A Book Dedicated to Our Youth

Chapter 47: Looking back at the landscape of life (2)

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Perhaps, my actions have invisibly revealed my intentions, Zhang Jun's expression is no longer so serious and nervous, and the corners of his brows and eyes are full of smiles.

He suddenly said: "During the fortune-telling that day, Huang Wei asked me to say the names of the four girls. Actually, I just wanted to say your name, but I couldn't say it. I just wanted to say Lin Yinan's name first, and then your name. more natural."

"Then why didn't you say it later?"

He asked with a smile, "Didn't you say my name? You really didn't like any boy at the time?"

Both of us fell silent, our bodies and minds immersed in unspeakable sweetness. That kind of sweetness that penetrates the heart is impossible to forget no matter how many years have passed.

When we were almost at the bottom of the mountain, I remembered that there were still two people: "Oh, what about Shen Yuanzhe and Lin Yiran? We lost them!"

I don't know what's funny about what I said. Zhang Jun was extremely happy. The smile in his eyes was brighter than the summer sun. He smiled and pointed to the top: "They have already returned to the right path."

I looked up, isn't it! They were standing on the edge of the Great Wall, looking around at us, and I immediately shook Zhang Jun's hand, hoping they didn't see anything.

Zhang Jun and I turned back to the Great Wall. He took out his camera and handed it to Shen Yuanzhe, "Help me and Qiqi take a picture."

I stood up immediately and didn't notice that he had just called me Qiqi: "I don't take pictures."

Zhang Jun tried to catch me but didn't catch me, I was already dashing down the steps.

I ran down the mountain in one breath and found that although we came back late, the teacher and classmates were shopping for souvenirs, so no one cared.

I also gathered at the stall to see the eighteen Arhats carved from walnut, cloisonné bracelets, and glass snuff bottles... I picked up and played with each one for a while, and put them back as they were.

Zhang Jun stood behind me and asked, "Do you like it?"

I shook my head. At that time, I liked photographer Lang Jingshan and writer Sanmao. What I admired was a toothbrush and a pair of cloth shoes. I traveled all over the world. Human beings have limited possessions of external objects, but the human mind can record the beauty of everything in the world. .

Every booth is similar, I don't buy anything, so I quickly stand aside with Zhang Jun and wait for everyone.

"Aren't you going to buy anything?"

Zhang Jun shook his head: "I only climbed the Great Wall twice, this is the third time. I used to like to buy these gadgets when I was a child, but now I have no interest."

"You've been here so many times, why are you still going to summer camp?"

Zhang Jun didn't answer, just stared at me with a smile.

My cheeks were hot, but there was a sneer in my mouth.

The sadness in Zhang Jun's eyes flashed away, and he said softly, "Let's take a photo, just one."

I shook my head and categorically refused: "I don't like taking pictures."

"Qiqi, nothing I said before came from my heart, you have been reluctant to look at me, I just want to force you to stop turning a blind eye to me, of course, I also gave up a little bit of myself, thinking that if you don't like it, then let me You can hate it completely, at least you have me in your heart."

I smiled silently.

Until the teacher asked us to gather to count the number of people, he failed to convince me to take a photo with him on the Great Wall. In fact, it's not that I don't believe him, and it's not that I hold grudges, but... I feel inferior, so inferior that I don't want to record my figure by his side.

After getting in the car, Zhang Jun put away the camera, not knowing whether to say to himself or to me: "Next time, we will come to Beijing to play all the attractions again, wash away all unpleasant memories, and then go back to Beijing. Take pictures on the Great Wall."

Because I was young, I always felt that the time ahead was very long, and everything was possible to come over again, but I didn't know the river of time, which could only flow forward and never came again.

I didn't get a good rest last night, and today I climbed the Great Wall for another day. I sat down and fell asleep.

Half asleep, I heard Teacher Xing's voice, as if asking Zhang Jun which places in Qingdao are worth visiting and which places are not worth visiting, Zhang Jun answered them one by one.

I gradually became sober. It turned out that he had also been to Qingdao. Could it be that he joined the summer camp just for fun

After a while, Teacher Xing's voice disappeared. Zhang Jun asked, "Are you awake?"

I opened my eyes: "How do you know I'm awake?"

He smiled: "When you really fall asleep, your head will fall straight down, like a little turtle with a shrunken head."

I was embarrassed and silent.

Probably as Xiaofei said, when I don't laugh or talk, I always give people a feeling of indifference and alienation. Zhang Jun immediately dared not joke again: "Are you angry?"

I smiled. "No. Why are you so sensitive? Is it so scary for me to be angry?"

He didn't say a word, and after a while he said, "It's not that you are scary, it's me."

These words are not sweet words, but my heart is sweet, and the corners of my mouth can't help but bend like a crescent moon.

"Qiqi, tomorrow morning, let's have breakfast together?"

I didn't even think about it, I blurted out with a smile: "Okay."

After arriving in Qingdao, I ate better than Beijing, and every day was seafood, but I lived worse than Beijing. There were four people in a room. I, Lin Yan, and Teacher Xing shared the same room with another girl.

There was a teacher living in the house, Lin still and the others were more cautious, but I felt uncomfortable all over my body.

After so many years, I still have no way to completely eliminate the psychological shadow of my teacher, so I can only go back to the house as late as possible to avoid contact with the teacher.

Zhang Jun no longer lives in the same room with Shen Yuanzhe, but with Jia Gongzi and Zhen Gongzi.

Because I played with Zhang Jun, I gradually got to know Zhen Gongzi and Jia Gongzi.

In the evening, the four of us would always get together to play pig archery. Zhang Jun played this very well. The two sons often ran around the corridor, opened the door of each dormitory, and called to the inside: "I'm a pig."

The two of them couldn't play with Zhang Jun, so they bullied me. Often the two of them just opened the door and called to the people in the dormitory: "I'm a pig." After a while, I had to open the door and say to them: "I'm a pig too."

The next time they lost, Zhang Jun asked them to say, "I'm a dirty and smelly lazy pig who hasn't bathed for three months."

Or, seeing that I was about to lose, he simply gave up on himself, let himself lose, and turned into him opening the door of the dormitory and saying to his classmates and teachers: "I am a skinless, faceless, skinless, lazy, lazy, delicious, shameless and despicable person. Shameless rascal pig."

From the beginning, the teacher and classmates were laughing and laughing. Later, they became calm. When we opened the door, they calmly said, "Another pig is here."

I played with Zhang Jun's buddies at night, and during the day I took Lin Yilan with Zhang Jun's circle of friends. Before I knew it, I became estranged from Shen Yuanzhe, but Shen Yuanzhe was not short of friends, so I didn't feel it. I am estranged from him.

Lin still has a gentle and quiet personality. When I first met her, I thought she was a little dull and boring, but when I got to know her, I realized that she was not boring at all. On the contrary, she responded quickly and her words were quick. , they are getting better and better towards her. They really treat her as a friend, but they are towards me. Most of it is because of Zhang Jun's face. I am too sharp and unruly. They don't like the character of a girl.

A few of us climbed Laoshan together. There is water everywhere on Laoshan. We all had a great time walking and playing.

I actually met a Taoist priest in black and white robes and buns. I used to chat with them, talking about daily life, Taoist culture, the clouds in Laoshan, the fog in Laoshan...

The characters in Pu Songling's writings come alive in front of us, and there is so much to say.

Zhen Gongzi and Jia Gongzi were so bored that they pulled Lin Yiran, held the camera, walked around, kept taking pictures, and Zhang Jun sat patiently and listened to our chat.

The Taoist priests of that era were all real Taoists. Unlike today, there are many swashbuckling and deceitful Taoists. Two Taoist priests chatted with us speculatively and took the initiative to be our tour guides.

Coming out of the courtyard where the Taoists lived, Zhang Jun and I did not take the stairs for sightseeing, but led everyone along the wild path. At first, there was a way to follow, but later there was no way at all.

I wanted to climb to the edge of the cliff, but Lin still refused to take the risk and advised me not to go. I smiled at her: "I've come here, if I don't go up and take a look, I'll regret it later."

I used both hands and feet to climb up, only Zhang Jun accompanied me. Lin still, Zhen Gongzi, Jia Gongzi are all standing in a safe place and waiting.

After many hardships, I finally reached the edge of the cliff. I looked ahead and had a lot of feelings.

The altitude of Laoshan Mountain is not high, but the top of the mountain is surrounded by clouds and mist all year round. It is completely different from other mountains. Standing here, you can't see the foot and the front at all. There are only clouds and mists. , to live with the gods. No wonder the ancients thought it was a fairy mountain when they climbed this mountain.

After studying geography, I already know that this is only because Laoshan is close to the sea, and the moisture condenses into fog when it encounters the obstacles of the mountain, but I am probably a bit superstitious. I understand it, but I still vaguely believe that plants have affection and animals. Birds have spirits, in that dilapidated Taoist temple once lived a wise man who smiled and looked at the sea; on the night of the full moon, the pomegranate tree in front of the window would chuckle, and a tree of red flowers was like a woman’s red dress; and the fox on the bluestone Will listen to the piano, and meditate on the moon.

The mountain wind was turbulent, and people seemed to fall off the cliff when they were blown. I pressed my hat with my hand and took a few steps forward against the mountain wind. Those feelings of "If the ancients and modern people are running water, they look at the bright moon together", those feelings of "reciting the leisurely life of heaven and earth, and crying alone," suddenly I really understand, they have gone, but their thoughts are in my mind. Resurrection, at this moment, I am me, and I am not me.

From childhood to adulthood, I have been to very few places. This trip to Beijing and Qingdao has really opened my eyes, allowing me to see many things that I have never seen before, and to meet many people that I would not normally meet. , while I verify that they are the same as in the book, I experience the difference between them and the book.

This world is indeed as Xiaobo said, and it is indeed worth my effort to fly and pursue all kinds of wonderful things!

Young and crazy, I couldn't help shouting at the rolling clouds with my arms outstretched: "Hey—"

The hat was swept away by the wind and rolled among the white clouds. I first screamed and then laughed.

Zhang Junxiao grabbed my arm and pulled me to his side: "Little madman, be careful."

I stared at him with round eyes, he couldn't smile when he smiled, he just looked at me.

On the top of the mountain, the wild wind is raging, but time stands still.

No matter whether the sea will dry up or the stone will rot or not, in the boundless time without beginning and end, at this moment he only sees me, and I only see him.

Lingtai was strangely clear and clear, and I suddenly understood with great clarity and sadness that such moments in my life could not be found. Perhaps, he will soon forget, and I will remember it for the rest of my life. I remember that when I was sixteen years old, he stood with me on the top of Laoshan Mountain.

Zhen Gongzi shouted, "Hey, hey, haven't you two turned into fossils?"

Jia Gongzi also called: "Have you seen enough? If you have seen enough, go down the mountain."

Zhang Jun waved at Young Master Zhen and Young Master Jia, and said to me, "Don't pay attention to them. If you want to stay a little longer, we will stay for a while."

I smiled: "No need."

This is the world, even if we have accumulated the wisdom of our predecessors from books, we already knew it was unusual and precious at the time, but we still have to let it go, because the pointer of time is always turning, won't stop.

The way down is even more difficult than before, but thanks to Zhang Jun's agility, with his help, I returned safely.

Those who had been nervous all the time finally breathed a sigh of relief: "Don't do this next time, it's too dangerous!"

I smiled and said, "Let's find the big army, it's probably time to go down the mountain."

Lin still immediately said yes, she has been a well-behaved child since she was a child, and now she follows me, always doing unorganized and undisciplined things.

When we were jokingly looking for the big team, Teacher Xing and Teacher Wang had been waiting for us for a long time, and they were jumping up and down in a hurry. Probably because Mr. Jia was here, they didn't get angry, and only pretended to say a few words to Zhang Jun.

Back at the residence, after dinner, Zhang Jun said that he wanted to take a shower first, and then come to me after the shower.

After I took a shower and packed my things, Zhang Jun hadn't come to see me yet, I sneered at a big boy who was washing slower than me.

After a while, Teacher Xing will come back. I don't want to have contact with Teacher Xing, so I don't want to stay in the dormitory, so I go out for a walk.

While walking along the path, I met Shen Yuanzhe, and they naturally became two people walking together.

Shen Yuanzhe hesitated for a while before saying tentatively, "You and Zhang Jun... I didn't expect to resolve the conflict so quickly and become friends."

I apologized to him, so I explained it from the beginning: "Actually, Zhang Jun and I are primary school classmates, and we have participated in math competitions together, and we are quite familiar with each other. It's just that after entering junior high school, I didn't talk much, and I never told you. ,I'm really sorry."

He stayed for a while before saying: "It doesn't matter, I'm too stupid. Zhang Jun is not a mean-spirited person, let alone making things difficult for girls, and you are not so stingy and angry when you are provoked. Acting abnormally, Huang Wei and Lin still see the difference, but I have been unable to understand, stupid."

I am both guilty and sweet, guilty of being sorry for Shen Yuanzhe, and sweet of confirming Zhang Jun's feelings from other people's mouths: "I'm really sorry that you spent so much time mediating the conflict between me and Zhang Jun at that time."

Shen Yuanzhe smiled lightly: "It doesn't matter, you and Zhang Jun are both my good friends. I'm also very happy that you can... get along in harmony."

I said gratefully, "Thank you."

Shen Yuanzhe and I chatted while walking. I forgot the time. It was past nine o'clock when Zhang Jun found us. Shen Yuanzhe and Zhang Jun said hello and left immediately.

Zhang Jun and I apologized: "I didn't wear a watch, I forgot the time."

Zhang Jun lowered his head and was silent for a while, then raised his head and said with a smile, "It's okay."

The next day, I attended classes in the morning and went to the beach in the afternoon to play.

After getting in the car, the hot summer sun just shot on my face. I was thinking about the cool hat that was blown away by the wind. It was dark before my eyes. Zhang Jun put a cool hat on my head. I took off the cool hat and saw that it was A very beautiful wide-brimmed straw beige hat, he asked with a smile, "Where did you come from?"

He didn't answer, just asked, "Do you like it?"

"Um."

He looked very happy and put the hat back on my head.

I suddenly realized that he bought it on purpose last night. No wonder he didn't come back after I took a shower. I wanted to say thank you, and I wanted to say sorry, but in the end, I didn't say anything.

We grew up in inland cities, and many people saw the sea for the first time. When they got to the beach, they saw that the picture on the TV became real. Everyone was excited, took off their shoes, rolled up their pants and played on the beach.

Because Zhang Jun reminded me that it is best to wear shorts, so I saved these troubles and ran along the beach with Lin still holding hands. When we came back from a crazy run, we found that Huang Wei had changed into a swimsuit. She walked to the beach and tried Where to get into the water from. Teacher Xing said, "You'd better not go into the water alone, just swim around and play."

She agreed, but after going into the water, she played on the side for a while, and then she swam farther and farther. Teacher Xing and Teacher Wang were both land ducks, and they couldn't be in a hurry. The classmates and the teacher called her desperately, but she couldn't hear it. .

Teacher Xing called Zhang Jun anxiously: "Are you good at swimming? Hurry up and call her back."

Zhang Jun bought a pair of swimming trunks from a small vendor on the beach. After changing them, he jumped into the sea and went after Huang Wei.

The two have been in the sea for a long time and have not come back.

The waves rise and fall together, and people's heads are similar. From a distance, they can't see clearly, but Teacher Xing and Teacher Wang are still standing by the sea, with their hands on their foreheads, watching worriedly, but there are not as many students as teachers. Worry, start playing each.

Because of Zhang Jun's absence, Zhen Gongzi and I have been getting along all the time, so I didn't play with them. I, Lin Yiran, and Shen Yuanzhe were building bunkers and digging cities by the beach. In fact, I am very worried about Zhang Jun. The boundless sea is terrifying, but the more I worry, the less I want to show it. I just keep an eye on the sea from the corner of my eye.

After most of our castle was repaired, Zhang Jun and Huang Wei came back. Teacher Xing was so angry that he got angry for the first time. I don’t know if it was because of scruples about Huang Wei’s parents, or because Huang Wei was a girl, and Teacher Xing’s anger All directed at Zhang Jun, scolding Zhang Jun's dog blood.

We were all silent, just like Zhen Gongzi and Jia Gongzi, winking and laughing like they were watching a play. After Teacher Xing finished scolding, Zhang Jun smiled and walked towards Zhen Gongzi and Jia Gongzi. The two fled immediately, but unfortunately they did not run past Zhang Jun. Zhang Jun threw them both into the sea by himself, and the two of them were all covered up. Soggy.

Mindful of the teacher's advice, Master Jia didn't dare to make a fool of himself, and walked out of the sea wet, but Master Zhen simply swam into the depths of the sea with his clothes on, so angry that Teacher Xing jumped up and called out with his arms on his hips, "Zhen Yun, you Get me back!"

Zhen Gongzi shouted in the sea: "How to get out in the sea? I can't!"

Everyone wanted to laugh and didn't dare to laugh. Teacher Xing was angry and laughing, stomping his feet and shouting: "If you don't come back, I will let you stay in the dormitory alone tomorrow."

Zhen Gongzi swam back slowly, Teacher Xing scolded him, but found a towel in his hand and handed it to him.

After Zhang Jun went to change his clothes and came back, he saw that Shen Yuanzhe and Lin were still building the castle, he came over, I smiled at him, and continued to lay on the ground to repair the castle, while he watched silently. When we finished, I asked him with a smile, "How is our castle?"

He smiled: "Very good. Let's go to the beach for a walk."

I was busy with my head down: "Wait a minute, my moat hasn't drawn water yet. Shen Yuanzhe, let's dig a sloping channel from here, so that the sea water at high tide can be led into the moat."

Busy and busy, when he looked up, he found that Zhang Jun had left without knowing when, standing in the waves, looking out at the sea, his back seemed a little lonely.

"I'll go buy a bottle of water and come back later."

After I lied to Shen Yuanzhe and Lin Yiran, I ran to find Zhang Jun. When he was about to approach him, he tiptoed over and jumped to his side: "Hey, why don't you build the castle with us?"

When he saw me, he immediately smiled happily: "You wait a moment, I'll be right back." He ran over, said a few words to Zhen Gongzi and Jia Gongzi who were taking pictures, and then ran back.