A Book Dedicated to Our Youth

Chapter 31: Farewell is in sight (1)

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You say Hong Kong is too small to let go of your dreams

You have inspired us so much in our green years

If you could turn back time

Please take us to the sky

1

deep love

Hard work is nothing, long wait is nothing.

As long as the shock settles down, everything can come as you wish.

However, life is a tragicomedy, giving and receiving do not correspond.

It's time for the annual art festival again. One of the two programs in our class is a sketch by Song Chen and the others, and the other is Guan He's Erhu. Guan He invited me to perform with her, and I laughed: "Impossible, I have no talent for literature and art."

Guan He smiled and said, "You just need to sing along with the music, just like singing karaoke normally."

I still shook my head, she gave me a deep analysis of the reason she wanted to do this: "The senior high school entrance examination is coming soon, after the senior high school entrance examination, I don't know if we can enter the same school, even if we enter the same school, the possibility of us being in the same class is probably not the same. It's very small. Maybe over time, you and I will naturally become distant. I just want to leave a memory for our tablemates this year. Maybe one day, when you watch your daughter perform singing and dancing in the auditorium, you will suddenly remember I, remembered that there was a girl who sang with you. After high school, I will concentrate on my studies and no longer participate in these cultural activities. This is probably the last performance in my middle school years. I want to make it special. This is My graduation gift to myself and to you."

Qiong Yao's words were terrible, but what was even more terrible was that I was moved, and I said, "When the time comes, you will be embarrassed, so don't blame me."

Guan He understood that I had agreed, and said with a smile, "It's okay, I didn't plan to win the prize."

Zhang Jun seemed to be released, but he would miss classes from time to time. The teachers knew that he must have been asked by the police for questioning again, so he didn't even need a leave of absence.

When Zhang Jun was in school, he always had a calm face and looked like he was thinking about a problem. I suspect that even when he was not at the police station, he was thinking about how to answer the police's questioning. The problems he is facing now are not easier than before. He may not have done much, but he knows a lot. It is not an easy choice whether to talk about loyalty or not.

Zhang Jun is still the same Zhang Jun, as slack as before, but the eyes of several demons in class (7) have all changed. He is very quiet in the self-study class, and he is very honest when listening to the class. Anyway, suddenly, Zhang Jun becomes a unique deterrent.

Hao Jian still didn't come to school. Although the most gossip classmates didn't know his news, everyone judged that what he committed must be much more serious than Zhang Jun.

Tong Yunzhu often goes to Zhang Jun. When Zhang Jun is not thinking about problems with a calm face, he must be with her.

Everyone often sees Zhang Jun and Tong Yunzhu together, but never sees him with his girlfriend Chen Yinan. I have a feeling that Zhang Jun should be dumped again. Sure enough, it didn't take long for news from the high school that Chen Yinan and Zhang Jun broke up. Her way of breaking up was very literary and artistic, compared with the first two girlfriends, and it was very much in line with the public's expectations for young literary women.

That day, Song Chen and the others were discussing the lines, and Guan He and I were discussing what song we should sing. The noise in the corridor suddenly disappeared, and a few girls ran in and asked apologetically, "Can you listen to the radio for a while?"

We all nodded in bewilderment, thinking that there was an emergency in the school, and the school leader was going to speak.

They turned on the radio and immediately heard the school radio host's emotional voice echoing in the classroom: "The following song was on-demand by our former radio station director Chen Yinan to her good friend Zhang Jun, and she wanted to say three words to him. The first sentence is 'Thank you', the second sentence is 'Goodbye', and the third sentence is 'I'm sorry'. Let's enjoy Hong Kong singer Chen Shuhua's "Rolling Red Dust" together."

You were inadvertent at first

I am indifferent to the youth

Love in the red dust

Just because of the stalemate of life in a hurry

Think it's the world's fault

or past-life causation

all life

Don't hesitate to exchange for a momentary exchange of yin and yang

easy come and go

decades of travel

Easy to separate, difficult to separate

The eternal sorrow of love and hate

should belong to your heart

It still holds my chest tight

For the hand that turns the clouds and rains behind the face of the earthly transformation

easy come and go

decades of travel

Easy to separate, difficult to separate

The eternal sorrow of love and hate

So you who don't want to go

to say goodbye to me who is gone

To this day, there are still vague whispers that follow our legend

I often go in and out of karaoke halls, but this is the first time I listen to this song. The song is really nice, but I can think of "it should belong to your heart, but it still holds my chest tightly" is Chen Yinan, "so you who don't want to leave, you have to say goodbye to me who has disappeared" is Zhang Jun - I've never heard of a song full of sadness. In the song, I heard a sense of joy and kept laughing, and Guan He also bit his lip and smiled.

A girl called from the corridor: "Zhang Jun is downstairs, and he heard it too."

All the people in the classroom rushed to the corridor, leaned over to the window and looked down. Guan He also pulled me out.

On the cement road next to the poplar forest, Zhang Jun and Tong Yunzhu walked side by side. The loudspeakers on the campus were playing songs, and the small speakers in each classroom were also playing songs, like a chorus.

"...to this day, there are still vague whispers in the world, following the legends of the two of us... It's easy to come and go, hard to go, decades of life travel, easy to separate and difficult to reunite, the eternal sorrow of love and hate... "

I couldn't see what Zhang Jun's expression was. I only saw him and Tong Yunzhu standing on the road, turned and walked away from the teaching building. I guess he also foresees that there are a lot of people waiting to see him in the corridor of the junior high school. .

The girls were very moved when they heard it. They thought about it and whispered. In an instant, a love triangle between Zhang Jun, Chen Yinan, and Tong Yunzhu was born. Well, there was also a non-staff member Hao Jian, a four-corner romance.

Guan He's face was on my shoulder, and his whole body was shaking with laughter. I was laughing too, but I laughed ridiculously, but I suddenly remembered that there is actually a non-starring star - Guan He, and a super passerby - Luo Qiqi.

There was still a smile on his face, but his heart was filled with bitterness. How lucky is the girl who can wave goodbye to Zhang Jun in a chic way, why don't I want to say goodbye

The feelings of this age should be like unpredictable youth, like it, it is a moment; dislike it, it is also a moment. I like it because of a silhouette on his glass window, and I don't like it because of his childish words; I like it because of a certain look in his eyes, and I don't like it because of a certain action of his...

The classmates around are also like this. I like Mr. A this semester, and maybe I like Mr. B next semester. While falling out of love, I am in love at the same time, but why am I not like this? After so many years, I have been resolutely estranged from Zhang Jun, but I have always paid attention to him, and felt sad for him.

"The following is the poetry appreciation, the poetry selected for you today is... "

I walked into the classroom, pulled the switch cord, turned off the radio, and said to Guan He, "Why don't we just sing this song, it doesn't sound too high."

"When the whole auditorium is bursting with laughter, Zhang Jun will come to trouble us."

"Afraid of him? Isn't he just here to entertain everyone? He is more entertaining than an entertainment star this year. It will be a Hong Kong police and bandit movie for a while, and a Taiwan Qiong Yao drama for a while. I think we should give him a 'Best Entertainment Award of the Year'. ."

Song Chen and Li Shan, who heard me talking, all burst into laughter.

Guan He said with a smile, "As expected of a master in the debate competition! Fortunately, your personality is not aggressive, otherwise whoever quarrels with you can win? I was ridiculed to death by you, and I have to laugh with you."

"Then let's sing this song? Even if we don't win the award, we can still make a lot of laughs with Zhang Jun's Dongfeng."

Guan He couldn't breathe with laughter: "Impossible, as soon as I got to the level of the dean, it was wiped out. Our dean hates students to follow the popular style of Hong Kong and Taiwan. Fortunately, the principal of No. 1 Middle School is not him, otherwise No. 1 Middle School is definitely similar to a concentration camp."

I said to her seriously: "Don't choose revolutionary songs for me, I can't sing them; don't be national songs, I can't sing them."

Guan He nodded worriedly.

I read my own novels by myself, and let her figure out a way. It's better if she can't figure it out and give up on me.

Because Xiaobo entered the sprint stage of the college entrance examination, his studies were heavy, and because I wanted to prepare for a cultural performance with Guan He, I did not go to Xiaobo for a long time.

Every Monday, the school holds a solemn flag raising ceremony. The high school department is on the left side of the square, and the junior high school department is on the right side of the square. When the national flag is raised, they pay tribute to the national flag at the same time, but after the national flag is raised, they each conduct their own one-week academic summary.

But today, very abnormally, the school gathered the students from the junior high school and the high school together, and the principal started to speak.

"... In the future, the school must strengthen the construction of study style. The recent bad incidents in the school have seriously affected the reputation of No. 1 Middle School. The school has decided to deal with it seriously, so it has decided to give the following students the following sanctions."

The vice-principal in charge of the school's discipline took a list and began to announce: "Hao Jia in the third grade (3) class will be punished with serious demerits, expelled from school, and ordered to drop out; Probation for half a year; the first year of high school ××× demerit punishment, the second year of high school ×× demerit punishment…”

I just didn't want to hear it, when I suddenly heard, "Xu Xiaobo from Class 3 (6) recorded a major demerit, was expelled from school, and was ordered to drop out..."

I was stunned, I couldn't believe what I heard, I must have heard it wrong! There must be someone with a similar pronunciation to his name!

The principal started to lecture, but I just wanted to grab the list in their hands and take a closer look. I finally waited until the very long morning meeting was over, and immediately rushed to the school's bulletin board, where the black-and-white bulletin had already been posted.

Really small wave!

I turned around and was about to leave. Guan He saw my intention and reminded me: "The principal has spoken, and all the head teachers have to start strict discipline. Don't hit the gun."

I ignored her, slipped out of the school through the side door, called a taxi, and went to the karaoke hall.

The door of the karaoke hall was closed, and I knocked on the door for a long time and no one opened it for me. I could only go to the "On the Water Side", but I didn't expect that the "On the Water Side" also locked the door.

I was so anxious that I slammed the door outside, and finally, the side window opened, and the person inside saw me and called me: "Luo Qiqi."

I rushed over: "Where's Brother Li? Where's Xiaobo?"

He dragged my hand and asked me to turn in: "Wait, I'll call Brother Li and say you're here."

I was walking around on the ground. After he finished the phone call, he came back and said, "Brother Li said he will come over immediately and ask you to wait."

"What exactly happened?"

"I'm just a younger brother, I don't know the details. I only heard that Brother Xiaobo's place was reported to have drugs, and Brother Squid was arrested. Brother Xiaobo seems to have beaten people into cripples. closed."

I slumped on the couch, unable to move.

Hearing the sound of the car horn outside, he hurriedly opened the door, let me out, and signaled to me, "Brother Li is here."

I ran out in a hurry, got into Brother Li and sat down, couldn't wait to ask, "Where's Xiaobo?"

Brother Li's eyes were bloodshot: "I sent someone to escort him out of town."

"Will he be sentenced?"

"I'm trying my best to deal with the injured person, I hope he can tell the police, I didn't see who hit him."

"Is there a good chance of success?"

"There is a door. I sent someone to do both hard and soft for him. His parents are old, and it is a fact that he is disabled. Competing with us, we can't do anything about him now, but unless he is sent to the cell with me, when the limelight this year is over, his family had better prepare a coffin, and I will risk it."

"Why did Xiaobo do this? Are there really drugs in the karaoke hall?"

"You know my rules, never take drugs, the drugs in the karaoke hall are framed, it's my fault, I think that I have been doing business in a disciplined manner for all these years, and it has nothing to do with me whether he looses and cracks down, patronizing and watching children. Liu was so lively, I didn’t expect to be overshadowed by others. Xiaobo couldn’t argue. In order to protect Xiaobo and me, the squid took all the charges on himself. I was a little out of control in those days and said a few things that shouldn’t be said. He pushed Xiaobo too hard, and when he got the news, the squid would definitely go to jail, and Xiaobo became ruthless when he was impulsive."

I stared blankly ahead. Isn't Xiaobo the most restrained and rational person? Didn't he tell me that the outside world is very big, don't let the wings hurt too soon? Isn't the last thing he wants to do is go to college

I murmured, "Xiao Bo was expelled from the school."

Brother Li was very sad, but comforted me and said, "It's okay, as long as this matter is settled, I will look back and find a way to get him a place for the college entrance examination in another place. He will have time to take the test next year, so I will wait for you for a year."

I leaned my head against the glass window and didn't speak.

"Qiqi, let's go back to class." Brother Li's car stopped at the entrance of the middle school, "Jianghu's loyalty is often a face-saving word, just look at Xiaoliu's brothers who betrayed and fled, and you know that everyone He valued his own life more preciously. At the critical moment, no one recognized him as the eldest brother. Xiaobo and Squid can definitely use their bodies to help me block the sword. I am the same to them, so you can rest assured that I will not let them have any trouble. "

I didn't say anything, will everything be okay? Now one is in prison and the other has fled to other places. Does this mean it's okay

Brother Li added: "I know you feel bad, and I wish I could help Xiaobo to take the blame, but you really can't do anything. As long as you study hard in school, you will be the greatest help to us."

When Brother Li said this, the blue veins on his hands jumped.

I nodded, pushed open the car door and got out of the car, then turned around and said, "Notify me of any news, whether it's good... or bad."

"Know."

When I arrived at the door of the classroom, I thought that Teacher Wu was going to punish me, but I didn't expect that she would let me in.

I was not in the mood to think, and sat down in my seat in silence.

Guan He said in a low voice, "I asked for a leave for you, saying that your aunt is patronizing you again. If the teacher asks you after class later, don't reveal your secrets."

I nodded. In fact, she thought too much. Teacher Wu trusts Guan He very much. She absolutely believes her words.

2

forever memories

There are always some times, only after the past, will you find that it has been deeply ingrained in memory.

Years later, at night under a certain lamp, I suddenly think of it and smile quietly.

Those people have gone by boat in the river of time and disappeared without a trace.

In my heart, there is a warmth that crosses the river of time, and it never fades away.

Xiaobo's accident made me suddenly calm down. The rebellion and rebelliousness in the past have all subsided, and I have become very obedient. Everyday life is two o'clock and one line, school and home.

I began to focus all my attention on my studies, because I knew that this was what Xiaobo wanted me to do the most, and every time he saw my good grades, he would be very happy. I can't do him any favors right now, it's the only thing I can do for him.

From the accident of Xiaofei to the accident of Zhang Jun, I have been messing around, not to speak the English that I hate, but the mathematics, physics and chemistry that I like, and I have also missed a lot of classes.

I used a few days to read through the textbook of mathematics, physics and chemistry from beginning to end, tidied up all the knowledge, and thoroughly studied the example problems in the book. Looking at the problems outlined by He with a red pen, the more tricky he is, the more he likes it, because when his mind is blocked, he will concentrate on the problem and consider how to solve the problem from all angles.

Guan He calmly watched me solve the problem one by one, and every time I solved it, I discarded it, and did not retain the method of calculus and argument at all, but she kept my scratch paper.

I am very serious every day, I don't read novels, I don't get distracted, and I always do exercises. Guan He was very surprised and didn't understand why I suddenly changed my temper.

During class time, I would do questions, and during recess, I would prepare for the art performance, and I would be a voluntary audience for the sketches, watching Song Chen and Li Shan rehearse sketches. The script of the sketch was written by Song Chen, but the final shape of the lines is the crystallization of our collective wisdom.

During the rehearsal process, everyone made revisions over and over again. Sometimes they forgot the words, and the performers talked nonsense. On the contrary, the effect was amazing.

After Guan He and I chose from left to right, we chose Teresa Teng's "Seeing the Smoke Again", which was in line with my untalented voice, and there was no obvious word of "love", which touched the taboo of the dean. When they finished their sketches and rested, Guan He and I practiced songs.

Song Chen was very rude to me. When I sang, he often screamed in horror, expressing that he was frightened. He repeatedly said to Guan He, "I have the urge to lock her in the toilet. Who supports me?"

Guan He smiled and said, "I'm more supportive of locking you in."

In the laughter of everyone, I have a very trance feeling, I seem to be no different from every girl of this age, reading, studying, living in harmony with classmates, and playing around. But after the laughter, I knew that I was different from them. They could chase and make trouble without worry, but I would look out the window and think, where is Xiaobo now? When are you coming back

By the time I had memorized Song Chen's sketch lines, the cultural performance finally arrived.

Everything seemed to be the same as when I was in the first year of junior high. The beautiful and handsome men in each class competed with each other through singing and dancing. Lin Lan still used two dances to show off their coquettish style. It is almost certain that class (2) will win an award. However, everything was different from when I was in the first year of junior high. Tong Yunzhu didn't participate, and Xiao Fei didn't show up. Zhang Jun was exhausted from dealing with the police, and it was impossible to play this.

Year after year, theatrical performances are similar; year after year, people are different.

In addition to the program of class (2), the program of class (1) is also quite interesting. However, it is not liked by the dean because the theme is not "healthy and positive", and the program of our class is the most unusual.

It's not that there were no class performances in the past, but our class's sketches were very funny because of the planning of the poet Song Chen and a bunch of people making up lines.

Song Chen embedded the names of everyone in our class into the lines and made up a story to show it. Of course, we all contributed wisdom to this spoof. Song Chen is also very post-modern nonsensical and deconstructionist (even at the time, we didn't know what postmodern, nonsensical, and deconstruction were), and the characters in the play were very wretched, and they didn't go along with each other. Hu Hansan wearing a Lei Feng hat, Jiang Qing wearing a red padded jacket, Andy Lau whose hair was so shiny that he could fall to death, Aaron Kwok wearing a red bat shirt...