From the day of disbandment
We're waiting for you to get back together
time cruelly said
Once gone, there will be no going back...
1
High school started
Years have forged my heart into a strong iron, so that I can calmly face the storms of the world.
However, only you, easily, can make it shatter.
Just because you are all my youthful years, all my unforgettable laughter and sorrow,
Under the hard shell, there is always a hidden corner that beats gently for you.
The first day of the new semester, the morning is the opening ceremony. First, the principal gave a speech, then the representatives of the freshmen of high school gave speeches, and finally presented awards to the top three students of each grade and the outstanding class cadres. Although I ranked second in the class, I missed the top three students because of the bottom of the class in sports performance.
For this matter, the head teacher specially explained to me that I don't care, what I value is not these false names, the only thing I care about is my academic performance. However, when I heard that the outstanding class cadre of class (4) was Zhang Jun, my vanity exploded. When he came to the stage to accept the award, I applauded so hard that my palms became red.
The main task in the afternoon is general cleaning. In addition to the classrooms of our own classes, the school has assigned several roads to each class for us to clean.
(4) The class moves quickly and cleans up very early. When Jun Zhang came to me, I was bickering with Ma Li and didn't hear him call me. When I heard him call me, all the boys in our class also heard it and started to coax. I was so embarrassed that I ran to Zhang Jun in a hurry: "We can't go yet, you go first." Turning around and about to slip back, Zhang Jun said, "I'll wait for you." on the bench next to it.
I was so frightened that I immediately said, "No." Seeing his disappointed expression, I thought about it and said, "Then wait for me at the flower bed outside the school gate, and I'll find you."
"That's fine," he said.
I went back with a broom to continue cleaning, and Yang Jun asked me quickly, "Could it be that the rumor is true, you really talked to Zhang Jun?"
I glared at him: "Can ordinary male and female classmates not be able to speak?"
I don't know why, it's hard for me to admit in public that I'm Zhang Jun's girlfriend, maybe I understand deep down, but I just don't want to think about it. I'm afraid that Zhang Jun is just playing with me, and I don't want others to add the modifier "one of Zhang Jun's girlfriends" before my name.
Because I didn't admit it, and everyone thought that I couldn't get along with Zhang Jun, they still took it as a joke despite the rumors flying around.
Tong Yunzhu looked at me silently, I knew she had a good relationship with Zhang Jun, but suddenly she felt guilty, she quickly laughed and got rid of that feeling, I didn't admit it, but I didn't deny it either!
After the class officially started, Zhang Jun asked to come home with me every day after school. I wouldn't let him wait for me in the corridor, he could only wait for me outside the school.
Zhang Jun complained a lot about this, laughing at me for looking reckless and bold, but I didn't expect to be so afraid of teachers and parents. No matter how he laughed, I still insist on "underground love".
Because the confidentiality work was done very well, except for Zhang Jun's buddies and a few good friends of mine, none of the schoolmates knew that Zhang Jun and I were in a relationship. With the attention of Zhang Jun, I have created the ninth wonder of the world.
Falling in love in high school is actually quite simple. There are no big things in life, some are just little things, all the joys and sorrows are closely around these little things.
He waited for me to finish school every day, took me home first, and then went home by himself.
Our classes were next to each other, and whenever he passed by our class, he never forgot to greet me with his eyes.
During recess, he would buy snacks for me. Knowing that I was afraid that others would see them, he asked Tong Yunzhu to bring them to me. Often when I just remembered to buy cold drinks, Tong Yunzhu had already smiled and came to me with ice cream and drinks.
On a hot summer afternoon, there was no wind. All the classmates took home-made fans and listened to the class while fanning. He would ask Tong Yunzhu to pass me a sealed space cup filled with ice cubes and let me put it on the table during class. Cool off.
As a representative of the Chinese class, I often go to send homework to the Chinese teacher. If he sees me passing through the window, he will immediately force a class representative of their class to send homework and accompany me to the teacher's office building.
Zhang Jun goes to play basketball every day between classes and wants me to watch it every time. I was embarrassed to watch him play basketball blatantly, so I first incited Yang Jun's competitive spirit, and encouraged him to defeat Zhang Jun in class (4) and establish his status as the basketball hegemon in the second year of high school. After successfully inciting Yang Jun, I Under the banner of cheering for Yang Jun, he dragged Lin Yiran to watch Yang Jun play basketball. By the way, of course, he could also see Zhang Jun. Under my daily fanning, coupled with the rumors about Zhang Jun and Tong Yunzhu's ambiguous relationship, every time Yang Jun sees Zhang Jun, he is like a cockfight, staring at Zhang Jun on the basketball court. The strategy of saving the country by curve is dumbfounding.
I'm embarrassed to say that I like you, and I'm embarrassed to go to Zhang Jun often, even, I will deliberately avoid him in school, but I like to look at him when he is not paying attention, no matter what he is doing, just look at him To him, I will feel very happy. After years of practice, my "Zhang Jun positioning technology" has become perfect. I can glance at him in a group of people as if nothing has happened, but I can see him at a glance; I can walk through the corridor without squint and eyes. Out of the corner of the eye, he had a panoramic view of his every move in the classroom; I could even feel his presence from behind and know if he was looking at me.
I like to eat jelly. After being with him, I especially like the heart-shaped jelly of Crystal Love. Occasionally, I will shyly trouble Tong Yunzhu to hand over a heart-shaped jelly of Crystal Love to Zhang Jun, and tell him that he must What time to eat, and then, keep staring at the watch to count the time, wait until the specified time, I also secretly eat one, it feels as if our two hearts are closely connected. When Zhang Jun was out of school, he would tell me with a smile that he was caught stealing jelly in class and was caught by the teacher, asking me where he offended me and why I deliberately harassed him.
Our class is face to face with the Chinese teacher's desk in their class. Sometimes, I will take advantage of my position to sneak the written note into his Chinese homework while I go to pick up the homework. Most of the content on the note is boring, but it hides my secret happiness and joy.
I found that his subjects were also the worst in English. Every time I took notes, I would put a piece of blue carbon paper under the note paper, write two notes, and show him the one with the clearest handwriting. In order to encourage him to work hard, I told him that I got up half an hour early every day to recite English and asked him to accompany me to get up early. When I get up every morning, thinking that he also got up at this time, I can't help smiling, and reading English sounds like singing.
On the way to school together, we sometimes talk about things at school, and sometimes he sings to me. He likes Jacky Cheung's songs the most, and Jacky Cheung's singing is also the best, with a mellow and magnetic voice, no less than Jacky Cheung himself. From "I've Waited For The Flowers Thank You" to "I Have You Along the Way", later, whenever someone asked "Whose song do you like listening to the most", I would always answer "Jacky Cheung" immediately. In fact, I never bought it. Pop song tapes, all the songs I've ever heard about Jacky Cheung were sung to me by Jun Cheung.
On the way home, he always helped me carry my schoolbag. All I needed was an ice cream in my hand. He sang songs, and I listened. We were accompanied by the stars and the evening breeze.
On weekends, after finishing our homework, we sometimes go out to play, sometimes we go for a walk by the river.
It is up to me to decide whether or not to go out and play, and how I decide depends on my pocket money. Because of my self-esteem, I have always tried to maintain the fairness of our money. For example, if he asks me to skate. Roller skating, I'll treat him to a snack. But the gap between me and him is too big. Sometimes he wants to invite me to go to the movies, but I have to refuse him because I have no pocket money, but I am embarrassed to tell him the real reason, I can only simply say that I don't want to go. He was unhappy sometimes, but he came and went quickly.
There are so many trivial things that I don't even know how to remember, but I was really happy at that time. In the boring study and life, the two carefully enjoy the secret happiness, and the time they spend with each other every day is only a little bit, but because they cherish it very much, every bit and every drop is particularly sweet.
In the September of the second year of high school, everything was as beautiful as the September sky. The heart is bright and bright every day, and the shadows under the blue, the two of us, I am dull, but he thinks that as long as he loves enough, he can overcome it.
One weekend in October, Zhang Jun said that Jia Gongzi invited us to sing and told my parents not to go home for dinner, and I did.
When I arrived at the karaoke hall, I found a lot of classmates, including my good friends Guan He and Lin Yiran, as well as Zhang Jun's good friends Zhen Gongzi, Jia Gongzi, Tong Yunzhu, Huang Wei, and some classmates I didn't know.
I became nervous and deliberately kept a distance from Zhang Jun, not wanting to walk into the classroom next week and find out that the news of my relationship with Zhang Jun was already well known. But Zhang Jun couldn't feel my nervousness. He followed me wherever I sat.
After singing for a while, Zhang Jun told me to go out, but he didn't come back for a while. I was surprised when Jia Gongzi, who had been looking at the watch, suddenly stood up and turned off the lights. Zhang Jun walked in with a birthday cake. .
In the flickering candlelight, Guan He and Zhang Jun's good friends all clapped their hands and started singing: "Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you..." The others understood immediately and sang along with them, "Happy birthday to you, Happy Birthday".
I was at a loss and looked at Zhang Jun in surprise. The generation of parents didn't pay attention to these western-style etiquette. The birthday of a child is to cook a table of good dishes and give a little pocket money. This is the first birthday cake in my life, and it is also the first time I have been treated like this. Grand blessing.
The romantic candlelight and warm blessings made me forget for the first time that I cared about my relationship with Zhang Jun.
Zhang Jun said: "Close your eyes and make a wish, then blow out the candle in one breath, and the wish will come true."
Jia Gongzi and the others also said: "The wish made on the birthday is very effective."
I closed my eyes, cleared all the distracting thoughts, and prayed silently with 120,000 sincerity, please let Zhang Jun love me forever.
At that time, what I was most afraid of was that he didn't love me, but I didn't understand that he always loved me, it didn't mean that we would be together forever.
I opened my eyes, exhausted all my strength, and blew out all the candles in one breath. Everyone laughed and applauded.
All my friends gave me gifts, I kept saying thank you, and finally Zhang Jun, everyone was very excited, especially the girls, all waiting to see his gifts, because girls always think that gifts from boys You can clearly see his emotions.
Zhang Jun handed me a red velvet box. I opened it and found a very beautiful gold chain with a small peach heart gold pendant.
"It's engraved with the initials of our surnames." Zhang Jun pointed to me happily, Zh&L.
The girls marveled at "it's so beautiful", but Huang Wei clasped her hands on her chest and stared at me disdainfully.
I closed the box and returned the gold necklace to Zhang Jun: "I'm sorry, I can't have it."
The room suddenly became quiet, and Zhang Jun's friends couldn't understand what I was doing at this time, only Guan He saw it in his eyes. We were all too self-respecting, too proud, or too inferior and too sensitive.
Zhang Jun seemed to smile calmly and said, "Even if it doesn't look good, you can take it as a souvenir. It has our names on it."
"I can't."
Zhen Gongzi glared at me and wanted to yell at me, but Jia Gongzi held him back and said, "After the gifts are delivered, we should leave."
Everyone embarrassedly echoed: "Let's go, let's go, let's go."
Zhang Jun stared at me, the smile on his face tightened reluctantly: "I ask you one last time, do you want it?"
I shook my head.
With a bang, Zhang Jun threw the box into the trash can, smiled at Zhen Gongzi nonchalantly, and said, "Let's go play billiards."
Zhen Gongzi glared at me, and immediately shouted in agreement, "Let's go, let's go and play ball together."
A few of their good buddies left with all their friends talking and laughing, leaving only Lin still and Guan He.
I smiled at them: "I'm sorry, I'm going home first."
In a short time, I fell from heaven to hell.
After returning home, his mind was still in chaos, lying on the bed tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, all the grievances caused by Zhang Jun flooded into his heart.
Every day after school, he sneaks up, sacrificing study time to accompany him, becoming one of his many girlfriends, being talked about in a sneering tone, knowing that I don’t want others to know about our relationship, but he invites so many people, every time When they are together, spending money is very painful, but he has no understanding...
While thinking about it, the phone on the table suddenly rang loudly. I was taken aback and answered the phone immediately with a sixth sense, so fast that the phone didn't even finish ringing.
"Hey?"
"it's me."
Frightened, I opened the door and took a look. I was sure that there was no movement from my parents, and then I hid under the quilt with the phone in my arms.
Neither of them spoke. After a while, he asked, "Are you still there?"
"Why are you calling so late? What if my parents answer the phone?"
"I thought about it. If your parents answered, I would hang up immediately. They would think it was a harassing call. However, I have a feeling that you will answer."
I said nothing, and he asked, "Are you angry?"
"No."
"Then would you like to go out and play together tomorrow?"
"I'm going to read a book tomorrow."
"The day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, you have to read books. You don't want to see me at all, do you?"
I did not answer.
"Today is your birthday, no matter what, I shouldn't be angry with you, let alone this is our first birthday together, I really want to make you happy. I'll give you a new birthday present , don't be mad at me, okay?"
Send it back? I was so embarrassed that I almost threw the phone: "Don't give me gifts, people's feelings are not expressed by gifts."
"I've been to your house just now, and I've left things at your door. Go and get them."
"I do not want."
"Even if you don't want it, you have to throw it away! Could it be that you want your parents to see it tomorrow?"
I was stunned for a moment, immediately put the phone down, crept into the living room, opened the door, and saw a small transparent plastic bottle with a blue ribbon tied on it in the corner beside the door, I quickly took it in and closed it. Good door, slip back to the bedroom.
When I got to the bedroom, I dared to take a closer look. There was a stone in the plastic bottle.
Although the bottle is beautiful, it is just a waste bottle after eating the chocolate beans; the stone, although beautiful, is a very ordinary stone, as long as you take the time, you can pick it up in the river.
After thinking about it for a long time, I couldn't figure out what Zhang Jun meant, so I could only put the phone in the quilt again, and called him with a heart in mind. He answered the phone just after the phone rang for a while.
I pressed my voice and said, "It's me."
"I know," he said.
"What do you mean?"
"Do you remember our fifth grade summer vacation?"
A clear picture flashed through my mind, but the tone was cold: "I don't remember."
"Mr. Gao taught us to participate in math competitions. At that time, we went home together every day and often went to the river to play. You liked picking up stones. You were more introverted at that time, and you always liked to keep your head down, and you didn't laugh or laugh very much. Talk, but as long as I help you pick up beautiful stones, you will be very happy, you will talk to me, and you will tell me the stories you read from the book, do you remember?"
Of course I remember, how could I forget? It's just that our memory is biased. I remember that I was racking my brains talking to him, and I also remember that whether he helped me pick up stones or not, I would be very happy.
He said: "Every time I go for a walk by the river, I will unconsciously turn over the stones and pick them up if there is something beautiful. A stone represents a year. In the future, every year for your birthday, I will choose one of the stones I have collected. I will give you the most beautiful one, and I hope you will have a hundred beautiful stones from me in the future."
I thought about it for a while before I understood what he meant. In an instant, I went from hell to heaven again. My heart was overflowing with emotion, but I said lightly, "How can I live to be more than a hundred years old?"
He smiled and said, "If we live together, we can live."
"Just daydream!"
"This is not a pipe dream, it is scientifically based. It is reported that the secret of longevity for many elderly people is to maintain a good mood. As long as we are together, we will be happy every day, and we will definitely live to be a hundred years old. "
He spoke with nose and eyes, I couldn't help but covered my mouth and kept laughing. The unhappiness of the night was so drowned out by sweetness that it disappeared without a trace.
Is every relationship an ups and downs of happiness and unhappiness? I don't know, I only know that my sensitive girl's heart will fall to the bottom in an instant because of his words, and it will also rise to heaven in an instant because of one of his actions. It seems to be capricious, but in fact, all judgments The standard is just: he doesn't care about me.
2
first grade
Thank you for having met me heartily; thank you for making that beautiful oath to me.
Time goes by, years go by, and heartfelt encounters will be separated,
Beautiful vows will change, the world has too many defects and regrets,
But I remember, and I will always remember, that you loved me deeply.
Because of the birthday party, the matter of Zhang Jun and I spread quickly on the campus, and Yang Jun laughed.
At that time, campus ballads were in full swing. Many boys liked to sit on desks during recess, with their feet on stools, and strummed the guitar. Yang Jun was one of them.
He couldn't sing love songs to Tong Yunzhu, so he used all his energy to attack and laugh at me. Since he heard about me and Zhang Jun, his favorite game is to play and sing "You at the Same Table" to me.
"Whoever married the sentimental you, who read your diary, who put up your long hair, who made you a wedding dress, who read the letter I wrote to you..."
The whole class listened and laughed.
At this time, I must calm down and ignore him completely, otherwise no matter what the reaction is, it will only make the boys in our class laugh happier.
But before the mid-term exam, Yang Jun suddenly became sluggish, stopped teasing me, stopped singing, and was not even in the mood to study.
I asked him what was wrong, and he quietly told me that he saw Tong Yunzhu holding hands with the hooligan who opened the video room.