I was so uncomfortable: "Shen Yuanzhe is my friend, you are my boyfriend, one is friendship, the other is love, and there is no conflict between the two. If I asked you to choose me and Zhen Gongzi, would you be happy?"
"You can be friends with anyone, but you can't be friends with Shen Yuanzhe, damn, he knows you have a boyfriend, and he asks you to go out to watch a movie, what's he thinking, don't think I don't know! , it's still early! If you still care about me, change seats immediately, you are not allowed to sit at the same table with Shen Yuanzhe, you are not allowed to go home with him, and you are not allowed to talk to him!"
I couldn't speak, and Zhang Jun said, "I won't contact you this weekend. Let's all think about it. If you continue to sit at the same table with Shen Yuanzhe on Monday, I'll understand." After he finished speaking, bang hung up the phone.
On Monday, I continued to sit at the same table with Shen Yuanzhe.
The chemistry quiz is coming soon. This exam is very important to Shen Yuanzhe. I must let him regain his confidence in himself. Without confidence, he may be eliminated completely in the third year of high school where everyone works hard.
Zhang Jun ignored me, even passing by in the corridor, he didn't even look at me.
Several times, I wanted to go to him and explain to him that he really misunderstood Shen Yuanzhe, but I always saw him and Guan He together, plus a haunted Huang Wei, I was so tired. I don't even want to talk about it anymore. Since he is happy with me or not, I don't need to forcefully go to him.
On Thursday, the chemistry test paper was issued. Shen Yuanzhe did well in the test. He thanked me, and I said, "As a friend, you don't have to be so polite. If you have any questions about your homework in the future, you can come and ask me at any time."
On Friday, I moved back to my original position and continued to form our triangular relationship with Lin Yan and Yang Jun. For my return, Yang Junyu took off my stool during class and let me fall to the ground again, expressing a warm welcome, while Lin still asked me to explain why the more I study chemistry, the better.
I'm glad I have opponents like them, and I'm proud to have friends like them. Because of them, the brutal competition has become fun and warm.
In the afternoon, after the class meeting and school, I carried my schoolbag and walked boredly.
Usually at this time, Zhang Jun can't wait to plan what to do at night, and I'm used to spending time with him. I used to want him not to be so clingy, but now that I have a lot of time, I suddenly realize that I don't want to be alone at all, and my mind is full of him.
I didn't want to go home, so I walked to the river and sat down, silently watching the river in a daze.
I don't know what Zhang Jun is doing now, no matter what he does, he will never be lonely.
Suddenly, a stone hit me, and water splashed all over my face.
I wiped my face and looked sideways. Zhang Jun stood on the bridge with a smile: "What are you going to do at night? I have already bought the movie tickets, let's go to the movies!"
I stared at him, how could he be so nonchalant, as if nothing had happened? I've been tormented internally and externally this week, does he understand one or two
I turned my head away as if I couldn't see him at all.
He started throwing stones one after another, the water kept splashing, and my hair and body were wet, but I acted like nothing happened and looked into the distance in a fit of rage.
As he threw stones, he said with a smile, "Are you going to go? If you don't go, I'll keep throwing them down. The stones here are endless."
I still sit like a stone sculpture, resolutely ignoring him.
Suddenly, there were no more stones flying, the splash of water shrouded in front of him disappeared, and there was no more his voice, the world suddenly became too quiet, only the rushing water.
I began to panic, but still refused to look back.
As time goes on, I am not just flustered, but scared. Is he still there? Is he angry again? Is he gone again
Finally, I couldn't help but look back.
The sunset in summer had dyed the bridge red early, and the evening wind blew sparkling waves. Everything is picturesque, but there is a sly smile on his face, proud of his trick: "You still turned back!"
I got up so angry and left, he hurried down the railing and chased me: "Qi Qi, it's my fault, I apologize to you."
"I was wrong that day, I shouldn't have beaten people."
"I promise not to interfere with your freedom to make friends in the future, and I promise not to beat people again."
I don't speak, just walk fast. He wanted to help me with the bag, but I just wouldn't let him.
"Qiqi, do you really want to break up with me for Shen Yuanzhe?"
My pace slowed down, he saw the opportunity and immediately went to pick up my schoolbag, I no longer refused and let him take it.
He calmed down, smiled and said, "I'll be waiting for you at Qiaotou at night, when can you finish dinner? Or, you lie to your mother, don't eat at home, let's go to the night market to eat. "
I can't speak. I'm not like him, I can move freely, and I can't adjust my nerves for a while.
"Qiqi, don't be angry anymore, I said it's all my fault, just say something!"
"I have to eat dinner at home, but I will eat less, deal with my parents, and come out."
He smiled and snapped his fingers: "My Qi Qi is smart!"
While chatting and laughing, the two were reconciled and sweet as ever.
I thought it was just the same little dispute as before, and everything was over after the reconciliation, but I didn't understand that what he kept saying from start to finish was "it's my fault". He temporarily abandoned his self-esteem because he liked it, and because he was afraid of losing it, but a man's self-esteem is like a spring. It may be pressed down by external pressure, but one day it will bounce up and bounce higher than before.
2
mock exam
What is destiny? There are two famous English sayings that are very clear:
Men heap together the mistakes of their lives,
and create a monster they call destiny.
- People bring together the mistakes of their lives to create a demon called destiny.
It is a mistake to try to look too far ahead.
The chain of destiny can only be grasped one link at a time.
- It is wrong to worry too much about the future, on the chain of fate,
The only thing we can hold on to is now.
Because the third year of high school is divided into fast and slow classes, the standard is the final exam, so the final exam of the second year of high school is very important.
In the past, the exam papers were all 100%. From now on, everything is based on the college entrance examination, and the exam papers have changed from 100% to 150%.
To prepare us for the change and prepare for the final exam, the school held a mock exam.
After the results of the mock exam, I was still the first, with almost full marks in both physics and chemistry. Zhang Jun is more than 30 grades, and Guan He has only passed the grades more than 50.
Since my grades have been getting better and better, Zhang Jun has never studied in front of me, but I know he works very hard. Even if I am sick, I can still read English. I occasionally go to his house to play, and often find a thick stack of scratch paper full of exercises. I know very well the pain of working hard and not getting results.
Zhang Jun's mood was very low, I thought of ways to make him happy, but he was still unhappy and lethargic every day, as if he had completely lost his self-confidence.
On weekends, he came to me to sing, and I suggested we go for a walk by the river.
When I was walking by the river, I started to tell him about my experience of learning English. I was only halfway through, and he suddenly became impatient and angry, and said to me: "You are full of thoughts, do you have anything else besides studying? Do you think everyone is just like you, except study or study?"
I was stunned. I was wronged and angry for a while. I wanted to help him wholeheartedly, and even shared my most painful experience with him, but he resented me.
I suppressed my grievance, turned around and left: "You're in a bad mood, I'll go first."
He grabbed me, and the grievances and dissatisfaction accumulated over a long period of time made him lose control of his emotions: "Since we were together, you always say you are angry and get angry, you never talk to me, and you want to break up with me, regardless of whether it is my fault or not. You must continue to be together until I admit my mistake, I sometimes don't understand, since you don't like me at all, why do you want to be with me?"
"Why don't I like you anymore?"
"Other girls want their boyfriends to accompany them. If they don't send them home, they will get angry, but you don't want me to accompany you. I accompany you home every day, but you are not happy; other girls are very happy. Spend more time with my boyfriend, but every time I ask you to go out to play, you always push back and refuse to go; you never care that I'm with other girls, no matter how I play with them, you don't respond, just It seems that I have nothing to do with you at all. All you care about is learning, and you don’t care what I do at all. My position in your heart may not be half as important as your learning.”
I opened his hand forcefully and said coldly, "If you think other girls are good, then you go to other girls."
He said behind me: "Don't worry, this time, I will never bother you or hinder you. You can concentrate on being your provincial champion."
With my back straight, I strode forward until my figure disappeared from his sight.
I'm very sad, I don't understand why I'm so sincere for him, but he doesn't accept it at all. I was very aggrieved and blamed his ignorance.
It wasn't until many years later that I realized that at the time, I was not wrong and neither was he. Our only mistake is that we are too young and do not know how to appreciate each other's love.
At that time, I only knew that I liked him and wished him well, so I couldn't wait to help him, but I used the wrong method.
At that time, Zhang Jun was a very proud and good-looking boy. He wants to take care of me, not be taken care of by me. He has been working hard to be good enough. He is under a lot of pressure and nervous. What he needs to know is my feelings for him, not how good I am in study. However, at his age at the time, he could only see my mouth talking about learning, but not my heart. He just wanted him to be confident and happy.
I don't go to Zhang Jun, and Zhang Jun doesn't come to me either. We started a cold war.
Before the final exam, we took the last physical education standard exam. According to rumors, if the result is not good, you will not be able to get the high school graduation certificate, and you will not be eligible to take the college entrance examination.
Except for the crunches that I did relatively well, all other results were terrible. If I didn't pass the 800 meters, I would... I don't know what to do.
On the day of the 800-meter test, there was a light rain in the early morning, and the air was humid and cool. The boys in our class congratulated me collectively: "God is helping you, you will definitely pass."
I frowned and said, "I borrow everyone's good words."
During the exam, all the boys in our class cheered me on by the side of the playground, but I was still the last one, and my feet were getting slower and slower.
"Luo Qiqi, there are a million people waiting for you."
"Luo Qiqi, there are perverts chasing you, woo-woo-run!"
"Luo Qiqi, a group of tigers behind you are about to pounce on you. If you don't run, you will die, ooh-ooh-"
…
The young physical education teacher is confused. When did the playground become the African savannah? He smiled and ordered the boys in our class to shut up.
All the ways boys can cheer up can't make me run faster. Originally, I was still insisting, hoping that I could be faster, but when I saw Zhang Jun who was standing in the crowd at an unknown time, all my strength was exhausted, and I had the idea of giving up on myself.
After the first lap, the teacher looked at the stopwatch and shook his head: "Two minutes and thirty seconds."
The boys in our class were all in a hurry, Yang Jun and Ma Li screamed, "Luo Qiqi, why are you so cowardly?"
Just as I was struggling for the second lap, Zhang Jun suddenly ran to my side, took my hand, and led me forward. His hands were strong and strong, and I just felt that although I was panting heavily, my speed was getting faster and faster.
The voice of the boys in our class changed from "Luo Qiqi, come on" to "Zhang Jun, come on! Zhang Jun, come on!"
All the noise in the playground disappeared, I seemed to be flying in the wind, my eyes were blurred, I remembered that many years ago, when the wind was raining and the sky was full of hail, he took my hand, but took my Heart.
After so many years, it turned out to be mostly bitter and sweet, but only a little sweet. Would I be willing to do it again? Would I rather not let him hold my hand
When I found that Zhang Jun was dragging me to a stop, I had already run to the finish line in confusion.
The physical education teacher didn't say that we violated the rules. He pretended not to see anything. After finishing the stopwatch, he said regretfully, "A total of four minutes and twenty seconds, we can't meet the standard."
The boys in our class are all begging around the teacher: "Teacher, let's pass, let's pass, we multiply the speed of the second lap by two, the first lap does not count."
"Why don't you take the test again next week and let Zhang Jun lead Luo Qiqi to run from the beginning, but it's so troublesome!"
"Luo Qiqi must not fail to take the college entrance examination. She is willing to do so, but the school is not happy!"
"Teacher, you will give everyone a face, and we must be grateful to you."
The physical education teacher was annoyed by everyone. With a wave of the pen, he changed his grades. He didn't say anything. He just put the grades in front of Zhang Jun, let Zhang Jun take a look, and left immediately.
The boys in our class also planned to go to the office to beg, but Zhang Jun said, "It's over."
The boys all jumped up and cheered, joking between me and Zhang Jun: "Since you held hands, there have been twice as many people on the playground. Everyone is looking at you. You are too high-profile. Be careful that the head teacher is talking to you. ."
I secretly looked at Zhang Jun, but Zhang Jun didn't even look at me, he just lifted his foot and left.
I was stunned and rushed to chase after him. He ignored me, and I begged softly, "Tell me a word."
I kept talking to him, but he just had a cold face and didn't say a word. I couldn't go on, but I didn't want to give up, so I could only run in small steps and follow him closely.
I followed him all the way and he ignored me all the way.
I followed him upstairs, he was about to enter the classroom, I grabbed the corner of his shirt, he had to stop, looked back at me, as if waiting for me to say something, the students in their class were curious I raised my head and stared at us from the window. I felt very embarrassed in front of everyone. I quickly let go of Zhang Jun. He seemed a little disappointed, but he didn't say anything and walked into the classroom without looking back.
I returned to the classroom listlessly. As soon as I entered the classroom, I slumped on the table because my nose was sore and my eyes were full of tears.
Yang Jun asked, "Reconciled?"
I shook my head.
"broke up?"
I shook my head.
Tears fell silently on the sleeves.
Yang Jun asked, "Do you want to go out for a walk?"
When all the tears in the corners of my eyes were covered by my sleeves, when my voice would not reveal my weakness, I raised my head and said with a smile, "I don't want to go to class anymore."
Yang Jun said cheerfully, "No problem, I'll take you to the countryside by bike."
Yang Jun and I packed up our schoolbags and skipped class, not thinking about taking a physics test in the next class.
I know that indulging in grief won't help, and if I'm doomed to lose Jun Zhang, I can't lose my studies anymore. But that day, I couldn't control my sadness, I couldn't read a book at all, I just wanted to indulge.
I didn't sleep well at night, I kept dreaming, waking up from time to time, Zhang Jun's figure inside and outside the dream, I kept crying in the dream.
The next morning, as soon as the alarm clock rang, I forced myself to get up and read a book. The time for depraved and venting was over, and I had to read it if I couldn’t read it. The reason why people are called intelligent high-level creatures is because we are intelligent and can use reason to restrain incorrect behavior.
In the continual cold war between Zhang Jun and I, the final exam came.
I was still far ahead of the first place; Zhang Jun was a mess, and he was over 180 in grade; Guan He was over 60 in grade.
When I followed the grades on the list, I suddenly realized that Guan He had not entered the top 20 in the grade for a long time. Even Yang Jun and Lin still would be anxious because of the decline in grades, not to mention Guan He. ? Guan He shoulders not only herself, but also all her mother's hopes.