"Why let me see you today... why... If I didn't see you, I could still keep a glimmer of illusion and a glimmer of hope for myself! But now? I saw you, you... you are so cold to me !! Hundreds of days and nights of missing... During the time you left, I cried every night and couldn't fall asleep... I finally got the news of your safety, but you have already left me behind... When you lived in Vancouver, every day and night in Vancouver, did you ever think that in China, there is a woman like me who still cares about you every day?"
"I..." I was really shocked! I could barely utter a word. Looking at Fang Nan, this woman was crying into a ball in my arms. I suddenly felt that I really owed this woman a lot...
"But today, I saw you... Maybe I should be happy? Should I be satisfied? Should I be satisfied? But you dispelled my hope with a few words..." Fang Nan looked at me with a hint of light in his eyes Resentment: "Chen Yang, why are you so cruel? Why can you be so kind to others, but why can you be so unfeeling to me?"
"Fang...Fang Nan." I finally changed my color and couldn't care about anything else at the moment. I hugged her shoulders with both hands, and then said seriously: "It's not that I'm cruel, and it's not that I'm unfeeling to you! Fang Nan, I mean, You may be mistaken."
I sighed, grabbed her shoulders hard, looked into Fang Nan's eyes, and said, "I don't know what kind of life Aze told you now, how much he told you, and how much do you know?" How much! But I just want to tell you that there have been too many changes between me today and Xiao Wu in China back then! I am no longer the Chen Yang I used to be! It can even be said that I am afraid I am not you anymore The Chen Yang I used to like! Do you understand all of this?"
Fang Nan stopped crying, she looked at me. I took a deep breath, let her go, and then rolled up my sleeves until it reached my upper arm, revealing a long, winding scar on my arm that looked like a centipede: "See this? I smiled wryly in a low voice: "You know, I only have 20 such scars on my body now. There are also three bullet holes! Do you know what kind of life I am living now?" I stretched out a Hands in front of her: "Have you seen my hands? Fang Nan, back then I could be your driver, drive for you, stay by your side, do housework for you, and even help you change light bulbs... But now, What my hands do the most is to soak in blood, and then deprive others of their lives! I am already a person who is going to depravity and hell! I am a cold-blooded butcher, a dictator, a notorious gangster boss... These , do you understand?"
Fang Nan was stunned, she stared at me for a long time, looked at the ugly scar on my arm, and listened to my cruel words. Then she jumped up like crazy, and suddenly hugged me, she suddenly stuck to my body desperately, and then actively pressed over and tried to kiss me desperately.
When those soft and sweet lips pressed against mine, at that moment, I really almost surrendered. But I still suppressed the impulse in my heart, I moved slowly but firmly, and pushed her away.
"Fang Nan, what I want you to know is that I don't think I can give you happiness and happiness, so... please forget about me!"
The person in her arms trembled for a moment, she looked up at me, with a look of disbelief and despair on her face, then suddenly a hint of madness appeared in her eyes, and she bit my shoulder hard!
She bites hard! Really hard! Even bit the blood! Seeing Fang Nan raised her head, her ruddy lips, with a trace of blood still remaining at the corner of her mouth, these reflected her heartbroken eyes, with a bit of poignant beauty...
Then she pushed me away hard, and then stumbled away.
I sat down dejectedly... Although this was exactly the result I wanted, but seeing Fang Nan leave disappointed and sad, I suddenly felt an indescribable emptiness and exhaustion.
"You shouldn't be like this." Aze, who had been lying on the table and pretending to be asleep, suddenly raised his head, his face was still slightly drunk, but his eyes were clear.
"Hmph, you still said it!" I said depressedly, "You lured me here on purpose. I don't want to see Fang Nan, just to avoid such a scene... Alas, Ze, you shouldn't do this."
"Chen Yang, that's why I said you don't understand women at all." Aze sat up straight: "You don't even understand Fang Nan's mind... well, I heard what you just said, don't you just think you can't do it now?" Being with her can't bring her happiness? So what do you think Fang Nan wants? Do you think she wants to marry you as a wife? Do you think she wants to be with you forever? Xiaowu, In fact, she understands very well that no matter from your situation or her own situation, these are impossible! If I'm not wrong, Fang Nan's request is very simple, that is, to get a little bit from you Feelings are fine... even if it’s just a little good memory. Xiao Wu, you don’t understand women, let alone the heart of a woman who is over 30 years old and still alone! Fang Nan didn’t expect anything at all. But you rejected her too hard and too far!"
"Then... what does she want?"
"It's very simple. A little good memory can give even a little bit of color to the pale life. Even if there is only a little bit of a smile, it is enough to make people have more things to support their hearts in their future lives. These... You don't understand. In fact, all she wants is a little response, so that this poor woman can feel that her infatuation is not in vain... And what about your current attitude? Let me say something ugly, your attitude , will make Fang Nan feel very hopeless! Your cold rejection will make her feel that her affection for you is a... very cheap behavior!!" Ze stared at me and said coldly: "Just imagine, if you treat someone like a treasure, but that person treats you like nothing... what kind of feeling would you have?"
I froze and stood up involuntarily.
"Go out and chase." Aze said lightly: "She must be very sad at the moment, I am afraid she will drive out to find a place where there is no one and cry... If a person can't think about it, he is afraid that he will even seek death. It might be possible."
"What did you say??? No way!!" I said in a daze.
"Nonsense. Do you understand women, or do I understand women?" He pointed to the door: "Go out and turn left. There is a small alley. If you follow it, you will come across a canal, but the canal is not too wide. It should be I can't stop you, you can jump over, and you can take a shortcut to catch up with Fang Nan. Her car is parked there, go quickly, if you go late, you won't be able to catch up. Remember, it's a A Hanma H3. It’s easy to find.”
I hesitated for a second, then suddenly ran out!
I followed Aze’s words, and I went out of the door of this tavern and turned to the left. Sure enough, there was a small alley here. I ran down in one breath, but found that the alley became narrower and narrower every month. I ran two hundred meters After that, I found a water ditch lying in front of me... just... Damn!
Who said this canal is not wide? And you're sure you can't stop me
This canal is at least seven or eight meters wide! Even if I am the Olympic long jump champion, I dare not jump over with confidence! I looked to the left and right, but found that there were no bridges nearby, and it would take at least five minutes to run to the nearest place where the river could be crossed in the distance.
I was anxious to catch up with Fang Nan in my heart, and I didn't care so much at this time. I took a few steps back, took a deep breath, ran over with a sprint, and then jumped...
My legs kick the ground as hard as I can! And my body stretched out in mid-air... I was like a big bird, and then...
thump!
I fell into a ditch.
I couldn't help scolding Aze for his intelligence error. I hurriedly climbed up to the other bank, my whole body was soaked, my shoes were filled with water, and I walked slippery... Fortunately, the water in this canal is very clear , and there is no litter and sundries scattered, it seems that the management department of the scenic spot is doing a good job!
I didn't care about my appearance anymore, and I chased forward in one breath. Sure enough, I did take a shortcut by forcefully crossing the canal. The passers-by next to me saw me running wildly on the road like a wet soaked chicken, and they all gave way to me. I ran to the parking lot outside the ancient town in one breath, and saw a yellow Hanma H3 off-road vehicle in a row of cars in the parking lot from a long distance away!
From a distance, I saw Fang Nan with her back to me, as if she was opening the door. She was standing on the ground, but her upper body was lying on the passenger seat in the front row of the car... Um, could it be that she was crying
My heart softened, and I ran over desperately, rushed to the front of the car, and then hugged Fang Nan from behind, letting her body stick to me tightly, and at the same time I whispered softly in her ear: "Fang Nan, it's my fault, it's my fault! I shouldn't make you sad, what I just said was wrong... eh? You're not Fang Nan, are you?"
My scalp tingled for a while, and I stared at "Fang Nan" in my arms in a daze.