Cheng Yan only felt a burst of white light flashing randomly in front of his eyes, and he almost fell down. Xia Shaoqian reached out to support him in time, and pulled him to lie on his body.
"I hate the riding position, I was never a good rider." He closed his eyes and hummed.
Xia Shaoqian was still out of breath, but laughed out of his teasing, like a big cat stealing food. Cheng Yan opened his eyes, and it was the first time he saw Xia Shaoqian laughing—the man who had just had sex, completely naked, every inch of his skin was radiating hormones strongly.
Cheng Yan suddenly wanted to smoke. He lowered his head, feeling ashamed of his heart shaking for a moment, he had no choice but to be lustful.
But Xia Shaoqian's smile just now can't be erased from his mind.
"He must have been cute when he was seventeen or eighteen," Cheng Yan thought silently, "cuter than everyone I've ever seen."
In a half-dream and half-awake state, he depicted a boy with soft black hair, clear and sharp eyes...
"What are you thinking?" Xia Shaoqian asked in a low voice, stroking his hair.
Cheng Yan was bored for a while, and finally asked: "Why me?" This question arose before he met Xia Shaoqian.
"Once, they had a party at the company, and someone sang K... I saw your MV," Xia Shaoqian put his arms around Cheng Yan, as if lost in memory, "I saw your song through a layer of glass and many people." look."
Cheng Yan moved slightly, he only filmed one MV.
"That was years ago, and it wasn't filmed well enough."
Xia Shaoqian didn't mind: "But it looks like what I want. I often feel that there is something missing in my teens and twenties."
"What's missing?"
"First love."
A chill ran from the soles of his feet to the top of his head, Cheng Yan finally couldn't restrain himself, and laughed wildly.
He doesn't need Xia Shaoqian's detailed explanation at all, he already understands it - people like Xia Shaoqian seem to have a strict family education at first glance, he missed the opportunity to be young and frivolous, busy people finally feel unwilling to make up for themselves in middle age, so they spend money to buy their first love .
How can it not be funny. Cheng Yan couldn't stop laughing.
Xia Shaoqian was not very happy when he was laughed at: "Where is it so funny?"
It's not funny, Cheng Yan thought. He took a deep breath to calm his laughter, turned over and lay down on the bed, finally reached the bedside table, touched the cigarette and lighter.
He gently opened his mouth to exhale the smoke, and seeing Xia Shaoqian half-sit up with his arms propped up, he immediately pushed the smoke over with interest and let Xia Shaoqian take a puff.
When Xia Shaoqian met him for the first time, he didn't treat him like his first love. Cheng Yan thought with a smile. Before I didn't know, I always had some concerns, but after I knew it, I suddenly felt indifferent. He doesn't want to know more, doesn't need to know more.
Taking advantage of the short time before starting the machine, Cheng Yan moved. The original house was just up for lease.
The location of the new house is good and quiet, and Cheng Yan is most satisfied with the spacious attic.
On the day of moving things, several people and friends came to the company. Cheng Yan asked them to choose some things that they didn't want to move to their new home but were still usable.
In a short time, the small place was turned upside down. The laziest Tudou simply lay on the floor with a cardboard box of dishes in Cheng Yan's collection, scanning the dishes while looking at them.
"Is this the MV you filmed?" Tudou suddenly raised a disc and asked loudly, "I'll play it for a while!"
Cheng Yan immediately ran out of the room: "There's nothing to see."
Fang Fang jumped over and snatched the disc from Tudou: "I really miss it! This is my first job after joining the company! It's been almost five years!"
Cheng Yan corrected her: "Four years and three months. It's boring, don't read it."
"This song is not very popular, and I haven't seen the MV very often. I don't remember it. It seems that I haven't seen it." Someone came up again.
Fangfang proudly said: "I really feel the filming, let's watch it together." As she spoke, she was about to put the disc into the camera. Cheng Yan snatched it away and shouted: "I said don't look!"
Everyone fell silent.
Fangfang was more shocked than embarrassed. She had been with Cheng Yan for more than four years, and it was almost the first time she saw him get angry.
In the end, it was Tudou Youyou who broke the embarrassment: "Didn't you remake that disc into an AV? I understand."
Everyone just smiled and counted.
When everyone went back after dinner, Cheng Yan was the only one left in the small living room. He sat on the floor with a beer and put the disc down.
The song is sung by a female singer from the same company, and the song is called Contemptuous Beauty.
All the windows were wide open, and the early summer night wind poured in with the chirping of insects and the fragrance of plants and flowers.
A slightly hoarse female voice sang along with the jazz style, and Cheng Yan looked at his image calmly. No matter how you look at it, it is a clichéd story—a young man and a girl meet and fall in love, and then separate due to their youthful impulsiveness. Wait until twenty years later to meet again by accident.
Xia Shaoqian said "It's the feeling I want", and Fang Fang also said "I have the feeling". But he couldn't see it. Maybe once complacent, but not anymore.
He stood up staggeringly in the midst of the singing, walked lightly to the mirror with the rhythm, brushed his hair back, looked straight into his eyes, and slowly adjusted his expression, letting the soft melancholy seep out from under his skin as it came.
"I will always be sincere to you," he lowered his voice very low, "in my own way."
After he understood what he was trading for, he couldn't waste any chance.