When Luo Rui went downstairs, he hid in the toilet, his tears couldn't stop falling down, his heart ached so much that he couldn't even straighten up.
He didn't have auditory hallucinations just now, Qin Zijiao said that he wanted to break up with him, and that watch was used as compensation for breaking up.
Fuck it, who cares about a watch.
Why, what did he do wrong, what is wrong with him, what is meant by "not liking men", and they have seen a ghost during the few months they have been together!
Luo Rui squatted on the ground and began to cry, he didn't dare to make any noise, he didn't dare let others know, if Wen Xiaohui found out, he would have to fight Qin Zijiao tonight, but he didn't know how to get out of the bathroom, and how to face other people , he originally thought that this would be his happiest birthday, but in the end...
Suddenly there was a knock on the door: "Who's in there?"
It's Heyman.
Luo Rui coughed twice, and said in a nonchalant voice as much as possible: "I, you go upstairs."
"Oh fine."
Luo Rui wiped away her tears vigorously, stood up tremblingly, looked in the mirror, half of her makeup was done. Looking at his embarrassment in the mirror, he wanted to cry even more.
What should he do, what should he do, is he doing something wrong? Is there something about him that isn't good enough
He wiped his face with a tissue, held back his tears and touched up his makeup, but his eye circles were still red. He took a few deep breaths before he calmed down. There were so many people outside, at least he had to survive tonight.
Walking out of the bathroom, Wen Xiaohui seemed to be looking for him: "Where did you go? Come and sing, hey, why are your eyes red?"
"The newly purchased color contact lenses seem to be of poor quality, so I won't use them in the future."
"If you feel uncomfortable, just take it off."
"It's been picked, it will be fine in a while." Luo Rui's eyes dodged a little, he and Wen Xiaohui were both not good at hiding their emotions, and Wen Xiaohui knew him very well.
Wen Xiaohui frowned and looked at him: "Are you okay? I don't think there's anything wrong with you."
Luo Rui lowered his head, desperately thinking of excuses.
Wen Xiaohui dragged him to a corner, and whispered: "Are you still struggling with that watch?"
As soon as the watch was mentioned, Luo Rui felt like a thousand arrows pierced his heart. He sighed, his voice trembling: "Yes..."
"You are stupid, he is willing to give it to you, why don't you accept it? It's not like he can't afford to give it to you. No matter who it is, whether it's a man or a woman, the more expensive the gift you give you, the more he cares about you. Could it be that he gave you ten yuan?" Are you happy when the money is issued?"
"But this is too expensive."
"It proves that you have weight in his heart, so you can keep it with peace of mind. If one day you split up, you won't be at a disadvantage."
This sentence hit Luo Rui's heart, he gritted his teeth and said, "Will it be a breakup fee! What do I want such an expensive watch? Who cares if I can't eat or drink."
Wen Xiaohui was taken aback: "What's wrong with you kid, I'll just say it casually, did you drink too much?"
Luo Rui hung his head: "I'm a little dizzy."
"Go, sing a song and you won't feel dizzy."
Luo Rui was dragged past by Wen Xiaohui, he still didn't sing in the end, he just wanted to hide himself in the corner desperately, so that no one could see the wound on his heart, he didn't expect that one day he would feel that his birthday party It was more tormenting than being immersed in oil, he hoped that everyone would disappear, he just wanted to hide in the quilt and cry.
When it was almost twelve o'clock, Qin Zijiao went downstairs with Yaoyao who was drowsy in his arms. Li Shuo turned off the sound of the KTV, and said with a smile, "Little girl is sleepy."
Qin Zijiao nodded: "I'll take her back, you guys continue to play."
Luo Rui said calmly, "Well, be careful on the road."
"Where is Yaoyao's schoolbag?"
"I'll look for it." Luo Rui passed Li Shuo to go to the kitchen, but stepped on the balloon and slid forward.
With sharp eyes and quick hands, Li Shuo hugged Luo Rui.
Luo Rui was shocked: "Thank you."
Li Shuo smiled and said, "Drink too much, be careful."
That smile was so pretty, Luo Rui was taken aback for a moment, because his cheeks were already flushed because of drinking a lot of wine, but now he looked as if he was shy.
Qin Zijiao narrowed his eyes.
Li Shuo let go of him, smiling.
Luo Rui lowered his head to find Yaoyao's schoolbag.
Taking out the schoolbag, he handed it to Qin Zijiao, but he didn't dare to look at Qin Zijiao.
Qin Zijiao took the schoolbag and said softly, "I'm going back first."
"Um."
"Miss Boss, why don't you send them off." A Ran pushed him with a smile, and Hyman also followed suit.
Luo Rui said: "I'll help you get the wheelchair." He picked up Yaoyao's wheelchair and followed Qin Zijiao out.
The driver had already been waiting outside, got out of the car as soon as he saw them, took the wheelchair, folded it up and put it in the trunk, Qin Zijiao also put Yaoyao in the back seat.
Qin Zijiao glanced at the crowd who were still reveling through the window, and asked, "Are you familiar with Li Shuo? Why is he here today?"
"Xiaohui invited me here."
"Then do you know him well?" Qin Zijiao said with a heavy tone.
"It's not very familiar, but it's okay." Luo Rui's mind was buzzing, and it took a lot of effort to understand every word Qin Zijiao said, because his thoughts were all messed up right now.
Qin Zijiao's tone was a little cold: "'Not very familiar, but it's okay', then he is really generous to you."
"Not as generous as you." Luo Rui blurted out.
Qin Zijiao was silent for a moment: "It should." He stretched out his hand and stroked Luo Rui's curly hair.
Luo Rui dodged subconsciously.
Qin Zijiao was stunned, and Luo Rui was also stunned.
"What's wrong?"
"I hit my head against the door just now, and it hurts a bit." Luo Rui said mechanically.
"Don't be so reckless in the future, I'm going back."
"See you."
Qin Zijiao got into the car.
Luo Rui looked at the car leaving in the dust, and felt a chill hit his whole body.
When he was a child, he liked to play a game called Monopoly, in which there was a prop that was a time bomb. As long as he won the bid, the bomb would be displayed above his head, and the number would decrease by one every step he took, until the number jumped and exploded.
He now seemed to see the bundle of bombs above his head.
When does Qin Zijiao plan to break up with him? If he kept pretending not to know, would he be able to take a few more steps with Qin Zijiao, even if it was just a few steps
After Qin Zijiao left, Luo Rui had no strength left, so he went upstairs to sleep on the excuse that he had drunk too much.
Others made trouble until three or four in the middle of the night, and he knew it all because he hadn't closed his eyes all night.
The next day, he didn't get up until the afternoon. After waking up, I had a splitting headache and my eyeballs felt as if they were going to explode.
He turned on the phone, and there were several messages from Wen Xiaohui, saying that he had found a part-time worker to clean up the house for him, and there was breakfast in the refrigerator, let him eat it hot after he got up.
Luo Rui was holding the phone, tears welled up in his eyes again, he really wanted to call Xiaohui and tell him everything, but Xiaohui was going to America for further study soon, he couldn't let his own affairs affect Xiaohui's good opportunity , I don't want Xiaohui to leave and worry about him every day.
Maybe in his heart, he still had a little hope that as long as he didn't tell anyone about it, it wouldn't really happen.
Since that birthday, the two have not been in touch for several days.
Normally, Luo Rui would send at least five or six text messages and make at least two phone calls a day. This kind of silence was really unlike him, so that a week later, Qin Zijiao took the initiative to call and asked if he was sick.
Luo Rui said that Wen Xiaohui was applying for visas and shopping recently, and he was helping.
Qin Zijiao was silent for a while: "What is the date of the tour you booked?"
"Number 27." He probably told Qin Zijiao seven or eight times. An ominous premonition rose in his heart, he knew that this trip would probably not be successful, would Qin Zijiao break up with him before then.
Qin Zijiao said, "I'll go find you in the afternoon."
"No, don't come!" Luo Rui blurted out.
"Um?"
"Ah, I, I haven't been in the store recently."
"Then where are you, I'll find you."
"I'm at Xiaohui's house. We've been too busy recently. When I'm done... We can go to Sanya directly after I'm done working these few days. See you at the airport."
"...Are you sure? Are you so busy that you don't even have time to eat?"
"Well, very busy." He didn't want to see Qin Zijiao, for the first time in his life, he didn't want to see Qin Zijiao, because he was afraid that it would be the last time they would meet.
He has been looking forward to the trip for so long, as long as there is still a little hope, he wants to complete it. If they have no future, at least leave him something worth remembering.
After hiding like this for a few days, even Wen Xiaohui sensed something was wrong, and teased him, "Why don't you go out to play with your husband?"
"He's busy." Luo Rui added, "I'm busy too."
"Oh, you can hurry up and make up a few more films. Aren't you going to Hainan in two days? The set I prepared for you - the set is ultra-thin, and three sizes are prepared. I don't know how big it is. Well, that lubricant is very expensive, you can use it up sincerely, you know."
Luo Rui didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "Got it."
Wen Xiaohui blinked at him: "Remember to share the first-hand information with me."
Luo Rui smiled cooperatively, but there was no trace of the smile in his eyes.
He packed some cakes and juice for Wen Xiaohui, and went home by himself.
He seldom goes home so early, it's just that he is very tired these days, he doesn't want to see people, he doesn't want to talk, he just wants to stay at home every day, only home makes him feel safe.
It's just that every time he returns to his bedroom, he still thinks of the conversation between Qin Zijiao and Yaoyao in his room on the night of his birthday.
Qin Zijiao said that their relationship was a mistake, since it was a mistake, why did they "try" with him in the first place? They have tried for so long before it is too late to correct this mistake. For him at least, it was too late.
After returning home, he didn't eat any food, and fell asleep after taking a shower.
He didn't know how long he had been asleep when he was woken up by the doorbell.
He got up from the bed in a daze, and shouted as he went downstairs: "Who is it?"
"it's me."
Luo Rui slipped and almost fell down the stairs.
Qin Zijiao!
What, why did Qin Zijiao come to his house suddenly!
Luo Rui panicked and didn't know what to do.
"Luo Rui?"
"Ah, come, come." Luo Rui went downstairs and opened the door bravely.
Qin Zijiao pushed him from top to bottom, frowned and said, "Why don't you even wear shoes, the marble floor is very cold."
Luo Rui took a look at himself, he was only wearing a big t-shirt, his legs were bare, and indeed he forgot to wear his shoes. He stammered, "I'm sleepy."
Qin Zijiao bent down and hugged him up.
Luo Rui's heart trembled violently, and he stared straight at Qin Zijiao.
Qin Zijiao put him on the sofa, looked at his bare-slip-slip legs: "You open the door for others like this?"
"Huh? How is it?"
"I don't even wear pants." When Qin Zijiao thought of Luo Rui opening the door for people like this all day long, he immediately became angry.
"It's too hot... I'm really sleepy." Luo Rui rubbed his face and forced himself to wake up a bit: "Why are you here?"
"Come and see you."
"Look... what."
"See why you're avoiding me." Qin Zijiao looked deeply at Luo Rui, those eyes that seemed to be able to penetrate people.
Luo Rui swallowed, and wanted to pretend: "No, I didn't avoid you, I'm really busy..."
Qin Zijiao squeezed his chin and forced him to look at himself: "You are so abnormal, you can fool anyone, tell me, what's wrong."
Looking at Qin Zijiao's eyes, Luo Rui felt his nose sore and his eye circles turned red. He said in a trembling voice, "It's nothing..."
"Luo Rui, what's wrong with you!" Qin Zijiao was a little anxious.
"Should we still go to Sanya? I've been planning for a month, and the air tickets, hotels, and itinerary are all booked."
Qin Zijiao was silent.
Luo Rui choked up and said, "Are we still going? Or are you going to break up with me now?"
Qin Zijiao's expression was a little stiff: "You really heard..."
Luo Rui's tears welled up all at once, and he bit his lip: "Why, what did I do wrong."
"You didn't do anything wrong, it was me." Qin Zijiao couldn't help wiping away his tears with his fingers: "I'm sorry."
This is the first time Qin Zijiao said sorry to him, but he didn't want to hear it at all, he just wanted to know why: "Tell me why, why you say our relationship is a 'mistake'."
Qin Zijiao frowned deeply, his eyes showed a bit of struggle and pain, he closed his eyes, as if he didn't know how to speak.
"Why did you want to try with me at the beginning? Could it be because of Yaoyao?" He might have just thought about it for a while before rejecting such absurdity, but now it seems that there is no more reasonable reason than this .
Qin Zijiao's silence was nothing more than an acquiescence.
Luo Rui cried and said: "You are crazy, how can you be like this, you...how can you be like this..."
"Yaoyao likes you, you like me, I think...it's okay to try, you are all happy."
"Then why don't you try for a little longer?! Just try with me for the rest of your life, and it's nothing to regret after only four months." Luo Rui's face was full of tears, and his heart was throbbing, as if a hand was roughly pinching With every breath, there is boundless pain.
Qin Zijiao is a bastard, why does he like such a bastard!
Qin Zijiao lowered his head: "I... can't go on trying, you are serious, I..." Every time he sees Luo Rui's smile full of sincere love, he feels guilty, Luo Rui treats him bit by bit For him, it was a cold slap after another. He didn't want to waste Luo Rui's heart, but what he was more afraid of was his increasing attention to Luo Rui and his uncontrollable possessive desire. This is abnormal, he doesn't like men, he doesn't have the ability to like others, the better Luo Rui is, the more he wants to stay away.
Luo Rui bit her lip, punched Qin Zijiao hard in the heart, then lowered her head and burst into tears.
Qin Zijiao turned his head away, his eye circles were a little red, and Luo Rui's crying sounded like a knife, piercing directly into his heart.
Qin Zijiao couldn't help hugging Luo Rui, and said softly, "I'm sorry."
Luo Rui punched him several times, but couldn't relieve his hatred, so he bit his shoulder. Qin Zijiao shuddered in pain, but did not escape.
Luo Rui wanted to bite hard, but he had no strength left to cry. He leaned into Qin Zijiao's arms, but realized that this embrace was no longer as warm and secure as before.
He didn't know how long he had been crying, but Luo Rui finally got tired of crying. He pushed himself up and jumped off the sofa.
"Luo Rui..." Qin Zijiao followed suit and stood up.
Luo Rui walked to the TV cabinet and took out a box from it. It was the watch that Qin Zijiao gave him. He threw the watch to Qin Zijiao with all his might, and said in a hoarse voice, "I don't care about this kind of compensation. It hurts other people's hearts." , can it be made up with money, who taught you?"
Qin Zijiao lowered his head and held the box tightly, with such strength that his fingers turned pale.
Luo Rui sniffed, and a crazy thought came to his mind: "If you really want to make it up to me, you promise me a request."
Qin Zijiao said in a deep voice, "Say it."
Luo Rui said without hesitation: "You sleep with me once."