Nan Qiao knew her mother was a very good painter since she was a child.
In elementary school, when Qiao Yan went to hold a parent-teacher meeting for her, the teacher would chat with Qiao Yan for a long time, and the classmates around her would look at her enviously.
At first, she also felt that her family was very happy, except that she occasionally saw Nanwei and Qiao Yan sighing while looking at her report card and paintings.
But when she realizes it, she will quickly hide her emotions and tell her that it's okay, and try harder next time.
When she was in elementary school, she didn't participate in the drawing competition, not because she didn't want to, but because her level was limited.
In addition, she herself is lazy and not self-motivated.
When she was in the third grade of elementary school, she heard someone behind her talking about why she had no talent for drawing, and someone said loudly on purpose:
"My mother said, it must not be her own, otherwise why is she not like her mother at all, and the paintings are not as good as mine."
Nan Qiao knows that there are many people in school who are jealous of her and even her mother.
So she ignored what the two little rascals said, and warned them that if they talked nonsense again, she would tell the teacher.
The two little rascals were frightened and didn't speak any more.
Although Nan Qiao didn't take what the two said to heart, she still went home and told Qiao Yan and Nan Wei what she heard.
Their faces were ashen, and they found the school teacher the next day.
The two little scoundrels apologized to her, and even the teacher treated her respectfully.
Nanwei and Qiao Yan also comforted her, telling her not to believe what these people said.
Nan Qiao actually didn't take these words to heart. Although she was young, she gradually understood that because of her parents, many parents in the school let their children stay closer to her.
Occasionally, a few children would come out and tell her that if it weren't for her parents, no one would want to play with a fool like her.
Nan Qiao is actually not stupid, but because her parents and teachers have much higher expectations of her, she has not reached the realm they imagined.
In addition, Nan Qiao was cared for by his parents like a small flower in the greenhouse, and Nan Qiao himself was too lazy to work hard, doing what a child at that age should do.
Naughty and lively, fearless.
I always thought that I could live like this, and that Nan Wei and Qiao Yan would always protect her.
Later, when she was in the fifth grade of elementary school, Qiao Yan started to get busy and couldn't take care of her in every aspect as before.
So she hired a nanny named Shi Hui to take care of her.
Shi Hui was very kind to her, and would make delicious desserts for her and tell her stories.
"And then? Where did the real daughter go?" Nan Qiao asked Shi Hui.
"The real daughter passed away because the family couldn't afford the surgery, and after spending a lot of money, she passed away."
When Nan Qiao heard this story, she felt very sad. Although she was born in a good environment, but because she was taken care of wrongly, the real eldest lady was exiled among the people, and her family could not afford the medical expenses and died.
"If she is found by her own parents, she will definitely be saved, right?" Nan Qiao asked Shi Hui naively at that time.
"Yeah, think about it, isn't it too much for that fake lady to occupy the magpie's nest and live a happy life?"
At that time, Nan Qiao didn't know that Shi Hui was inducing her, because she was so kind to her that she followed her words unconsciously and maintained her cognition.
The fake daughter is also guilty.
If it weren't for her, the real daughter would not have been hugged wrong, and she would not have passed away.
The stories that Shi Hui told her were novel and rarely heard village stories.
Occasionally it is a supernatural phenomenon in the mountain village, and occasionally it is an anecdote in the countryside. Every once in a while, I will tell her the story of true and false daughters.
After hearing more, Nan Qiao became more and more disgusted with this fake daughter.
She was defenseless against Shi Hui, and her unsound cognition was indoctrinated with the other party's thoughts.
Until one day, Shi Hui suddenly told her.
She is the fake daughter.
And Shi Hui is her biological mother.
When she first heard this, Nan Qiao couldn't believe it. She didn't believe that she would be the fake daughter she hated for so long.
She wanted to talk to Qiao Yan about this, but when she got to her mouth, she saw the smile on the corner of Shi Hui's mouth, and her words rang in her ears—
"Do you think they will spare the person who caused them to lose their daughter?"
"Or do you want to live with us?"
Nan Qiao didn't say anything in the end, but Shi Hui's long-term words terrified her, and she couldn't tell Qiao Yan and Nan Wei about it.
I was afraid that what Shi Hui said was true.
Fear of being hated and abandoned.
Shi Hui left after working for three months.
When leaving, he asked her if she felt similar to Qiao Yan Nanwei.
He also told her that everything she owned was given by Qiao Yan and Nan Wei, and that as long as they knew about it, they would lock her up.
Nan Qiao thought for a long time but didn't think about it.
From birth to now, what she heard the most is that she doesn't look like anyone.
I don't like reading or painting, I don't have good grades and I don't have talent for painting.
As if to refute her words, from that day on, Nan Qiao began to study and paint desperately, trying to prove that she was the child of Nan Wei and Qiao Yan.
Her grades gradually improved, and her paintings were gradually praised by others. Even Qiao Yan would happily praise her, and would say: "Who is saying that my daughter has no talent? This painting is so good."
Whenever this time, Nan Qiao would lower his head.
Shi Hui has not appeared in front of her since then, but what she said has been echoing in her ears.
After he was promoted to junior high school, Nan Qiao broke up with his former friends.
The reason was that when they got together to play, the classmates began to praise her parents, saying that they envied her for being their daughter.
At that time, the voices about her lack of talent had gradually faded.
Ever since Shi Hui said those words to her, she has been very concerned about these things, and even began to observe the attitudes of the people around her.
In junior high school, Shi Hui appeared again and said to take her for a DNA paternity test, but Nan Qiao hid in fear.
Even though she struggled no matter how hard she struggled, Shi Hui still took her hair. A week later, Shi Hui brought the DNA test report in front of her.
The above man's surname is Chen, which is a very strange name.
Her name is also on it.
By then she had studied biology, and she knew what the 99.99 percent number meant.
Even though she said she didn't believe her and said she was lying, Nan Qiao couldn't help doubting herself in her heart.
Otherwise, why is she not like Qiao Yan and Nanwei at all.
They don't look like each other, and they didn't inherit any of their talents.
Grandpa and grandma said that when she was just two years old, Qiao Yan had already started to paint imaginatively with a paintbrush, and Nan Wei had already started to learn to read and write at that time.
Only she was still babbling when she was two years old, which worried Qiao Yan and Nan Wei for a long time.
Going home that day, Nan Qiao couldn't bear it and cried a lot.
Qiao Yan and Nan Wei were so scared that they thought she was being bullied at school.
At that time Nan Qiao asked them:
"Dad, have you done a paternity test? Am I not your child?"
Nanwei and Qiao Yan didn't take her words to heart, they were even more sure that she had been bullied at school and wanted to go to school to see.
"No, no one bullies me, I just... just study biology and be curious."
"How could you not be our child? If you were someone else's child, my mother and I could support you for so many years? Silly child."
"Then if your daughter... I die, you..."
"It's because mom has been too busy to take care of you recently. Are you angry? Qiao Qiao, don't say such things, you know? You are a piece of meat in mom's heart. If you have an accident, what will mom do? Your dad What should we do? What about our family?" Qiao Yan hugged her with red eyes when she said this, and said sorry to her, blaming her for being too busy recently.
Nan Wei and Qiao Yan thought it was a problem with the school, so they went through the school transfer procedures for Nan Qiao, from private to public, and went to Yunzhong Junior High School.
But after that day, a seed was planted in Nan Qiao's heart.
Qiao Yan couldn't let her lose her daughter again.
The campus in the cloud is very big and beautiful.
There is a piano room and dance studio on the top floor, which Nan Qiao has visited before.
One day when she passed by, she saw two girls standing outside the door of the piano room, talking in whispers.
"After learning for so long and still not knowing how to play, how stupid."
"Didn't she say that her family is rich and she is a young lady?"
"She doesn't look like a young lady. She can't dance or play the piano. It's probably not her own."
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Nan Qiao vaguely heard familiar words from the two of them.
As if back a long time ago, someone had said this to her.
Through the window, she saw the person lying on the piano strumming.
Are they sympathetic
After walking out of the piano room, the girl sat on the bench downstairs for a while, and then began to cry.
Nan Qiao thought that the girl was crying because of what the two said.
She walked over and handed her a tissue.
The girl took it hesitantly, her eyes full of vigilance.
Guarded, but dumbfounded.
When I left, I turned back in a panic because I went in the opposite direction.
At first Nan Qiao thought that Yun Zhi was not recognized like her.
It was only later that I found out that Yunzhi is very popular and has many friends around him.
She would cry then because her best friend died.
At first Yun Zhi ignored her, but as she got closer, Yun Zhi gradually accepted her.
At that time she told Yunzhi that she could always be her best friend.
She has seen many people show kindness to Yunzhi, and Yunzhi has always been the best to her after accepting her.
Sometimes she also wonders why Yunzhi can be liked by so many people.
At first she thought it was because of the money in her family, and even at the beginning she kept hypnotizing herself like this.
During the time when we were friends with Yun Zhi, those people would please her while flattering Yun Zhi.
But Yunzhi has never been indifferent, keeping the promise he made with her at the beginning, they have always been best friends.
After getting acquainted, Yunzhi began to reveal the family situation to her, and she learned that the relationship between Yunzhi and the family was not good.
At that moment, she compared herself in her heart.
Even fortunately, she and Qiao Yan Nanwei had a good time getting along before.
Qiao Yan and Nanwei also respect her very much.
In fact, Nan Qiao also knows that she has been comparing with Yunzhi, food and clothing and family relationship.
But all of this was done secretly by her.
Yun Zhi is a fool, and sincerely regards her as a friend.
And she also unknowingly immersed in the vanity brought to her by Yun Zhi.
What Nanwei and Qiao Yan can't bring her now is also what she doesn't want to get from them.
She got it from Yun Zhi.
"Nan Qiao, help me bring something to Yun Zhi."
"Nan Qiao, don't you have the best relationship with Yunzhi? Tell her for me."
Yunzhi is a playful person who doesn't like to listen to anyone's words, but he takes care of her face. As long as he says something, Yunzhi will agree to her.
In junior high school, she was always the most special existence, until the crazy Jiang Yuan'an appeared.
When she went out to buy water, Jiang Yuan'an took her place and pestered Yun Zhi to act like a baby.
Unlike the previous guard against her, she was obviously more patient with Jiang Yuan'an.
"Don't you think that person is strange? He has been pestering you since the beginning of school." Nan Qiao and Yun Zhi said that day.
Yun Zhi didn't think so, she smiled: "I think she's cute, and she compliments me on how good-looking she is and wants to be friends with me, so there seems to be no reason not to agree."
Just like my intuition, Jiang Yuan'an is very annoying, occupying Yunzhi every day, and unlike those people who approached Yunzhi just to please her before, Jiang Yuan'an has no good looks towards her from the beginning to the end.
Later she thought, just one Jiang Yuanan, she would never let the second Jiang Yuanan appear.
One day Yunzhi gave her a photo and asked her to help find someone.
Yun Zhi didn't say the reason, so Nan Qiao inquired and found Pei Wenna.
Yun Zhi seemed disappointed.
That day Nan Qiao knew Yun Zhi's thoughts.
She likes the girl in the photo.
Nan Qiao seemed to have been hit in the head.
My mind is full of "how can Yun Zhi like others".
Only after that did she admit that she fell in love with Yunzhi.
But she didn't want to admit it.
Yunzhi was so good, it wasn't that she couldn't learn the piano and dance at that time, she just didn't like it, as long as it was something she wanted to learn, she learned it very quickly.
Sometimes when standing beside her, Nan Qiao would try to find comfort.
She seems to regard Yun Zhi as a friend, but she often compares with her.
During that time, she often forgot Nanwei and Qiao Yan, and only remembered Yunzhi in front of her.
She jumped from one abyss of pain to another.
The better Nanwei and Qiao Yan treated her, the more guilty and sad she felt.
The better Yunzhi treats her, the uglier and despicable she will appear.
She didn't want to like Yunzhi, but she also didn't want Yunzhi to like others.
So when Pei Wenna handed her the photo and asked her to tell Yun that the person was Yu Mingxia.
She hid it.
Even after that, they will deliberately avoid the first group, so as not to let Yun Zhi and Yu Mingxia get in touch.
But what should come will still come, she saw the love letter written by Yu Mingxia to Yun Zhi.
At that time, she thought it was very ironic. This love letter seemed to be mocking her. If Yun Zhi knew that Yu Mingxia was the one who was in love with her in the first year of high school, they would definitely be together.
So, she threw the love letter away again.
Throw it in a dirty trash can.
He even bad-mouthed Yu Mingxia in front of Yunzhi, so that they would not have any further contact.
Yun Zhi regarded her as a good friend, so he agreed without much doubt about her words.
Seeing Yu Mingxia in pain and sadness made her happy.
I hope Yu Mingxia will never appear in front of them again.
She has always known that Yun Zhi has a bad relationship with her family.
But also because of Yunzhi, she has a good relationship with the Yun family.
Both Yunhao and Weng Lu have quick tempers, and they are sharp-tongued and can't express themselves.
But he would often ask her about Yun Zhi's situation in private.
Even after Yunhao broke Yunzhi's camera, he gave her a card and asked her to help Yunzhi buy the same camera.
Nan Qiao wandered between helping and not helping.
She had thought about letting Yunzhi fall, and struggling with her in the abyss.
But later, she softened her heart and wanted to restore Yunzhi to its former glory.
So she helped her up, handed her the camera, encouraged her.
But Yun Hao was not mentioned at all.
Nan Qiao understood that she was jealous of her and hated her for being despicable.
Even if it's just words that hurt her, she still remembers.
She had heard what Yunhao and Yunzhi said.
"What's wrong with me finding out who her parents are? Let me tell you that genes are very important, and there will be a child with the kind of parents."
"But your friend's family relationship is very good, what are you in a hurry for?"
—What kind of parents there are what kind of children.
It was also this sentence that made her face her inferiority complex calmly.
When she first entered high school, she asked someone to do an appraisal.
She has no blood relationship with South Latitude.
From then on, she began to distance herself from Nanwei and Qiao Yan, hoping that one day they would not be too sad when they found out about all this and planned to abandon her.
There was even talk of letting the two have a baby.
She couldn't tell them that your biological child was no longer alive.
She was afraid that Qiao Yan would not be able to bear it.
But Qiao Yan thought that they did something wrong to make her sad, and kept apologizing to her.
The better Qiao Yan treats her, the more tormented she will be.
I thought about telling her, but I was afraid that she wouldn't be able to accept it.
Shi Hui and that man would still look for her from time to time.
She also asked why she was doing this to her since she was their child.
But Shi Hui said, what kind of child is not raised.
They care more about money than their children.
The two would show up every now and then and ask her for money.
They seem to be hiding from debt, always looking around when they appear.
She was also bumped into by Jiang Yuan'an that day, and she found a perfunctory excuse. Although Jiang Yuan'an was annoying, she was very innocent and did not doubt her words.
When she graduated from high school, she wanted to leave Yuncheng.
But when she saw Yunzhi's expression of interest, she hesitated.
I don't want to admit it, but I have to admit it.
She is reluctant to know.
So when she saw that Yun Zhi had filled out the university in Yuncheng, she changed her intention to the university in Yuncheng.
The same goes for volunteering.
After the college entrance examination, Yunzhi suddenly asked her to meet.
It had just rained that day, and the weather was bad, so she saw Yun Zhi holding flowers from afar.
When she wanted to go there, she saw two people surrounding Yunzhi.
The haunted two.
She had warned the two of them a long time ago that if she found someone close to her, she would not give them another penny in the future.
During the period before and after the college entrance examination, in order not to disturb her mood, she set the phone number of the two to reject.
But they didn't know where they knew that Yunzhi's family was rich, and they began to hover around her.
That day she took the initiative to call the two and asked them to leave Yunzhi's surroundings.
That was her first missed appointment.
On the opposite side, he found an excuse not to meet Yun Zhi.
Later Yunzhi found her and confessed his love to her.
At first she was pleasantly surprised, Yun Zhi had always been kind to her, so she didn't notice that Yun Zhi's feelings for her had changed.
So when she heard Yun Zhi's confession, she was surprised for a long time.
After the surprise, there was fear and anxiety. Before answering, she asked Yunzhi why he liked her.
"Sunshine, kind, oh yes, does it count if you like the little desserts made by your mother?"
At that time, Yun Zhi didn't notice her abnormality, and smiled innocently at her as before.
Yun Zhi is so stupid, he has never thought of her badly for so long.
None of the reasons she said belonged to her.
She is not sunny and kind.
Even the family that Yun Zhi envied did not belong to her.
Her real parents are a pair of psychopaths.
Ghosts linger around her.
The person Yun Zhi likes is not her.
And she is not suitable for love now.
The unspeakable secret, and the two lingering souls.
She couldn't answer Yun Zhi with "I like you too".
More importantly, her love is not pure.
There are many, many other emotions mixed in.
Jealousy pops up occasionally.
Her only conscience made her reject Yun Zhi.
But after she refused, she didn't want to lose Yun Zhi, so she had no choice but to talk to her about being friends.
Yun Zhi's heart is soft, as long as she coaxes her, she can agree.
But being friends can't satisfy her thoughts, she still can't see others confessing to Yun Zhi, and she still doesn't want Yun Zhi to be with others.
She knew the solution to all this was when she stopped liking Yun Zhi.
So she chose love.
When someone somewhat similar to Yun Zhi confessed to her, she was in a daze, and she agreed.
After Yun Zhi heard the news, she broke up with her.
She can only use bitter tricks to get her back.
Cruel, but useful.
At least Yun Zhi is still by her side, although he is a little colder than before, but at least he will express his liking to her.
Maybe after a long time, she will gradually dislike Yun Zhi.
Maybe Shi Hui will pass away after a long time, and the secret will always be a secret, so no one will pester Yun Zhi anymore.
She even thought about how to make Shi Hui die suddenly like that man.
But finally give up.
She had always known her contradictory nature.
While hurting Yunzhi, he also wanted to protect her.
So in Yun Zhi's view, she is always far away, near, cold, and hot.
If Yu Mingxia didn't show up, maybe everything would go according to her idea.
But Yu Mingxia's appearance broke all her plans.
At that time, Shi Hui was seriously ill, as long as she waited a little longer, when Shi Hui passed away, she could pursue Yun Zhi again.
But Yu Mingxia appeared at this juncture.
Everything is so ridiculous.
She collapsed and begged Shi Hui to die quickly in front of Shi Hui's hospital bed.
Later, she saw on Shi Hui's mobile phone that she had called a landline number a few minutes before she stopped breathing, and she knew that this number was the landline of Yunzhi Studio.
Whether Shi Hui made this call to tell Yun Zhi the truth, or what she wanted to do, she didn't know.
If she was naive, she might hope that Shi Hui wanted to help her once.
But she is not so naive.
So she was glad that Yun Zhi didn't receive this call.
After Yun Zhi broke up with her, she often tossed and turned late at night.
Because she knew that she couldn't coax her back this time.
Before she found out that Yu Mingxia was the girl who liked Yunzhi in high school and she had thrown a love letter to her, she was confident, and even planned to make Yu Mingxia jealous.
But after knowing that the other party was Yu Mingxia, she knew that she would not be able to coax Yun Zhi back.
Yu Mingxia lingered like a ghost.
High school, high school, and now.
This person always gives her a sense of oppression.
As she guessed.
She completely lost Yunzhi.
After breaking up with Yunzhi, her inspiration became less and less, and her drawings became more and more chaotic.
When the name appeared in the trending search, Nan Qiao thought that Yu Mingxia finally couldn't bear it anymore.
Add all of this to Yu Mingxia.
That's why when she met Yun Zhi in the bathroom, she told her so confidently, eager to let her know that Yu Mingxia was not a good person either.
Only later did she know that the person behind it was Wen Jiao.
Still remembering the hatred of the year.
Nan Qiao didn't know who she should explain to.
During the high school competition, she did not copy Wen Jiao's painting, and the studio member was also Wen Jiao's.
Nan Qiao didn't know that she had offended so many people.
But it doesn't matter anymore.
She lost interest in all of this.
Occasionally, I would flip through Yunzhi's Weibo to see her new pictures.
Wanting to see Yunzhi's life through pictures, he tirelessly searched for Yunzhi's name in the search box.
Occasionally, I will click into Yunzhi's circle of friends.
Yunzhi blocked her, but she still kept Yunzhi's friend.
Even if you can't see anything in the circle of friends.
Like killing time.
Watch her and Yu Mingxia's official announcement, and watch her post pictures to show off her affection.
Numbly, I looked into the picture.
she knows.
Can't wait.
How could Yu Mingxia let Yunzhi leave since he fell in love with her in the first year of high school.
The accident happened so fast that she had no time to think about it.
That's how the secret that was once hidden was revealed.
She saw Nan Wei's heartbroken and unbelievable eyes, and she couldn't imagine how sad Qiao Yan would be if she knew about it.
She reminded them countless times, and even jokingly suggested to do a DNA test together. She thought that the two of them were dead, and if they accidentally found out that they were related by blood, maybe the two of them would feel better.
But what about their real children? How to tell them this cruel fact.
In the end she told Nanwei.
She didn't know how to trouble the person who made a mistake at that time, how to tell Qiao Yan the truth.
According to Nanwei's words, she left Yuncheng.
"And then? You didn't tell that girl the truth?"
On the river embankment where no one was around, two people were sitting and chatting.
The water under my feet was rushing, and there was no one around, only the two of them.
"Wrote a letter, I wonder if it can be delivered to her." Nan Qiao looked down at her toes.
The recipient she wrote Yu Mingxia.
Perhaps it was because her emotions calmed down during this period that she began to be willing to apologize to Yu Mingxia.
He even wondered, if her letter was delivered to Yu Mingxia, would she be willing to hand it to Yunzhi.
"You're such a genius. What age did you write letters? You sent them from country A back to Yuncheng. You're really good." The girl sneered, laughing at the stupid way she used.
"But to be honest, I think your life is very painful. Why do you still live?" The girl grabbed a small stone from the side and threw it into the river.
The place where the two are located is a small place in country A, where the protection against drowning is not strong, and the surrounding dykes are not high.
"But it's not all pain." Nan Qiao recalled the past, and Yunzhi brought her a lot of tenderness and happiness.
If she had been able to think more openly at that time, or if she hadn't thought so far, maybe the ending now would be different.
Even if the ending is the same, the process is different, and the memories left for her will be different.
"It's all the same, life is born with pain." The girl threw stones into the water.
Nan Qiao looked at her and asked, "Are you really going to dance? Don't you plan to get up?"
The girl hummed and asked: "If I really plan to dance, will you show kindness and help me accept it?"
Nan Qiao sneered: "Do you think I look like a good person?"
"If you still want to jump, wait for me to go farther before jumping."
Nan Qiao planned to get up after speaking.
The girl cut her voice: "You are really a bad person. After listening to your story for a long time, I forgot what I wanted to do."
"But I feel that you can survive such a painful life. There is nothing I can't survive."
"Actually, I can swim, so I just sit and play."
The girl patted the dirt on her hands and stood up slowly.
"But seriously, do you regret it? What would you do if you went back to—"
The girl had just finished speaking, her feet were empty, and she was driven by the desire to survive, so she grabbed Nan Qiao's arm firmly.
Before falling into the water, what Nan Qiao thought of was not to blame the girl.
I even felt a little bit relieved.
—Jojo, you must learn to swim, just in case.
Yun Zhi's delicate face was reflected in the water.
She remembered the girl's last question.
Do you regret it
regret it.
What would you like to do if you went back to the past
Don't meet Yunzhi again.
If possible, she hopes to never appear in Yunzhi's world.
Yunzhi is always free and always happy.
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