Life is still going on, and nowadays, what kind of big deal is falling in love? Girls who are more trendy will fall in love once or twice a week. I have only experienced such a lovelorn for many years, and it is a bit shameful to say it.
So, on the second day after I was discharged from the hospital, I went to work as radiant as possible.
Colleagues, whether sincere or false, came to express their condolences to my body. I think that this hospitalization, under the advocacy of some people, became a model deed of honorable sacrifice for my work.
That day, I told Liu Tao that I couldn't get in touch with Cheng Hua, and I couldn't do this topic selection, so he just smiled and calmly comforted him: "If we can't get in touch, then we can find someone else." For other topics, news is always indispensable. If you don’t have the most suitable one, you can always find something similar. Could it be that without Cheng Hua, wouldn’t our newspaper be published? Momo, don’t think about these things. I'll figure it out."
After listening to his words, I thought bitterly in my heart, why? Why couldn't I fall in love with the man in front of me completely? Why did you leave a gap in your heart for Cheng Hua, so that he could take advantage of it? Up to now, even though I know he is good, my heart is so full that I can’t fill anyone in. The choice at that time was wrong, or it may have missed my whole life after all.
I don't know if Liu Tao's words are a confession. He said that he likes women like a man likes women, or like a leader likes his subordinates, but he didn't tell me, I will be his girlfriend.
I thought lightly in my heart, it's fine not to say it, because, with my current state of mind, although I can't hold him in my heart, it's the time when I'm vulnerable, I'm afraid, if I'm moved, I will obey. For me, I can't say I have lost anything. It's always good if someone is willing to soothe my wounds of broken love, but it's too unfair for Liu Tao. If a person like him is not a girl who loves him wholeheartedly, how can he be worthy
I continued to do my job as the director of the editorial department, discussing topic selection, and arranging the layout, because I didn’t want to think about those things that bothered me anymore, and I worked harder at work, as if I was ruthless. Do a good job, and you will never let yourself go, nor will you let others go.
After this incident, I even inexplicably got a bit of a mentality of breaking the cans, doing good things, doing good things everywhere, I just got a stomach full of evil fire and I don’t know how to break out. At this time, I can also have no scruples The subway surface is selfless. Even Quan Ying's topic selection, I can justly reject it. The girl was so angry that she pulled my ear and said, "You are going crazy, you! Well, you are in a bad mood, and I don't care about it with you." After she finished speaking, she gritted her teeth and went back to find the topic again.
Liu Tao was quite satisfied with my state. Looking at the topic selection report I reorganized, he smiled and said to me kindly: "Well, that's right, why bother yourself? Momo, just let go of your hands and feet." Do it, don't think about the rest, there is me."
On the day when the process officially entered the manuscript publishing stage, sister Wei called me. I hesitated and didn't want to answer, but then I thought again, Sister Wei has never offended me, why should I avoid her, so I connected the phone.
"Momo, I've been so busy these days. I kept saying I'd call you but I didn't call. Don't blame Cheng Hua, it's my responsibility here. Hey, I'm not afraid that nothing good will happen, but there will be good people. Come on, Just bear with it for a while, turn around and explain to you slowly, it's really inconvenient to say something now."
My heart stirred slightly. Could it be that Cheng Hua really had some unavoidable worries, but the words got to my lips and I wanted to ask Miss Wei, why did Cheng Hua break up with me? After hesitating for a while, he finally swallowed it back. He just pretended to be okay and said, "It's okay. It doesn't matter whether you talk about it later or not. But we are about to publish a magazine. Do you have any decent news? Give it to me?"
Miss Wei was silent for a while, "I'll ask my assistant to pass on some content to you later. You can watch it and post it. You can't be exclusive, but it should be no problem to start the first one. When your newspaper is listed, the pictures on my side and The information will be given to other media.”
The content sent by Wei Jie was nothing too exciting, but it was something that other families did not report. For example, Han Qing was hospitalized, and Cheng Hua took care of him in a dazed way. The injury is still not healed, but how did they send Cheng Hua to the airport. There are a group of farewell scenes in the photos, the most heartwarming one is Han Qing handing a coat to Cheng Hua, and the two are smiling at each other.
It's fine, it fits.
Now that all the media are promoting the touching story of the couple, it would be great if we could have such a manuscript with pictures and texts to prove it before them. However, since it is not a revelation, it is not considered a headline, but it can replace a manuscript that was not very popular.
I made a manuscript and showed it to Liu Tao, who was a little surprised and said, "Did you get in touch?"
I nodded silently and told Liu Tao that I was going to replace that group of manuscripts, and he also expressed his approval. I came out of his office, gave the manuscript and pictures to the editor, and asked her to publish it. I went back to my desk, looking at the photo on the computer that hadn't been closed, and finally felt sad.
I have been telling myself to treat this group of manuscripts with a working attitude, but the astringency stuck in my throat has never been able to dissipate from the moment I received the email to now.
The couple in front of me was created by me. Nowadays, most of the fans and passers-by, who care about them, basically recognize the relationship between them. As far as the win-win policy is concerned, it is undoubtedly successful in all aspects. But, I'm afraid, I've been too successful.
I'm not hyping up scandals, I clearly played the role of a matchmaker, and I was a matchmaker for my boyfriend.
The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I felt, and I couldn't help but wonder what Sister Wei said.
Or, did Cheng Hua really have something to hide
But thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile bitterly. The relationship between me and Cheng Hua is nothing more than a romantic drama at best. This is not a spy war, nor is it a palace fight. Could there be any conspiracy in it? In other words, if you take ten thousand steps back, take it as it is, there is indeed an unspeakable secret, there is indeed a conspiracy. But I just want to have a relationship, do you want to be so tired? Do you want to be so bloody
Forget it, the matter is a foregone conclusion. Since Cheng Hua also said that day that he wanted to separate, even though he said it for a while, I told him categorically that it was for a lifetime. So be it. I have always expected that the relationship between me and him will last forever, and we will fly side by side, but I never thought that it would be inexplicably and abruptly ended when the love was in full swing. But since it's a sentence, let's end it. My fragile little heart can't stand these.
Actually, in the final analysis, the relationship between me and Cheng Hua was a mistake. Or we mistook the ambiguous relationship we have been with for many years as love, or we misunderstood the infatuation we had when we were young as love. Maybe he just wants to conquer, and maybe I just want to realize my dream. However, between me and him, we never trusted each other from the beginning to the end. I never believed that he would really love me. No matter how much he indulged himself on the surface, he was always walking on eggshells in his heart. And how often did he completely believe that I only have him in my heart, and he always doubts that I still have feelings for Liu Tao. Therefore, it is quite normal for such a weak relationship to end in failure.
After all the manuscripts have gone through the first draft proofreading process, the day's work is over.
I'm sitting in my office, not wanting to go home. My mother was very excited about the new discovery that day, no matter how much I denied my relationship with Cheng Hua, she would never believe it. On the contrary, he talked about the Love Sutra with great interest: "Momo, there is no one who does not quarrel in this relationship. This is a good thing to a certain extent, and then quarrels. What is a quarrel? It proves that we care about each other and respect each other as guests." That kind of thing is not love. But, this quarrel can’t be overdone. If it’s too much, it will hurt the relationship. If you say it once, it’s acting like a baby, and if you say it twice, it’s taking Joe. If it’s too much, it won’t work. So, now that Cheng Hua apologizes to you later, you should quickly step down. The two of you quickly reconcile, don't take it too seriously. Understand?"
I was irritable and lazy to explain something to my mother, but I could only smile wryly.
Now, thinking about whether my mother would tell me something about Cheng Hua again after I got home, and talk about marriage and love stories, I was really afraid that I would get mad in front of the old lady.
I just sat in a daze with a water glass in my seat until everyone in the office had left and I was a little hungry, so I stood up decadently and packed my things, thinking that it would be better to eat something alone to satisfy my hunger.
Just after turning off the computer and about to go out, Liu Tao walked in from the outside.
He had just gone to show the editor-in-chief a copy of our samples, and he was just about to leave when he saw me, so he was a little surprised. "Momo, haven't you gone back yet? That's just right. If you have no other arrangements, wait for me to get off and let's have dinner together."
I nodded and waited for him to go back to the house to pack his things. There are always more choices for two people to eat, and the time to kill can always be longer, which is a better choice for me.
We sat down in the restaurant with Liu Tao, and I said, I'm asking for this meal, in order to thank him for taking care of me when I was sick, after saying this, I suddenly remembered that I still owe him a I haven't invited you for a meal. And that meal at that time, on the surface, was also to thank him for taking care of me when I was sick, but secretly I had the idea of developing a relationship with him, but I missed it all the time, until now, I have met him again Same situation.
For a few months, it seemed like a lifetime away.
I laughed and said: "Mr. Liu, I must be the one who invited you. You must not be polite to me. You see, last time I owed that meal, God punished me to go to the hospital again. If I don't Sincerely, maybe there will be another time. I can’t live enough in the hospital.”
Liu Tao smiled without saying a word, and waited for the waiter to walk away with the menu, then he said to me: "Momo, what can we say to thank you?"
I also nodded along with him, "Yes, yes, thank you for your kindness."
Liu Tao laughed again, shook his head helplessly, fell silent, and suddenly looked at me with burning eyes and said, "Momo, please be my girlfriend, okay?"
My heart skipped a beat. He finally said so. This is a sentence I once wanted so much, but now I am so afraid of it.
I looked at him, struggling fiercely inside.
So what if you love, so what if you don't love, in the end, don't women just want to find a harbor where they can anchor, a heart that they can rely on? What's more, I used to like him so much, who can guarantee that I won't fall in love with him again after I get out of this injury with Cheng Hua
If he doesn't agree at this moment, at that time, he will change his mind again, wouldn't it become a permanent miss.
I know it's unfair to accept another man's feelings at this time, especially this man is Liu Tao who has always taken good care of me. But to hell with fairness, who gave me fairness
After thinking this way very immorally, I drooped my eyelids shyly and silently nodded.
Liu Tao crossed the table with both hands and held my hand tightly, looking at me with eyes full of affection.
"Momo, it's just that we can only be together secretly now, and we can't let others know. You know, although the newspaper office has no express regulations not to allow employees to fall in love, but the relationship between the same department, especially us, is doing related work. Yes, it’s always better to avoid suspicion. After a period of time, within two years at the most, we have achieved results in this weekly magazine. If you still like this place, I will apply for transfer to other departments. At that time, what is the result? The locations are all good.”
I bit my lip and stared blankly at Liu Tao, thinking with a wry smile in my heart, what is my fate? Once in love, twice in love, all of them are underground work for fun. After such experience, it would be a pity that I don't become an agent.
Liu Tao looked at me in a daze nervously, and said quickly, "Momo, believe in my sincerity, I'm only doing it for the future of both of us."
I grinned, "I understand!"