what is love
Karenin was never taught to love.
People don't take the initiative to teach others how to love. Something as different as love is mostly perceived by a person himself.
The love between parents affects children, and the love between friends makes you understand the diversity of love. The experience of growing up makes you understand slowly, so that in the end, everyone has their own definition of love.
If it is said that during the growth of ordinary people, those experiences have caused their ability to perceive love to have an 80% score.
For Karenin, it might be very dangerous to even pass the exam.
The early death of his parents, his uncle's teaching-style education, and Karenin's own strict and disciplined character lead to his complete lack of understanding of love.
If it is said that Karenin agreed to Anna's proposal that day because of love at first sight, it is better to say that it is a kind of curiosity of the human being, which is more like a challenge to Karenin.
And now, when he held his wife in his arms, as natural as human breathing, he suddenly understood what love was.
Although this kind of cognition is still fragile like a bud and wobbly, it must have taken root in this man's thinking and cognition with its most correct posture.
In this regard, rational people such as Karenin also have a more perceptual understanding.
It turns out that everyone should have the ability to love, but some people can always see the day when it will sprout from the ground, while some people will never understand it for the rest of their lives because they have passed the right person.
Karenin hugged his wife, and at this moment he didn't want to do anything.
He was undergoing an earth-shaking thought change in his heart, but on the surface, he didn't allow himself to reveal the slightest bit.
Listening to his wife's soft words, he knew that she understood his thoughts, and felt as if he had spoken them himself.
His big dry hands stroked his wife's hair, which was soft and a little curvy to the touch. When the hair brushed against the belly of his thumb, it was cool and thin.
The smell of hair oil, and the smell of my wife.
Even the surrounding air seems to have been properly soothed, making people feel that the body and mind have become unobstructed.
"You're so kind, Alexei, even I think I'm a strange wife," Anna sighed.
"Sometimes it does."
Karenin said casually that at this moment, his rational mind was processing the received information for him, while his little perceptual mind, which had been oppressed all along, was still content to immerse itself in that brand-new cognition.
Anna wouldn't feel that emotion, she stayed more in what Karenin wanted to show her.
She laughed because Karenin was always so honest and frank.
"I think, maybe no matter before or in the future, only you can bear me."
Karenin was immersed in that brand-new emotional experience, so he didn't delve into the meaning of his wife's words carefully, but told his wife that he didn't think this kind of getting along belonged to the category of tolerance. It's better, as if that day he would have agreed to the proposal, because he felt it would be the right decision, something he couldn't find a reason to refuse from the moment it was laid before his eyes .
From then on, there was a second event of great importance in Anna's life.
Karenin's attitude has shown that he will support her decision, so Anna plans to learn tailoring systematically.
If she really wants to make some achievements in clothing, she can't just rely on the advantages of the times to show off her cleverness.
At breakfast Karenin suggested that he might invite Madame Panayotov.
Mrs. Gorman was a seamstress, about fifty, and Anna also asked her to help her change the skirt. But Anna had a different idea about Karenin's proposal.
"I think Mr. Goldman is a better fit."
"Mr. Goldman?" Karenin frowned slightly.
Mr. Goldman is currently a celebrity in Petersburg, and he has become popular in the past two years.
It is said that this Mr. Goldman is not yet thirty years old, and he looks very young. The clothes he made are very popular among the ladies. Mr. Goldman also makes men's clothing, but it is obviously more suitable for young people who have just come out to socialize. In Karenin's view, those clothing does have its own uniqueness, but it is still not suitable for a government official like him. Too frivolous to appear immodest.
"I heard that he is very lonely and never accepts invitations from others," Karenin said.
"I know, so I didn't intend to send him an invitation letter like others." Anna said, "I'm not sure whether Mr. Goldman's refusal to accept these invitations is out of his pride or something, but I think, at least I can Try to pay a visit."
"It's worth trying."
So she did what she said, and Anna tidied herself up, without wearing too gorgeous clothes, and then took Anuschka to Mr. Goldman's tailor shop.
They passed by in a carriage.
It's been a while since I came to this era, but Anna still hasn't had a good time wandering around.
She asked Peter to stop in front of the tailor's shop, and she and Annushka walked over.
Peter had some complaints about the hostess' words, and said, "Madam, that's just a tailor."
"You're right, but I need the help of this tailor right now." Anna smiled faintly, and then took Anuschka to Goldman's tailor shop.
Because it is located in an area where rents are high, the interior decoration of the shop is also very high-grade. In order to set off the bright colors of the fabrics, the entire store uses delicate and simple rosewood, and some ready-to-wear garments have been placed for display.
Anna and Anushka entered the store and saw the man who was doing the billing at the counter.
He was really strong, with not much clothes on. He had a protruding neck and two strong little arms, which was different from his thick appearance. When this man raised his head, his big brown eyes were very round.
Although Anna has always felt that people should not be judged by their appearance, it is rumored that the hottest tailor in Petersburg should be the one in front of her.
"Do you want to buy ready-made clothes or custom-made clothes?" The young man sniffed and asked, if he was not handsome, this sniffing action would be really impolite.
"I'm here to see Mr. Goldman, may I ask who you are?" Anna asked cautiously, afraid that she might say something wrong, which would reveal the small thoughts in her heart.
"He went out."
"How soon will he be back?" Anna asked, feeling a little rejoiced.
"Not sure, maybe an hour, maybe two or three hours." The young man shrugged his shoulders.
"Okay, then I'll wait for him." Anna said, and the other party stared at her in surprise.
"What I said is true. If it takes longer, Mr. Goldman may really need three hours to come back."
"It's okay, I can wait." Anna said firmly. She stood for a moment, her eyes lingering on the ready-to-wear. Although Anna doesn't know much about cutting, but only in terms of design, this Mr. Goldman does have a hand.
"Why don't you sit down for a while, there are chairs over there." The young man said out loud.
"No need, I'll go out later." Anna said.
"You didn't wait, did you?" The young man said briskly, as if Anna didn't wait, which was in line with his original assumption and cognition. His unabashed emotion made Anna smile.
"Of course I have to wait, as I said, but I will wait at the coffee shop opposite instead of disturbing your business here."
Anna took Annushka out of the tailor shop, and they waited slowly in the coffee shop, during which Anna would talk about trivial things with Annushka.
Every few tens of minutes, Anushka would take a look. In this way, Anna did not meet the legendary Mr. Goldman until two hours later.
Mr. Goldman's first impression is sharp.
Just like many designers that Anna had seen in her previous life, Mr. Goldman in front of her also had those qualities.
Tall and thin body, although the cheekbones are more prominent, but the facial features are very beautiful. His black hair was neatly pomaded, and his green eyes were hidden behind gold-rimmed glasses.
He seemed to have known what happened from that healthy young man, and when Anna came in, his eyes had already calmly settled on her.
"What do you want from me, madam?"
His voice is very soft, and this question seems a little careless, but because those green eyes are looking at you seriously, people can't bear to criticize his rudeness, instead, they will think, maybe he is like this, and he is not No malice.
"I heard that Mr. Goldman's craftsmanship is very good, so I want to ask Mr. Goldman if he is willing to teach others."
After the man in front of him heard what Anna said, his quiet voice rang out again.
"I'm sorry, ma'am, but I don't intend to teach anyone at the moment."
"I won't let you do it for nothing, sir." Annushka said eagerly.
Mr. Goldman didn't even look at her, but still let the focus of his eyes fall on the most prestigious person present.
"It's not a question of salary. It's just me and another guy who maintain this small tailor shop. I really don't have the energy to do other things. There are always a lot of orders from customers, and since I am a tailor, accept Once the order is placed, it must be completed. I think, let me boast, it is also a matter of virtue as a tailor."
After Anna heard this, she thought about it in her heart.
Now she looks up to Mr. Goldman even more.
It's not because of his beautiful appearance, nor because of his aloof temperament, but purely because of how a person can be so contemptuous and flattering.
The implication of this Mr. Goldman is that if you want to use your identity to force me, then there is something wrong with your character.
Anna knew that if she really did this, and she didn't care what others thought of her character, the proud tailor in front of her would agree.
But she just didn't want to do that.
For one thing, she had no intention of using the title of Mrs. Karenin to force others to do anything, and she didn't want Karenin's reputation to be damaged. Secondly, after being used to the hypocrisy and fawning of the upper class, it is really strange to meet someone who is as proud and contemptuous of nobles as the Mr. Goldman in front of him. Thirdly, if Mr. Goldman is an arrogant person, then Anna is also a hard-headed person who does not accept failure and always finds a way to solve problems and achieve her goals.
"In that case, then I won't bother you." Anna said with a smile, and then she left politely, not missing the surprise that flashed in the tailor's eyes.
On the way back, Anushka asked Anna with some puzzlement why she left like this.
"I think you're being bullied," said Anushka.
Anna patted the other party's hand and said, "Think about it from another angle. We should understand Mr. Goldman's thoughts. After all, he has the freedom to reject others."
Annushka did not speak.
The reason why she defends her wife like that is because she treats her very well. And if she jumped out of this angle, it was other noble ladies who did this, and she would not defend the other party.
What they didn't know was that after they left, someone also defended them a little bit.
"I don't think the lady is annoying."
"Keep your eyes open, Mr. Prokhov, that's a married lady." Mr. Goldman said casually, and after Mr. Prokhov's surprised expression, he gave him a hard look.
"Don't act stupid," he said harshly.
Mr. Prokhov seemed to be used to Mr. Goldman's meanness, so he just scratched his face and flinched a little.
"How did your conversation go?" asked Prokhov, changing the subject flatteringly.
The black-haired man glanced at him, and said expressionlessly: "I told you, don't ask me about my affairs. You are just here to do odd jobs, and we will not become a family."
After finishing speaking, Mr. Goldman left and went into the backyard, leaving the lonely big man sighing on the counter.
Mr. Prokhov took out a small watch chain from his pocket, and opened the small golden cover. On it was a girl with red fluffy curly hair and green eyes, who looked very sweet and lovely.