It’s only been half a day since I reported back to the agency. I have neither met nor contacted Liu Tao. I still said that I would invite him to dinner, but when I returned from Hong Kong, many things were different from before. A bit ashamed to see him. But, in fact, I also know that there is no need for this at all. The vague ambiguity between me and Liu Tao has never reached the point of talking. Moreover, Liu Tao has no other meanings for me except maybe the fighting friendship among colleagues. , everything is simply wishful thinking on my part. Well, the current situation is not really a case of letting anyone down, but I just feel guilty for no reason.
Seeing that I was in a daze, Wu Xiaoxiao probably misunderstood, so she persuaded again: "Momo, in fact, if Liu Tao goes to the New Weekly, it would be great if you could follow him. He was originally your advisor when you entered the newspaper office. He, he must also take care of you. The newspaper office has always been divided into cliques, and their own people will promote their own people. I think you should turn around and ask Liu Tao what he means. If he really goes there, you should be prepared Let him take care of it in advance. I am embarrassed to ask him now because I am embarrassed, and it seems that I want to compete with him."
After Wu Xiaoxiao said this, I finally understood that the reason why she said these words to me was that she wanted to send me to find out Liu Tao's reality, and to know if she still had a chance to fight for it. I'm not angry with her for this. People of their age have been in the environment of the newspaper office for a long time, and there will always be more twists and turns in their hearts, and no one can take advantage of the other. I asked for her, and for me There is no loss, it is a matter of favor and favor, but that person is Liu Tao, and I haven't figured out how to face his Liu Tao.
I had no choice but to tell Wu Xiaoxiao, I will ask Liu Tao after I return from my trip. But she didn't seem very satisfied, as if she wished that I could inquire about reliable news before I left, but firstly, this matter was not so important to me as to be urgent, and secondly, I really couldn't figure out how to face it. For Liu Tao, so I pretended not to see her eagerness.
However, I didn't expect that I would meet Liu Tao as soon as I left the newspaper building after signing and copying.
When I was transferred to the department before, I wanted to see him. I deliberately found a reason to go to the Economics Special Issues Department. Things in this world have always been so awkward.
Liu Tao was very happy to see me, and greeted me from a distance, "Momo, you're back today? I thought you wouldn't arrive until tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, and I said I'd welcome you when the time comes."
Liu Tao's spontaneity and enthusiasm made me try my best to hide my guilty conscience and respond, "Mr. Liu, you are too polite. I was the one who said I would invite you to dinner, but it has been delayed until now."
Liu Tao smiled gently, "It's better to hit the sun than choose the day, let's go, let's go to dinner, I happen to have something to tell you."
After Liu Tao finished speaking, he looked at me questioningly. There were dozens of reasons dancing on the tip of my tongue, subconsciously I just wanted to push this invitation, but when I saw the long-lost Liu Tao's long-lost smile, all the reasons only reached my lips, and I was overwhelmed by a kind of in between. Hijacked by emotions between longing and guilt.
In the end, I just nodded and silently followed Liu Tao to the outside of the newspaper office.
"Momo, are you tired and want to go back to rest?" Liu Tao felt my unusual silence and asked.
"It's okay." I said with a forced smile, followed Liu Tao half a meter away, and saw him stop and suddenly stretch out his hand towards me, my heart tightened suddenly, originally I wanted to avoid it instinctively, While hesitating, he just pulled my arm, dragged me out of a small puddle, then looked at me with a smile and said: "It seems that I don't know how to be sympathetic. I just came back from a business trip. You must be tired. Look at me." Everyone is in a daze. Let me take you back, let's make an appointment another day."
"I'm fine, Teacher Liu." I raised my head and looked into Liu Tao's eyes. There was only a piece of peace and stability like water in the middle, warm and inclusive. It seemed that there was only the love that belonged to the elders, and my heart suddenly became at ease again. down.
Liu Tao has always been such a person, as long as he is by my side for more than ten minutes, all my anxiety will fade away, his gentle smile and peaceful tone always seem to be good medicine to soothe my anxiety. It's a habit I've formed since the day I arrived at the newspaper.
I gradually returned to normal, and started chatting with Liu Tao in the same flattering and ladylike manner as I did with Liu Tao before, telling him about Hong Kong and the place I was going to vacation next, but I just concealed everything about Cheng Hua. For the part, I said to myself, this is my private matter that is not humane, and this is not only something that needs to be hidden from Liu Tao, but it should be hidden from everyone now.
Halfway through the meal, I suddenly remembered Wu Xiaoxiao's request, so I asked Liu Tao: "Mr. Liu, do you plan to go to the new weekly magazine
Liu Tao looked at me with a trace of surprise in his eyes, but he still smiled casually, "You are well informed, and you only reported back to the agency, so you know so many things."
Although I am naturally partial to Liu Tao in terms of the relationship between a man and a woman or a colleague, I will not betray Miss Xiaoxiao, so I just smiled mysteriously, relying on how much younger I am than Liu Tao, I pretended to be Chimao said: "Ms. Liu is my mentor, so I naturally care about your affairs."
Liu Tao's smile unfolded, and his bright smile was full of spring in the early autumn weather. This was the first time I noticed that he had the same dimples as Cheng Hua. I was in a trance for a moment, and I couldn't tell what kind of feeling it was, but I felt a little silly looking at Liu Tao's smile.
Liu Tao picked up his chopsticks and gave me the shrimp I ate the most that night, and said slowly, "Momo, come with me to the weekly magazine, I need you."
Liu Tao's gentle voice seemed to have a magical power that people couldn't refuse. I seemed to be under the gu, so I just nodded. What's more, the phrase "I need you" is like a warm current bursting from my heart, rolling away to my limbs in an instant. From childhood to adulthood, it seems that no one has ever said such a sentence to me. At that moment, I just feel that the whole person is excited, it doesn't matter if I just transfer a department, he is asking me to rob the bank with him at the moment, I'm afraid I can put on silk stockings and set off immediately.
So, it's settled. Liu Tao said that when I come back from my annual leave, the team for the start-up of the weekly magazine will probably start preparations, and he will ask our department director, "Momo, don't worry, I have confidence in our new publication. If we work hard together, we must have a better prospect and future." Liu Tao looked at me sincerely and said, the word "we" made my heart beat twice more.
Later, Liu Tao told me about many problems in the construction of departments, and also talked about his layout plan for the weekly magazine. Finally, I had time to think about it. If according to his layout plan, when the first issue was launched , what options are available. While we were chatting about this, Cheng Hua called, and I pressed it off by accident.
I didn't want to answer Cheng Hua's phone call in front of Liu Tao, I didn't know if I was guilty of Cheng Hua, or Liu Tao.
I called Cheng Hua when I got home. I just explained that the phone was out of battery just now, and Cheng Hua didn't pursue it, but his tone was full of excitement, and he called over and over again: "Momo, Momo." Said repeatedly: "I can't wait, I miss you so much."
Cheng Hua's words made my heart sweet, but my back felt faintly sweaty. When I didn't see Liu Tao, I always thought that Cheng Hua finally managed to get me to go all out, and I could stage a sadomasochistic love scene with him regardless, but after Liu Tao appeared in front of me again, I Suddenly, I felt a little fear in my heart, fearing that for Cheng Hua, I was impulsive and made a wrong decision because of this impulsiveness, and because of this mistake, I might miss the most sensible choice for me.
When I went to work the next day, I completed the handover procedures with the editor who replaced me, and told Wu Xiaoxiao about the information I spied, that is, Liu Tao should have decided to go to New Weekly. After hearing this, she wasn't too disappointed. Instead, she told me to think about it carefully. It is indeed a good opportunity to follow Liu Tao. Sister Xiaoxiao is also a very good person. Although she also has her own selfish intentions, perhaps because there is no competition between us, she is really caring and confidant to me, a junior. I thank her and immediately When I got home to prepare for the next day's itinerary, I only told my parents about my business trip, and I didn't dare to tell my mother about the matter with Cheng Hua. My mother's mouth is too sharp. I was really afraid that if she found out the truth, something unexpected would happen. What's coming.
The next morning, I don't know if it was Cheng Hua or Miss Wei who was very considerate, and sent a driver to take me to the airport, and drove me all the way to the terminal before leaving. I read half a novel and two magazines on the plane, and then When I woke up after a nap, I had already reached my destination.
As soon as I got out of the customs, I immediately saw Cheng Hua, who had changed into a strange tropical beach attire, hopping and waving to me like an orangutan. I trotted all the way with my suitcase, and threw myself into his arms inside.
Cheng Hua's mouth was wide open, and her chest heaved in laughter, "Momo, look, you miss me too, don't you? Don't you?"
I nodded fiercely, and I didn't want to take anything away from Joe. From the moment I boarded the plane, I decided that no matter how long the road between Cheng Hua and I would be, I would treat it as if there would be no tomorrow if we passed today. Yes, if you can have a good day, enjoy yourself to your heart's content, don't be awkward, don't put on airs, and don't flirt.
Cheng Hua was almost overwhelmed by my rare tenderness and enthusiasm. He hugged me, not knowing where to put his hands. There was a childish excitement on his face, which was real and moving, making his face The face was so beautiful that it was a bit of an evildoer, revealing a cuteness, which moved my heart more than the flawless perfection in ordinary times.
I nestled in Cheng Hua's arms as if I had no bones, watching him dancing and listening to his chatter, I couldn't help but think in my heart, maybe he really really loves me, even though I don't know how cute I am.
With longing, excitement, and confusion, Cheng Hua and I set foot on a foreign land together, clinging to each other, and started the longest time we spent alone since we were young...