I eat while I walk, humming songs hard in my mouth, my happiness is controlled by myself and never based on others, I want to be happy, so I can be happy!
After eating the ice cream, I was alone on the sidewalk, singing songs, walking with my hands behind my back, jumping on the grid, waving my hands, jumping and running for a while, anyway, I just want to be happy, don't be unhappy!
A man passed by me on a bicycle, looked back at me, and when I recognized Chen Jin, he had stopped the car.
"Hey!" He got out of the car, "Are you alone? Take a walk?"
"Yeah." I tried my best to be happy, "I went to see the list this morning, congratulations."
He smiled nonchalantly: "I saw your grades last semester, aren't you a blow? Are you still persevering?"
He seemed to be the only one who understood my pain for such a "good grade". I nodded heavily: "I'm persevering, but it's very hard. Sometimes I don't understand what I'm persevering in."
"When you reach the top of the mountain, you will understand that if you give up in the middle, you will never understand." He paused and said, "Don't give up! Once you give up for the first time, your life will change. You will be accustomed to retreating in spite of difficulties, but if you overcome the past, your life will be accustomed to advancing against the wind and waves. It seems like a simple choice, but it has a huge impact and will lead you to a completely different life.”
I didn't quite understand what he said, but I'm used to being in the presence of geniuses. "By the way, I want to ask you a question. I heard that you can be sent to Peking University. Why didn't you go? Is Peking University worse than Tsinghua University?" His father was an official of the Education Bureau. I thought he had some inside information.
"If I am recommended to go to Peking University, I can only study physics or chemistry. I don't like these two majors. If I want to study architecture, of course it is Tsinghua University."
"So, it's no wonder that you can learn to draw." It turns out that there is no hidden inside story, it is just a simple life choice, but it is not easy to give up the 100% safe guarantee and choose the uncertain college entrance examination.
"Where do you live? It doesn't seem to live near here, does it? Are you going to keep walking back?"
"I like to walk."
He smiled and said, "Then go slowly, I have to go home." He got into the car and asked again, "Are you sure you want to walk back? Do you want me to give you a ride?"
I just said that I like to walk, but now I can go back on it immediately? I said, "No, bye!"
"Goodbye!" He rode his bike away.
"Have a great college life!" I exclaimed.
He turned his head and waved at me with a smile, "I'll be waiting for you at Tsinghua University."
I had a smile on my face, but I sighed heavily. He did have confidence in me, but I only felt that the dark cloud was on top, and I failed in love and battle.
I walked for more than half an hour before I got home. As soon as I entered the building, someone suddenly grabbed my arm. I was about to yell when I realized it was Zhang Jun.
He shouted at me: "Where have you been? Do you know that everyone is in a hurry? Everyone is looking for you in the roller skating rink. Why do you only see yourself in your eyes and never consider other people's feelings when you do things? "
His hand hurt my arm, but my heart hurt even more. I pushed him away and ran upstairs without a word.
"Qiqi."
When I didn't hear it, I ran upstairs in one breath, and when I got home, my sister rushed over immediately, checked her skirt and sandals, and said angrily to her parents, "Did you see it? She stole my skirt and shoes! Oops! She stained my skirt, what is it? Why are you stealing my clothes? Why are you stealing? Who gave you permission…”
I find it ridiculous to wear someone else's dress and shoes to please someone who doesn't like me.
"I'll never wear your clothes again."
"Yeah! You're still wearing my pearl hairpin!"
Mom said hurriedly, "I wore it for your sister, not your sister."
Dad also smoothed things out: "Okay, just put on your skirt, don't be so stingy, just wash it off."
My sister glared at me, so I went to the house to change my skirt, changed back to my clothes, took off the two pearl hairpins, and returned them to my sister together. The younger sister snorted hard, raised her head, and carried the clothes to her mother to wash.
I sat blankly, with Guan He and Zhang Jun tossing and turning in front of me.
"I want to be happy, I don't want others to dominate my happiness!" He said to himself, but his body seemed to have no strength, and lay down on the table softly.
A piece of snow-white paper is pressed under the glass plate of the desk, which is my summer vacation plan.
Luo Qiqi, you haven't memorized words and read grammar today.
Although I understand, I don't want to do it at all, and I don't have any mood to read.
My fingers flicked where I vaguely signed my own signature.
In this world, others can betray the promises they made to you, but should you even betray yourself
I sat up, opened my English book, forced myself to empty all my thoughts, and started doing grammar exercises. After finishing the exercises, I recited another ten words before I got into bed.
The next morning, early in the morning, I went out and ran to find Yang Jun.
"Do you have time?"
"What?"
"Find a set of math papers to do it and see who has the highest score."
He just liked what he liked, and in the middle of his arms, Yang Jun immediately turned over the paper, swung it to the middle, one person with a stack of scratch paper, set the alarm clock, and started!
Mathematics is the most calming subject, especially mathematics papers, which are generally designed from simple to difficult, slowly grasping people's thinking.
I concentrated on the calculation and writing. After an hour and a half, Yang Jun almost finished it and started to try to solve the last problem, but I didn't finish it until the last ten minutes. Yang Jun and I exchanged answers and scored each other, and I won.
Yang Jun refused to accept: "I'm obviously faster than you, and you don't have time to do the last question."
I'm too lazy to pay attention to him. The first time we picked up the paper, we read the last two big questions at the same time, but after reading it, we made completely different choices. I think the last one must take a lot of time, so I decided to give up and ensure that everything else on the paper The score is not lost, so I slowed down to ensure that every question is foolproof; and Yang Jun, after reading the last question, immediately decided to do it quickly, so as to save time for this problem, the result was the last problem. I did have a good look, but there were mistakes in the previous questions, and in the end, I scored higher than him.
The choice of the two of us is closely related to our personalities and hobbies. I am a pragmatist and a utilitarian, and only pay attention to the last score; and he is because he likes science. Starting from his interest, he wants not only scores, but also to overcome difficult problems. sense of achievement. So, at this moment, I have thrown the whole paper aside and don't care how to solve the problem at all, but he is still lying on the table thinking tirelessly.
"Luo Qiqi, don't just sit there." He patted the paper and pen in front of me.
Idle is also idle, I start to do. Drawing on Yang Jun's ideas, he quickly threw the proof steps to him. While he read it, he corrected a few mistakes of mine. Finally, like a man who had eaten a big meal, he put down his pen with satisfaction.
"Luo Qiqi, I heard that you and Zhang Jun, the monitor of class (4)..."
I cut off his words: "How are you chasing Tong Yunzhu?"
His face immediately turned grey: "She doesn't pay much attention to me and often hangs out with another person."
"What kind of person is your rival?"
"Several years older than me, I heard that he dropped out of school when he was in the second year of junior high school, and his family helped him open a video room. He is just a little gangster. I can't figure it out at all. I am better than him in every way, but Tong Yunzhu likes to be with him. Play."
I smiled and said, "As I said earlier, you and her are not from the same world. You have been a good child of your parents and a good student of your teachers since you were a child. There are many things that you can't understand."
"Of course I can understand, it's just that men are not bad and women don't love them! Just like Zhang Jun, apart from being good-looking, what else can girls trust? Girlfriends change dozens of times, but all of you girls like him. ." Yang Jun shoved me with his arm, "Aren't you that stupid?"
I giggled: "Of course!"
Yang Jun nodded with satisfaction, and suddenly asked mysteriously: "Would you like to ask a pen fairy to tell fortunes? I just learned from a college student. I heard that it is very clever. It is very popular in Beijing and Shanghai. Let's calculate when you will be able to touch it. To the real Son of Heaven."
I stood up and planned to leave: "You have a problem, I don't play with these Shinto things, no matter what, what should be yours is yours, and what shouldn't be yours is not yours."
He sent me out and went to the wonton stand with me to eat a bowl of wontons.
He sighed while eating: "It's so boring, let's start school quickly, at least I can bully you every day."
For the first time, my views and Yang Jun's views are completely the same.
After I separated from Yang Jun, I rode to the river by myself, sat by the river in a silent daze, the more I thought about it, the more my heart hurt, I took out an English book and forced myself to start reading. No matter, force yourself to read word by word.
After reading English for more than an hour, I decided to go home.
Before reaching the door of the building, he saw Zhang Jun standing on the side of the building, leaning back against the wall, silently looking at the intersection.
I didn't want to see him and hid.
However, I hid for a long time, and he was still in that position. Looking at the time, my parents were about to get off work, so I could only walk in front of him.
He looked haggard: "Did you avoid me on purpose?"
"No."
"I went downstairs to your house at eight in the morning. As soon as your parents left, I went up to look for you. Your sister said you had already left."
I didn't say a word. Although I was moved softly in my heart, I still kept my face straight.
He said: "Guan He doesn't know how to skate, so someone has to take her. Zhen Gongzi and Jia Gongzi are not bad people, but they are both self-centered. I have to take Guan He to skate twice before I can trouble them. I'll teach Guan He. After I discussed it with Zhen Gongzi and the others, I went back to find you. You'll be gone. I skated in countless circles along the roller skating rink. I've been looking for you all the time. You and others are having a good time under the beam, Zhen Gongzi and the others all laugh at me, worrying about nothing, so I have a bad attitude later."
I can't tell what I feel. Yesterday I felt that things were big, but today I feel a little stingy. It's not easy for Guan He to come out and play. Not only did I not help her, but I was always jealous of her in my heart. I knew she couldn't slip, but I didn't think about her at all. I only thought about myself. I was ashamed.
He said: "Let's reconcile, okay? If I do something wrong, tell me and I'll change it."
Zhang Jun doesn't look like someone who says this, but he said it, so he likes me, right
I whispered, "I'm going home now. We'll see you at Qiaotou at eight o'clock in the evening."
He smiled happily: "Okay, see you soon, if you don't come, I will wait all night."
I just felt that my heart immediately lit up, and I just felt that everything was nothing. It turned out that he was in control of my emotions and anger. It was only in his mind whether the clouds were cloudy or the sun was shining.
During dinner, my sister told my father that her classmate had installed a phone at home, and this classmate also installed a phone. In order to facilitate their homework, we strongly demanded that our home also have a phone.
At that time, the initial installation fee for a landline phone cost 1,500 yuan, which was about the same as my mother's monthly salary. The thrifty mother was reluctant to spend this money. Dad was hesitant, and my sister pulled me and motioned for me to help. I don't want to talk to her. Is the homework done by phone? But suddenly I thought of Zhang Jun. When I was about to get off the train, Zhen Gongzi, Huang Wei, Shen Yuanzhe and the others exchanged phone numbers. Zhang Jun wrote me his phone number and asked me for my phone number excitedly. Can say shyly and embarrassedly: "I don't have a phone at home."
My heart skipped a beat, and I immediately helped my sister to ask Dad to make a phone call.
Under the collective offensive of my sister and I, my parents agreed to our request. In exchange, I would continue to maintain my current academic performance, and my sister would work hard to get into the top ten in the class. My sister agreed without thinking. Before the temptation of the phone, she had turned into a superman and was omnipotent.
After the main unit of the phone was installed, my dad took another phone call from the work unit and declared that whoever of us could complete the study task would install an extension in the bedroom. My sister and dad acted like a spoiled child and installed it for her first. She promised to complete the task without waiting. She bribed Success Dad, so I took advantage of their absence, picked up the phone by myself, and successfully installed the phone in my bedroom.
My parents were very pleasantly surprised and praised me for my strong hands-on ability, but my sister was so angry that her eyes were full of tears. I laughed and said, "Learn a lesson, remember that it is better to rely on yourself than to rely on others."
My mother comforted my sister and promised that as long as she was admitted to the top ten in the class, she would immediately install an extension, and if my grades fell, I would immediately remove the extension.
Thinking about it now, our generation didn’t suffer much when growing up, but we didn’t enjoy luxury. We understand that everything is hard-won. Therefore, we all filial piety to our parents later on.
4
what is love
Love is not controlled by wisdom, but by fate.
We will never be wiser than fate,
Whenever we think we have mastered the true meaning of love, fate sneers.
Probably influenced by Xiaobo, Brother Li, and Squid since I was a child, my definition of friendship is full of rivers and lakes: treat each other with sincerity, put loyalty first, and when necessary, spare no effort to fight for life and death.
I feel that I have always done well, and I have never owed any friends; but Guan He has had a strong impact on my moral standards. On the one hand, I regard her as a good friend because of her beauty; on the other hand, I am jealous of her good.