Shang Yanyu stayed in the hospital for two days, and after the injuries on his face were slightly less obvious, he was discharged. After the performance on the first night of the New Year, the theater gave him a fifteen-day vacation.
During these fifteen days, he spent most of the time with Shen Jue, and a small part of his time watching musicals. The confession on the first night of the new year did not actually change him much. It can be said that he is still the Shang Yanyu who can hardly pick out any faults. He is still considerate, intelligent, and doesn't give people any pressure. If he doesn't say that there is a change, it can only be said that the way he looks at Shen Jue is a little different.
The original love seemed to float on the surface, but now it has sunk into it.
Seven days before the holiday, Shen Jue took a few days off from the company and bought a plane ticket to accompany Shang Yanyu back to country C, where the other party grew up.
Country C is not big, but it has a very developed economy and many rich people. Shang Yanyu's father is one of them. The businessman was originally a famous rich man in country C. Before the death of Shang Yanyu's father, he made a will and will Part of the money was donated, and the rest of the real estate was left to Shang Jiayu's mother.
Shang Jiayu's mother got the real estate and did not manage it well, but spent it with her son until she died in a car accident.
Now all the remaining property of the merchant is in the name of Shang Jiayu. Unlike the previous generations, Shang Yanyu did not deliberately find his identity in this life and became the guardian of Shang Jiayu.
The villa where the businessman lived in is still there, but it has changed hands. Shang Jiayu's mother hurriedly sold the villa after Shang's father's funeral, as if she didn't want to live in it for a day.
If you change the owner, you will not be able to enter.
Shang Yanyu just stood outside the villa and looked inside through the iron gate, but no matter how he looked, he couldn't see anything.
"Gene Era"
"This one has a glass greenhouse, which my father personally made for my mother at the time. At that time, there was no me. My mother said that my father didn't even go to work in order to make the glass greenhouse. The flowers inside were also my father's. He planted it, but later, he let the woman go to the glass greenhouse to pick flowers." When he said this, Shang Yanyu's expression was very calm, as if what he said had nothing to do with him.
Shen Jue thought, Shang Yanyu must have hated his father, otherwise he wouldn't have come back to watch. Death may not be able to make up for faults. Forgiveness should be decided by the victim, not the perpetrator.
The villa is halfway up the mountain, and there are other villas nearby. When Shen Jue and Shang Yanyu went down the mountain, they met people who lived nearby. The man drove the car to a stop beside them, and after sliding down the window, he stared at Shang Yanyu in disbelief.
"You..." He said "you" for a long time without saying a word, but Shang Yanyu called out his name first.
"Xiao Mao, long time no see."
The young man known as Xiao Mao heard this sentence, blinked twice, and finally said a complete sentence, "Shang Yanyu? Are you not dead?"
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When Shang Yanyu and Xiao Mao were reminiscing about the old times, Shen Jue didn't stand by and listen, but walked around casually. He didn't walk back until Shang Yanyu called his cell phone.
Xiao Mao sent them down the mountain. Shang Yanyu, who had ended the retelling, was obviously in a lower mood, and he basically did not speak on the way down the mountain.
Xiao Mao glanced at Shang Yanyu in the rearview mirror, "Shang Yanyu, I will contact the current owner of your house in the past two days to see if I can let you in and have a look. Let's exchange the contact information, you Wait for my news."
Saying goodbye to Xiao Mao, Shang Yanyu still didn't speak much. When he returned to the hotel where he was staying, he didn't even care to close the door, so he hugged Shen Jue. This hug was so tight that they were almost completely pressed together, and Shen Jue was a little breathless, but he knew that Shang Yanyu was in a wrong mood at this time.
Maybe Xiao Mao told Shang Yanyu something about what happened here after he left.
Shang Yanyu was only in his teens when he left home. It was at the most sensitive period of his youth. Shen Jue didn't know how he left the psychiatric hospital or what happened to him during the year he was in the psychiatric hospital.
Even though he was the favored son of heaven, he was sent to a psychiatric hospital by his own father. The people there regarded him as a mentally different person who had lewd and lewd behavior towards his own younger brother. He still accepted it for a year. Treatment.
This home is where Shang Yanyu grew up and where he and his parents get along day and night. For him, the memories here are mixed. He likes the days before his father cheated, and hates the days after his father cheated.
He was wandering outside alone. Although he has now become a famous theater actor, his previous bitterness is probably beyond words. Outsiders see his gorgeous life as a play, but what about outside the play? After all, he walked alone with hatred, hiding the pain of these years under the perfect skin.
Everyone loves his skin, who cares if his soul is complete or not
Sometimes incomplete souls are not necessarily attracted to complete souls, because that person knows that the other person has a beautiful family and a happy life, so how can that person feel the grief in his heart? If two incomplete souls meet, he can see at a glance that the other is the same kind of person as him, living under a mask, hiding all his thoughts in his heart.
For Shang Yanyu, Shen Jue is another incomplete soul.
He could see that the other party had hatred in his heart, and he also knew what the other party was hiding. Their acquaintance was so deliberate, and both of them knew it well. Shang Yanyu was not a fool, Shen Jue was Shang Jiayu's guardian. When he saw the exact same face, he was surprised for a moment, but he didn't say anything.
Backstage at the theater, Shang Yanyu actually knew that Shen Jue didn't want to, but he just deliberately wanted to bully the other party, wondering what the other party could do for him... until he received that tear.
Tears fell from those eyes full of pain, like a small stone making waves in his heart.
Over the years, he has been surrounded by many people, rich, poor, beautiful, not beautiful. He can't count how many people there are. Those people come to his skin like annoying flies, but He hates those flies because of the greed hidden in their eyes.
When those people looked at him, they always looked at him with a strange look, as if he was an exquisite doll in a glass cabinet, and they wanted to buy him, take him home, and hide him on a shelf.
He is not anyone's property, and he will not give anyone a chance.
He insisted on this sentence very well until he met Shen Jue, who was the complete opposite of him.
Although he is also an incomplete soul, Shang Yanyu is well aware of his indifference. He can smile at anyone, as beautiful as a perfect dummy. In fact, he wants to destroy everything. He doesn't like laughing, nor does he like He doesn't like to help others when talking, even the male student who had the same experience as him, when he listened to the other party's complaints, what he thought in his mind was—
What does it have to do with me
But Shen Jue is different from him. Shen Jue looks indifferent, indifferent, doesn't like to laugh, and doesn't like to talk, but he actually has an extremely soft heart. The male student has his contact information. Some time ago, the male student transferred a few hundred dollars and said he was asking him to return it to Shen Jue.
Shang Yanyu had worn the mask on his face for too long, and now he forgot how to take it off, so he liked the indifference expressed by Shen Jue.
What if the soul is incomplete, if you meet another soul that matches your own gap, you can also become a complete soul.
Over the years, he has been striving for perfection, as if so that he would not become like his mother, who was abandoned by others, but after meeting Shen Jue, he was a little scared because he could not control his feelings, so He designed a fake derailment to make himself the one who always gave up on others.
In the hospital that night, he didn't tell the truth to Shen Jue. He misunderstood that the cheating was false, and the test reaction was false. He deliberately misunderstood Shen Jue. Actually a breakup.
If he mentions breaking up first, he will not be broken up with.
He chased him out of the emergency department in his flimsy hospital clothes, but it was just a matter of habit, and he had learned ten percent of the hypocrisy of his father, especially after he left home.
It turned out that he had a home, and he could still be himself, but later he would have no home, so he had to become a different person in order to survive.
It's just that he didn't expect the other party to believe him in the end. Even on the first day of the new year, he deliberately asked the male students to come to the backstage of the theater. After the two met, Shen Jue chose to stand by him.
When Shang Yanyu beat Yao Zhan, his intention was deeper than his anger. He wanted Shen Jue to see himself like this, and he wanted to break the perfect illusion in front of the other party.
But the other party still accepted.
In the days before his death, his mother always told him that instead of being the perfect person in the eyes of others, it is better to be himself, but he could not be himself for a long time, so even if he broke up, he would be around the corner.
Because of Shen Jue's acceptance and because he was really tired, Shang Yanyu asked the outside world for help for the first time after his mother's death. Beneath his perfect mask was a broken heart, he thought Someone came to help him, save him.
Shang Yanyu was playing a gamble. He handed his broken heart to Shen Jue. It was up to the other party to decide whether to fight it well or break it so that there was no slag left.
As for the secrets hidden on the other side, he thought he still had a long time to understand.
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That night, Shang Yanyu slept in Shen Jue's arms. He curled up into a ball, nestled in the other's arms, put his ears on the other's chest, and fell asleep listening to the other's heartbeat.
When he slept in the other's arms, when he woke up, it was the first time Shang Yanyu felt that he was relying on him. After his father cheated, he was the spiritual support of his mother. After leaving home, he lived alone and used to play perfectly. How could he be willing to show his vulnerable side
Shang Yanyu propped up his body, his face had a hazy feeling in the morning light, as if the softest light in the world gently fell on his face, beauty no longer had a sense of attack, like a knife in a scabbard .
He quietly looked at Shen Jue, who had already woken up, and after a long time, he lowered his head and hugged him again. The two hugged so tightly, as if they were a doomsday couple.
In the next few days, Shang Yanyu took Shen Jue to the places he once stayed, such as the middle school where Shang Yanyu went to, the library he liked to go to when he was studying, and the day before returning to China, Xiao Mao He called Shang Yanyu and said that he had contacted the current owner of the villa. The previous owner went abroad and came back only two days ago, saying that Shang Yanyu could come in this afternoon to take a look.
When Shang Yanyu answered the call, Shen Jue was beside him. After he answered, he looked at Shen Jue. Although Shen Jue didn't hear Xiao Mao's words, he had already guessed it from Shang Yanyu's eyes.
"You decide," he said.
Shen Jue thought that if he wanted to take Shang Yanyu's life, he should first settle a knot in the other's heart. Shang Yanyu's heart will only be related to his parents. Now that his parents are away, the only thing he can use to remember his parents is probably the villa.
"Let's go to that villa in the afternoon, Xiao Mao said he has the other party's consent." Shang Yanyu was silent for a while before he said.
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The appointment time was one o'clock in the afternoon. They arrived at the villa halfway up the mountain on time. Xiao Mao stood outside the villa gate waiting for them. When he saw them coming, he led them to ring the doorbell.
The villa has been greatly remodeled, and the decorations in the rooms have been remade. The only thing that has not been changed is the glass flower room. The new owner of the villa seemed to have a good impression of Shang Yanyu, and said a few more words, "I think this glass house is well designed, so I stayed." The owner saw that Shang Yanyu suddenly stopped and looked at the corner. On a row of shelves, he also looked over there, "Do you like that pot of lily? This pot of lily was there when I bought this villa, and it is still growing well, if you like it, put that Take the potted lily."
Shang Yanyu's eyes flashed, but he didn't speak, just walked over and slowly took the pot of lily into his arms. After a while, he turned around and thanked the new owner of the villa, "Thank you, this was planted before my mother died. I didn't expect it to be alive."
The flower pot had his mother's unique stick figure on it, so he recognized it at a glance.
When he left, Shang Yanyu didn't let Xiao Mao send him off. He held the flower pot in one hand and Shen Jue's hand in the other, as if saying goodbye to the past, and slowly walked down the mountain. , a car approached from the front.
Originally, Shang Yanyu and Shen Jue didn't pay attention to the car. The car drove past them, but soon, they heard the sound of the car from the rear again. Listening to the sound, the other party was speeding very fast. Shang Yanyu instinctively glanced back, but the next moment, his pupils shrank, and he didn't have time to think too much, he just pushed the person next to him away.
Shen Jue was vigorously pushed to the ground next to him, and when he reacted, the lily pot Shang Yanyu was holding was already broken.
The potted plant smashed to the ground, and the car ran over the lilies whose tails were soaked in mud. The blood spread out, dyeing the lilies on the ground red.
Shen Jue looked at the scene in front of him and blinked gently. After a while, he stood up and walked towards the lily. Because he was pushed away with great force, he was completely unprepared. When he fell to the ground, he twisted his foot. Now walking over, he stumbled a little.
He looked at the man on the ground, pursed his lips, and squatted down to help him up.
At this moment, the car that drove away drove back.
Shen Jue raised his eyes and watched the car speeding towards him. At this speed, he couldn't avoid it at all. He could only watch the other party hit him, but at the moment when the car was about to hit, the car turned urgently. Turning a corner, he slammed into the tree next to him.
The front of the car almost collapsed after hitting a tree because the car was going so fast.
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Shang Jiayu was sitting in the car, and most of his consciousness was lost. While shaking, he pushed the door hard, but he couldn't open it. His legs seemed to be completely stuck, and he couldn't even feel the pain.
But what if you could feel the pain
Now he is nothing, not an omega, not an alpha, not even the most common beta, he has become a monster.
Half a year ago, he went to a country and secretly performed a physical transformation operation.
Some people in this world are satisfied with their physique, but some people are not, so such a secret hospital came into being. They are illegal hospitals, so all risks on the surgery consent form are on the patient.
In the past six months, almost every day of his life was worse than death, large and small operations, endless medicines, countless intubations on his body, but he thought that as long as he could become an alpha, Shen Jue would be able to watch it. It's his turn, not just that slut Shang Yanyu, so he survived, but the operation failed, he no longer had glands and became a genderless person.
At the same time, his body is getting worse day by day. The attending doctor who operated on him said that he could live for three more years at most, but in these three years, he didn't want to live anymore, because he became a monster.
He didn't even dare to go out until Xiao Mao contacted him.
Xiao Mao was one of his suitors, and one of the few people who liked Shang Yanyu when he was still alive. Xiao Mao told him that Shang Yanyu had returned to Country C and brought a young man with him.
Shang Jiayu didn't have to think about it, he knew who Xiao Mao was talking about.
Those two were still in love when he turned into a monster, they didn't even know what he was going through, and he was dying soon.
So Shang Jiayu decided to take revenge. He decided to take Shang Yanyu and Shen Jue to die together, but when he was about to bump into Shen Jue, he temporarily changed his mind.
The temperature inside the car seemed to continue to rise. When his hands were bleeding a lot, the door was finally pushed open, but he could only get out with his upper body, and his lower body was completely stuck in the car. He exhausted all his strength to climb out, and his hands printed countless blood marks on the ground, but he couldn't get out.
Shang Jiayu is actually a very squeamish person who loves beauty very much. He originally thought about his own death. He thought he had to die cleanly, decently, in comfort, and be told how beautiful this omega was.
But now he's dying, he's no longer a pampered omega, nor a decent, clean death.
Shang Jiayu's tears dripped down his cheeks and fell to the ground, mixed with the blood on the ground. He whimpered softly, crawling while crying: "Mom, save me, mother, save me..."
In the last sentence, what he shouted was, "Shen Jue, I hurt so much."
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Under the scorching sun of winter, the cold is still to the bone.
Shen Jue held the person who was not breathing in her arms, picked up the lily on the ground with blood and mud, and gently put it into the other's arms. The man in his arms had blood on his face, he reached out and wiped it, but the more he wiped, the more he could not wipe it clean. The blood was so bright, it looked like Shang Yanyu's lips under heavy makeup when they first met. color.
After the little nun who sang "Let him" go down the mountain, did she find her wishful husband
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