Sister Wei's phone rang until the voice broadcast and no one answered it, and I called again, but it still didn't get through. In the past, I also called Miss Wei. When she didn't answer, she was such a busy person. It was not a new thing that she couldn't hear the phone when she was in a meeting or talking about things. It was just this time, with the busy tone popping in. My eardrums, my heart is getting tighter and tighter, and I always have a faint feeling that something is wrong.
After three times no one answered, I finally couldn't hold back and called Cheng Hua.
Before pressing the last number, I decided on my tone and wording. After dialing the number with breathless breath, I quickly meditated on the attitude I should maintain, and waited nervously for Cheng Hua's voice to sound.
Unexpectedly, what was waiting for me was a calm voice announcing, "The phone you dialed has been turned off."
I picked it up in disbelief and looked at the number again, checked it was correct and dialed it again, but the result was still the same.
Putting down the phone, I became panicked and at a loss like a deflated rubber ball.
I was angry and stubborn, but I secretly found all kinds of excuses for Cheng Hua. Originally, I just wanted to take Joe once in front of Cheng Hua with a perfect posture, and justifiably, but now there are some signs that it seems to be I thought too much, some classmates probably didn't want to give me this opportunity... Maybe he didn't need the explainable excuses that my Holy Mother came up with for him.
I was instantly seized by a kind of panic, my head was rumbling, my limbs were weak, my heart was dull, and a thought rushed out uncontrollably.
Am I being dumped
Could it be that the boy who loved to tease me since I was a child finally teased me again after I boasted that I was mature
I thought I was always on guard, even if subconsciously, I was always unwilling to put a little more sincerity in this relationship that I could still control. Always ready for him to laugh and say to me at any time: "Momo, look, you refused to admit that you liked me when you were young, but now you finally do?" , so as not to make myself too embarrassed. After all, I still overestimated myself, right
There was never a moment when I was so scared, I could hardly hold the phone with my trembling hands, and I kept thinking over and over again, is there any other possibility? Is there some emergency situation, and now they have cut off all contact with the outside world? However, from the perspective of the media, I am an outsider, but I am not an outsider emotionally, right? If there is anything else, you shouldn't take an isolated attitude towards me, right? Even if Cheng Hua doesn't owe me an explanation, he still owes me a greeting, right
I know that I have lost my composure, and I also know that I should follow my usual philosophy of dealing with things at the moment. Since I am unhappy thinking about it, I just put it aside for the time being. When you calm down, you may be able to think more clearly.
However, I was too flustered, so I did a stupid thing next, and I called Aunt Yue again.
I tried my best not to tremble in my voice, and asked on the phone, "Aunt Yue, has Cheng Hua contacted you recently?"
"Momo? I contacted him. It's rare that he still has this time. He went home and had a meal yesterday. Oh, Momo, I was scared to death. I read the news that they held a press conference and caught fire. Did I almost have a heart attack? Fortunately, it’s nothing serious, why? You’re looking for him? He seems to be saying that he’s going to shoot some poster or something today, didn’t you call him?”
"Oh, no, I just called him and the phone was turned off. I just wanted to make an appointment with him for an interview. I wanted to see if he happened to be at home. I'll call again later. Maybe he was filming at the moment. I'm working on a film, so I turned off my phone." I said to Aunt Yue calmly, and I was about to hang up the phone.
But the other side of the phone suddenly said: "Oh, I remembered, Xiaohua seems to want to change the number, wait a minute, where did I copy it? Hey, usually I know he is busy, so I seldom call him .Wait a minute, I'll look for the number I wrote down."
This sentence completely chilled my heart, I don't think I need that number anymore, "Auntie, don't look for it, if I need to ask you again, I'll call his agent first. "After finishing speaking, I hung up the phone in a hurry without waiting for Aunt Yue to speak.
Everything is clear, he didn't have any problems, he can still go home and have a good meal with his parents, he changed his private number, he said that only his parents and I know that number, now, his parents I still know, so there seems to be nothing to guess about the reason for changing the number.
Things are so simple and caught off guard, with my IQ, I can no longer think of any reason to explain the current situation.
I thought to myself, judging from Cheng Hua's behavior all the time, it didn't look like he deliberately wanted to play tricks on me this time. Maybe, Cheng Hua didn't plan to play tricks on me from the beginning to the end, and it was even possible that it was only in the past few days. , because of a friend in need, he and Han Qing finally made a fake show for real, and because they had no face to face me, they avoided me. Of course, it's also possible that with the outstanding acting skills of our film star, he still fooled me. He acted so well that I, a theater watcher, have long forgotten that a movie may actually have a HAPPY ENDING and a BAD ENDING Two endings.
However, the process and the reason are no longer important, and the result is that I was really, really, and undoubtedly abandoned.
I lay upright, staring at the roof as white as a bed sheet, thinking empty in my heart, this painful feeling of mine is called broken love, right? It turns out that falling in love can happen so quietly, right? I've always thought that falling in love is something far more vigorous than love itself, and that it needs quarrels, suspicions, enemies, etc. to create it. Cut it as crisply as scissors, and then turned around silently.
I was awakened by a very anxious voice. Jia Yaoyang, who was carrying a lunch box, and Liu Tao, who was bending over my bed, both had anxious expressions on their faces.
"Momo, what's wrong with you? Why is your face so white?" Liu Tao obviously asked me nervously. He put the back of his hand on my forehead to test my temperature, but my face was hotter than his. And ice.
I closed my eyes tiredly, without the strength to force a smile, I just said: "Mr. Liu, I'm tired, and I just want to sleep for a while, and I don't feel uncomfortable."
The room seemed to be silent for a while, Jia Yaoyang's voice asked: "Mr. Liu, why don't you ask the doctor to come and have a look?"
Liu Tao said to him: "Yaoyang, Momo is probably sleepy, you can go back, I'm fine here."
The sound of the door opening and closing was heard, and the silence returned to the room. I lay there quietly, feeling a little numb in my mind, and I didn’t want to think about anything anymore. go to sleep. In a daze, a pair of warm and soft hands held mine, and then let out a long sigh.
"Momo, did I put too much pressure on you? In fact, sometimes I also review whether I regard you as a girl I like, a subordinate I like, or both? You just When I came here, I liked you, such a good boy who is studious and humble. Children of your age, your temper is really rare. Moreover, you are always so heartless, new reporter They are all scrambling to go to places that are easy to run, and places that are profitable. You just look at it stupidly, and pick up whatever you drop. Obviously you don’t like it, but you still invest 200% of it. Try to do it. When everyone is fighting for the page and the number of manuscripts, they are fighting openly and secretly, and someone squeezes you out, and you don’t know it. A manuscript with tens of thousands of words is scrapped, and you don’t even complain. You still go to the next day with a smile Interviews, come back and publish on time. At that time, I thought, as long as I can take care of you, I must take care of you, and I can’t let you always suffer.
Later, when you left and went to the entertainment department, I started to feel a little sad. The new reporters who came to replace you didn't like any of them. But then I thought, it’s better to always let you do what you like, than to keep you in the Ministry of Economic Affairs, burying your talents and curbing your development. I always go to ask Wu Xiaoxiao about your situation when I have nothing to do, knowing that you are doing better and better over there, I am very happy for you.
After that, I had the opportunity now. When the leader came to talk to me, he asked me to find a few people to go and form a team first. I thought of you first. I didn't think about how to get you to help me, but I just wanted to , this is an opportunity for you, since you are doing what you are good at and like, I can still protect you under my wings. But I didn't expect that you came, but it became the most correct decision for me. Although I knew your ability and the resources in your hands, I didn't expect that you could find the readers' attention so accurately and make such a decision. You have really done us such a big favor with the informative and eye-catching manuscript. I am not only happy for our newspaper, but also for you, because you made the leaders realize your importance.
Although I want to try my best to help you, but I know that if you want to gain a firm foothold in a place like a newspaper office, unless you have a particularly strong backing, you must rely on your ability to succeed in the end, so I will give you the greatest space to let you play, I know that you are not used to it, you are in a difficult situation, and you are under a lot of pressure, but I think it is for your own good. At your age, it is time to practice fighting.
But now, I actually regret it again.
Because, I feel bad.
In fact, when I saw you at a loss for what to do with the topics submitted by the editors, I already felt distressed. However, given you this position, if you don't stand firm yourself, I can't help you too obviously. I'm afraid that I'm too accommodating to you, and in the end this kind of promotion and reuse may actually harm you.
But, in the end, I was wrong. Momo, in fact, I shouldn't let you bear such a heavy responsibility as soon as you come up, I should calm down and let you take it step by step. However, I also have selfish intentions. I hope that such a key position in the editorial department can be someone with my heart. I am afraid that if you are not allowed to come out at this time, there will be fewer opportunities in the future and it will be more difficult to find.
Momo, don't blame me for being cruel. But, from now on, I won't force you, and you don't have to avoid me. If you have any difficulties or can't do it, you can tell me directly. I will find a way for you and carry it for you. Don't support yourself.
Momo, really, you just need to remember, I have everything. "
I have known Liu Tao for so long, and this is the first time I heard him say such a long speech. At first, I wanted to pretend to be asleep, but gradually, tears started to flow out uncontrollably. Those grievances caused by Cheng Hua, I couldn't find an outlet to vent, but the words of the man in front of me simmered into my heart, and finally made me cry uncontrollably.
Liu Tao's warm fingers slid across the corners of my eyes, wiping away my tears one after another.
I finally opened my eyes, sniffed, and said to Liu Tao aggrievedly: "Mr. Liu, there is one thing I can't do right now."
Liu Tao raised the corners of his lips, looked at me with a warm smile and said, "What's the matter?"
"I can't contact Cheng Hua anymore, this time, I can't do this interview..."