A Book Dedicated to Our Youth

Chapter 65: The beauty of forgiveness (2)

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In Brother Li's office, Xiaobo reminded her for the first time that she should not act impulsive and cherish herself. He smiled and asked her, "Qiqi, what do you want to do in the future?"

"Um... um... I like reading books, maybe I can open a small bookstore, read books, make some money, enough to support myself."

At the moment of understanding, Qi Qi only felt that there were thousands of fiery red flowers singing and blooming one after another, the whole world was lit up, and the whole body seemed to be burst with joy.

He has not forgotten! He has not forgotten!

Suddenly, drop after drop of water fell onto the pool table, printing dark green stains one by one. Luo Qiqi put his hands on the pool table, lowered his head, let the tears fall wantonly, but grinned while crying, he still remembers me, Xiaobo still remembers me!

Xiaobo has never forgotten her!

She realized a dream instead of him, so he realized a dream instead of her. She took his dream to fly, and he was waiting here quietly while guarding her dream.

But, Xiaobo, why didn't you tell me? Why did I leave crying so many years ago

Luo Qiqi picked up her handbag and walked to the counter to check out.

"Can I leave a message for Sister Wang? Please hand it over to her as soon as possible."

The cashier handed the change to Luo Qiqi: "No problem, I will call and tell Sister Wang."

Luo Qiqi picked up the pen and wrote on the message paper:

Beautiful and warm little bookstore, like a childhood dream. Dreamers have forgotten what they thought in the turbulent red dust, but they did not expect that when they look back, the dream has come true.

Xiaobo, tomorrow I will wait for you by the river, see you soon.

Qi Qi

It had already been handed to the cashier, but she was worried again, took the message paper back, and added the following sentence: "I said see you!"

Luo Qiqi walked out of the bookstore with her handbag in hand, and walked along with the crowd. It was exactly the same unfamiliar scene as before, but she lost the melancholy just now, and couldn't help but laugh and laugh.

Over the years, she has been to many countries, seen a lot of scenery, and experienced a lot of things, but the person she most wants to share with her is not there. Everything is wonderful with a trace of regret. She will tell him everything tomorrow. hard work and wonderful.

A couple walked by her side, the man with a very short board inch, wearing a sleeveless vest, with a strong build, the muscles on both arms were tangled with strength, and there were large tattoos on the back, extending to the arms superior.

There was a little boy on his shoulders, the little boy grabbed his head and shouted "drive, drive", a beautiful woman with long curly hair was walking beside the man, talking on the phone loudly, and looking at his son from time to time .

Luo Qiqi and them passed head-to-head and slowly stopped, but they walked straight past her.

Qiqi turned his head and watched them walk past stores and stopped in front of "On the Water". The man threw his son up and caught it again. The child laughed happily, and in the midst of the laughter, the man Tucked the child under his arm and walked into "On the Water's Side." The woman was still standing in front of the store, talking on the phone.

Across the crowd, Luo Qiqi kept looking at her, her eyes swept across Luo Qiqi several times, but she didn't stop.

Qi Qi laughed, enchanting and squid are really together! What flows in the river of time is no longer important. The man who was with the enchanting may be her relative, or a life-saving straw that she caught when she was desperate, but, no matter what, she finally chose the squid. .

Luo Qiqi smiled at the enchanting, turned around, and merged into the sea of people, but the joy just now disappeared.

If I told Squid and Enchanting more than ten years ago that they would stand opposite Qiqi but didn't know each other, no one would believe it, but this turbulent world and busy life eventually eroded away and thought it was impossible to forget memories, but can she blame them? Didn't she forget their names too? Isn't this life? Walking and forgetting.

For ten years, she knew nothing about Xiaobo's life. Maybe Xiaobo didn't care what she did.

"On the water side" is definitely related to the past, but not necessarily related to her. Maybe it's just Xiaobo's commemoration of that lost time.

As long as they were young, everyone will leave a little softness for the lost youth in the depths of their hearts. In a certain gap in the vicissitudes of life, an inexplicable sadness will suddenly pass through the eyes, and in front of the familiar scenery, a nameless melancholy will suddenly rise in my heart. But these sadness and melancholy do not mean that they want to reunite with those in their memory.

The time in the past is the time in the past, it is impossible to look back, the friends of the past are the friends of the past, and they are only beautiful in memory.

Will Xiaobo rush to her date by the river

she does not know.

In the early morning, after breakfast, Luo Qiqi put on a white T-shirt, denim shorts, carried a large backpack, and walked to the river with water and bread.

Last time, when she left, she thought she could come back at any time if she wanted to, but unexpectedly, in the turbulent life, revisiting the old places is a very luxurious thing, and this separation is ten years.

After walking for more than an hour, I arrived at the green forest. Every tree grew tall and large. In my memory, it was just a small forest, but now it looks like a small forest.

As she walked, Qi Qi gently stroked the tree trunk.

Many years ago, there was a young boy wearing a white and blue T-shirt standing here, waiting for his beloved girl. The boy has been taken away by time, but they are still here.

Luo Qiqi walked through the dense green forest to the river.

"I'm back." She said silently in her heart.

She put down the backpack on her shoulders, sat down by the river, stared at the water, and this was the place where she had a dream.

In countless midnight dreams, she often dreamed of returning to the riverside. In her dreams, there were Zhang Jun, Xiaobo, Xiaofei, Guan He, they were still teenagers, and they were all talking and laughing together, happily play.

Sometimes, she would wake up from her dream with a smile full of joy, but after a moment she realized that they had already left her, just like the youth that was gone forever.

After sitting silently for a long time, Qi Qi took out the cardboard box with her signature from her bag and hugged it tightly in her arms.

Ten years ago, she left them behind without hesitation and rushed to the future. Ten years later, she began to understand that she could never cut off those memories, whether it was pain or laughter, it was her wealth, her life Rich because of them, so, this time, she will take them into the future.

She opened the box.

The first thing that catches my eye is a small transparent plastic jar containing several bottles of dried-up nail polish and a few faded hairpins.

Xiaofei cut her hair after the accident, tried her best to dress up like a boy, and gave her all the nail polish and hair clips she didn't use.

Qi Qi picked up the nail polish and played with it in her palms.

In the summer vacation of the second year of junior high school, she went to see Xiaofei every day. The two painted nail polish on the sofa at Xiaofei's house. Xiaofei taught her how to match the nail polish and the color of her clothes. Gooingly, he agreed to go to a university in the future and be good friends forever. Xiaofei also laughed at her for not having grand ideals and not being able to make money, but she said it didn't matter, she would be responsible for making money to take care of the two of them.

Luo Qiqi said softly to the nail polish: "Xiaofei, where are you? Do you know that I am very good now and can make money very well. No matter what you look like, I have the ability to take care of you."

After graduating from university, Luo Qiqi gave up the job opportunity in Beijing and went to Guangzhou.

In an unfamiliar city, making new friends, and her favorite thing to do after work is to take advantage of various opportunities to soak in bars in Guangzhou, Shenzhen, and Hong Kong. The singers in the bar are all young people who go south to pursue their music dreams. Many are similar to Wang Zheng, but they are not Wang Zheng.

Luo Qiqi works as the most serious and serious office white-collar worker during the day, but at night she becomes a night girl who lingers in sensual places. She is generous, makes friends, and chats about all kinds of gossip.

In all kinds of gossip, she dug out a little bit of news about Wang Zheng. He sang in bars, organized a band with others, and seemed to have made a failed record. Then, he disappeared.

People here are all like this. Suddenly, they appear, using very literary pseudonyms, playing music, and talking about ideals. Year after year, the ideals become weaker and weaker, but the wine is drinking more and more, some people There will be sudden epiphanies and disappearances, and some people will gradually transition from narcotic alcohol to poison, rotting day by day, wandering like ghosts in the dark corners of the city.

The ending of Wang Zheng disappearing is not the worst ending. But what about Xiaofei

Luo Qiqi almost went to Qiangbi and fell to Huangquan, but there was no news from her.

She once stood on the flyover in Guangzhou at three in the morning and shouted to the whole city: "Ge Xiaofei, you still owe me a lamb skewer!"

Over and over, shouting hoarsely, she was answered with a series of greetings, greeting the female relatives of her ancestors for three generations.

The city was noisy and lively, and there were sounds day and night, but there was no sound she was looking for.

More than a year later, at the suggestion of Chen Jin, she applied for an MBA from Stanford University and left Guangzhou.

Luo Qiqi held the nail polish and buried her head on her knees.

Some things in this world have answers, but some things seem to never have answers. Will Xiaofei become the unanswered riddle in her life? She didn't know, she only knew that she would carry it forever until she died.

After a long time, Qi Qi put the nail polish back in the carton, and took out another item from the carton.

It was a small white plastic bag, soft to the touch, and I didn't know what it contained.

Qi Qi opened it curiously, and saw a small skirt with white dots on a red background. She snapped her mouth shut and stared in shock.

Did she keep this? Even she forgot!

She couldn't help standing up, shook the skirt away, and looked at it carefully. After all these years, the skirt was still as good as new. She put the skirt on her body and compared it, it seemed to fit.

Qi Qi couldn't help but stepped on a few dance steps under her feet. If Xiao Bo was willing to see her, she would definitely put on this dress and ask him to dance.

Subconsciously, she looked up at the river bank, it was already afternoon, and Xiaobo still did not appear.

Will he come? do not know.

There are countless reasons for Qi Qi to think that Xiaobo will definitely come, and there are countless reasons to think that Xiaobo will definitely not come.

Last night, she was infinitely anxious about this issue, but now she is calm. It is Xiaobo's choice to come or not to come. It is her choice to wait or not to wait. All she can do is to have no regrets after trying her best.

Qi Qi folded the skirt, wrapped it in a plastic bag, put it back in the cardboard box, closed her eyes, and felt it inside the box.

Which memory will be picked up this time

A brown cowhide envelope.

This Qi Qi remembered that it contained something related to Zhang Jun, but she couldn't remember exactly what it was.

Tickets for the Great Wall, tickets for the Summer Palace, tickets for the Qingdao Snake Museum... The tickets for the Forbidden City are written as student tickets, and the tickets for the Summer Palace are only 15 yuan, and now I am afraid that 50 yuan is not enough.

Several movie tickets, no year, only date, blue, pink, yellow, each color is two, the seat number is linked together. This should be the movie ticket for the movie she and Zhang Jun went to see.

Qi Qi took the movie ticket and watched it over and over, but couldn't remember the movie associated with the movie ticket at all. She couldn't recall what they said or did in the movie theater.

In a group photo of graduating from elementary school, Zhang Jun is standing in the middle of the last row with a spiky head on his head, grinning at the camera with a smirk. The girls are in the front two rows, she shrunk to the far side, there is no smile on her face, her eyes are not looking at the camera, but staring at the ground, only half of her face can be seen.

Qi Qi laughed when she saw it, is this awkward little silly girl really her? However, she quickly realized that this was the only photo taken between her and Zhang Jun. During the summer camp, there were many photo opportunities, but she stubbornly refused all of them. There were two or three group photos, but the negatives were with Mr. Xing. After returning to school, Mr. Xing forgot all about it when he was busy.

Luo Qiqi was very uncomfortable holding the photo. The happiest time for her and Zhang Jun was in Qingdao, but because of her awkwardness and stubbornness, no photo was left. Why was she so sensitive, stubborn and stubborn back then

A Christmas card, it is estimated that in order to take care of her, there is no word of love in it, it is to wish her a merry Christmas, but inside the big card is a small peach heart card, which reads in English: "I'll love you forever!!!!!!" The person who wrote should feel that writing alone is not enough to express their feelings, and used six exclamation points in a row. Maybe very naive, but full of sincerity.

Luo Qiqi stared blankly. Eleven years ago, she received this card, but it was eleven years later that she understood the meaning of this little card and the exclamation marks for the first time. When she received it back then, it was estimated that she just read it sweetly, but did not really understand the meticulousness of the card sender at all. The teenager wanted to write a lot of love words, but was worried that she would be found by her parents, so she used a big greeting card to write blessings, and a small card that could be removed to write love words. There are no such small greeting cards available on the market, so he must first choose a large card with a peach heart on it, and then carefully cut out the peach heart with scissors.

A young boy appeared in front of Qi Qi's eyes. He was engrossed in cutting the greeting card, carefully pasting the small card on the big card, and then using white paper to absorb the glue, so as not to stain any place, because it was for his beloved girl. Gift…

In her life, there was a young man who loved her so much.

That young man once sang to her: "Nothing to seek, nothing to seek, to break through the world, but I hope I can see you after running around in the middle of the night. Ordinary can be ordinary or plain, there is heaven and earth, but I hope that I can see you when the sunrise arrives early in the morning. You. What is your name, what is your wealth, is a good taste, but if you are alive, you can see you every night, it is even better. When everything around you is like the wind, you let me find the root, and I don’t want to leave Wishing to stay humble will never wither..."

That young man would be fascinated by her, take the exam in a mess, and would not care about his future; that young man would be so jealous because of her that he would fight without thinking about his future at all; that young man felt that she was more important than himself, and was willing to work hard for her change yourself.

However, his feelings were eventually worn down by her inferiority complex, pride, willfulness, clumsiness, and stubbornness.

Luo Qiqi's eyes slowly became wet, and she began to understand why she still couldn't forget Zhang Jun after so many years, the one who had already stopped loving her. Perhaps it was not Zhang Jun that she could not forget, but that there was someone who loved her so much. Maybe it's not that Zhang Jun doesn't love her anymore, but that there is no man who loves her like Zhang Jun anymore.

The sun slowly moved westward, Luo Qiqi was sitting by the river, picking up memories one after another—the beautiful or not beautiful moments after moments, the wanton flying laughter, and the suppressed pain crying.

But the long time will eventually condense all the pain and laughter into the most beautiful stars in the memory, gently caressing our lives.

Because of their stopping and looking back, our flower season did not become a lonely humming alone, and because of their company and smiles, our flower season played the most splendid movement.

Those who used to cry and laugh with us are indeed gone, and maybe we will never see each other again in this life.

However, the love and care they left behind will never die.

At the moment when we look back, they are there, their still young eyebrows and eyes are engraved with our youth, and our still young eyebrows and eyes are forever engraved in their youth.