For the first time, Zhao Xiaokui knew that swallowing a complete soul was so uncomfortable.
She felt like she was spinning around in 10,000 circles, and her mind seemed to be thrown out.
Countless memories, feelings, intertwined with her own.
She couldn't even tell which memory belonged to her and which belonged to someone else.
For a while, she remembered that she was Zhao Xiaokui, an extraordinary person who once passed through adult fish.
For a moment, she thought again that her name was Ronald, and that she was an excellent Air Force pilot.
Grandma, Shen Zhifei...
Ronald's wife, daughter…
She burst into tears and kept calling out Shen Zhifei's name.
"Shen Zhifei, Shen Zhifei..."
Shen Zhifei held her in his arms and stroked her long hair one after another.
Once again, she felt the helplessness in the deep sea world.
And this time even more.
She was clearly hugging Zhao Xiaokui, but she could only watch her long hair wet with sweat from the pain and uncontrollably twitching in her arms.
This powerlessness brought her back to her childhood, to the day her parents' plane crashed.
She saw the plane on TV crash into the ocean and set fire to the sea, but couldn't do anything.
Zhao Xiaokui opened her eyes and saw her serious appearance. She didn't want her to blame herself. She endured the pain and forced herself to smile: "Shen Zhifei, why are you looking like this, look... it looks so fierce. No, I don't know. , I thought it was you who was lying here."
Shen Zhifei said, "... I'd rather be me."
Her expression is serious, her distress is serious.
It feels so good to be cared for and loved.
Well, Zhao Xiaokui felt that her head didn't seem to hurt so much anymore.
"Shen Zhifei, if you kiss me, it won't hurt so much."
As she spoke, a sly light flashed in her eyes.
Knowing that she was comforting herself, Shen Zhifei lowered her head and kissed her on the forehead, "Is that so?"
Zhao Xiaokui: "It's better."
She kissed her on the eye again.
Zhao Xiaokui: "It's better."
Shen Zhifei's kiss finally landed on her lips.
Zhao Xiaokui couldn't control herself from the pain, she refused to open her teeth, for fear of biting her, she tossed between Zhao Xiaokui's lips and teeth
I don't know if it was Zhao Xiaokui's illusion, but she always felt that she didn't seem to be in so much pain anymore.
Her brows stretched a little, and a drop of water suddenly fell on her eyelids. She opened her eyes, but saw Shen Zhifei with her eyes tightly closed, and her eyelashes were sparkling.
She felt that the tears fell into her heart.
She raised her hand, wanting to wipe away Shen Zhifei's tears. She raised her hand in front of her eyes, only to realize that at some point, her nails had turned golden, and the front end had also changed from a smooth and rounded arc to a sharp, beast-like shape. claws.
She even had a feeling that this hand could take out a person's heart for her at any time as long as she wanted to.
Dark golden vertical pupils, scales behind the ears.
Protruding fangs, and... golden nails.
This is the fourth one that appears in her, the alienation related to the merman.
Before she had time to think about anything, the complicated memories surged like a tide again, and the pain drowned her.
The stairs of the old-fashioned residential building are not wide. It can be seen that the railings that have been painted green are embroidered with red, and the walls have traces of briquettes and children's random pictures.
Sunlight poured in through the staircase window and hit the ground golden.
Such scenes reminded Shen Zhifei of the summer described in those movies.
She always felt that the next moment, a girl in a blue and white school uniform, carrying a schoolbag, ran upstairs three steps.
This is where
Shen Zhifei's memory still stayed at the moment when she closed her eyes and kissed Zhao Xiaokui.
But strangely, she didn't have the panic of suddenly finding herself in an unfamiliar place in her heart. Even though she had never been to this place before, she had an indescribable sense of familiarity and peace of mind.
Shen Zhifei suddenly thought of a place - Aoki Community.
The place where Zhao Xiaokui grew up.
She walked up the stairs, and within a few steps, she saw two anti-theft doors facing each other.
Shen Zhifei's eyes fell on the door with a 602 metal plate on top.
The security door is dark green, the paint on the surface has rusted off a lot, and the iron plate inside can be seen.
The big red couplet has almost faded to yellow, but the reversed Fu character looks fresh, just in the middle, a hole has been buckled, which looks a bit funny.
She put her hand on the door.
A cold feeling came from the palm of his hand.
can be touched.
To knock, or not to knock
Shen Zhifei stood at the door, raised his hand, and couldn't get down for a long time.
Will there be someone at the door
Will Zhao Xiaokui be at the door
When she was hesitating, the door suddenly opened, causing Shen Zhifei to take two steps back.
It was an old lady who opened the door.
When she saw Shen Zhifei, she said, "You're here to find Xiaokui, right? That stinky girl doesn't know where to go to play crazy. She hasn't come back yet. Come in and sit, and wait for her with a glass of water."
Looking at the old man in front of him, Shen Zhifei's eyes widened.
First, she was surprised that she could see herself, and second, she was surprised by her identity—
Zhao Xiaokui's grandmother.
She, a person in her twenties, stuttered when she spoke to the old lady, "Hello, grandma."
Grandma narrowed her eyes with a smile, and replied crisply, "Eh."
Facing the kind eyes of the old man, for some reason, Shen Zhifei always felt as if she knew a lot of things.
She followed the old lady into the house in a daze.
"There's nothing good to entertain you at home, let's eat some fruit, do you want to drink tea or water?" Grandma greeted her warmly.
Shen Zhifei's ability to treat people and things for more than 20 years is like feeding the dog in an instant. He sat on the sofa and didn't know where to put his hands and feet. Seeing the old man busy, he embarrassedly said: "Grandma, don't bother, don't bother."
"That stinky girl secretly bought Coke and put it in the refrigerator, thinking I didn't know if it was hidden, naive!" Grandma proudly took out a bottle of Coke from a black plastic bag, and told Shen Zhifei, "Xiao Kui likes to drink it. These are not nutritious things, drink too much without eating, and say that I want to lose weight."
Shen Zhifei stood up to take the drink and said, "Thank you, grandma."
She was embarrassed to reject the old man's kindness, unscrewed the drink and took a sip. Grandma sat down, wearing presbyopic glasses, looking at her appearance, with a smile on her lips.
"What's the little girl's name?"
Shen Zhifei hurriedly put down the water, "My surname is Shen, and my name is Zhifei."
Grandma said with a smile: "I have been doing military service in my life, and I only knew it today. It's a good name."
Shen Zhifei said hurriedly, "Xiao Kui's name sounds nice too."
"I took her name." Speaking of this, grandmother's eyebrows were filled with nostalgia, "Before she was born, I thought about many names, I wanted to sound good, and I wanted to have a good meaning, and I wanted to If you want to be literate, it hurts to flip through the book. On the day she was born, the sunflowers I planted just bloomed, and I thought, what are you going to do with such a complicated name? I don’t expect her to do any big things, only I hope she can live safely and happily, like a sunflower, leaving the darkness behind and chasing the sun forever, so when the doctor asked me what the child's name was, I said, "Little Boy" Kwai is alright."
Xiaokui.
It was obviously a simple name, but Shen Zhifei felt a warm feeling slowly flowing through his heart.
"Speaking of this name, there is another funny thing. I don't know if she has told you that when she was in elementary school, wasn't there a little sunflower mother's class on TV? The boys in their class just chased after her. Calling her little sunflower mother, guess what she did?" Grandma asked playfully.
Shen Zhifei couldn't help laughing when he thought of the scene where Zhao Xiaokui, who was still a little loli, was chased by a group of little boys and called her mother.
"I can't guess," she said.
"She beat up a few boys by herself, and when their parents came to the door, she said confidently," Grandma straightened her back, imitating Zhao Xiaokui's appearance, "I'm their mother, mother beats the child. , isn't it justified?"
Shen Zhifei: "Pfft..."
"She is very bad."
Grandma said so, but she couldn't hide the smug look in her eyes.
Shen Zhifei didn't know how long he had been chatting with the old lady.
From Zhao Xiaokui's bed-wetting to the stray cat on the balcony, to the boy who confessed to her but was dragged into a fight as a challenge.
Shen Zhifei laughed until he kept wiping away his tears.
Grandma was still saying, "She is very interesting. I don't know what to think about all day long."
"Yes," Shen Zhifei agreed with the old lady, "she has always been so cute."
"I've said so many things about Xiaokui, but I haven't told you about you."
Grandma looked at Shen Zhifei tenderly and asked suddenly.
Shen Zhifei was surprised, "Me?"
After the doubts were over, there was unease and apprehension again, "I-I have nothing to say."
Her life is indeed a good one.
She didn't go up the mountain to fetch honey, was stung all over her face, and didn't make a bet with anyone. She blatantly ran into the men's bathroom, scaring a bunch of people who didn't even mention their pants.
Compared with Zhao Xiaokui's life, for the first twenty-six years, she lived like a robot that could eat, drink, and lax.
Adults only need to set goals, and she will meticulously execute them according to the procedures.
Many people thought she was a very boring person.
She doesn't have any special hobbies or hobbies. In addition to work, her life is study.
"I'm not very good at taking care of people, and I don't know how to understand other people's emotions, so I'm often considered indifferent..."
Shen Zhifei said it more and more bitterly.
"But she likes you very much."
Shen Zhifei raised his head in surprise.
Grandma repeated with a smile, "But Xiaokui likes you very much."
"People she doesn't like can't come here," she said.
Shen Zhifei took the unfinished drink and said goodbye to his grandmother at the door.
"She likes to sit under that tree in Ginkgo Square every day after school. You should go to her."
Shen Zhifei followed his grandmother's instructions and left the Aoki Community, crossed the road, and walked towards the opposite Ginkgo Plaza.
The whole world, except for her, was empty, and the sunset seemed to freeze above the sky. From the time she entered until now, the shadows on the ground have not changed at all.
But Shen Zhifei didn't feel fear.
She even felt that the beating heart in her chest was as warm as being soaked in warm water.
She found Zhao Xiaokui under the ginkgo tree.
The aged ginkgo tree is very large and thick, and it takes about three or four people to hug it.
The girl in the blue and white school uniform was lying on the edge of the flower bed.