The calmer it is, the more thrilling it is.
The roaring cicadas were hidden in the shadows of the trees, but they further set off the heart-pounding silence at the moment.
Jiang Xuening didn't seem to be able to hear anything, even the cicadas chirping outside the door and the window seemed far away, only her own heartbeat, and the pulse that came through the palm of her wrist tightly , so clear, so chilling!
The wall reading hall is no better than the qin hall.
On weekdays, there are still servants in Chuoqintang, but no one in Bidutang dares to take a step closer. At this moment, except for the two of them at the door, there is no one else.
Jiang Xuening had also thought about it in the past, how does Xie Wei see himself
Hate it, don't like it
…
In any case, I never thought about this time today. That's something she wouldn't think about, and wouldn't dare to think about, and it was also a possibility that she had been excluded from the beginning!
But Xie Wei broke all of this.
In her last life, she was really not a little girl who had never seen anything in the world.
If Xie Wei was not too special, she might not have noticed it today.
Jiang Xuening clenched her fingers as hard as she could, so that she could barely control herself.
The palm that held her wrist tightly had no intention of relaxing.
Xie Wei didn't seem to do anything out of the ordinary. He was still so indifferent. He looked at her and said, "What's wrong with staying in the capital?"
She was shaking.
Xie Wei didn't seem to notice, and said in a light voice: "I don't dare to provoke you easily at home, there is Xiao Dingfei outside to accompany you, and even the elder sister you never used to see married out. , I should be happy to see you here. The princess went to Tatar to meet her relatives. The news of exchanges between the DPRK and China is the fastest, and you should know it as soon as you are in the capital. Even if you can't stand the days at home, I propose to the Imperial College to set up a women's school. The same goes for school, no one can criticize it. Why do you have to leave?"
Not a word of coercion.
Even when he said these words, there was still a vast distance between his eyebrows and dense fog, without the slightest bit of selfishness, he was all thinking of her.
But it is like a meticulous big net!
Every time Xie Ju'an said a word, Jiang Xuening felt that the big net was tightening towards her! Little by little, the space where she stands, the air she breathes makes it difficult for her to struggle, almost suffocating!
She tried her best to remain calm and did not dare to provoke him, and said, "Mr. has high regard for students. Students used to be indulgent and misbehaving. If it wasn't for Mister's help, I would have caused a catastrophe."
Xie Wei said: "Then why not continue to indulge in sexual misconduct?"
Jiang Xuening tried to pull her hand back, but the hand that was holding hers did not move.
Xie Wei looked at her and narrated very calmly: "You are the direct daughter of the minister of the household, the eldest princess's companion, the wife and sister of the king of Linzi, the playmate of Yan Lin, the backer of Xiao Dingfei, my student—you are afraid what?"
Every word he said hit her sensitive nerves. When the words "my student" came out, the tense display in Jiang Xuening's mind finally snapped with a "hum"!
Anyone in this world can-
Only Xie Wei, she is definitely not the one who dares to contaminate it!
At this moment, she is like a prey that has been forced into a dead end. Facing the beast that is approaching step by step, she must open up every sharp thorn on her body and tighten every corner of her body before she can make herself swell that little bit. His courage, his reddish eyes widened, and he said to him, "Let go of me."
She didn't call "Sir" anymore.
The traces of hostility in Xie Wei's eyes finally floated up quietly, but his voice was lighter than before: "Isn't Zhang Zhe still here, why do you want to leave the capital?"
If she mentioned this name in the past, Jiang Xuening might feel a little inhumane sweetness in her heart, but after she said it the day before, all this name could bring her was irreparable regret and stinging pain that could not be reached. !
Xie Wei stepped on her sore foot.
She began to struggle hard, stared at him, gritted her teeth and said sharply: "What does it have to do with him! How bad I am, how bad my temperament is, didn't the master know it earlier? The girl in the countryside. Where can I get to the hall of elegance! The capital is not the place I should stay, and every day here is like lying in a frying pan. I can't live in peace for a day, and I never feel at ease! Why can't I leave?"
Every day is like lying in a pan of oil, not a day of peace, never a day at ease.
Xie Wei pressed his eyelashes and stared at her.
However, she felt that her sleepy and fighting attitude was very ridiculous, and even disappointed him. There was a cold and pungent tone in her calm tone: "This is what a coward thinks about. Ning Er, you are not a child anymore, don't make fun of you."
Jiang Xuening stretched out his hand to break his hand.
He didn't even move, he only felt that she was so hysterical, avoiding him like a snake and scorpion, and treating him like a flood of beasts, but he didn't know why he made her so afraid...
At that moment, there was a bit of sadness.
After all, he lowered his voice and said softly, "Ning Er, stay."
Tears welled up in Jiang Xuening's eyes: "Let go of me!"
Xie Wei didn't hear it: "Princess went to have a kiss. I didn't do what I promised you, and I still have to pay you back, and I owe you my life."
Jiang Xuening couldn't get rid of him, so he choked: "I don't want you to pay it back, I don't care!"
Xie Wei remembered a long time ago that the little girl who clearly hated him saw that he was confused and shed tears all day long. Stay by his side, afraid that he will die next to her and live with a dead person; want to go out to collect medicine, but also afraid of mandrills in the wild and jackals in the night.
That day was a heavy snowfall in the solar term.
It became colder and colder in the deep mountains, and white snow floated on the heights.
The little girl was tired of crying all night.
He woke up in a daze, but no one was there in the morning.
Only in the middle of the day did I see a group of white shadows walking in from outside the cave. She was covered in cold air, her head and shoulders were covered with snow, her lips were blue and purple, she had picked herbs from nowhere, trembling hands to strike flint. But this day, the branches were soaking wet, she couldn't light it, but she didn't cry. She just bit the herbs into pieces and put them into a broken bowl that she had picked up from somewhere.
His knife was stuck in a crack in the stone.
It took her a long time to pull it out, shivering and slashing on her wrist, the bright red blood gushed out, and fell into the broken pottery bowl in a meandering corner, mixed with dark green herbs, forming a Dark purple.
Then he brought the bowl to his lips.
The young girl Bai Shengsheng's face was bloodless, and coaxed him with a crying voice: "Zhuangzi has come up with a very powerful doctor who used this recipe to save the dead. You can drink the medicine..."
How can the dead be saved
Most of them are swaggering magic sticks.
It is still difficult for him to tell whether it was his dream or not.
Only the extremely astringent herb mixed with the rust-like bitter taste of blood flowed out from the depths of memory from time to time.
He burned it later and seemed to be fine.
The little girl was confused.
He went out to explore the road and find some food, but she always pulled his sleeves, dizzy, and complained like a dream: "I knew, you have to go by yourself..."
As a last resort, he softened his heart and walked with one foot deep and one shallow foot behind her back.
But she also felt that he was not a good person and would leave her behind.
He had to tear off a narrow strip of the already soiled robe, tie one end to her wrist and the other to his own, and then told her, "Now that I'm tied with you, no one can go first. ,I am here."
Her dreaming stopped slowly.
Xie Wei recalled that it was the craziest and stupidest time in his more than 20 years.
There seems to be such a belief in the dark-
I believe that in such a desperate situation, there is still a chance of survival. There is no qin and book, no knife and sword, no heavenly religion, no imperial court, no life experience, and no revenge, only the mighty world and two people who want to live.
But Jiang Xuening said that if he didn't want him to pay it back, she was not uncommon.
There is disgust hidden in the coldness, how much is it like when I met her a few times in the capital later
Xie Wei felt a colicky pain in his chest.
The pain came so quickly and was so unfamiliar that before he could tell the difference, he felt dizzy and dazed for a while, and only said, "It doesn't matter if you don't, there is everything in the capital..."
Jiang Xuening had been pushed to the brink of collapse, and shouted at him ruthlessly: "There is everything, except freedom!"
Xie Wei said, "Why don't you understand?"
Jiang Xuening said: "Let go!"
Xie Wei said to her word by word: "There is no real freedom in the world. Even if you escape to the ends of the earth, as long as you have a tie in your heart, you will be trapped in a cage forever! After all, you have to come back..."
Most of the truth in the world is too cruel, wrapped in layers of sharp thorns, not only can't penetrate people's ears, but will stab the listeners to erect their entire defenses and tightly protect themselves inside.
Not only did the fear not subside, but it surged even more.
Jiang Xuening didn't know whether he was more afraid of Xie Wei, or more afraid of his words. Finally, he couldn't bear it anymore. He couldn't break the palm that was holding him, so he buried his head and bit down deeply.
The severe pain came from the back of the hand, almost penetrated into the bone marrow, but Xie Wei was still reluctant to let go, looking at her, there was even a faint pleading in his voice, almost paranoid: "Jiang Xuening, don't go."
It was so painful, my fingers twitched.
Jiang Xuening finally broke free from him, his chest heaving, his eyes widened angrily, and he stepped back, as if to refute him, but also as if to tell himself: "Nonsense! It's all nonsense!"
She didn't have time to deal with any of her emotions, and she didn't want to think deeply.
Just escaped.
run away.
That night, she rode the carriage that had been prepared in the house, took her luggage, and left the capital. The mountains and rivers were long, and they went three thousand miles in the middle of Shu.
Xie Wei's hand was empty, and blood dripped from the back of his hand near the tiger's mouth, dripping from his heart.
In the end, he stood inside the door, not chasing out a step.
That low threshold was like a chasm, tearing him apart from the outside world, and no one could cross it, others could not get in, and he could not get out.
When Lu Xian came to the Bireading Hall, it was already dusk.
Jianshu stood outside and dared not go in.
He looked inside along the door, and saw that it was dark inside. The qin that Jiang Xuening had taken from the Youhuang Pavilion was lying on the ground, with a broken column, and the broken strings curled like a piece of blue silk. And Xie Wei stood in front of the wall in the shadow, without moving for a long time, withered like a rotten tree. There was a small branch of green apricot on the window edge, and the crimson light of the setting sun penetrated from the back of the green leaves.
Jiang Xuening should have come.
Seeing this scene, Lu Xian didn't dare to step inside.
Xie Wei, on the other hand, turned his head slowly and saw them, as if nothing had happened, his face was no different, and said, "You came just in time, catch up with the discussion, let's go together."
Lu Xian saw his hand.
Xie Wei walked past the broken qin and headed towards the Chuoqin Hall, thinking that everyone should wait a long time.
Lu Xian and Jianshu were still standing there.
Jianshu was at a loss and didn't understand: "Why don't you force it to stay?"
Lu Xian looked back at the broken qin.
After being silent for a long time, he rarely smiled, and said slowly, "Xie Ju'an is not that kind of person."