"What's the matter with you, girl?" the driver looked at the person sitting in the back seat from the rearview mirror and asked.
Yun Zhi lowered his head, covered his face, and whispered, "It's okay."
Her face was reflected on the black screen of the mobile phone, which was gradually blurred by the tears dripping on the screen.
She raised her eyes and looked out the window, it was already drizzling outside.
"Girl, here we are."
"thirty."
Yun Zhi took out the remaining fifty yuan in cash from his handbag and handed it to the driver.
The driver found the change, looked at her a few times and hesitated to speak.
The rain was already falling heavily, and it was hitting the leaves sparingly, making noises, as if hitting her heart. The bitter wind made her eyes hurt, and she couldn't stop her tears.
Yu Mingxia is also a liar.
He promised her to forget that person before, but now he says he can't.
— She doesn't need to know.
—I can’t forget it, it’s a precious memory for me.
"Precious is precious, why did you provoke me?" Yun Zhi didn't know how he walked home, and even less why he went back to Yu Mingxia's home at this time.
It may be that the money on my body is only enough to go back here.
When opening the door, Yun Zhi glanced at the mirror in the entrance.
Like a drowned rat.
What a mess.
Yun Zhi laughed at himself.
She went back to the room, changed clothes casually, then opened the closet and tidied it up, stuffing everything she saw into the suitcase, asking herself why.
Why did Yu Mingxia do the same.
And why is she going to the hospital.
Why does she think she can compare to Bai Yueguang, who has been loved by others for more than ten years.
And why are you going to the hospital.
Is it possible that they will not hear these words if they don't go to the hospital, so that they can still be the same as before.
It was at this moment that Yunzhi was willing to admit that she said she didn't care, but she cared in her heart, and she would feel insecure if there was any disturbance.
There is a problem between them.
It's just that she tried her best to pretend and deny, even Yu Mingxia was deceived.
Obviously she liked someone else before.
Because she can only guarantee that she doesn't like others, but she can't guarantee Yu Mingxia's thoughts.
She didn't believe Yu Mingxia.
Realizing this problem, Yun Zhi gradually let go of the suitcase in his hand.
Looking at the messy closet, she finally broke down and cried.
She didn't believe Yu Mingxia.
The original problem is here.
They were not honest enough, never talked about the problem, and always skipped the problem lightly.
Yu Mingxia is in Tibet, and so is she.
She is obviously not that generous, but she always pretends not to mind.
Looking at the mess in front of her, she lost her mind.
After a while, she recharged the phone and turned it on.
The message reminded Yu Mingxia to call her a few times while she was shutting down the phone.
The information column is also full of news about Yu Mingxia.
She didn't seem to know where to start.
Yun Zhi felt that his mind was blank.
When I heard those words, I felt cheated.
If there is really another person in her heart, then what is the difference between her behavior and Nan Qiao's.
But she also knew that Yu Mingxia was not Nan Qiao, so no matter what, she would not go too far than Nan Qiao.
What you said just now was all angry words.
—Will you trust me no matter when in the future
Yu Mingxia's voice slowly rang in her ears.
—I have seen many people make some decisions that they think are good for each other because they love each other. If something like this happens to you in the future, I hope you can also remember the advice to us now.
She remembered Zhu Qingmeng's words again.
A strange feeling resurfaced in her heart again.
She must have overlooked something very important.
"Ding-"
Less than a minute after turning it on, Yu Mingxia called again.
Yunzhi was quiet for a while, unable to convince himself to answer the phone.
She couldn't help but cry, she was afraid that she would be unprincipled and soft-hearted.
[I'm at your house, we'll have a good talk when you come back.]
At the moment when the news was sent out, Yun Zhi couldn't help but feel soft-hearted when he heard the rain falling harder and harder outside the window.
[Don't worry, take your time, some things need to be said face to face.]
Yun Zhi didn't care what Yu Mingxia said.
Because she understands that she is easy to coax in front of Yu Mingxia, as long as it is what Yu Mingxia says, she will be willing to believe it.
She can only take advantage of this time to wake up.
She knew that some things should not be started casually.
This is good, maybe they can't even be friends.
Yun Zhi didn't expect that at this time, what she thought of was whether she could still be friends.
Kind of pathetic and kind of ridiculous.
Yun Zhi has never been so curious about another person as he is now.
She wanted to know what kind of person Yu Mingxia could like for more than ten years.
She thought of the study.
Yun Zhi didn't want to be dragged away by Yu Mingxia again, since Yu Mingxia didn't want to talk about it, then she went to find it herself.
Anyway, after today, there must be no way for them to reconcile as before, there is a gap between them.
Yun Zhi felt sad and didn't know who to blame.
Was everything Yu Mingxia did to her a lie
Love is false, companionship is false, and promises are false.
Complaints slowly rose in Yun Zhi's heart.
She opened the study door, and the furnishings inside were the same as at that time, except for books and documents.
The bookcase was also empty.
Since I can't forget it, I definitely won't throw it away casually.
No longer limited to the study, Yunzhi also searched through the other cabinets in the room.
No, no wardrobe, no coffee table and TV cabinet, not even a kitchen cabinet.
Yun Zhi returned to the bedroom, looking at the messy surroundings, tears rolled in her eyes.
She hates her body that is prone to tears, and she hates that she is unwilling to believe the words she has heard until now, and even more hates her inexplicable comparison.
— Is she really nice
—I'm not as good as her.
Yun Zhi never thought that one day she would become such a person.
She began to regret the news she had just sent to Yu Mingxia, and now she didn't want to have a serious talk with her at all.
talk about what
Talk about how much she likes her white moonlight
Then she would rather Yu Mingxia not say anything, and let that beautiful Yu Mingxia who loves her stay in her heart.
Thinking of this, Yun Zhi started to pack his things again.
She didn't want to face Yu Mingxia, she didn't want to hear her explanation.
Maybe when the time comes, she will hug her unprincipled.
Yunzhi decided to be a "deserter".
The movement of packing things was getting faster and faster. She squatted on the ground and put the clothes thrown on the bed into the suitcase.
In fact, there is no need.
It's not that you can't afford clothes, so why pack so many.
You are deliberately waiting for Yu Mingxia to hear her explanation.
Yun Zhi felt another voice appeared in his mind.
You have to pay for any clothes you buy.
Let alone buying clothes, I have no money to take a taxi.
Yun Zhi became more and more sad.
"But I still like you very much."
Yun Zhi pushed the suitcase away, talking to himself in annoyance.
The suitcase hit the edge of the bed with a loud bang.
Yun Zhi was stunned suddenly, and slowly remembered something.
She remembered that last time when she was looking for something to look under the bed, Yu Mingxia stopped her.
Yun Zhi hesitated for a few seconds, then turned his head to look under the bed, it was empty.
Not under the bed.
Yun Zhi got up and went out, hesitatingly pushed open the door of the second bedroom.
Although no one has lived in the second bedroom since she moved into the master bedroom, the bed inside is still made.
Yun Zhi let out a long sigh of relief, and looked down at the bottom of the bed.
She froze for a moment, then bent down again, and reached out to grope under the bed for a few seconds.
After a while, she took out a large wooden box.
The wooden box was purposely placed next to the bed board, and it was impossible to tell without looking carefully, and it was locked.
It is not difficult to guess that this is the very important thing Yu Mingxia said.
He hid in Tibet, and even locked it on purpose, just to prevent her from seeing it.
Yun Zhi felt very mocking.
She knows what virtue and ability she deserves.
Yu Mingxia would definitely not put the key in a conspicuous place, and she no longer has the mood to find the key slowly.
The locks are just normal locks that are easy to break.
Yun Zhi left the second bedroom, searched in the kitchen, and found an unopened whetstone in the cabinet.
Love whatever you want, anyway, even if she wants to break up today, she still needs to break up clearly.
Yunzhi suddenly felt pain in his heart again.
She doesn't want to break up at all.
But I can't lie to myself.
Yun Zhi bit his lip and held back the tears and broke open the lock hanging on the wooden box.
The purpose of entry is a stack of paper and a camera.
Under the camera is an old page, and the words "classmate record" can only be seen from the edge.
"Sure, I will keep other people's classmate records." Yun Zhi sneered, not knowing whether to laugh at himself for being stupid or for Ming Xia's love.
Yun Zhi held back tears, picked up the wooden box and put it on the bed.
He took out the camera first, and commented indifferently: "General."
After the evaluation, Yun Zhi looked at the wooden box again, his eyes froze.
When the camera was turned on, the words that had been blocked on the classmate recording were revealed.
"I wish you a happy graduation, a bright future and a safe and smooth future.
- Yun Zhi"
Yunzhi is stagnant.
Looking at the words above in disbelief.
It was her handwriting that was right.
You can even faintly see the irritability from inside.
Yun Zhi remembered that when he graduated from high school, because there were too many classmates to write, the handwriting of the same blessing would inevitably become scribbled.
Yun Zhi confirmed it over and over again.
It was indeed her handwriting that was correct.
"how is this possible."
Yun Zhi murmured, eager to get confirmation, she put the classmate record beside her, and opened the paper below.
It's one sketch after another.
The similar eyebrows and eyes in the portraits, from youthful to mature, from school uniforms to adult dresses, are laid out clearly in front of her one by one.
On the bottom line of each portrait is a beautifully written blessing.
"Yunzhi, happy birthday"
In the lower right corner is the year.
Every year from 2011 to 2024, she is celebrating her.
In a no-man's corner, every birthday, someone is blessing her.
The person Yu Mingxia likes is her.
She knew it.
She flipped through a few sheets, and finally saw the sketch in 2019. She couldn't control it anymore, she couldn't cry, tears dripped on the paper, she subconsciously wanted to wipe it, but stopped.
That tear fell on the neck of the person in the painting, like an embellishment.
Embellished for that wedding dress.
"Know"
No wonder at that time I said that I couldn't remember clearly, so I casually said what it was called "the man in my dream".
It turned out to be named after her, for fear of being discovered by her.
"Yu Mingxia."
How could anyone be so stupid.
Afraid that she will feel guilty and afraid that she will be sad, so even if you like her for many years, can you hold back your words
Yu Mingxia.
Yu Mingxia.
Yun Zhi cried and flipped through the sketches, thinking of her name over and over again.
Why would anyone be so stupid.
Is it okay to be misunderstood
Yun Zhi felt his heart was torn open.
What did she do to Yu Mingxia.
What did she do during the years when Yu Mingxia liked her.
Because of Nan Qiao's words, he spoke coldly to her.
I thought I would find someone who was in the same sympathy as her and confide in her.
Like others in front of her, and entangle with others.
No wonder he was gentle with her from the beginning.
At this moment Yunzhi figured everything out.
Because from the very beginning, the person Yu Mingxia loved was her.
Yun Zhi was so sad, she couldn't imagine what kind of mood Yu Mingxia had used to like her all these years.
And what kind of mood is watching her like someone else.
There are envelopes in the wooden box.
Yun Zhi looked down at the top envelope.
"Meet the bursary"
Everything is clear.
It turned out that the student she helped in junior high school was Yu Mingxia.
But after that, she never asked again, and she didn't even know the other party's name.
Yu Mingxia was just a stranger to her, just a classmate she had helped casually.
But Yu Mingxia remembered this kindness until today.
Yun Zhi was numb all over, and when all the affection spread out in front of her, guilt and heartache filled her heart.
"Yunzhishou, Class 7, Grade 3"
Yun Zhi had guessed what was inside.
Within seconds of her opening the letter, her tears had already wet the envelope.
The handwriting on it has been blurred, and it can only be discerned if you look carefully.
"Hello, Yunzhi from Class 37, Senior High.
The college entrance examination is coming soon, do you have a favorite university
I like you, can I be friends with you
Good luck with your exams and happy life.
Writer: Yu Mingxia, Class 1, Senior Three
Time: 2014927"
"What, how can someone write a love letter so seriously." Yun Zhi bit his lip, weeping uncontrollably.
She had never received such a serious love letter.
I have never received this love letter.
Was it not handed to her
Yun Zhi has no memory of this love letter.
The writing is too serious, even concise, if she has seen it, she will definitely remember it.
Yun Zhi suddenly stopped.
He glanced at the date on it again.
If she remembers correctly, not long after that, the basketball gym thing happened.
So this love letter was not sent out because of the basketball gym
still…
"We'll just ignore her."
South Joe.
Yun Zhi suddenly felt ridiculous.
Is it because of Nan Qiao
Not only did he lie to her in the freshman year of high school and prevent her from knowing Yu Mingxia, but also this matter
No wonder she suddenly asked her to ignore Yu Mingxia.
No wonder.
So she's been meddling in her dating since high school.
Yu Mingxia must have given this love letter.
The surface of the envelope was stained with indelible dirt, and it didn't look like it had been well preserved.
So, where did the letter go
Yun Zhi didn't dare to think about it.
I dare not even think about what happened to this letter before it fell into Yu Mingxia's hands again.
During the time when she liked others, Yu Mingxia was always in love with her.
Looking at the "evidence" in front of her, her heart was torn apart, and her heart ached.
Her eyes fell on the sketch paper again.
Suddenly remembered something.
Unbelievable, yet reasonable.
She ran back to the master bedroom, unplugged the charger, went back to the second bedroom, and searched for the number on her phone.
She changed her mobile phone, but at the same time, she also imported the information.
After she sent the message just now, she seemed to know that she didn't want to answer the phone. Yu Mingxia didn't call again, but sent a lot of messages.
Yun Zhi found the number, gritted his teeth and dialed the number.
Even though she already had the answer in her heart, she couldn't help crying again the moment she heard the voice.
A familiar voice rang through the receiver, and she eagerly called her name, apologizing to her.
Yun Zhi covered his lips and wept bitterly.
Obviously there is a chance.
Even if she pays more attention once, even if she dials over to say thank you during this period.
Maybe she would know it the moment she met Yu Mingxia.
She was the one who sent her ten-year birthday wishes.
"Yu Mingxia."
As if hearing the choking in her voice, Yu Mingxia's voice became even more flustered.
"I'm sorry, Zhizhi, I'm self-righteous, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
"I miss you so much," Yun Zhi choked up, saying over and over again, "I miss you so much."
How much resentment there was just now, how much regret there is now.
As much love as there was before, so much guilt at this moment.
During the time she never cared about, she had hurt Yu Mingxia countless times.
Even just now, he said angrily, compared her with Nan Qiao, and questioned her as a liar.
Yun Zhi sat paralyzed on the ground, crying louder and louder.
What did she do.
When Yu Mingxia opened the door, what he saw was Yun Zhi sitting slumped on the ground with tears all over his face.
Regardless of whether she would be pushed away, she hurriedly hugged her.
"I'm sorry, Zhizhi, I don't like anyone else, I only like you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
Yu Mingxia apologized over and over again, and Yun Zhi hugged her tightly, buried her head in her neck and cried louder and louder.
"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."
Apologizing over and over again seemed to make her feel less guilty.
She was the one who had been loved by Yu Mingxia for more than ten years, and she was the one who hurt Yu Mingxia.
The person she has always envied is also her.
Even the wedding dress she envied was given to her.
Yun Zhi choked up and apologized over and over again.
Only then did Yu Mingxia see the opened wooden box on the bed, and understood why Yun Zhihui was so sad.
She knows it all.
Yun Zhi still apologized desperately, and he didn't know how long he cried, his eyes were already swollen.
Yu Mingxia hugged her distressedly.
"Zhizhi, this is all my business, don't feel guilty or sad, don't cry, okay?"
No matter how Yu Mingxia tried to comfort her, Yun Zhi didn't seem to listen, holding her and crying all the time.
Yu Mingxia felt distressed hearing this, and didn't know how to appease her.
"Zhizhi, I feel bad when you cry."
Yun Zhi listened to it a little bit, tried to bite his lip to keep himself from crying, but when he saw Yu Mingxia's reddish eye sockets, he couldn't help but shed tears.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, not only did I not guess, but I also confided in front of you, and I also like others in front of you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
Yun Zhi didn't know how to apologize to make up for the harm done to her.
Yun Zhi couldn't even imagine, if it was her, what kind of mentality would she have to see her like someone else as a friend and comfort her not to be sad.
And in what mood to insist on liking her.
Just thinking about it, Yun Zhi can feel the pain of being cut by a knife, pretending not to care, being jealous without identity, and not daring to confess.
Yu Mingxia hugged her and comforted her over and over again.
But Yun Zhi didn't seem to listen to anything, and apologized to her over and over again.
"I don't blame you, really, I am what I am now because of you."
"I never blamed you, I always loved you."
Yu Mingxia's reassurance could only make Yun Zhi quiet for a few seconds.
She sobbed, and the tears flowed more and more.
Yu Mingxia could only help her wipe away her tears and cry with her.
It's not that she is sad, but compared to that love, those sorrows are nothing.
"Yu Mingxia."
Yunzhi sobbed and called her name.
She didn't know how to fill those pains.
"Well, I'm here."
"Can you stop crying?" Yun Zhi told her not to cry, but she couldn't help herself.
"Zhizhi won't cry anymore, okay?" Yu Mingxia coaxed and wanted to help her up, but Yun Zhi shook his head frantically.
"what should I do."
"What can I do to make it up to you."
"Are you sad all these years because of me?"
Yun Zhi was sobbing and speaking intermittently.
"Don't make up, don't feel guilty, I hope you can be happy."
As soon as Yu Mingxia finished speaking, Yun Zhi started crying again.
I hope she is happy, but she hurt Yu Mingxia time and time again.
Yu Mingxia was helpless, she now felt that her heart was numb with pain.
It was even more painful than the moment when Yun Zhi received the phone call.
"I was... sorry, I really didn't know."
"It's okay, my problem is that I don't want you to know."
"why did not you tell me."
"I'm afraid you will be proud, and I don't want you to know."
"You lie, you are obviously afraid that I will be sad and cry." Yun Zhi sobbed uncontrollably, and even felt that his breathing became short of breath.
"Don't cry, don't cry." Yu Mingxia touched her cheek, kissed her, trying to calm her down.
…
After a long time, Yunzhi's emotions gradually calmed down, but he was still sobbing softly.
Yu Mingxia stroked her cheek and whispered softly: "I know."
Yun Zhi raised his head, Yu Mingxia gently wiped the tears all over his face.
"I know, let's sleep for a while." Yu Mingxia didn't know what to use to divert her attention.
Maybe it would be better to sleep.
Yun Zhi bit her lip, fixed her eyes on Yu Mingxia, pulled her sleeve and whispered, "You stay with me."
Yu Mingxia nodded.
Yu Mingxia's mind went blank.
It was before it came back, and it is now.
Everything that happened today caught her off guard.
Yu Mingxia lifted the quilt and let Yun Zhi lie down.
Yun Zhi bit her lip and didn't cry any more.
Yu Mingxia sighed and wiped away her tears.
What should I do to make her no longer so sad.
Yu Mingxia couldn't figure it out.
It was even possible to guess that Yunzhi would be as sad as today in the next period of time.
This was the last thing she wanted to see.
Yun Zhi stared at her with tears in his eyes.
Yu Mingxia lowered his eyes and looked at her.
"I'm sorry." Yun Zhi murmured in a low voice, and the swirling tears fell down quickly.
Yu Mingxia shook his head: "It's okay."
I don't know how much Yun Zhi said I'm sorry, and how many Yu Mingxia said it doesn't matter.
It was not until a long time before Yun Zhi obediently closed his eyes.
It wasn't until he heard the sound of gentle breathing that Yu Mingxia kissed her lips, got up gently, and planned to go to the bathroom to clean up.
When her hidden feelings were discovered, what she felt the most was not happiness, but panic.
As she guessed, Yun Zhi was so sad that he couldn't make a sound, but there was nothing she could do.
Yu Mingxia closed the bathroom door and turned on the shower.
Just when he was about to unbutton his clothes, he saw a small figure outside the bathroom door.
Yu Mingxia sighed helplessly, and opened the bathroom door.
Yun Zhi was squatting against the wall, with his head buried in his knees, looking like a small ball.
Hearing the noise, he turned to look at her, tears welling up again: "I'm sorry..."
Yu Mingxia pursed his lips, leaned over and hugged her, and sighed softly: "Do you want to wash together?"