed to say, thankfully not! She said enthusiastically: "There are many beautiful girls in our unit. I will introduce one to Brother Xiaobo, so that you are satisfied. What does Brother Xiaobo like?"
Xiaobo was stunned for a while. He probably didn't expect that Zhang Jun's new girlfriend and the previous one had such a big difference in personality. Zhang Jun wrapped his arms around her waist, slammed his girlfriend into his arms, and flicked her nose with a smile: "Don't be too busy, Brother Xiaobo wants beautiful women."
I closed my eyes and went to sleep, thinking that you will call me after the symposium.
Xiaobo said: "We still have some things to talk about another day."
I immediately opened my eyes happily, or Xiaobo knew what I wanted.
He put a helmet on me, adjusted the straps carefully, and asked me in a low voice, "Is it tight?"
I shook my head and he put the helmet on himself after he helped me fix it.
After the motorcycle drove out, I could still see the beautiful little red dress in the rearview mirror of the motorcycle, her hands were clinging to his neck, and her body was close to his body.
My head rested lightly on Xiaobo's back, Xiaobo was about to speed up, I tugged at his clothes, and he slowed down again. I'm afraid, when the feeling of flying confuses my senses again, I will really let go and pursue the freedom of flying.
The mall was about to close in half an hour, and Xiaobo was worried that there wasn't enough time, but I quickly made a decision. I chose a dress with white dots on a red background and a big bow at the waist. I didn't think about my choices, but, deep down, I think I understood why I made them, and there are things I don't need a psychologist like Freud to explain. The red is because of Zhang Jun's girlfriend; the bow is because of his sister.
I turned around in front of Xiaobo, and the skirt opened like a flower.
"is it okay?"
Xiaobo nodded in amazement: "Qi Qi has really grown up."
I retorted: "I never felt small."
He looked at my feet and said, "Should buy another pair of shoes."
I was excited: "I want high heels."
He laughed: "You've never worn high heels before, right? Can you walk? If you fall, I'm not responsible."
I stared at him, he smiled and ignored me.
I picked out a pair of white high-heeled sandals and put them on awkwardly. The moment I got up, I suddenly felt like I was a woman.
I don't know if every girl's transformation into a woman starts with high heels, because wearing them, we can no longer walk swaggeringly, we can no longer climb over walls and trees, we have to walk slowly, and before we know it, we Feminine and soft.
The next day, my parents and I asked for leave, saying that there was a classmate’s birthday in the evening and we wanted to play later, and my father and mother agreed immediately. I was the first in the class in the final exam. In the hearts of parents, the first child in the class will never do anything bad.
Dad also specially said: "Play when it's time to play, and learn when it's time to learn. In summer vacation, you can let go of playing; when school starts, you can work hard for the high school entrance examination."
I followed Xiaobo's instructions and went to find him "on the water side".
After arriving at the ballroom, I found that the ballroom was not open. I was puzzled for a moment, and then immediately understood. Because parents and teachers often come in and out of the dance hall, I am afraid that I will meet acquaintances, and I will definitely not be willing to learn dance in the hall. Maybe I will just pick up a secluded road tooth. I didn't expect Brother Li to be so solemn and close for one night.
When I saw that Potter changed into a black suit, I realized that it was not just Brother Li who was solemn. I suddenly became nervous, Xiaobo smiled and said, "Your clothes and shoes are kept in Brother Li's office. I'll wait for you outside."
Brother Li also smiled: "Qi Qi is going to grow up."
Although the squid restrained his stinky mouth, he kept winking at me and smiling.
I was embarrassed by their laughter and shouted, "If you laugh again, I won't dance anymore."
Brother Li, holding Xiaobo in his left hand and squid in his right hand, said as he walked out, "My face has softened, and I'm a little girly. I finally didn't mix with us as a tomboy."
I walked into his office with a straight face, my dress and shoes on the sofa. I changed my clothes, put on my shoes, stood in front of the mirror and looked around, thinking about the beautiful woman beside Zhang Jun, and sighed in frustration.
Suddenly someone knocked on the door.
"Who?"
"The boss asked me to comb your hair for you."
I opened the door, and the woman at the door was carrying a large plastic box.
I let her in and she asked me, "What do you want to do with your hair?"
"I don't know, whatever."
She looked at me carefully for a while, smiled and let me sit down and started combing my hair. I was fiddled with by her for more than half an hour. When she was impatient, she smiled and said: "Okay, you can take a look first, if not Satisfied, I will replace it."
I went to the mirror and put on my glasses. The girl in the mirror had black hair neatly tied into a bun, a smooth forehead, a slender neck, and a white fake magnolia flower embedded in her black hair. It echoes the head and foot of the shoes Xiaobo chose for me.
The woman stood behind me laughing and said softly, "I have fake pearl jewelry here. If you don't mind, it will look better on it."
I have been conquered by her wonderful hand, and immediately said happily: "I don't mind."
She took out a pair of pearl earrings, put them on for me, looked at me carefully, took them off for me, and said, "You look so clean, so clean that you don't need any jewelry to wear, that's all."
I didn't understand what she meant by being clean, so I just said, "Then don't wear it."
She began to pack her things: "I thought I was going to wear makeup, so I brought a bunch of things, but now I find that I can't use them."
I said, "Thank you."
She smiled and said, "Don't thank me, thank yourself. It's nice to be young, with bright eyes, smooth skin, and one flower is enough, no grooming needed."
As I walked out, she caught up from behind and asked, "Are you very short-sighted?"
I said, "Three Baidu."
"Can you see clearly if you take off your glasses?"
"Well, it's fine to walk, but it will be difficult to recognize people."
She took the glasses off the bridge of my nose: "That's enough."
The lights in the ballroom were dim, and I lost my glasses again. The world in front of me became hazy, and everything seemed to be separated by fog. I suddenly felt very nervous. Human beings have an instinctive fear of the unknown.
I stepped on high heels and walked with small steps, as if I saw a figure, but no one could see it clearly. Suddenly, a person stood in front of me, but he did not speak.
I was very disturbed and began to regret letting that sister take my glasses, when I suddenly heard Brother Li's laughter: "Oh my God! Did I see the wrong person? Is this Qi Qi? People really need clothes, and horses need saddles. "
Only then did I confirm that the person in front of me was Xiaobo, I immediately took a few steps and reached out to him, he held my hand, I felt at ease, no matter how dark the world is, as long as he is by my side, he will take care of me. I see clearly.
I said embarrassedly: "My sister who helped me comb my hair took my glasses away. I can't see clearly."
He said, "It's okay, I'll take you with me."
He took me to the dance floor. I was so nervous that my palms were sweating. He said, "Let's dance the easiest slow four first."
"Is it difficult? You know my cerebellum is an idiot."
"As long as you can walk, you can jump."