A Book Dedicated to Our Youth

Chapter 33: Farewell is in sight (3)

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When I hear the boys and girls around me talking about Hao Jian in complex tones, I often have very complex feelings. What happened to Hao Jian's story, I have no way of knowing, the only thing I can be sure of is that he became addicted to drugs when he was hanging out, and then he became a juvenile labor prisoner step by step. Zhang Jun followed Xiao Liu, and he must have touched drugs and guns, but he was safe and sound. Even I couldn't help but sigh about his wisdom and luck, but if he doesn't change, luck will not be with him forever. . At that time, it will definitely not be a punishment as light as three years of reform through labor.

The squid is not as lucky as Hao Jian. Although the dose is very small, he has no previous criminal record of engaging in drug dealing, drug addiction or possession of drugs, but he is an adult and has caught up with the crackdown, so he was sentenced to a heavy sentence and ten years in prison.

When the verdict was announced, the enchanting hit Xiaobo like a madman. Xiaobo just stood there stupidly and asked her to fight, but no one else dared to pull. I couldn't hold back for a long time, and rushed over, pushing Enchanting aside and blocking Xiaobo.

Enchanting still wanted to hit her, I pointed at her nose and said with a cold face, "You try hitting again, it's not Xiaobo's fault alone, why don't you hit Brother Li?" Pushed me away, pushed me to the ground.

He walked in front of Enchanting, and seemed to be expecting Enchanting to hit him again, but Enchanting didn't hit him again, knelt softly on the ground, and started crying, I wanted to cry when I sat on the ground. Xiaobo stared at the enchanting man in pain for a while, then dragged his steps away. I could only put away my grievance and jumped up to chase him.

Brother Li's store is open again, and everything seems to be back to normal, but the gentle Xiaobo has completely changed.

He used to smoke, just for social purposes, but now, his addiction is getting bigger and bigger, and he often sticks to it. Although he used to talk less, he was still a cheerful person, but now he is terribly silent.

Brother Li said to me: "Xiao Bo is the most delicate and affectionate among us. When he was in the fifth or sixth grade, the squid took him to play and fought because he was scolded for not having a father. He is more rational than anyone else. I understand that it is better for the squid to go in alone than the three of us, but he can't accept it emotionally. The squid himself comforts Xiaobo soberly. When the limelight passes, he will behave well in the prison, and we will clear it up outside. It will definitely reduce the sentence, but Xiaobo just can't get along with himself. He always feels that if he hadn't focused on his studies at the time and could watch it in the store, the squid wouldn't be calculated."

Brother Li and I have no choice but to wait for him to walk through his own heart.

Whenever I have time, I will pester him, asking him to invite me to eat and to play with me. Xiaobo's requirements for me are very simple. No matter how I play or make trouble, I must be admitted to a key high school.

All I could do was get my energy to review. I reviewed frantically day and night for a period of time and walked into the high school entrance examination room.

After the test, I felt very uncertain. I felt that I would definitely be admitted to a high school. As for whether I could go to a key high school, it would depend on luck. Mathematics, physics and chemistry are not bad, but in English, whether I can pass or not is very difficult. My English is very poor. In the first and second grades of junior high school, I was busy and hated the cornucopia, and I hardly studied. .

Brother Li helped me inquire about the results. Before the results were released, they knew that I had been admitted to the high school department of No. 1 Middle School. My parents are still anxiously waiting for my grades, but I have already started to celebrate.

Brother Li held a grand celebration feast for me. In fact, the celebration was second, mainly to make Xiaobo happy.

There are almost no people that I know, and I feel very sad. The squid and enchanting who should have come have not come. No matter how many people who shouldn't come, no matter how much laughter can't hide the sadness.

Xiaobo made a toast when he met everyone. He was so happy that he was admitted to university. I have no idea how much he drank that night. I just remember that everyone was drunk. Brother Li cried and shouted at Xiaobo, "Brother, yes I can't live with you", Xiaobo didn't cry, but he kept vomiting, and he drank again after vomiting. I didn't drink a drop of alcohol, but I seemed to be drunk too. I just kept crying, but I didn't know what I was crying for.

On the day the list was released, my mother dragged me to see the list early in the morning.

Let's first look at the red list on the left to see if I have been admitted to No. 1 Middle School. I watched it with my mother, but she was looking for my name, and I was looking for Zhang Jun's name.

When I first saw Guan He's name, she was ranked 15th. I was speechless. With Guan He's grades, she would not even be in the top ten among future high school students. Then I looked down and saw Zhang Jun's name in more than 200 people. I was shocked and stared at it for a long time. So many things happened. I was also worried about whether he would be admitted to a key middle school. Yes, and it was much better than me.

My mother finally found my name, pointed at my name excitedly, and shouted: "Qiqi, you! You! Here!"

The parents and parents around were all happy for my mother and said, "Congratulations, congratulations!"

I stared at my name and didn't want to say a word. I was counting more than 300 people, and among the last 50 people, I was dangerously squeezed into the first middle school. What's there to be happy about

My mother doesn't care about 3721, she only knew that I was admitted to the first high school, she pulled me excitedly: "Go, call your father, let's go out for dinner tonight."

Because I grew up with my stepfather, my mother had a hard life since she was a child, and she developed the habit of being very frugal. She almost never went out to eat. The essence was stingy, but the mantra was "unsanitary outside". Today, it seems that she is really happy. I don't mind being "unhygienic" at all.

I suddenly thought of Li Shan and Song Chen, dragged my mother to the list on the right, and said, "I want to see my classmates' grades."

Since Xiaobo returned to the city, I have been estranged from Guan He and Song Chen, and I didn't even attend our class's graduation party.

I found their names one by one on the list. Fortunately, all of them were admitted to high school.

Mom asked me, "Have you found your classmate's grades? How's it going?"

"Not bad, two can go to key high schools, and one is probably an ordinary high school."

My mom smiled and said, "Well then, let's go, let's go and call your dad."

"I don't want to go out to eat, you guys are happy, just make some good dishes. I want to find a classmate later." As I was talking, I saw Guan He and her mother huddled in the crowd, and immediately shouted, "Guan He , Guan He."

Guan He took her mother and tried to squeeze over, but there were too many people, so I dragged her mother to squeeze over. Guan He's mother was very thin and a little old, but her facial features still showed the delicateness of her youth. She complained about Guan He. : "I told you early, come early, look, now you can't squeeze in front of you."

I smiled and said, "Should Auntie be nervous about Guan He's grades? I just watched it, and she was admitted to No. 1 Middle School with the fifteenth grade."

When my mother heard it, she admired it very much, and chatted with her mother very enthusiastically, but her mother was not very satisfied. In her words, she felt that Guan He's grades were not good enough.

My mother immediately relayed the gossip I heard in the crowd to Guan He's mother: "This time, the results of the high school entrance examination in No. 1 middle school were not good. I heard that the overall score ranking is the bottom of all key junior high schools. Not a single one of the top ten is from No. 1 Middle School. Just now, several parents said that this was the worst junior high school graduates in the history of No. 1 High School, and they didn’t know how these teachers taught.”

Guan He's mother immediately echoed: "That is, good children have been delayed by them..."

Guan He stuck his tongue out at me and asked me with a smile, "How about you?"

"Reluctantly squeezed into the door of No. 1 Middle School again."

My mother and her mother are having a lively chat, and they seem to hate seeing each other late.

The two of us thought it was crowded and hot, so we left them and ran to talk in the shade in the distance.

Guan He suddenly asked, "How many names did Zhang Jun get admitted to No. 1 Middle School?"

I was shocked and said calmly, "I didn't pay much attention. It seems like two or three hundred. How do you know that he will definitely be admitted to a high school?"

"You didn't care about school later, so you didn't pay attention. He worked hard later! It's like a sudden change of person. When he was in self-study, the people in his class quarreled with him reading a book, and he actually beat them in the back of the classroom. Suddenly, a stool was cracked by him, and the demon kings in class (7) were obedient and obedient. The other slow classes became more distracted and more chaotic when they took the exam; The better, just because Zhang Jun has to concentrate on his studies."

I was silent, suddenly regretted listening to Xiaobo's words to apply for a middle school, I should go to another middle school.

Guan He asked: "What are your plans for the summer vacation? Going out to play? Li Shan said that as long as he was admitted to a high school, his father would take him to Hangzhou for a tour, and Wang Hao's parents would take him back to his hometown to play. After the exam, I will fly to Shanghai Xiaoyao, how about you? What rewards do your parents have?"

"I don't want to go anywhere, how about you?"

Guan He smiled lightly: "I can't go even if I want to. I can only stay at home and help my mother with the housework."

I said, "When you graduate from college, when you earn your own money and spend it yourself, you can play wherever you want."

Guan He smiled: "There are still seven years."

She is probably the one of us who looks forward to the rapid passage of time and the rapid growth of time, and I am probably the only one who does not want to go forward, or even want to go back in time.

If Xiaofei can come back, if the squid can't go to prison, if Xiaobo can successfully take the college entrance examination... There are too many ifs, but unfortunately time is an arrow after a bow, only forward, not backward.

We chatted for a long time, the school gate of No. 1 Middle School was still full of people, I sighed. Guan He said with a smile: "From now on, we have to make trouble until the college entrance examination is released. After the college entrance examination is finished, it is the list of good news for admission to various universities. When it's almost time, it is time for the list of freshmen and freshmen. , Anyway, a summer vacation can't be quiet."

Lin Lan squeezed out of the crowd, and when she saw me, she waved to me with a smile, looked at the lack of a car, and ran over quickly: "Luo Qiqi, congratulations when I saw that you were admitted to a high school."

I just remembered that I didn't seem to have seen her name on the high school admissions list, so I asked, "You don't plan to go to high school? Which high school did you go to?"

She smiled and said, "I applied for a secondary school, and I don't plan to go to high school."

Guan He and I both stayed for a while. In the past few years, secondary school students were quite popular, but now it is very uneconomical to go to secondary school. The academic performance must be very good, and the requirements are higher than those of the key high schools, but after they come out, they can't compare with college students. Therefore, as long as the students from the family background are not difficult, they will not choose secondary schools.

I couldn't hold back and asked, "With your grades, you can definitely go to university, why do you want to go to secondary school?"

Lin Lan glanced at Guan He and said with a smile, "I'm not a good secondary school student. Shen Yuanzhe's sister, Shen Yuansi, also applied for the secondary school."

Guan He was very thoughtful and said to me, "Mom is still waiting for me, I'll go home first." He politely said "goodbye" to Lin Lan and left.

Lin Lan watched her walk away, and the smile on her face faded: "I can't read a little, I'm too tired, it's not the pressure of reading itself, but all aspects. I want to leave home early, leave here, maybe in a few years. , everything will be forgotten."

Lin Lan is a proud girl. When she was in the first year of junior high, she must have imagined herself as a beautiful female college student in a key university, flying freely in the outside world, but now she has not really taken off, so she has restrained her wings.

Does her mother understand that her daughter has completely changed the trajectory of her life because of herself? Probably understand, just like every quarrel and divorce family will understand that their children's grades decline because of them, but when adults are irresponsible and willful, they are no worse than children.

Lin Lan has done her best.

Lin Lan looked at No. 1 Middle School in silence, perhaps sighing that she would never know what the prestigious No. 1 Middle School was like. I looked into the distance silently, there were doves flying in the blue sky, flowers in full bloom under the sun, the colors of summer are always bright, but this is a sad season.

"Lin Lan."

Someone called her across the road. She was Lin Lan's mother. She was dressed stylishly and beautifully. She didn't look like a daughter as big as Lin Lan. Beside her stood a young man with a sturdy body and outstanding temperament.

There were people around them secretly staring at them all the time, and I couldn't help but take a few more glances. Lin Lan seemed to be very sensitive to these things, and immediately noticed it. I immediately apologized: "I'm sorry."

She waved her hand to her mother enthusiastically, and said with a smile, "It's nothing. I hate her very much, but she is my mother. If I don't protect her, there will be no one in this world to protect her." She said goodbye to me. ,"I am leaving, bye!"

She ran to her mother, and I said silently in my heart, "Goodbye!"

Looking at her fading back, I really realized that my junior high school life was over.

When I graduated from elementary school, I walked into No. 1 Middle School full of longing. I always felt that three years was a long time, but I didn't expect it. It was just a blink of an eye.

The first friend I made, Lin Lan, was admitted to a secondary school; my best friend, Xiao Fei, disappeared without a trace. They were among the best students who didn't go to high school. Instead, lazy people like Zhang Jun and I got into high school.

I paced slowly and walked to the karaoke hall. Xiaobo was not in the store, sitting outside the store under the shade of a willow tree smoking a cigarette. When he saw me, he smiled.

I sat next to him, leaning on his shoulder, and he asked, smoking a cigarette, "Sad?"

I keep silent. He smiled and said, "When I graduated from the third year of junior high school and read the list, I also felt that my heart was empty. My classmates who were close to me in the school were all poor students who did not study well. I was the only one who entered high school."

"Take me for a ride."

Xiaobo threw the cigarette, went in to get the keys and helmet, I hugged his waist, put my head on his back, and listened to the motorcycle roaring on the road. His speed is getting faster and faster, and it seems that he can go faster and faster. After a long time, the car stopped, I opened my eyes and saw that we were parked by the river, he took off his helmet and said, "Go and sit for a while."

We sat by the river, Xiaobo stared at the river, and seemed to be thinking about something. I picked up a willow branch and slapped the water while trying to relax as much as possible: "Where are you going to take the college entrance examination next year?"

He lit a cigarette and smoked slowly: "It has always been my dream to go to university, or to be an intellectual, to surpass the environment in which I was born and raised is my dream, although I drink and smoke like other hooligans. Fighting, but I thought in my heart that I was different from them. When Squid and Brother Li became brothers, they imitated Brother Li to get tattoos on their bodies, but I absolutely refused, because I will be a college student in the future, and I shouldn’t have these unclean things.”

"You can definitely go to college."

"Now, my thinking has changed, and I don't want to go to university. Squid's parents are small businessmen with no fixed income. His younger brother is still studying. Brother Li's business needs people. He used to open his first small shop. At that time, the three brothers said that they would conquer the world together, but now there are only two left, and this world still has to be conquered." The smile on his lips suddenly deepened, and he flicked the ashtray and said, "There are too many things to do in front of us, really No time for four years of college."

I tried my best to say calmly: "If you don't study, you won't study anymore. It's not a rare thing to be a college student." This only made me think it was false. It was in the 1990s, the university had not expanded its enrollment, and it was still very difficult to get into the university. , College students are still very valuable and respected, but not like today, college students and Chinese cabbage are sold by the kilogram.

"Do you know why it is difficult for people to transcend the environment they live in? It is not necessarily that he does not work hard, but that people have various emotions and desires and are destined to be influenced by the people and the environment around them, so the ancients said 'Meng's mother moved three times', Modern people say 'Learn from good people to good people, and from bad people to bad people'."

I hurriedly said, "If you don't go to college, you are a bad person. There are too many bad people in this world."

Xiaobo smiled and threw the cigarette into the river, dragged me to stand up, and got on the motorcycle.

After driving for a while, he parked the car in front of a small shop selling toys and led me in. The people inside saw him and immediately greeted him with a smile: "Why is Brother Xiao Bo free today?"

Xiaobo smiled and said, "A Jian, I want to ask you to paint a tattoo for me."

Ah Jian smiled and said, "No problem." Turning around, he took out a picture book, put it on the counter, and turned it page by page to Xiaobo. , or a bird of prey?"

Xiaobo turned a few pages, and he didn't seem to be satisfied. He looked at me and said, "Qiqi, help me draw one."

I was so overwhelmed with sadness that he was saying goodbye to his past self with this gesture, reminding himself of his identity with a tattoo that could not be peeled off for a lifetime.

"Why do you have to get tattoos? They don't look good. Besides, I learned to draw a lot of things. Except for lotus paintings, I can still look at them. Others are not good."

Xiaobo smiled and said, "I will definitely want one. Qiqi, no matter how good you are at drawing, I just want you to draw one for me."

I finally nodded silently. He smiled and said to Ah Jian, "When we have finished drawing the pattern, I will find you again. I want to write in my shop, and you will come back with the tools ready."

Ah Jian naturally agreed.