Qianqian is so weak, Mei Ruohong is so persistent
Yinshuang is so beautiful, Haozhen is so affectionate
Le Mei is so loyal, Qi Xuan is so miserable
Aunt Qiong Yao, how many willing tears have you deceived us
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Goal: provincial champion
If I could go back in time, I wouldn't be proud to pretend I didn't care, I would tell you loudly that I love you, I would hug you tightly when you were sad, I wouldn't only care about my own feelings and ignore yours idea.
But-but-
Liang Jingru sang "If One Day", but she later sang "No If".
The results of the mid-term exam were announced, and I won again, not only in the first place, but also more than twenty points higher than the second place, and only one point behind the second and third place.
In the eyes of my teachers and my classmates, I was like a rocket launcher and kept swooping upwards. Now they not only regard me as the No. 1 in the grade, but also think that I have a high probability of becoming the No. 1 in the province.
During the parent-teacher meeting, the old principal deliberately talked to my parents and said that as long as the school and the family work together, they are confident that they will be able to cultivate the first provincial champion of female physiology in No. 1 Middle School next year. My parents were overwhelmed and made a promise to the old principal that they would fully cooperate with the teacher's education.
Zhang Jun's grades improved a little, ranking twenty-ninth in the grade; Guan He's grades fell again, falling to over forty in the grade.
When Lin and I were still looking at the grades, several first-year students were also looking at our grades, and they were talking about me, what Luo Qiqi was often late for class, never listened to class, didn't like to hand in homework, what Luo Qiqi and the sophomore year The most handsome playboy Zhang Jun is in love, spending all day drinking, going to and from karaoke cinemas...
They were exaggerating, and they were amazed for a while, as if I could take the first place every day without learning anything.
I looked up at the scoreboard, a black line on my forehead. Lin still kept snickering.
A girl pointed Zhang Jun's name to show them: "See? Zhang Jun used to be in the seventh or eighth grade. Since he was with Luo Qiqi, with her help, his studies have gotten better and better."
I couldn't hold back any longer, and immediately said, "Jun Zhang never asked Luo Qiqi to help him, he learned it by himself, and he never asked Luo Qiqi any questions about his studies." Zhang Jun was very proud, if let him hear these words , will definitely be uncomfortable.
Several girls glanced at me as if they were insane, continued to talk about their own gossip, ignored me, and left while talking about the gossip.
Then I saw Guan He was also looking at the scoreboard in the crowd, greeted her, and wanted to chat with her, but she left immediately. Although she was polite on the surface, I could sense the impatience in her heart, but I was patronizing the depressing rumors at the time, and didn't think deeply about her reaction.
After the mid-term exam, it was obvious that all the teachers had started the question sea tactics. Every science subject has to do a set of papers almost every day, and Chinese and English are also overwhelming papers. Many students in the class do their homework until one or two in the morning every day. I used to not hand in homework occasionally, but now I don’t hand in homework every day. My principle is to do it or not to do it, and never waste time on perfunctory and copying homework. Although I don't hand in homework every day, my grades still only go up, not down. The teachers turn one eye and close one eye, and they don't care about me. My classmates pass me on very well.
In the case of the continuous increase of various courses, with each quiz, many students' grades rose, and many students' grades fell. Shen Yuanzhe was one of the students whose grades fell the most.
He was very anxious and came to me for help. He told me that he had worked very hard, but for some reason his grades kept dropping. In order to help him, for the first time, I left Lin Yan and Yang Jun and became Shen Yuanzhe's deskmate.
I observed his study method, and indeed, as he said, he worked very hard, and he completed all the homework assigned by the teacher seriously, but his problem was that he was too serious.
While studying the papers of his various subjects, I selected the topics that I thought were valuable in the sea of questions assigned by the teacher according to his ability, and told him that he would rather spend a night to understand these topics thoroughly and not do any other topics. , and don't spend one night busy doing all your homework.
Shen Yuanzhe followed my instructions and carefully answered the questions I had drawn one by one. After he finished, he thought it was all right, but I asked him to memorize it. The same, do you also need to carry it?"
"I actually hope that you can ponder and study the way of thinking about each topic in your mind, because there are so many topics, maybe only one way of thinking is used, but thinking is a very empty topic, you I can only experience it myself, and I have no way to teach it to you, so I can only ask you to memorize it."
Because of my request, he often takes three or four times as long for a question, and the teacher's homework will definitely not be completed. However, he is a good student, and he is not willing to leave homework, so he can only copy other students' work. Operation. The surrounding classmates laughed at Shen Yuanzhe's degeneration with Luo Qiqi.
In the evening, when I don’t go home with Zhang Jun, I will ask Shen Yuanzhe to go with him at a suitable time, and I will ask him the exercises he did a week ago, and repeatedly ask him why you think he should do this.
Five to seven days is the period of memory, and repeating memory at this time can ensure long-term memory. Repeatedly asking why is to make him understand, the focus is not on answering the question, but on why.
When Shen Yuanzhe and I occasionally went home together, I wanted to say hello to Zhang Jun, but found that he didn't pay attention to me at all, and actually got very close to Guan He and took Guan He home every night.
In a fit of rage, I didn't want to say anything, and concentrated on tutoring Shen Yuanzhe's homework.
One night, after asking Shen Yuanzhe's question, I was very upset, so I sat and chatted with Shen Yuanzhe on the table beside the green forest.
The intense study, the uncertain future, Zhang Jun's too much attention, the pressure of being with Zhang Jun, and the beautiful and excellent Guan He... I was overwhelmed. For the first time, I put all my jealousy towards Guan He. confided.
I told Shen Yuanzhe that Guan He regarded me as a friend, but I was always jealous of her, and I could usually restrain myself, but as long as Zhang Jun was involved, I would lose control. Sometimes I only see her talking and laughing with Zhang Jun for ten minutes between classes, and I will feel depressed, jealous, pessimistic, depressed, and all kinds of negative emotions will appear.
Shen Yuanzhe asked me, "Have you talked to Zhang Jun?"
"I won't tell him." Because I like him, I don't want to expose my ugly side to him.
"You don't have to blame yourself so much, it's normal to be jealous of others, but the object of your jealousy happens to be your good friend, but you didn't do anything to hurt Guan He."
During the conversation with Shen Yuanzhe, my mood gradually improved.
It is estimated that the first time Shen Yuanzhe met a girl who was so frank with him, so he asked me curiously: "Why do you trust me so much? And why do you help me so much? When I was in the first year of high school, I felt that you were very helpful to me. , no matter what I propose, you fully support. You look careless, outgoing, easy-going, but in fact stubborn, introverted, and sensitive, you make people feel that you are easy to approach, in fact few people can really be your friend."
I smiled and shook my head: "You really don't remember me? We talked when we were in junior high school."
He frowned and thought for a while, then said with certainty, "No, if we talked, I'd never forget it."
"Don't be so absolute in everything, think again!"
"I've heard your name, I know you're quick-witted, good at speaking, good at debating, you've won awards in the city, and you've been on TV. You're a celebrity in our grade, but we've never met."
I laughed: "Celebrity? You mean notoriety?"
Shen Yuanzhe was still thinking hard: "I really don't remember what we said."
I reminded him: "In the first year of junior high, in the classroom of class (1), there was a girl lying on the table crying."
He still couldn't remember, I smiled and said, "I was driven by the cornucopia to sit in the garbage dump at the back of the classroom. I was so uncomfortable lying on the table crying, maybe you went to class (2) to see your sister, and when you heard the cry, you Came in, comforted me patiently, spoke with me for nearly forty minutes, and you didn't leave until I stopped crying."
"Because I had a serious illness when I was a child, I went to school late, and I was older than you all. Since I was a child, I liked to play the role of a confidant and 'nosy', but I don't remember talking to you." He obviously believed me. The words he said couldn't make me stand out from his memory. I was mixed with countless people he had enlightened and comforted, and I didn't leave any special memories. He was surprised: "I didn't expect us to talk so early."
I also find it amazing. Two people who have experienced the same thing at the same time, the same space, have completely different memories, one is clear and the other doesn't remember at all.
I said: "For you, it was just a few words with a stranger that day, and it's normal not to remember; for me, it was a ray of sunshine in a dark world, even if we were not in the same high school class, Will become friends, and I will always remember and appreciate you."
"You think of me too well," he said.
"Do I have it?"
"I'm a very utilitarian person."
"I can tell."
He hesitated for a moment before saying, "I don't do things aboveboard."
"You're talking about the election of the student council president, right? It's all about each other's scheming, no drugs, no husbands. In the third year of junior high, I saw that you were not so 'sunshine and kind'." I was like a buddy , patted him on the shoulder, smiled and said, "My world has never been black and white, I only know who is good to me, and I will be good to whoever, so don't act like you have deceived my feelings. "
Shen Yuanzhe lifted the glasses on the bridge of his nose and smiled. For the first time, I felt that we were friends.
After school the next day, I went to Zhang Jun to tell him that I had a new buddy—Shen Yuanzhe. I was embarrassed to wait for him directly at the door of the classroom, so I kept waiting for him at the corner of the stairs. But Zhang Jun still didn't come out until the classmates were almost all gone.
I went to their class to check, and saw Zhang Jun sitting on the table in the last row, Guan He standing beside Zhang Jun, leaning against the windowsill, the two chatted in low voices. At that time, most of the lights in the classroom had been turned off, leaving only one on the podium. Around Zhang Jun and Guan He, the light was very dim, the melancholy on Guan He's face and the gentleness on Zhang Jun's face were reflected very movingly.
I stood in the dark place outside the classroom and watched them silently for a long time, hoping that Zhang Jun would find me, but nothing happened. Zhang Jun never even looked away from Guan He's face.
I turned around and walked slowly out of the corridor.
For two days in a row, I ignored Zhang Jun, and he didn't make a bubble in front of my eyes. Instead, he took great pains to take Guan He home after school every day.
On Friday morning, when I walked into the teaching building after radio gymnastics, I saw Zhang Jun and Zhen Gongzi standing in the corridor, talking and laughing discussing something.
Seeing me, Master Jia said: "Oh, say Cao Cao, Cao Cao is here, Zhang Jun, hurry up and ask your majesty the princess for instructions."
Zhang Jun asked me with a smile, "Young Master Zhen said that he was treating guests tonight, and we agreed to let him bleed heavily. Where do you want to go?"
I gave him a cold look, ignored him, and walked over.
"Qiqi, Qiqi."
Zhang Jun called out twice, but I didn't look back, the laughter behind me immediately froze.
I thought he would come to me at noon, but instead of coming to me, he stood with Guan He and kept talking.
In the afternoon, Shen Yuanzhe asked me, "I have two movie tickets, do you want to go to the movies?"
I immediately agreed angrily, and let Zhang Jun go to accompany his Guan He!
There were still a lot of people in the cinema, we could only sit at the very edge, it was "The Liang Zhu" by Wu Qilong and Cai Ni Yang. At first, I laughed so hard that I almost broke my stomach, but then I was tortured to the point where my heart was shaking, and I just felt inside The pervasive sadness rushed up wave after wave, resisted for a long time, and finally couldn't hold back, and began to cry.
Shen Yuanzhe handed me the facial tissue, and I burst into tears and cried without image.
After the movie was over, I was still in tears. In fact, I didn't even know what I was crying about, whether it was the movie or full of grievances. Shen Yuanzhe didn't dare to speak, so he just sat to the side.
"Luo Qiqi, Zhang Jun is over there."
Shen Yuanzhe suddenly tugged at me, I raised my head with tears in my eyes, and saw Zhen Gongzi and Jia Gongzi with strange expressions, and Zhang Jun with a livid face. There was the pain of being hurt in his eyes, and he was at a loss for what to do.
I stood up and asked in amazement, "Why did you come to the movies?"
Shen Yuanzhe greeted with a smile: "Zhang Jun."
The anger on Zhang Jun's face disappeared, and he walked over to Shen Yuanzhe with a smile, as if he was about to say hello, but in the next moment, he saw that Zhang Jun had pressed Shen Yuanzhe's shoulder with one hand, and smashed Shen Yuanzhe's lower abdomen with the other. Subconsciously resist, but Zhang Jun fights from childhood to big, where is Zhang Jun's opponent. Zhang Jun knocked Shen Yuanzhe to the ground in two or three strokes. Shen Yuanzhe's face was covered in blood, and Zhang Jun had to lift his foot and kick. His mouth was smiling, but his eyes were full of sternness. At that moment, what I was afraid of was not that Shen Yuanzhe was injured, but that Zhang Jun missed and seriously injured Shen Yuanzhe, and his life on the right track would be ruined.
I screamed loudly in fear: "Zhang Jun! Stop!"
The sharp voice echoed in the empty cinema, Zhang Jun stopped, looked up at me, and walked away. Zhen Gongzi and the others glared at me contemptuously, and then chased Zhang Jun away.
I kept saying to Shen Yuanzhe, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'll take you to the hospital."
Shen Yuanzhe held the chair and stood up staggeringly: "It's nothing, it's just a little nosebleed and scratched skin. Zhang Jun probably misunderstood. Go and explain to him."
I didn't say a word, should I go and explain to him? Why? Just because I didn't say hello to him and ran out to watch a movie? He's not the underworld boss, and I'm not his captive canary.
At night, I tossed and turned in bed and couldn't fall asleep. I was sad for a while, and annoyed for a while.
While tossing and turning, I heard a group of drunken people downstairs making noise and shouting, and their voices were familiar.
I got up in a hurry, opened the corner of the curtain and looked down. Under the dim street lights, it was Zhang Jun and the others, all of them were very drunk.
While drinking, they sang Andy Lau's "Loveless Water" in front of my window: "I used to love to chase my dreams when I was young, I just wanted to fly forward, traveled through thousands of mountains and rivers, and I couldn't go back all the way, and suddenly I looked back on my love. It's far away, and I can't help myself before I understand love, hate, and hatred. The most painful and painful thing is regret. If you didn't have a broken heart, you wouldn't understand my sadness. When there are tears in my eyes, don't ask me for who I am. Let me forget all this, ah, give me a cup of forgetfulness..."
This song has already been broadcast by the audio shops on the street to the extreme, but tonight, leaning in the darkness, I can't help but feel sad when I listen to the hoarse roar of a group of boys.
If I was twenty-seven years old that year, maybe I could run downstairs and hug him tightly, then my self-esteem and his pride would become unimportant, but I was only seventeen that year, So I could only hide behind the curtains, listening to the song, and fearing that my parents would wake up.
After they finished singing, they still refused to leave, and faint voices came.
"Call her down, call her down."
"Let her make it clear."
I was so afraid that my heart was in my throat, for fear that they would shout my name when they were drunk, as if they were singing just now, but fortunately, after they smashed a few beer bottles at the telephone pole, they supported each other and sang "Forgetting Love" aloud. Water", left sideways.
When they didn't leave just now, I was so nervous that I kept begging them to leave soon, but when they left, I couldn't tell how saddened I was. Maybe somewhere, I also understand that we have missed an opportunity to let go of our pride and open our hearts to each other.
The next morning, during breakfast, my father and mother scolded the hooligan who was drunk last night while they were eating. I listened to it and burst out laughing.
After hurriedly eating breakfast, I hid in the bedroom and called Zhang Jun. The person who answered the phone was his aunt, and when he heard my voice, he said, "Zhang Jun is still sleeping, I'll call you right away. "
Not as usual, even when he was sleeping, he would pick up the phone quickly, and after a long time, his voice rang on the other end of the phone: "What's the matter with you?"
The voice was so nonchalant that I almost hung up, but said, "I… I'm fine."
"It's okay, then I'm going to bed."
After he finished speaking, he didn't hang up. I said in a strained voice, "Then go to sleep!" I immediately hung up the phone.
I was secretly swearing in my heart that I would never call him again, when the phone rang suddenly, I answered the phone immediately, with expectation: "Hello?"
"it's me."
"Um."
"Are you really all right?"
I don't speak, but I don't hang up.
He was silent for a while and asked, "Do you like Shen Yuanzhe?"
"What? Of course not!"
"Then do you know that he likes you?"
"No matter who spreads the rumors, it's all fake!"
"Does this even need other people's rumors? During the summer camp, I saw that he liked you, and you were strange to him, so I lived with him and stared at him."
No wonder I always thought it was weird. At that time, Zhang Jun and Shen Yuanzhe were so good at the same time, but in a blink of an eye, he and Shen Yuanzhe became close friends.
"You must be too attentive. Shen Yuanzhe treats everyone very well. He is half-hearted and half-natural. He is a person who likes to stay everywhere..."
Zhang Jun interrupted me impatiently: "I ask you, are you sitting at the same table with him now?"
"Yes."
"Did you come home from school with him?"
"Yes."
"I've put up with it for now. You rejected me in front of a bunch of my buddies at the weekend, but went to watch a movie with him. What do you think of me?"
That's because you went in and out with Guan He first, and I agreed to go out with Shen Yuanzhe in a fit of anger.
He asked, "Do you really like me?"
"What do you think?" I'm very angry that he is still asking this question now. If I don't like him, why would I have so much trouble
He said, "I'll give you two choices, either me or Shen Yuanzhe. Do you choose Shen Yuanzhe or me?"