She almost died from loneliness.
However, when she reached the intersection of relief and persistence, she finally chose to live strong.
Because my mother said this softly before closing her eyes forever.
"Mom will always stay by Xi'er's side and watch Xi'er grow up. As long as Xi'er lives healthily and happily, mother will not disappear. Mom will always, always, always live in Xi'er's heart."
Ah, if Xi'er dies.
Mom just disappeared.
Therefore, she cannot die!
Can't die!
Can't die yet!
She wants to overcome loneliness, she wants to live!
The four-and-a-half-year-old girl was fighting against loneliness and started talking to herself.
To the silent trees, to the silent stones, to the squeaking birds, she poured out all the words in her heart, her grievances, her pain, her sadness, her mother, her little Small happiness, what she did today, what she did yesterday, what she has done before, what she wants to do in the future, what she must do if she leaves the island, she...
She said all the words she could think of and made all the sounds she wanted to make.
She kept talking, but she was destined to never get a response.
But, but it doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter, this... is enough.
As long as she talks, even if she talks to herself, even if there is no response, as long as she can talk, she will not be so lonely, and she will be able to gain a little bit, even if it is just a little bit, she must strive for, the courage to live. !
In the end, the little girl defeated loneliness, narrowly won, won miserably, and almost lost.
Because she was rescued, finally found by her family after three years, rescued from the island, and finally returned to the human world. If another year, no, another month, a week, or even a day passed, she would probably collapse.
But she was so lucky that she was not defeated by loneliness.
Ha, ha... ha, lucky...
Well, she survived, her mother is still with her, and her mother has not disappeared yet. Isn't this lucky
Even after returning to the human world, she lost her expression, lost her emotions, and was even unable to communicate with humans normally. She was lucky, right
But this fierce battle with loneliness has left sequelae after all.
She is no longer able to communicate with humans normally. It is not that she is autistic or unable to speak. On the contrary, she can still talk when facing strangers, and she can even talk for a long time at a stretch.
But she couldn't hear the sound.
Can't hear the other person's response.
In other words, she subconsciously regarded the humans opposite as trees, stones and birds!
This is a disease, a heart disease, an incurable disease that only she can cure.
After all, she couldn't cure herself, and she didn't feel the need to cure herself, because she was used to it, used to not receiving a response to her confession, and used to the cold silence.
Even though she could still question and answer with other people, for her, it was just asking and answering by herself, because on that isolated island, she talked to herself countless times, and of course she often asked and answered by herself.
I can't make any expressions, I can't even force a smile.
Unable to experience normal human emotions, the negative emotions of anger, sadness, and hatred have long been swallowed up by the emptiness of loneliness, and the positive emotions of joy, excitement, and excitement have long been completely forgotten in the countless killings for food.
She always had an expressionless face while disguising herself as a man. Naturally, she was not popular with boys when she was alone. Her strong strength meant that no one dared to exclude and bully her. Her handsome appearance attracted many nymphos, but no one could stand her. Come on, she said to herself, not seeing the other person's way of communicating at all.
She still has no friends in the world and is still alone.
But she has long been accustomed to being alone and being alone.
She can't change and doesn't need to change.
Due to her habit of talking to herself, even when faced with the false God King (Li Wuyu), she still patiently answered his questions and did not rush to kill him. The image of keeping away from strangers is completely inconsistent with his expression.
But in fact, she was not communicating with Li Wuyu, she was just asking and answering herself, because Li Wuyu's questions and answers had long been formed in her mind, and she did not need to hear a voice or get a response. She was alone. People can also complete this communication.
It was the same when facing Shi Xiaobai at the beginning.
She regarded Shi Xiaobai as a cold stone. Although the confession surprised her a little, in fact, various possibilities had been formed in her mind, and she could complete this conversation on her own.
But she took the trouble to talk to Shi Xiaobai, answer his questions, and ask him questions, all just to talk to herself.
However, when Shi Xiaobai said the sentence "I even know clearly that there is a red mole under your right armpit", her world suddenly changed from black and white to gorgeous colors. She finally!
Finally heard the "voice"!
Ah, I heard his voice.
I really want to, really want to continue listening to his voice.
Ah, what's going on with this completely unexpected dialogue
Why, why can't I think of what he will say next, but yet, I really want to know what he will say next
For the first time since she was six years old, she stopped talking to herself.
She couldn't wait to ask him questions, couldn't wait to get his response.
curious? Want to clear up your doubts? Don't want to leave a puzzle behind
Not at all.
They are all excuses!
It's just that I am addicted to communicating with him and can't help myself from his voice and response.
I just hope that this conversation can continue forever!
The young man did not disappoint her. He peeled off the puzzles layer by layer, surprising her again and again. His voice became clearer and clearer, more and more...real!
I want to continue listening to his voice!
Don't want to kill him!
Don't want to kill him!
I really don’t want to kill him!
He is, he is someone I finally found again—
It’s true!