Shi Yunnan stopped and turned around to look at him with a half-smiling smile, "Are you good at your words when you're about to die, or...you're not good enough for yourself, and you don't want others to be better off?"
Xie Keyue leaked a vague smile from his throat, and there was no madness in those eyes, only a subtle pity left, "Shi Yunan, Shi Yunan, do you really think Luo Lingsheng has you in his heart?"
The electronic watch above the glass compartment started the countdown, and there was still one minute of visitation time left.
"It seems that you don't want to make me feel better?" Shi Yunan walked back slowly and stood in front of the glass partition, "Don't give up that thought, I know he once had someone he liked, but I don't care."
"Don't care? If you really love him, how can you not care?"
Xie Keyue didn't believe his words at all, and a playful smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "Shi Yunnan, you will always live in the shadow of Wen Yibei, aren't you tired?"
Every word, like a machete infused with murderous intent, stabbed into Shi Yunan's heart.
"Compared with Wen Yibei, do you know how unbearable you are? When the Shi and Wen families were fighting for children, who didn't want Wen Yibei? Does anyone want you?"
"Do you think the existing Luo family belongs to you? Wrong, very wrong."
"Don't you believe it? I understand the final outcome of this story better than anyone else."
Xie Keyue leaned against the glass partition for a moment, and his eyes deliberately fell on Shi Yunan's fingertips, "If Luo Lingsheng really loves you, why did he refuse to give you a ring after you have obtained the certificate for so long?"
"Are you finished?" Shi Yunnan calmly accepted his provocation and laughed calmly, "I can trust Luo Lingsheng."
"..."
Just seven words knocked Xie Keyue back.
"I should show off to you. I have a husband, a brother, a grandfather, an uncle, a friend, and by the way, there is a little nephew who hugs me and acts like a baby every day. Do you know the feeling of being surrounded by love? "
The corners of Xie Keyue's raised mouth froze completely.
Shi Yunnan put his hands in front of the glass partition and leaned forward slightly.
"I forgot to tell you that you have been courting Shi Sheng and the old man, and some time ago, you also wanted to hand over the Shi family's private property and company to me."
"You and Shi's smuggling will cause an accident. I also got the news of your opponents in advance. It's a pity that I don't care about broken assets."
"..."
Xie Keyue's chest was stabbed by Shi Yunnan and heaved for a while.
The more the other party showed indifference, the more ridiculous his past paranoid pursuits became.
"Xie Keyue, it's time for you to admit it." Shi Yunnan stood up again and declared in the attitude of a winner, "You are the complete loser."
These words were like a thunderbolt, which suddenly smashed Xie Keyue into a distorted expression.
Visiting time has come.
Shi Yunnan turned around and walked out, but behind him was still Xie Keyue's unruly clamor—
"Shi Yunnan! I didn't lie!"
"You don't even think about it, how many times better Wen Yibei is than you!"
"Everything you've got now is given to you by Wen Yibei!"
"Sooner or later, you will lose it completely! You are the one who will never be loved!"
When Shi Yunnan heard these remarks, a slight crack appeared in his pupils, and he walked quickly towards the outside of the prison.
Xie Keyue saw that his lie could not provoke the other party's gaffe, he took two heavy breaths, and finally fell back to his position decadently.
"..."
Xie Ke Yue slowly covered his face, and burst into tears after realizing it.
Some people are good at seizing opportunities in the face of adversity, and relying on their excellent ability to turn around and win.
And what about him
After a smooth start, he wasted himself to such an end.
Up to now, all Xie Keyue's unwillingness is attributed to one cognition - he completely lost Shi Yunnan.
…
The door made a dull sound.
Shi Yunnan fell back on the car seat, grabbed the steering wheel, and tried to take a deep breath to calm down his fluctuating emotions.
Suddenly, out of the corner of his eye, he glanced at his empty ring finger, and the next second, his hands unconsciously squeezed the steering wheel.
"..."
For some reason, Shi Yunnan's mind was full of Xie Keyue's roar, which was like a battle between beasts.
- You will always live in the shadow of Wen Yibei, aren't you tired
- It's been so long since you got the certificate, why didn't Luo Lingsheng give you a ring
- You are the one who will never be loved!
Shi Yunan subconsciously took out his mobile phone, his fingertips froze in front of his lover's familiar WeChat avatar, but he hesitated to change his target.
Shi Yunnan called Wen Yibei.
When the tick of the connection echoed in Shi Yunan's ears, within half a minute, Shi Yunnan hung up the phone and let out a self-deprecating laugh.
"Stupid, what are you calling?"
It is obvious that the more Xie Ke is alienating them, can he still jump into the pit
Shi Yunnan threw the phone in the passenger seat, adjusted his mood and drove home.
…
Shi Yunnan skipped the afternoon shift to go to prison. It was still early to return to Luo's house. The housekeeper Qin Bo was instructing the servants to clean up.
Shi Yunnan went up to the second floor, and there was a smell of fruity cleanser in the corridor.
Uncle Qin met Shi Yunan's figure and quickly greeted him, "Mr. Shi, why did you come back so early today?"
Shi Yunan replied, "I'll be back when I'm done."
Just in time, the servant came over and said, "Uncle Qin, except for the study room on the second floor, we have finished cleaning, so let's go down first?"
Shi Yunan heard the words, his eyes shifted to the study at the end of the corridor unconsciously.
- Don't enter the study at the end of the second floor, the rest is optional.
This was what Luo Lingsheng had instructed him not long after he entered the Luo family.
Shi Yunnan has always had a temperament that does not like to involve others' private affairs. At first, it was because he felt that the 'agreement of marriage' was unnecessary. Later, he and Luo Lingsheng developed a normal love relationship, and he felt that Luo Lingsheng should be given enough private domain.
Over time, he automatically suppressed this initial curiosity.
Shi Yunnan slowly looked back, "...Don't you need to clean the study?"
The servant answered before the housekeeper, "The owner is very fond of his study. Even if he has difficulty moving these years, he has to do all the cleaning of the study himself!"
"So attentive?"
Shi Yunnan twitched the corners of his mouth, his thoughts floating again.
"The owner usually works in the study room, which is full of important documents, so usually the servants are not allowed in, so as not to make a mistake." The housekeeper added.
Not to mention a servant, even he didn't dare to get involved easily.
Shi Yunnan hasn't answered yet.
The housekeeper, who knows how to watch words and emotions, sees his distracted state, and is a little worried, "Mr. Shi, are you not feeling well?"
"No." Shi Yunnan restrained his thoughts and replied casually, "Ling Shentian should be at the Imperial Capital."
There are some doubts in my heart, I can ask them again when we meet tomorrow.
The housekeeper laughed, with relief and anticipation on his face, "Yeah, I heard Yuan Meng say that the owner's legs are much better two days ago. After waiting for these years, I finally got the hope."
Shi Yunnan also felt anticipation, and said with a smile, "I'll go back to my room to rest for a while, you guys go to work first? Uncle Qin, it's almost time to pick up the little goldfish."
"good."
Seeing Shi Yunan's smile, Uncle Qin didn't think about it, and called the servants on the second floor to go downstairs together.
Shi Yunnan walked towards his room, changed his destination after only three seconds, and stopped at the study at the end of the corridor after a few steps.
He hesitated for a while staring at the closed solid wood door, but he still couldn't resist pushing the door open.
The door made a slight noise, revealing the world inside to Shi Yunnan's field of vision - pure black and white, which was in line with Luo Lingsheng's usual behavior.
Shi Yunnan closed the door of the room and approached the most conspicuous desk lightly. Apart from all kinds of office utensils and documents, the most striking thing on the desk was the black square jar.
"... They're both legal husbands, so it shouldn't matter if I just take a look?"
Shi Yunnan murmured and made a psychological construction of self-affirmation before he opened the black can.
Different from the simple and atmospheric appearance, the cans are actually filled with fruit candies.
Shi Yunnan was stunned for a while, and then let out a sweet smile, "I didn't like it when I gave it to him for the first time? Why did you hide so much in private?"
No wonder when he was unhappy twice, his lover could conjure him with candy.
Shi Yunnan peeled off the candy wrapper and tasted one.
Still the familiar taste, sweet and savory.
Shi Yunnan's eyes continued to search down, and landed on the drawer with the combination lock. There seemed to be some traction, waiting for him to dig the treasure hidden inside.
Shi Yunnan bent down and entered the six-digit password number for his birthday with intuition.
-Jingle Bell.
The electronic beep for successful unlocking will sound.
Shi Yunnan satisfied his lips, and slowly opened the drawer on the first floor. The next second, he saw a well-preserved invitation.
Just the appearance of the invitation letter always gave him an inexplicable sense of familiarity.
"..."
As if suddenly there was an answer in his mind, Shi Yunan stopped pulling the drawer, taking out the invitation with his right hand as if uncontrollably, and opening it again.
- Sincerely invite Mr. Luo Lingsheng, Mr. Luo, to attend the 18th birthday banquet of Wen Yibei, the grandson of the Wen family.
The moment the first line of words came into view, Shi Yunnan froze the smile at the corner of his mouth, and his mind was full of the remarks he had heard before.
- During the eighteenth birthday party, Mr. Luo and his friends came here.
—Luo Lingsheng, do you still have any impression of me
—It was a long time gap, I don't remember very well.
-Today's birthday party is all for Wen Yibei, do you think someone knows you
- Shi Yunnan, you will always live in the shadow of Wen Yibei, aren't you tired
The phone rang suddenly.
Shi Yunnan was suddenly pulled out of the illusion of nothingness. He took a few breaths and took out the mobile phone in his pocket slowly.
Wen Yi North.
There is no more familiar name for Shi Yunnan in the world.
Shi Yunnan closed his eyes to adjust his breathing and emotions, and answered the phone pretending to be relaxed, "Hello, brother?"
"Yunnan, I just had a meeting at the Kaiyin Academy, and it's over now."
Wen Yibei's soft tone came over the phone, with a hint of intimacy unique to his brother, "Why did you suddenly call me? Are you alright?"
"It's okay, it's just that I was bored this afternoon and wanted to chat with you." Shi Yunnan pulled out an excuse.
"How old are you? Are you afraid of being bored to chat with your brother?" Wen Yibei smiled at him.
Shi Yunnan grasped the invitation letter in his hand, but couldn't help but ask, "Brother, I want to ask you something."
"Huh? You said."
"Besides the birthday party, have you met Luo Lingsheng on other occasions?"
The phone communication blurred the lack of confidence in Shi Yunan's tone.
Wen Yibei has always trusted his younger brother, only when he was curious to inquire about Luo Lingsheng's past, so he thought about it and said, "I have been busy with the development of overseas business these years, and I have not returned to China very often."
"Occasionally, I met a few times when I returned to China to attend a banquet in the imperial capital circle, but Mr. Luo and I were not familiar with each other. We just nodded and didn't communicate much."
After Wen Yibei finished speaking, he remembered something, "But..."
"But what?"
"My first solo concert overseas, Mr. Luo came here by accident. I only heard from the staff when I was finishing the show that there were celebratory flower baskets from him outside the door."
Wen Yibei is popular in the music circle, and there are countless friends who sent flowers and blessings that day.
"..."
Shi Yunnan's eyes were sour, his mind was completely off the phone call.
Because at the same time Wen Yibei answered, he saw the concert tickets in the drawer that were properly placed under the invitation letter.
Shi Yunnan recognized the English on the ticket, which was the theme of Wen Yibei's first solo concert.
"Yunnan, if you want to know your family secretly, you should go to his circle of friends to find out..."
Wen Yibei on the other end of the phone noticed a gasping sound, and suddenly stopped talking sensitively, with a trace of nervous questioning, "Yunnan? Why don't you speak suddenly?"
"It's okay, I'm a little sleepy all of a sudden."
Shi Yunnan put the invitation back in its original position in the drawer, trying to suppress his emotions, "Brother, I'd better sleep for a while, and I'll have dinner with you and grandpa in two days."
"Is it all right?" Wen Yibei asked worriedly.
"What can I do? It's wealth and life, and I'll be sleepy."
Shi Yunnan tried his best to tease Wen Yibei's worries and doubts, and hung up the phone in the second before his emotional breakdown.
—Isn’t the head of the house hiding someone in his heart? How can you just find someone to marry
- The owner of the house had a person he liked very much before, and before he could pursue it, he had an accident and injured his leg. This is not the case.
- I guess, maybe there is something hidden from the previous object.
- Shi Yunnan, don't even think about how many times Wen Yibei is better than you!
- Everything you have now is actually given to you by Wen Yibei!
At this moment, the dialogues that were originally considered ridiculous, actually formed a truth that Shi Yunnan had never thought of before.
"Is that right?"
"Curiosity killed the cat, so that's what it means."
Shi Yunnan hummed twice in a self-deprecating manner. He had lost the curiosity to continue to look down, and quickly left the study.
The housekeeper had already set off to pick up the little goldfish, so Shi Yunnan took the opportunity to go to the wine room on the first floor to get some strong whisky, and when he returned to the second floor, he locked himself in the bedroom.
"Sorry, the phone you dialed is off, please try again later..."
Shi Yunnan can't remember the number of times he dialed Luo Lingsheng's phone number. He knew he couldn't get through on the plane, and he knew he wasn't in a hurry to ask the truth at this time, but he couldn't help but keep calling him again and again. Call back.
Finally, the phone automatically shuts down when it runs out of power.
Shi Yunnan looked at his numb face on the black screen of his mobile phone. He was used to enduring tears in everything and finally failed to shed tears.
Anyone is fine.
Why does it have to be Wen Yibei
Shi Yunnan asked desperately in his mind.
If the 'Bai Yueguang' hidden in Luo Lingsheng's heart is anyone else, Shi Yunnan is confident that he can take the other's place, but only Wen Yibei can't.
No matter how crazy or irrational Xie Keyue is, Shi Yunnan has to admit that he is right - even if they are twins, Wen Yibei is very different from him, and he is not as good as his own brother.
Shi Yunnan never resented Wen Yibei, and more relied on trusting this fellow brother, but this did not affect his deep-rooted cognition little by little—
Since his choice at the age of seven, his life has completely opened a gap with Wen Yibei.
From childhood to adulthood, Shi Yunnan can pretend not to listen to the ridicule of outsiders, or learn to encourage, motivate and even pretend, but in his bones he is inferior, sensitive and lonely.
Therefore, he understands Yuan Rui at the beginning, and understands the pain that the other party thinks he lives under the shadow of 'shige'.
Now Shi Yunnan can trust Luo Lingsheng and Wen Yibei, but he can't trust himself.
If Luo Lingsheng's Bai Yueguang is Wen Yibei, then he is someone who can never be surpassed in his life.
…
When the housekeeper knocked on the door, Shi Yunnan didn't reply; when the little goldfish knocked on the door, Shi Yunnan didn't answer.
The drunk Shi Yunan curled up on the sofa, letting the spirits burn in his body. The pain that had been suppressed for many years raged in his body until his reason was eroded and engulfed little by little.
I don't know how long it took, and there was a sudden knock on the door.
Shi Yunnan's drowsy reason was awakened again, he raised his head slowly, and a familiar figure entered his sight.
"... You're back? I-I've been waiting for you for a long time."
Without the previous provocation, he asked with a bleak sense of inferiority.
Luo Lingsheng met Shi Yunan's red eyes that he had never seen before, his heart seemed to be suddenly squeezed by a pair of invisible hands, and the pain was so painful that he could hardly breathe.
When he got off the plane, he saw hundreds of caller IDs pop up frantically on his phone.
From that moment on, Luo Lingsheng asked Yuan Meng to rush home almost like a madman. He called the housekeeper halfway through, but only got ambiguous news—
Mr. Shi didn't know what happened, and he has been locked in his room since last night.
Luo Lingsheng rushed back home as fast as he could, only to see the scene in front of him now: the lover who had always been in pain huddled on the sofa, and the ground was full of empty wine bottles.
Luo Lingsheng approached him immediately, "What's wrong? What happened?"
Shi Yunnan tilted his head habitually and silently rubbed Luo Lingsheng's palm, "Luo Lingsheng, do you love him or me now?"
"Who?"
Luo Lingsheng frowned.
Seeing his reaction, Shi Yunnan shook his head with a wry smile.
He lowered his head to hide his tears and asked in a muffled voice, "Why are you still hiding from me? I, I already knew..."
Shi Yunnan noticed that there was no wheelchair beside Luo Lingsheng, laughed with tears in his eyes, and then began to stubbornly say, "You used to have a person you liked very much, but you didn't go after him because of inconvenient legs."
"Now that your legs are almost healed, do you still want to chase him?"
"I thought about it, I don't want to let other people go, but if it's him, I can quit."
"I, Shi Yunnan, are not someone who can't take it up and can't let go. It's a big deal, it's a big deal, and I will continue to hide abroad and not come back."
Shi Yunnan was surrounded by a sour feeling from the inside out.
Luo Lingsheng, who heard his lover's intention to leave, suddenly changed his face, and directly imprisoned the lover in his arms, "You are not allowed to go anywhere!"
Perhaps the tone was too serious, Shi Yunan trembled unconsciously.
Luo Lingsheng felt distressed and restrained in an instant, but he asked helplessly to the extreme, "Who did you hear that I liked someone else?"
Seeing that he was trapped in his arms and unable to break free, Shi Yunnan shouted, "You don't have to deny it, I just know that you have a white moonlight hidden in your heart!"
"If you still love him to the death, don't provoke me!"
"..."
Luo Lingsheng rubbed his fingertips against his cheek to reassure him, as if he couldn't answer, "Bai Yueguang? Are you eating 'this person''s vinegar?"
"By default? Why am I jealous? Do you think I'm rude?" Shi Yunnan held back his tears, but his voice trembled, "But why do you all like him?"
"Luo Lingsheng, why do you all like my brother?"
Luo Lingsheng heard the second half of the sentence and suddenly realized the reason for Shi Yunnan's pain.
Before he could explain, Shi Yunnan fell into a completely broken mood, and asked with a strong cry, "Why doesn't anyone like me?"
"Grandpa doesn't like me, and Dad doesn't like me either. They all just want Yibei to stay at Shi's house. On the surface, they let us choose, but everyone wants my brother, and they don't want me."
The young Shi Yunan only remembered that Wen Min had said before his death that the Wen family was a good place to study music.
"Obviously I was very good when I was young. It was me, I gave up my favorite violin before my brother."
"Luo Lingsheng, do you know? I won awards when I was a child. I can actually do it like my brother. I also want to hold my own concert!"
"If I had chosen the Wen family back then... maybe, maybe..."
Luo Lingsheng's hand tightened around Shi Yunnan, "Maybe what?"
"If you attended the birthday party in my name and watched the concert in my name, you might have fallen in love with me."
"..."
Luo Lingsheng heard these intermittent remarks, and suddenly understood, "Have you been to the study?"
Shi Yunnan was immersed in his own despair and ignored Luo Lingsheng's question at all.
He is too tired.
It's really exhausting to survive all these years on my own.
"I don't want to go to a foreign school, I don't want to be bullied by those foreign classmates, I don't want to be locked in a warehouse where I can't see anything, and I don't want to wear a doll costume and hand out flyers to earn wages in the summer..."
"Why do I have to be the one that nobody wants! Why do Shi Houde and Shi Sheng don't want me!"
"Where did I fail? Where did I fail!"
"No one ever told me what I didn't do well, and they didn't even give me a chance to change, and then they didn't want me."
Luo Lingsheng felt sad for a while. He didn't dissuade Shi Yunnan, who was hysterical, but let the other party vent in his arms.
Luo Lingsheng knew it better than anyone.
Whether it's Shi Yunan who was drunk at the age of 18, or Shi Yunan who is now lying in his arms, these only two times of crying are enough to prove his grievances hidden deep in his heart.
Time passed minute by minute until Shi Yunnan was quiet in his arms.
Luo Lingsheng took the opportunity to kiss his lover's forehead, stroking his head, cheeks, and neck, and then patted his back again and again to comfort him.
"Yunnan, they don't want you, I want you, I want you all the time."
"You lied..." Shi Yunnan raised his head, hysterical only left with grievances, "You hid the invitation letter for the birthday party and the concert tickets, I saw them all."
Luo Lingsheng leaned in and asked, "Just saw these two things?"
Shi Yunnan pursed his lips, "Aren't these two things enough?"
Luo Lingsheng bit his ear punishingly, and replied word by word, "Shi Yunan, you heard clearly."
"At the eighteenth birthday banquet, it was you who made me care about you."
"I guessed that you would go to Wen Yibei's solo concert, so I went to listen to that concert."
"The ticket for that concert was not something I wanted to keep as a souvenir for Wen Yibei, but that you landed on your seat after the concert and was picked up by me."
"There are not only drawers in the study, but the things hidden in other places are also related to you. If you want to see it, I will show you one by one slowly."
Shi Yunnan didn't react for a while, but he missed the temperature in Luo Lingsheng's arms and was reluctant to move, "You, you don't like my brother?"
"I disdain to find a substitute to satisfy my feelings, and I have always distinguished the two of you brothers very clearly."
Shi Yunnan gradually realized that he had made a mistake before, and let out an embarrassed snort from his nose, only to hear Luo Lingsheng solemnly say—
"Shi Yunnan, from the very beginning, the one who hides in my heart is you."
The author has something to say: #Little Fox: Clap! Bai Yueguang is actually me.