Libra's ruler is Venus, and its attribute is the wind constellation. They pay attention to balance in interpersonal relationships, they are naturally elegant, have strong communication skills, and are easily trusted. They are easy to feel lonely, afraid of being isolated, and hope that their lover will accompany them, but the wind direction attribute determines that Libra women are afraid of being bound. They are capricious but graceful, maverick but kind, a lot of affection but good at calmness. When they are warm, they are often so hot that the water will boil, but when they are cold, they will freeze all around...
Zhang Jun asked me, "Is that right?"
I said, "A compliment is right, a slander is wrong."
Zhang Jun laughed: "Why do I think it's the exact opposite? The compliments are not right, and the slander is all right."
I knocked on him with the book, and turned to the front to see him.
The ruler of Taurus is Venus, which is an earth sign. They are neither impetuous nor impulsive, considerate and patient. They are very artistic and have the potential to appreciate and taste art. They are very stubborn, and once they are determined, they will not change, whether it is a relationship, a job, or an environment. This is both their strength and their weakness.
A Taurus man is never impatient, and the same is true when it comes to love. He won't meet you, so he recklessly falls into the trap of love. When he takes a fancy to a girl, he will observe for a long time before deciding whether to pursue it or not, but Once they make a decision, they give it all without any reservations. Taurus men are family men, longing for family harmony, possessive and protective of their families, and potential machismo. They may be silent and tolerant, but they attach great importance to dignity...
I looked and laughed: "Yeah, we have the same ruler, Venus, who rules love and beauty."
I looked at him and smiled, probably only people in love would be happy for that little bit of an inexplicable coincidence.
Zhang Jun has no interest in his own character analysis. I am reading and he is reading me.
I said, "You're not like an honest cow!"
"Then what am I like?"
"Like a pig."
"you are a pig."
"You are. Come on, say 'I'm a pig.'"
"say what?"
"I am a pig!"
"You are a pig!"
"I am a pig!"
"Yeah, you're a pig!"
The two of us were just talking nonsense, enjoying it, laughing, and at that time, it seemed that no matter what we said or did, it was very funny and very sweet.
The time of the night has passed so quickly, I don't feel sleepy at all, I just feel reluctant, infinite Yiyi and infinite Yiyi.
After getting off the train, the school had a car to pick us up, getting in the car, and looking at the familiar scenery around me, I suddenly had a panic, and we returned to the real world.
Zhang Jun and I both sat quietly and silently, as if we couldn't find a word to say. There was a strange sense of strangeness between the two of us, as if it was someone else who was whispering and laughing all night on the train just now.
The driver is probably a fan of Chen Shuhua, and played a CD of Chen Shuhua's albums. Her songs have always been in the carriage, from "Wake Up" to "Rolling Red Dust".
"You, who was inadvertent at first, and me, who was inattentive as a teenager, and the love in the world, are just because of the stalemate of life in a hurry..."
Zhang Jun was still ignorant, but I felt as if I had been stabbed in the apex of my heart, pretending to appreciate the scenery and looking out the window.
"It's easy to come and go, hard to go, dozens of years of travel in the world, easy to separate and difficult to reunite, the eternal sorrow of love and hate, which should belong to your heart, it still holds my chest tightly, only for that world to change. The hands behind the face that turn clouds and rain..."
During the singing, the car stopped downstairs of my house. My sister was playing with her friends downstairs. When she saw us, she shouted and ran over excitedly: "Sister, sister..." and shouted upstairs, "Dad, Mom, my sister is back."
Zhang Jun wanted to get out of the car to help me with my luggage. I immediately said nervously, "No, no." I dragged my luggage and got out of the car staggeringly. I don't even know why I'm nervous, afraid of being seen by my parents? Afraid of being seen by neighbors
My mother poked her head on the balcony: "Just put your luggage on the ground, your dad has already gone down."
Zhang Jun stood by the car and looked at me silently. Teacher Xing and Teacher Wang waved goodbye to me in the car. My dad said thank you to the teacher.
I stood beside my sister and said goodbye to my teacher and classmates with a polite smile. Surrounded by my father, my mother, my sister, my teacher, and my classmates, the distance between me and him was far away in an instant. The voice was loud and the atmosphere was lively, but there was a desolate stillness in my heart.
My sister grabbed my hand and walked upstairs, chatting and asking, "Is Beijing fun? Did you take a picture at Tiananmen Square..."
At that time, the feelings of that age could only be hidden in the dark, and I didn't even have time to look back, so I went home.
When I got home, I took out the gifts for my sister, my mother, and my father. They were all very happy. My sister pestered me to ask me which was more fun, Beijing or Qingdao, but I was in a trance.
My mother said, "I'm too tired to take the train, and I don't eat well outside. Let's go to rest first. I bought a lot of good food, and I'll make something delicious for you in the evening."
I went back to the bedroom and lay on the bed, exhausted but unable to sleep. Seeing the familiar bookcase and the familiar bed, I feel like I am Cinderella after midnight. All the magic disappears and I return to the real world.
Outside, it was just a small group of us. Zhang Jun was obsessed for a while. When he came back here, his life was wonderful. What am I? Therefore, the sweet dream has woken up, no matter whether it is pain in the heart or crying, on the surface it can only smile as if nothing had happened.
3
What kind of life do you want
Because you are a big boy, you are proud and careless.
Because I'm a little girl, I feel inferior and sensitive.
We try to love, thinking that as long as we work hard enough, if we work hard enough, everything will change,
What we don't know is that our end is already doomed.
Years later, the years are gone, the youth is old, you are no longer proud and careless,
I am no longer inferior and sensitive, but we will no longer love so hard and so hard.
I can only sing that old song,
In tears, I recalled that you once loved me very seriously and clumsily, smiling alone.
I woke up at 6:00 in the morning and sat alone at the table, sorting out the things I brought back from my travels. Tickets for the Forbidden City, tickets for the Summer Palace, tickets for Laoshan Mountain, tickets for the Snake Pavilion, and a few shells that Zhang Jun and I picked up by the seaside in Qingdao…
Tickets in Beijing are all single, but after the Great Wall, there are only two tickets. Zhang Jun didn’t care about these trivial matters at all, and he gave me the tickets at will. He must have thought I threw them away, but I was very careful. Put away both of our tickets.
I don't want to take pictures, but I also know how precious these moments are, so I choose to remember them forever in my own way.
I smoothed and wrapped them, put them in a cardboard box, and tucked them into the cupboard under the bed.
When I closed the cabinet door, I suddenly found that I could sleep with these happy pillows every day. I couldn't help but laughed secretly.
A pine cone, a piece of stone.
This is a gift to Xiaobo. Pack them in a kraft envelope and get ready to write.
Before I started to write, I always felt that I had a lot of feelings and wanted to tell him a lot, what I saw and heard about the outside world, but after I actually started to write, I found that there were so many things and I couldn’t write anything.
After thinking about it for a long time, I only wrote one sentence.
"Pine cones under the Great Wall in Beijing, stone chips on Laoshan Mountain in Qingdao."
I looked up at the map of China nailed on the wall, maybe one day, I can travel all over the mountains and rivers, maybe by then, he will no longer reject me who can already fly.
After nine o'clock, Lin Yiren and Shen Yuanzhe came to see me at the school to see the final exam results as agreed in advance.
Although the bright red list has been mottled, the handwriting is still clear.
Guan He is the ninth in the grade, Lin is still the tenth in the grade, I am the nineteenth in the grade, Zhang Jun is in the 70s and Shen Yuanzhe is in the 60s.
When I saw my grades, I was so heavy that I almost despaired. I hoped that I had failed in math, physics or something, but it was still English, with a score of 73.
I've never stopped trying, and I've barely seen any improvement. Although there is a famous saying that "persistence is success", when I am in it, I only feel that the more persistent it is, the more desperate it is. If I give up completely and rely on my cleverness and memory to cope with the exam, I am afraid that my grades will not be much worse than this, but I will not feel that the harder I work, the more disappointed I feel.
Shen Yuanzhe proposed to have a cold drink together. I was in such a bad mood that I didn't even have the strength to perfunctory, so I just made an excuse and refused.
Walking alone on a hot asphalt road, you don't have to pretend to smile, you don't have to pretend you don't care.
In the eyes of outsiders, the top 20 in the grade is good enough. My confusion and pain seem a little inexplicable, but this is not just about grades, but, I don’t understand, why I work so hard and get no results? I questioned myself and the future. I have no appearance, no wealth, and no family background. My future can only depend on my mind and hard work. If hard work does not equal harvest, it means that I cannot decide my future by my own efforts, then my future, Who is in control of my life? Since I can't control it myself, why should I work hard
I don't know how long I have gone, but I stand under the shade of a dense willow tree.
Because it was daytime, there was no business in the K karaoke hall. The four girls who worked part-time were eager to cool down and set up a small table to play mahjong under the shade of the tree at the door. The face has changed and changed, but the youth is the same year after year.
If I went to a technical school, I would have started my internship now, and I could play mahjong leisurely with the internship salary. My parents don’t have to worry about my early love. Instead, it’s time to introduce me to a partner, and I don’t have to suffer from the damn English. You don't have to like a guy and be sneaky, just go to work and think about whether to dance or play mahjong after get off work, whether to meet your boyfriend or your girlfriend.
If I give up being an ascetic for English, and rely on a little cleverness and general hard work, I should be able to get a good grade, and I can spend a lot of time studying fashion, dress up beautifully, go out with Tong Yunzhu, and live my life. Certainly more swaying than now.
Several girls played mahjong several times. I was still standing in the shade of the tree in a daze. They were half curious and half vigilant and asked, "Miss, are you waiting for someone?"
I looked at them in a trance, and after being silent for a while, I asked, "Is Xiaobo there?"
One girl shuffled the cards and said, "Xiao Bo? No such person..." Another girl slapped her hand: "Isn't it Boss Xu? It seems to be called this name." She raised her head and glared at me: " Who are you looking for?"
I smiled and turned to leave.
In life, there are always many kinds of scenery, but which kind of scenery do you want the most
I can choose to give up, or I can choose to persevere, but which one will I have no regrets after many years
I didn't understand it before, but now I have worked hard and been disappointed, and then I understand what Chen Jin meant at that time. The word "persistence" may be more difficult to write than any word in the world.
I had already walked to the river, and when I was about to get home, I suddenly remembered that there was a gift for Xiaobo in the bag, but... If I choose to give up, the gift in the bag will never be sent out. I stared at the sparkling river and was stunned. What kind of scenery in life do I want most
I turned and ran to the karaoke hall.
Hearing my footsteps, the four girls raised their heads and looked at me in amazement. I took out the cowhide envelope from my bag and handed it to them. They looked at the name on the envelope and studied it.
I said, "This is for Xu Xiaobo, just your little boss, you know?"
The four girls nodded immediately, and I turned to leave.
I paced slowly, returned home, took out a blank piece of paper, and wrote on it: Summer vacation plan.
From tomorrow onwards, I will memorize one hour of English every day, ten English words, read grammar for half an hour, and the rest of the time can be freely used.
I repeatedly signed my name "Luo Qiqi" under the plan. This is the oath I made to myself. In the long, hopeless, boring time without joy, this is the only restraint and strength I can give myself.
Press the summer vacation plan book with the words face down under the glass plate of the desk. Except for the three words "Luo Qiqi", because the force penetrates the back of the paper and shows traces, the rest is just a blank piece of paper.
This book is written only for myself, not for others.
Looking down at the snow-white paper, there is an inexplicable loneliness and sadness in my heart. Only I know these hard efforts and these painful struggles. The colorful and splendid youth in the eyes of adults is actually not as easy as they imagined.
I couldn't help but hold a pen on a piece of letter paper, and wrote "Longbow" over and over again. When I filled one piece of paper, I changed it to another. This is a problem that I have unknowingly developed over the years. Whenever I am sad, I like to write "Longbow", as if this can release the sadness in my heart.
Under the clamor of Ma Li, it is fake to take the wind and wash the dust, and it is real to eat, drink, and play.
During the party, Wu Hao said to me mysteriously, "I heard from my classmates who came back from the summer camp that you and Zhang Jun..."
I exaggeratedly made a flattering gesture: "I didn't expect to say two more words, and I would be honored to be Zhang Jun's gossip girlfriend, so excited!" I giggled, "Last semester, I and I The monitor went home a few times for self-study in the evening, and people said that Shen Yuanzhe and I had a problem!" I pointed to the horseshoe, "In the beginning, when I sat at the same table with the horseshoe, didn't you still put the two of us together! Said that we are not enemies and do not get together!"
Horseshoe said angrily: "To associate my name with Luo Qiqi, am I so lacking in aesthetic taste?"
I unceremoniously slapped him on the back, and he exaggeratedly screamed: "I believe that she has a crush on Zhang Jun, but I definitely don't believe that Zhang Jun likes her!"
My heart suddenly tightened, the muscles on my face tensed up, but when I saw everyone was laughing, it turned out to be just a joke, and I immediately followed everyone and laughed out loud.
In the giggling, the matter about Zhang Jun was easily revealed. At our age, boys and girls with good-looking eyebrows and eyes are inevitably going to be rumored to be rumored. Rumors like Zhang Jun are flying all over the sky. There are not many more rumored girlfriends than me, and one less than me.
After the party, Ma waited for everyone to leave, and called me aside mysteriously: "Tell me the truth, what is your relationship with Zhang Jun?"
I was nervous again, and the second monk was confused: "Didn't you explain it just now? Just an ordinary classmate."
"Don't come! Ordinary classmates will deliberately follow you home at night?"
"What do you mean?"
"When the first year of high school started, didn't we have a bit of a conflict! I went out to find a few people and asked them to talk to you, but every time I promised well at the beginning, I turned around and regretted it. , I learned later that Zhang Jun greeted them."
I was speechless, surprised and surprised, and some odd taste of joy.
Ma Li thought he had frightened me, patted me on the shoulder, winked and said, "Don't worry, I won't tell my classmates, you are someone who is covering you now, and I don't dare to offend Zhang Jun."
"Fuck you!" I shoved him away with a palm and strode away.
Maybe because of horsepower, I have hope for Zhang Jun again, but after the summer camp, more than a week has passed, and Zhang Jun has not appeared in my life.
Intellectually, I can accept the fact that Zhang Jun has never looked for me again. I don’t need to think about any philosophy of life. I just need to think about what kind of person I am to understand. However, those sadness and loss cannot be rationally analyzed. controlling.
One day, my parents went to work, and my sister slunk off to watch TV after practicing the keyboard. Although I woke up, I still squinted on the bed.
My sister came and knocked on the door: "Sister, someone is looking for you."
I thought it was Yang Jun, Ma Li and the others, but I didn't care and said, "Did you make a mistake? It's so early!"
After taking a shower, he walked into the living room with disheveled hair and slippers, and saw Zhang Jun sitting on the sofa, refreshed and handsome.
I immediately fled back to the bedroom, combed my hair in front of the mirror, changed my clothes, and felt nervous again. After struggling for a while, I finally combed my hair and walked out.
Zhang Jun stood up, but because my sister was there, he just looked at me silently.
My sister still concentrates on watching "The Legend of the New White Snake" for the thousandth time, not paying attention to the strangeness around her.
I didn't think it was a problem to poke in the living room like this, so I said, "Let's go out!"
Going downstairs, they walked silently along the path. When they reached the river, the two of them were lying on the bridge railing, looking down at the rushing river.
Although it was daytime, there were no pedestrians on the bridge. When I was in the second year of junior high school, a new bridge that was wider and easier to walk was built. This old bridge with an unreasonable design was abandoned. However, whenever I cross the river, I like to walk on this old bridge. The reason is not only It's close to my house.
Zhang Jun said: "When we were young, there were quite a few people walking on this bridge, but now it's a deserted bridge."
"Yeah! It's relatively narrow, and it's full of steps. Every time I cross the bridge, I have to carry my bicycle on my back, and I can't ride a motorcycle. Of course, no one left."
"What do you usually do?"
"Don't do anything, just sleep and read."
"What book do you read?"
"Sometimes it's a textbook, sometimes it's an idle book."
"When did you become so serious? Are you still working so hard during the summer vacation?"
I don't know what to say, I fell silent, and the two of them finally had a bit of a conversation atmosphere and it was cold again.
"Luo Qiqi..." he called suddenly, I looked at him, he held it for a while before he said, "Do you regret it?"
"Huh? What do you regret?"
"Just summer camp, we're together... Do you regret it?"
"No!" I answered quickly, paused, and finally summoned up the courage to ask him, "What about you? Do you regret it?" I was afraid that he regretted it, but he actually asked me if I regretted it.
"Of course not!" His expression finally stopped being so nervous, he threw a stone into the river and said with a smile, "The day after tomorrow, the high school entrance examination will be released, let's see the results!"
Anyone who wants to go to college will probably pay attention to this, and more importantly, with him, I immediately agreed: "Okay."
He smiled: "The day after tomorrow at nine o'clock in the morning, we will meet here, see you soon."
"it is good."
The two stood silently for a while, and I asked, "Is there anything else you can do? If you are all right, I'll go home." My English task for today has not been completed.