You say you are no different, you look ordinary
But you pierced our hearts with a single sound
You make us always remember the glasses, the sea, and the high pitch
I remember: how many sad things are in the joke
1
embarrassed happy beijing
Youth is so short, but I met the person I love when the flowers are in full bloom;
Life is so limited, but in the most beautiful years, I was deeply loved by the people I love.
We once fell in love on the top of the mountain; even if the ending is parted on the top of the mountain, I do not regret it.
The only thing I regret is that I didn't love him a little more at the time.
I tossed and turned all night and didn't fall asleep at all. I felt that I should slap Zhang Jun twice, and then I felt that I should slap myself first.
When I woke up in the morning, I felt dizzy and my feet were weak. Fortunately, I went to visit the Beijing Planetarium today, so I won't be too physically exhausted.
Wearing a big cool hat, I hid myself in the crowd and walked away from Zhang Jun, wishing I had an invisibility cloak. I almost thought with grief and indignation, why is this world so weird? Obviously he did something wrong, why does it seem that I am shameful? The reason is the reason, but the action is unequivocally shrinking.
Because I was so sleepy, I couldn't remember what I watched or listened to in the planetarium. I just remember that at the end, the teacher took us to a hall and talked about the reasons for the extinction of dinosaurs.
The ceiling of the hall is oval. When the lights are completely extinguished, the entire ceiling turns into a vast sky, and countless stars twinkle in it, which is unbelievably beautiful.
With the voice of the narrator, we are like being in the universe, witnessing the comet crashing into the earth hundreds of millions of years ago, causing the extinction of the dinosaurs.
This kind of show was originally my favorite, but when I was in the dark, the sea of stars above my head was vast, and the temperature in the museum was pleasant, I fell asleep watching it.
It felt like I slept for a while before someone pushed me to wake up. I opened my eyes immediately and found Zhang Jun sitting next to me.
The people in the hall were half empty, the chairs around were empty, he looked at me silently, and I stared at him with bloodshot head.
Everyone was gone, and we were still in the same pose, staring at each other.
The staff came to urge us: "Classmates, the screening has ended."
Zhang Jun tugged at my sleeve and whispered, "Let's go."
I wandered to the hall with him in a daze, and found that my classmates were buying souvenirs, all kinds of dinosaurs.
He took me over: "Want dinosaurs?"
I nodded and shook my head again, my consciousness was completely confused and I couldn't think at all, so I was torn between hitting him or not.
He bought one of each type of dinosaur and spent a lot of money. Zhen Gongzi joked: "Are you going to go home for a dinosaur exhibition?"
Zhang Jun smiled and said nothing.
When I struggled for a long time and realized that I had missed the best time to attack, I quickly ran away from him and went to look for Lin still: "Why don't you call me when you leave? It's not enough friends!"
Lin still looked behind me and didn't speak. When I turned around, Zhang Jun was like a ghost. He followed me at some point and stood behind me.
When we were in the car, Lin Yi and I were originally sitting together, but when we went back, Zhang Jun took the initiative to ask Lin Yi to change seats and sit next to me.
I thought he had something to say, explanation, apology, quibble... Anyway, no matter what, he should say something so that I can fight back, but he didn't say a word all the way, I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep, seemingly calm, in fact Completely dizzy.
When he went to the cafeteria for dinner, instead of sitting with the boys, he sat next to me and Lin still, and helped me and Lin get ready chopsticks and tissues. Lin still looked at him in amazement, and I couldn't understand it at all. Staring at him, he acted as if nothing had happened and went his own way.
We have been hostile to each other a few days ago, wishing to kill each other with one knife and then hurry up. Yesterday, we were tit-for-tat at dinner, making the table full of embarrassment, but today we made a 180-degree turn, riding together in the car, eating together, not to mention outsiders watching It's weird, I find it weird myself.
Shen Yuanzhe sat over with a dinner plate and asked with a smile, "You can finally get along peacefully, how did you solve the misunderstanding?"
I ate with my head down and kept silent. Zhang Jun smiled and chatted with him about other things. Shen Yuanzhe tried to turn the topic to me and Zhang Jun several times, but Zhang Jun avoided talking about it.
After dinner, I went back to the dormitory building. Everyone still got together to play, but I immediately ran back to my room.
The next day, when I got in the car, I had already sat down with Lin Yu, but Zhang Jun came over as soon as he got in the car and asked to change seats with Lin Yu. This is not a big deal, and Lin still never refuses anyone, so he agreed immediately.
Zhang Jun sat next to me again, and I was confused. Fortunately, my facial expressions were always paralyzed, and outsiders couldn't see it at all.
This day was a visit to Beihai Park and Beijing Zoo. Throughout the day, no matter where I went, he followed me. I ignored him and he didn't speak. If I walk fast, he walks fast. If I walk slowly, he walks slowly. If I talk to Lin still, he stands by and fiddles with the camera. After a while, he stood by and waited silently. Anyway, no matter what I say or do, he no longer mocks me, just keeps following me, making me horrified, not knowing what he wants to do.
On the way, I tried to sneak a few times, but, in group activities, where can I sneak again? After a while, he would be able to find me and continue to follow me like a ghost. Later, I gave up this useless attempt and let him go.
Although it was very strange, he and I got along very peacefully all day, all day!
When he went back in the evening, he still sat next to me, and when he went to eat in the cafeteria, he still sat next to me, Shen Yuanzhe and Lin still stared at him strangely, but he was calm, talking and laughing with them was normal, but not with me. I was just talking, of course, I only talked to Lin Yiran and Shen Yuanzhe, and resolutely ignored him.
On the third day, it was the same. He was always by my side, followed me silently, took care of me silently, but didn't say a word, so that I couldn't say anything.
I'm starting to get a little unbearable. Emotionally, I secretly long for this kind of life to continue, but intellectually, I know that I must never let myself go, otherwise, I will die without a place to be buried.
I'm different from Zhang Jun, Zhang Jun can afford it, I can't.
After dinner, like the previous two days, I immediately went back to the dormitory. I took a shower and thought about it. After taking a shower and changing into a long skirt, I decided to go to Zhang Jun to make it clear.
Zhang Jun, Jia Gongzi, Zhen Gongzi and several boys played on the basketball court, while Huang Wei and a few girls watched the game.
I walked to the edge of the basketball court and stood silently. The seven boys were divided into two groups, competing with asymmetrical strength, but they were very devoted to fighting. Zhang Jun's skills were very outstanding, and Huang Wei and the others kept applauding him.
Yang Jun's basketball was also very good, but unfortunately Yang Jun didn't come, otherwise the two of them would definitely be able to play together.
I thought about it for a while, but I really didn't have the courage to call him over in a loud voice in front of everyone, so I could only turn around and leave silently again, bowing my head, kicking the broken stones on the road while walking.
There were hurried footsteps behind me, and before I could turn around, a man radiating heat had already arrived beside me, it was Zhang Jun. His neck and arms were covered in beads of sweat, his cheeks were a healthy red after strenuous exercise, and he smelled of a very masculine and healthy boy.
For a moment, I don't know why, but my face became hot, I turned my head quickly, stared in front of my feet, and walked with big strides.
He didn't speak, just followed me in silence.
I walked for a while, the throbbing in my heart slowly subsided, the pace slowed down, and he also slowed down naturally.
I stopped, turned to look at him, and he stopped immediately.
I hid all the miscellaneous feelings in my heart to the deepest, and said rationally and calmly: "I have accepted your apology, don't follow me again tomorrow, I will forget all the unhappiness, and we will just be everything between us. It didn't happen, everyone played their own way."
He stared at me, his chest heaving violently, as if something was about to break free and jump out, but after a while, he calmed down again and said lightly, "I'm going to play." After speaking, he immediately ran to the field.
I let out a long breath that was pressing on my chest, and immediately turned around and walked in the opposite direction. I was afraid that I would regret it if I was one step late.
At night, I lost sleep again, and there was a lot of struggle in my heart. For a while, reason prevailed, affirming that my decision was correct, and for a while, emotions prevailed, mocking myself for asking for trouble, why bother
However, it doesn't matter what you think now, because as proud as Zhang Jun, he will only choose to turn and leave immediately.
In the middle of the night, it rained heavily, the thunder rumbled, and the raindrops slammed against the window. I felt a little sleepy, but all of them were knocked away immediately, and I could only lie down and listen to the wind and rain.
When I woke up in the morning, I was a little top-heavy, thinking that I would see Zhang Jun later, I suddenly felt very weak.
After washing up, I went to have breakfast with Lin still. When we got to the cafeteria, just as we were going to have lunch, someone called me, "Luo Qiqi."
It was Zhang Jun's voice, and it took me three seconds to turn back.
Zhang Jun's face was not very good, as if he hadn't slept well, he had no expression, and said very calmly, "I've already helped you and Lin still make breakfast."
Before I could speak, Lin still said with a smile, "Thank you." I could only follow him, walked to the table in a daze and sat down. Shen Yuanzhe, who was sitting beside him, smiled and nodded at me, his face was not very good, it seemed Didn't sleep well either.
I eat breakfast like a dream, and I have no idea what I ate.
When I got to the car, Lin still wanted to sit next to me when Zhang Jun stretched his arms on the back of the chair, blocking her: "I'm sorry, I'll be occupying this seat for a long time."
Lin still froze for a moment, then smiled, walked to the back and sat down.
Zhang Jun sat next to me, and I turned my head and looked out the window, pretending to concentrate on studying the scenery outside the car window, but my heart was up and down.
The car was running on the highway, some students in the carriage were singing, some were chatting and laughing, but Zhang Jun remained silent.
I kept brewing up the courage to turn back, but I didn't have the courage. When my neck was about to become a fossil and the glass was about to melt when I saw it, I finally gathered up the courage and looked back calmly, planning to have a fight with Zhang Jun. After a serious conversation, he found that Zhang Jun leaned his head on the back of the chair and fell asleep.
My false calm turned into lost resentment. I was tangled and tangled over there, and my neck was sore from the entanglement, but people knew nothing about it, and I slept very sweetly.
However, the resentment soon dissipated.
On a summer morning, beams of sunlight came in through the car window and shone on his face. The windows of the car are dark blue, and the light is filtered into different shades of blue. As the car moves, the shades of blue are jumping happily, but he is extremely quiet, grazing in a crystal light. He fell asleep peacefully and sweetly in the overflowing leaps and brilliance.
Suddenly, a scene from many years ago came back to my mind, the bright summer sun was shining through the treetops, the river was rushing by, he lay on the big stone and fell asleep quietly, the warm wind blew through our fingers. Pointy, very warm, very warm...
It turned out that before we knew it, so many years had passed, and we had become high school students who felt out of reach at the time.
My heart is as soft as the petals of April, and I will shed tears when I touch it lightly. I quietly close the curtains of the car to block the sunlight, lean my head on the back of the chair, and stare at him quietly.
It's been a long, long time since I've really seen him, and over the years, I've either swept my eyes away from him, or just followed his back or profile out of the corner of my eye.
He slept for a long time and I watched him for a long time.
Without any warning, he suddenly opened his eyes, the eyes of the two suddenly met each other, I was stunned for a moment, and immediately turned my head in panic, but I immediately realized that I couldn't make too many marks, so I pretended to be uncomfortable after sitting for a long time, deliberately. Rubbing my neck, I turned my head around, as if the moment he opened his eyes just now, I just turned my head right in front of him.
The eyes of the two will always meet, but they will always move away quickly with a slight touch. I don't know whether he is panicking or I am panicking. I always feel like I should say something, but I have forgotten all the things that were brewing before.
He said softly: "It's still an hour away, sleep for a while. It takes strength to climb the Great Wall."
His tone was gentle, and my heart was soft, so although I turned my head indifferently, I closed my eyes obediently.
I was still thinking about things in my mind. For a while it was something from my childhood, and for a while it was the picture just now. However, I didn't sleep well last night, and I really fell asleep after thinking about it.
I felt the brakes suddenly, and when I woke up, I found that I had reached the Great Wall.
The driver stopped and fell back and forth a few times, and finally stopped the car.
The Great Wall was right in front of them, and the students grabbed their backpacks excitedly and rushed out of the car with a hula.
When Zhang Jun and the others were almost gone, they stood up slowly and took our backpacks from the luggage rack. I was about to pick them up, but he opened his backpack, pressed my small backpack, and put it all away. into his backpack.
"what are you doing?"
He didn't say a word, Shi Shiran finished everything and put the backpack on his shoulders: "Let's go! Go climb the Great Wall!"
I had no choice but to follow him out of the car with both hands free. After Teacher Xing bought the tickets, she decided to lead the team, the physics teacher looked at the center, and Shen Yuanzhe and Zhang Jun pressed the back.
In the team of more than 30 people, some walked fast, some walked slowly, gradually widening the distance.
I quickly understood that Zhang Jun didn't kindly help me with the backpack, but that my water, food, and money were all with him, and now I was following him like a ghost.
However, it didn't take long for me to think about these things, because this was the first time I saw the Great Wall with my own eyes. I am very excited that the Great Wall in textbooks and on TV has finally arrived at my feet!
I, Lin Yiran, Zhang Jun, and Shen Yuanzhe were talking while climbing the Great Wall. Zhang Jun not only did not attack me today, but he was very supportive. Before I knew it, I also started talking to him. He has climbed the Great Wall twice, and told us about his interesting experiences in the past. Poor, Lin and I were both amused by him and kept laughing. All the barriers seemed to disappear in the laughter.
Lin still saw that I was very happy and very happy, and became very lively. When I was tired from climbing, I jokingly asked Zhang Jun if she could also enjoy the backpack service. Zhang Jun immediately carried her bag over without saying a word.
Lin still blinked at me, stuck out his tongue and smiled. Instead of saying thank you to Zhang Jun, he saluted me and said "thank you".
"Fuck you, don't be cheap!" I cursed, but my heart was warm and happy, and I couldn't help laughing.
Zhang Jun saw me laugh, and he kept laughing too.
The four of us chatted and laughed, crawling and crawling, so it was really "pressed".
When waiting for the return trip, Zhang Jun had a wild temperament and did not want to take the avenue again. He proposed to turn over from the Great Wall and take the wild trail outside.
Lin was still a little scared, and I tried to incite her: "My sports class is the worst, I can walk, and you can definitely walk too. If I encounter a beast, I promise to be the last one to block you."
Lin still hesitated, looking at Shen Yuanzhe inquiringly, obviously Shen Yuanzhe's opinion played a decisive role, Shen Yuanzhe said, "We still don't..."
I immediately begged flatteringly: "It's boring to walk the same way, I know you've always helped me, please!"
Shen Yuanzhe didn't answer for a while. His eyes were hidden behind his glasses. Under the sunlight, the mirrors reflected the white light, so he couldn't see the contents of his eyes clearly.
He said: "Well then, we will violate the discipline once, only this time, but let's talk about it first, if Teacher Xing and Teacher Wang find out, it's all my and Zhang Jun's idea, you two are forced to of."
"No problem, no problem."
I laughed, and immediately dragged Lin still to find a good place to turn.
Walking in the wild, the scenery is different from the Great Wall.
In front of the wild nature, Lin still quickly forgot his worries and fears. When he saw a cluster of beautiful wildflowers, he took a photo; when he saw a handsome tree, he took a group photo. Play more than I do.
When Shen Yuanzhe was taking pictures for Lin still, Zhang Jun asked me if I wanted to take pictures. I smiled and shook my head. He also understood why I didn't want to take pictures anymore. What I wanted to say, I ran away immediately.
It had rained at night, and many places were slippery, but Lin still walked tremblingly. Shen Yuanzhe, who had always been careful, naturally took on the task of taking care of her. When it came to difficult places, he would often hold her hand.
Zhang Jun tried to help me several times, but I refused. I was jumping up and down by myself. This kind of wild interest requires thrills. Without this thrills, the interest will be greatly reduced.
The four of us were climbing and wading in the wild mountains and ridges, and finally we were about to go down the mountain. Lin still asked Shen Yuanzhe to take some photos for her, and the two of them have been busy choosing photos from various angles.
I stood at the foot of the mountain and looked up at the heights. The mountains are continuous, ups and downs, and the momentum is very magnificent. It makes people feel a kind of arrogance naturally in their hearts. This kind of feeling cannot be truly understood no matter how many books I read.
I bent over, picked up two intact pine cones from the ground, and put them in the bag.
"Luo Qiqi."
Zhang Jun stood under a tree and called me, I turned around, he smiled and said, "Come here."
I walked over with a smile, and he suddenly kicked the big tree, and the man quickly retreated. As the trunk swayed, the water on the leaves shook off, like a light rain.
"Yeah!" I screamed and hid, almost slipping. Zhang Jun took the opportunity to hold my hand, and I laughed while knocking on him, "My hat and clothes are wet, what do you say?"
Zhang Jun didn't say a word, smiled and held my hand and walked down the mountain. I wanted to let go of his hand, but he didn't let go. At first, I didn't realize it, thinking he didn't understand what I meant: "No need to help, I I can go by myself."
He didn't seem to hear him at all, his thin lips were tightly pursed, his face was serious, his eyes were just staring at the front, and when I squeezed my hand several times, but he squeezed it tighter and tighter, I finally reacted with hindsight. It's not mutual help among classmates.
My heart started beating wildly, so sweet and flustered that I wanted to look at him, but I didn't dare to look at him. There seemed to be countless sweet, alcoholic chocolate bubbles surging out of my body, making people feel I became dizzy and forgot everything. I only knew to follow him. Even if he took me off the cliff, I was afraid that I would follow him.