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(one)
"In Xiatong, dare to ask the girl Fangling."
There are people coming and going in the East City, the traffic is busy, the bustling, and the voices are full of people.
I looked back abruptly, the young man was holding a folding fan in his hand, and his eyes were clear and unrestrained.
My cousin tugged at my sleeve, I stood in front of her without a trace, Feixia covered her cheek, I had a hunch, it was bad.
"Under the sun, doesn't your son feel rash and abrupt?" After saying this, he felt that this person was unexpectedly familiar.
He wasn't annoyed, just smiled: "Fatty, don't you remember me?"
Xia Tong.
Xia Tong.
A flash of light flashed through my mind, and this man was so similar to my childhood playmate. I was a little dazed, this seven years, the boy has grown into a young man, no wonder I didn't recognize it.
I embarrassedly said, "Brother Xia is actually you. I haven't seen each other for many years. It's more than seven years."
At this thought, he fell into a dilemma. Today, I said that I would accompany my cousin to the market. If I meet up with old friends, what will my cousin do
Thinking of this, I feel a little guilty: "I have something to do today, let's make an appointment in the future, and we will talk about it."
He said, and glanced at his cousin with a little deep meaning: "Then let's meet tomorrow at Qiji Distillery."
Originally it was just a perfunctory sentence, but unexpectedly he took it seriously, I nodded: "A word is settled."
I led this cousin forward, and my cousin walked slowly.
The cousin said, "Cousin, this Young Master Xia is also a romantic figure."
I turned back slowly, but Xia Tong was still standing there, his heart tightened for no reason.
Just looking at these two people today... but they seem to be in love with a concubine, and today's mood has been disrupted.
I am the age of weak crown, my cousin cardamom age, gentle and virtuous. I am not married, she is not married. I have always regarded her as an ideal woman.
(two)
The next day, 90 hours. I made an appointment to come to Qiji Distillery, and Xia Tong was already waiting there.
I saw him from afar, and I said, "Brother Xia."
Xia Tong's expression was a little weird: "You can call me by the same nickname as before."
It was hard to remember for a while, and I was a little embarrassed: "It's all from my childhood."
He smiled lazily: "Brother Xia, let's go to Brother Xia."
When I was a child, I was called Fatty Ji because my face had baby fat and all the boys of the same age were thin. What he looked like in his mind seven years ago was fleeting, but he can't remember it now.
I said, "Brother Xia, you recognized me yesterday, why didn't you just stop me? You have to stop my cousin."
"Because I remember your name, but I don't know your cousin's name." He answered casually.
I hesitated: "Next time you see my cousin, ask her in person."
"Seven years ago, you left in a hurry, why did you come back this time?" I looked at the scenery downstairs.
Xia Tong patted my head: "If you want to come back, come back, I think this town misses you. Do you need a reason?"
I was photographed in a trance, he was still so familiar, but I was unfamiliar. He is the same as yesterday, but I am separated by seven years.
"Brother Xia." I murmured to myself, not knowing if I was woken up or something.
A little sad, I was bullied when I was a child, Xia Tong always stood in front of me, this is all a memory, with the coming of this dusk, hazy.
Xia Tong: "That's right, Fatty Ji! Brother, brother, I feel at ease." He picked up the wine glass and tied his hair tie in the wind along with the blue silk.
For a man with a weak crown, my baby fat is long gone, so the name fat man is still very awkward.
The reason why Qijiufang is called Qiji, there is such a story, because when the proprietress married the owner of this winery, she once contracted seven chapters. The men and women who come here have the intention of seeking marriage, but not necessarily all the couples who come here.
"Why don't you drink?" Xia Tong looked at me and pushed the jug in front of him. "Drink."
I smiled and said, "What kind of folding fan does a rude person play with." Looking at the folding fan on the table, I laughed secretly for a while.
Xia Tong's father is a county official, and his mother is a lady. Xia Tong has been practicing martial arts since he was a child. Since Xia Tong's father was elected to the capital, their family moved away.
Xia Tong: "I didn't learn martial arts to protect you."
I was a little moved, and raised the glass: "Toast to you." After seven years of separation, it was a burning pain when the wine entered my throat. I put down the wine glass and asked a question that hesitated for a long time: "Why did you come back?"
Xia Tong smiled and said, "Mother is nostalgic, this time I will come back with my mother to save my relatives."
We put the wine on the moon until the winery closed, and we said goodbye and left one after another. The knot in our hearts has been opened, but there is a lot of memory in our hearts.
The moonlight is like a hook, the moonlight illuminates the road ahead, the street is deserted, and I go home alone.
(three)
I woke up in a daze, the sun shone in at this time.
The maid came in to clean up the house, I had a splitting headache, and I really couldn't think of anything. "What time is it?"
The maid said: "The time has just passed."
"Um… "
The maid said, "The madam tells the young master to wake up and go to the madam."
I nodded: "I entered the room by myself yesterday."
The maid nodded and shook her head again. Under my direct gaze, she had no choice but to say, "Young master, let's go ask Madam!"
I washed and ate breakfast under her service.
Mother is in the courtyard, pruning this flower branch, this garden is full of spring, colorful and red.
I walked over slowly: "Mother."
She stopped and turned to look at me: "Did you drink yesterday?"
At her majesty, I had to nod.
She seemed satisfied: "It's nice to have the courage to admit mistakes. But you've learned this for years."
I still nodded and lowered my eyebrows.
"Master Ji, do you know how you got in last night?" She raised her voice in a tactful manner.
I stupidly shook my head.
"You fell asleep at the door, and San brought you in." She patted my head. "While carrying you, you still vomited all the way into the door, and Ah Si followed behind you while cleaning. Hey... why don't you drink if you don't know how to drink? Look at your day... "
I interrupted her expressionlessly: "Xia Mutou is back."
She seemed to be unable to hold back her words, but she froze for a long time, as if she just remembered: "Is that Xia Tong?"
She wondered, "The one who played well when you were a child?"
I nod.
My mother patted my head again, and suddenly said, "Keep your head up high."
I straightened my back and said, "Mother, I really want to say that I'm not too young, you can just pat me on the head, why are you still educating me? Why do you like to pat me on the head recently?" I walked away with broken thoughts.
(Four)
That day, I went to my cousin's house.
I took some of my cousin's favorite things, and happily found her who was enjoying the flowers in the courtyard.
"Yanran, look which one do you like?"
My cousin didn't look at those things, she just asked curiously, "Cousin, why didn't you see the young master you saw that day?"
Cousin said: "Since you are cousin's friend, why didn't you come together?"
My hand loosened a little, and the paper kite in my hand almost fell to the ground. I grabbed the paper kite in my hand tightly, and anxiety spread in my heart.
"Cousin likes him..." I said again and again: "Come?"
The cousin hesitated and said, "Is it bad?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Very good, I will bring him to see you tomorrow."
The cousin smiled shyly: "Thank you cousin."
From childhood to adulthood, many people like Xia Tong, but they are always ignored.
Heart pantothenic acid, empty.
…
Inside the pavilion, the breeze is breezy, and outside the pavilion, the landscape is picturesque.
Xia Tong had been waiting there for a long time. Since my cousin liked it, I took my cousin to see him.
I said, "Brother Xia, this is my cousin, Li Yanran..." I gave him a meaningful look.
"Hello, son."
Xia Tong was still smiling, and he looked at me and then at his cousin.
"Since the talented and beautiful people have gathered, I won't stay any longer. The two of you will chat slowly, I will come over later."
Xia Tong smiled and looked at me fixedly.
He smiled suddenly, still so heartless: "Thank you, Brother Ji ceded... See you later."
I suddenly feel a little ironic, good brothers and their favorites stand together. I kicked the stone with my foot, and the stone rolled on the ground and rolled up dust.
I looked up, and there was a medicinal herb on the ground.
Angelica…
Things always turn out unexpectedly, and the moment I received the invitation, I laughed.
The pain can't be stopped.
I always thought that I was the most suitable for her. My cousin and cousin were just right, but I was not her lover.
Loving someone is bitter, you can't wait to give her all the best, but she never holds you in her heart.
After digging out the heart and the lungs, there is nothing in the body...
Mother came from a distance and said, "What are you doing crazy in this yard?"
She picked up the invitation card on the ground and said casually: "Yanran's wedding wine?" She looked at me strangely: "When did these two start? I don't know, Xia Tong has only been back for a few days."
"..." I squatted on the ground, my mind confused.
"It looks like you're in deep mud? But yes, since you liked you and never showed it, how did the girl know? Now you know that you regret it?"
"do not talk… "
She slammed my head: "Yummu head, my mother is teaching you..."
Her voice was sharp and piercing, "They get married and go to me on the fifth day of next month. You don't owe anyone, what are you hiding, and what are you afraid of."
Mother is right, I have never shown my heart. So, I am good to my cousin, and she just doesn't know it. Now it's a bargain, and Xia Tong picked up a big bargain.
That night, I couldn't sleep, and the talented and beautiful couples were on the right screen.
When I closed my eyes, there was another scene in front of me.
Fleeting years flies, time goes backwards.
Back then, regardless of his clean clothes, he sat on the ground.
I said, "My mother is so long-winded, I won't marry a wife in the future."
Xia Tong is only seven or eight years old, and his cheeks are always flushed: "If you don't marry, then I won't marry." He lay lazily on the ground with grass in his mouth.
I glanced at him: "You lie to the dog, at least your family won't agree."
"If I really want to marry you, I'll marry you!" He suddenly got up.
I smiled and said, "How did the two of us get married?"
"Find one you imagine." He asked me, tilting his head. "Then... do you have a cousin?"
I opened my eyes suddenly, and it was already three shots in the sun.
(five)
Thousands of acres of fertile land, red makeup for ten miles, Li Caizhu marrying a daughter, and Lord Xia's son marrying a wife, how can it not be lively.
The Xia Mansion was decorated with lanterns and colorful, and the surroundings were festive and peaceful.
It was full of guests and the newlyweds got married, so I still went.
After a month of deliberation, I think I might not be as much of a cousin as I thought. Cousin is a dream, just a longing for beauty. Maybe it's just my self-esteem that has kept me trapped in depression for so long.
Think more open, naturally relaxed.
He came down to drink, and I stood up and said, "Congratulations. Spring night is worth a thousand dollars, and Brother Xia will grasp it later."
He was wearing a robe, and he was still suave. But he was a little depressed, and the bags under his eyes seemed to be heavy. I wonder, is it because I look forward to today too much
He smiled: "Continue to congratulate, I like to hear praise."
I pondered for a while and said, "At the beginning of next month, I will remember to return the gift when I get married."
He was stunned for a moment and laughed a little: "It's so fast, the gift money hasn't been warmed up yet?"
I said, "Come on, sister-in-law is still waiting."
"Fatty." I was about to sit down when I was startled when I heard his voice. The next second, he hugged me suddenly, and I stiffened.
"I understand."
understand what
"...You don't understand." He whispered in my ear, and in an instant, the noise around him turned into tranquility, as if it had nothing to do with me, and his breath was right in his ear.
He let go of me suddenly, he patted me on the shoulder and smiled. I was at a loss as I moved so quickly that no one seemed to be paying attention.
"Brothers."
This sound, my heart seems to soften a little.
I looked at his figure, submerged into the crowd, and gradually disappeared from my eyes.
I've been loving memories more and more lately.
But I still can't remember the first time I saw Xia Tong.
When Xia Tong left, I seemed to cry and sat on the bluestone steps in front of their house all day.
I was the most sticky to him since I was young, I seem to have forgotten, very thoroughly.
People are not plants, things are not people.
…
Spring has passed and autumn has come, and it has been three years since I saw it in a blink of an eye.
My wife is the daughter of a businessman. On that day, my mother came to me with her portrait. Seeing that everyone was saying how good she was, I agreed to the marriage.
My wife is virtuous, and after three years of marriage, I finally have a child. Thinking of this, I have a smile on my face.
"What are you thinking?" Xia Tong narrowed his eyes.
"I'm going to be a father."
Xia Tong froze for a moment and said nothing.
Yes, I suddenly remembered. Xia Tong and his wife have been married for three years, but there is still no male and half female.
I said: "It's okay, there will always be something that should be there."
"Brother Xia, if my wife gives birth to a daughter, you give birth to a son. We will become relatives." I promised.
His eyes flickered sideways: "What if they were all men?"
I seem to understand what he said, but I don't seem to understand.
I looked into his eyes and said dumbly: "Then... become brothers."
He smiled, sarcastically.
"Like us?"
"Like us."
A few months later, there is still no news from the cousin's stomach, but Xia Tong is going back to Beijing.
On the day he left, he left only one letter.
There are only four words on it:
Angelica must return.
In the afternoon, after the rain, the scorching sun is seen again, and the grass grows. About a few years ago, I can't seem to remember. At that time, I saw a herb called Angelica in the suburbs. Suddenly I wanted to see if it was still there. Several years of wind, several years of rain, several springs and summers, withered, or was picked by someone.
I sat at home for a day.
(six)
At the age of ten, he is strong, weak at the age of twenty, and standing at the age of thirty.
When my parents were old, they went to the countryside and started to enjoy the blessings. I started to accept the business of my ancestors.
Those years were good, but this year it was bad luck.
A fire burned the warehouse, the cloth, and the glory of the Ji family.
I borrowed money everywhere, but to no avail. Friends in the past, like hiding something, are avoided. Relatives draw lines to protect themselves.
The wife borrowed some money from her parents' family, made up for it, and destroyed it. The days finally began to improve, but the Ji family was already defeated at this time, and I was afraid that they would not be able to help them.
I started looking around for some rough work, just to keep the kids full.
I never look in the mirror, but this time I saw in the mirror that my temples were gray.
I'm old…
This fact, I will still have wrinkles, and then have spots on my face, and finally can't stand up...
After sunset, I arrived home, and I was a little tired and breathless.
In the twelfth lunar month of winter, it was so cold that people rubbed their hands together. Home is just a grass hut, but at home there is a kind of warmth that washes away the winter cold.
"My lady, I'm back." I took off my robe and hat and shook.
There was a middle-aged man at home. I was a little dazed and remembered who he was.
The man was handsome and dressed in black fox fur, and he still had a smile on his face.
I suppressed the excitement in my heart and smiled: "The humble house is simple, please forgive me, Brother Xia."
He waved his hand: "No problem, no problem."
My wife boiled water and served tea for both of us.
I said: "It's not very warm in the house, drink hot tea."
Xia Tong said: "It's okay, I'll be leaving in a while."
He looked at me sternly and said, "Aren't you excited when I'm back?"
I glanced at him lightly: "Come back to save relatives?"
He shook his head: "This time, different?"
"Why?" I suddenly became interested.
"I heard that a friend encountered some difficulties in the old city, and this time he came back to help."
My blocked heart seems to flow into the warm current, and it has been warm into the bottom of my heart.
His dark eyes lit up: "I'll help you repay your wife's family's debt. I still have some capital, and the Ji family can make a comeback."
I pondered, and my words were sour: "I really don't know how to thank you."
"Brother... say this."
I laughed awkwardly.
He took a sip of the tea and said, "Actually, I should thank you." He glanced at me and patted my head again.
I suddenly thought that if there is a cause, there must be an effect, and everything has its own destiny.
When I was ten years old, because I was taciturn and not active, I was always bullied. One day a boy tried to stand up for me and he told me to run first.
I didn't run I watched him get beaten badly.
I was numb with fright, but I still threw myself on top of him. Shouting: "You hit me, hit me, don't hit him."
After the people left, he patted my head. I still can't remember what I said that day.
(seven)
It's not easy to make a comeback, everything has to start from scratch, and everything is difficult at the beginning.
In the blink of an eye, my son is also the age of starting a family, and the family situation is getting better and better.
I am getting older, but my memory is getting worse and worse, my legs are not good, and I can't walk too far. I wanted to see the Chinese medicine in the suburbs, but I couldn't remember what it was.
Xia Tong often came to see me, and sometimes played chess with me and listened to operas.
I don't care about trivial matters and leave everything to my son.
My cousin also gave birth to a son, half a year younger than my son. On the day of catching Zhou, it was the same with taking a name.
At that time, I laughed at him and said, "Yeah, Yanran, whatever you do."
He was watching chess at the time, frowning slightly. "Isn't your name the same?"
Yes, Ji Xianran, I can't forget, this is my name.
I turned my head to the side, and he hummed and chirped: "At fifteen, he was determined to learn, at thirty he stood up, at forty he was free from doubts, at fifty he knew the mandate of Heaven, at sixty his ears were obedient, at seventy he followed his heart's desire, at seventy-five and one was born. !"
I sighed: "My son is going to get married." After that, there was an indescribable sadness and vicissitudes.
He said, "What did you say?"
I repeated it out loud.
He turned up the volume: "What?"
I repeated it out loud against his ear.
He was stunned for a long time.
I rolled my eyes and was about to say it again.
He smiled and said, "I lied to you."
Seeing his smug look on his face, I suddenly remembered that he always said that he had a wish, that he loved someone, but when asked about his name, he said it was a secret and he wanted to take it to the grave.
I regretted: "Many years ago, I thought that my cousin would give birth to a girl, but unexpectedly it was still a boy."
"Let them marry."
I'm old, but my ears don't have hallucinations. I said, "What did you just say."
He said, "Just swoop in."
I started to be in a trance again. When we first met, we were ten years old, and our bodies were covered with scars. He said, thank you. Over and over, sentence after sentence. His appearance seemed to have changed back to his youthful appearance, with black jade and blue silk on his head and a folding fan.
In fact, it is often the case. Deep affection is revealed, and confidants are hard to find. A glass of wine, a greeting, a deep affection, help when you are in poverty, and companionship when you are old.
The friends at the wine table dispersed after the banquet. And the friends of this life are with you all your life.
After a long time, I said, "Like us?"
"Like us," he said.
You are enough in this life.
I have you in my life, no regrets.