Late at night, Lucian finally fell into a deep sleep. Wade played with his long hair with his fingers, and at that moment, he made up his mind.
"Vade..."
Suddenly, he heard a very faint voice, but it was not Lucian's, but another voice.
"You can hear my voice, right?" The voice was a little nervous. "You may have heard of me. I am Lucian's system. I sneaked out while he was asleep. This is against the rules, so don't tell Lucian... and don't kill me yet. I came out because I want to talk to you about something."
Wade narrowed his eyes slightly, looked down at Lucian's beautiful sleeping face, and said "hmm" softly.
"Just like you love him, I also regard him as... my own, uh, friend." The system's voice was a little stuttering. "Although he has a weird personality and is difficult to serve, he is indeed a very good host."
Wade looked at the sky that was gradually getting brighter outside the window and laughed softly.
"Really? I'm beginning to be glad that I didn't kill you," he said.
"First of all, I want to say..." said the system.
"Lucian wants me to keep him by my side, right?" Wade asked. "Control Center has issued orders to him these days, right? But he wants to disobey those orders and stay with me until the moment I die?"
The system fell silent.
"If you can become a god, your power can indeed resist the control center. Perhaps you can keep him... here." The system finally said.
Vader smiled.
"I thought so at first," he said softly, "until I saw the mind of the God of Light when I was resisting Him."
"His mind is desolate, and so are all the other gods that have ever existed. He was once the god of the human race, and the power he held was learning and deception. After the war of the gods, he survived to the end, and he couldn't help but want to take back all the power, get closer to the origin, become the origin, and start over. This is the will of this world—the world is created and divided, and when it expands to its maximum, someone will appear to cut it off, return to the origin, and create again. When possessing the original godhood, all the human emotions of the god are also stripped away, and he himself will become a concept."
"Even if I defeat the God of Light and become the new Original God, I will forget Lucian. Reclaiming authority, becoming the Original God, and starting the world anew has always been my destiny." Vader whispered, "This is the sequel you didn't see in the 'book', but I have experienced this prophecy."
"You..." The system was stunned, "So what are you going to do..."
Vader covered Lucian's eyelashes with his hand.
“I want him to see my final moment,” he said. “I want him to…”
…
"Vade."
"Um?"
"Vade."
"Um."
Rain was falling outside the window. Dim light shone in from the window, half of it falling on the two people's bodies. Lucian leaned close to Wade's ear and whispered, "You are a little older than yesterday. Congratulations. You will be 27 soon, right?"
27 years old is exactly Wade's original age, and today is when they are 20 years old.
When the clock strikes twelve at midnight on his 27th birthday, Vader will return to his original form, and then he will be discovered by the God of Light.
After Wade returned to the age of 18, they once again tacitly agreed not to mention anything about "tomorrow", but instead indulged themselves in each other's affection.
"There are still seven days, Wade," Lucian said.
He bit Vader's finger, a smirk in his eyes, until he noticed Vader was looking at him.
Been watching him.
Wade's eyes were so focused. He traced his eyes, his nose, his lips, and every part of his body. Lucian said, "What are you looking at me for?"
"Let's go traveling, Lucian." Wade said suddenly.
"travel?"
"Well, travel." Vader said, "My strength has recovered 60%. On the seventh day, we will go to Dusk City. As you said, I will sacrifice all the people in Dusk City who have swallowed 'Raphael' to raise the purity of human blood to the highest level. Then, I will fight the God of Light. Before that... let's travel."
"Why do you want to travel suddenly?" Lucian blinked, a little surprised, "Aren't you afraid of being discovered by the God of Light? Or do you plan to find your guards..."
"No." Vader ran his fingers through his long hair, "Just the two of us. We've known each other for so many years, but we've never traveled well, nor have we ever gotten along well."
Lucian sat up from the bed, wrapped in a blanket, with beautiful curves: "What if the God of Light finds us? Let me remind you first, with our current capabilities..."
Vader lifted the back of his hand and began to kiss him.
"Then let's run away." Wade said, "If we are discovered, we will flee."
"Escaped for seven whole days?"
"Well, we are fleeing with everyone in this world and our own destiny on our shoulders." Wade said, "In this escape, there is no mission for you, no identity, and no destiny for me."
He looked at Lucian intently: "This is an escape that belongs only to Wade Cecil and Lucian."
Lucian looked at him for a long time, and then he laughed.
"Okay." He said, "I suddenly realized that we have known each other for so many years, but we have never gotten along well."
Wade then smiled. He hugged him and kissed him. Lucian said, "If we are discovered, we will run faster."
"Only escape for these seven days."
"During these seven days, we should not talk about anything that has nothing to do with ourselves."
…
They made this crazy and bold decision. As the protagonist of this world, as a fast-travel violator hunted by the control center, as a rebel watched by the whole world, the final boss, the God of Light, and even the will of the world, they made an escape.
They set out from the city-state via the teleportation array. Their departure indeed attracted the attention of the Rose Hermits who were conducting a thorough search. The Rose Hermits shouted and tried to figure out their plans and directions.
"They must have gone back to the royal city to ask for help!" they thought.
The strong wind blew Lucian's long hair. Lucian curled up in Wade's arms and smiled, saying to him, "They definitely don't know where we are going?"
"In fact, we don't know where we are going either," Vader replied.
On the first day of their escape, they went to the land of the Undead.
The Undead Tribe was still sparsely populated, with only white sand, dark nights, and cold winds. Lucian walked beside Wade in a gray cloak, and Wade stopped by a swamp and said, "That's where I died for the first time."
"What were you thinking about when you died?" Lucian said offensively.
He curled his eyes, as if he was ready for Vader to glance at him with a little anger. But Vader held his hand and said, "Thinking of you."
"Thinking...how to take revenge on me?"
"Well." Wade said, "I think even if I die, get buried in the ground, and break into pieces... I will never forget my hatred for you. Just thinking about hating you makes me feel that I must not die, and I must see you again..."
He inserted his fingers into Lucian's, interlaced his fingers with his, and held him tightly. "You know what? When I absorbed the blood of the undead, it was my hatred for you that prevented me from being swallowed by the curse of the blood, and made me remember... I still have things to do."
They stood side by side on the high sand dune and did not speak for a long time.
On the second day of their escape, they went to the valley of the dragon clan. The God of Light was indeed looking for them, but the gray-robed wizard Huihe who lived nearby used magic to temporarily block some of their aura.
"Long time no see." Lucian said to her, "How is Red Dragon?"
"Long time no see." Huihe smiled, "I hope you have a nice day too."
Her figure disappeared in the dust. Lucian looked at her back and said, "If we hadn't come, she would have waited for the red dragon forever, right? Until she died."
Vader said nothing.
They walked in the intermittent valleys. Wade said, "Here, as the Holy Son of the Church, you once fought against the army of the Lord of Jealous City."
"I seem to remember this." Lucian said, "Is it me who was riding Simon? And it was during this war that they nicknamed me 'Lily'... Oh, I remember that on the last day Simon had a stomachache and didn't come out."
"I did it," Vader said.
Lucian looked at Wade and blinked. Wade's expression remained unchanged and he said, "If you still remember back then, you were my 'white moonlight'."
"so what?"
"I have good hearing, and I don't want to hear you casting spells and bickering with that brat in the back while I'm fighting."
Lucian couldn't help laughing and used his hands to cover the expression on his face.
On the third day of their escape, they went to the Demon Realm. The Demon Realm's subordinates were all looking for Wade. But they came capriciously without alerting anyone. They first went to the Greedy City, where they disguised themselves and drank Lucian's favorite soda in the tavern. While stirring the soda, Wade said, "I remember you said here that you would support me."
Lucian said, "I'm just teasing you. By the way, if you don't like soda, you can give it to me."
Vader stopped stirring and drank it down with grace.
They rushed to the Lazy City again through the teleportation array. Noah seemed to have discovered their tracks and angrily sent people to look for them. But they just checked in here and left.
"This is where we had our first incident..." When he said this, Wade's ears turned red.
Lucian couldn't help but burst out laughing. He said maliciously: "Are you not going to relive the past here? I still remember that you thought someone else had sex with me..."
"Let's talk about it later." Wade said.
They hurried to reach the City of Pride before the sun set. Vader said, "This is where we confess our love."
Lucian, who had been teasing him and making sarcastic remarks all the way, was quiet for a rare moment and sat down beside him. They sat side by side on the high steps, watching the sunset.
As the sun set, they arrived at the Demon King's City. Lucian looked at the castle in the distance and whispered, "I'm running away from my marriage here."
"Um."
"With Burton."
"But I got you back." Wade held his hand, "and..."
"I still like you."
Lucian lowered his head. He felt a little pain in his eyes and said hoarsely, "I have always known."
"Um."
If I could do it again, Lucian thought.
He might stay here and accept Vader's ring on his wedding day.
"But it doesn't matter. We are together now." He turned around and smiled at Wade, "I owe you this time. I will pay it back."
Wei De smiled. He looked at Lucian without blinking.
On the fourth day of their escape, they went to the elves. The Elf God Tree shielded them from the increasingly reckless prying of the God of Light. Lucian walked barefoot to the holy pond and said, "I don't know why, but I always feel that no matter where we are, we are always quarreling..."
"You must be in pain here, right?" Wade asked.
"Yeah." Lucian said, and lay on Wade again, "So you have to be nicer to me in the future, Master Wade."
He used the familiar name again. Weed picked many delicious fruits from the elf forest and shared them with him.
On the fifth day, they went to the territory of the beastmen. In addition to revisiting the old place in the cave, Vader also turned into a white tiger. He carried Lucian, who had turned into a cat, on his back, and Lucian grabbed his fur with his four claws. Lucian laughed and exclaimed happily all the way, letting Vader lead him to run in the jungle and enjoy the breath of the wind.
"That's so cool!" he said to Vader.
Vader roared proudly and said to Lucian, "If you like dragons, I can turn one into one."
"I'd rather have a tiger. I like furry things," said Lucian.
They stopped under a big tree, and Lucian slid into Wade's arms and fell asleep quietly after a while. Before falling asleep, he said to Wade: "Master Wade, you won't..."
"When you wake up, I will still be holding you," Wade said.
Lucian was stunned by Wade's sudden words. After a long time, he lowered his head and said "hmm" softly.
His cheeks were slightly red, like a small animal whose fur had suddenly been smoothed. Then, he fell asleep peacefully and softly under Wade's abdomen in the posture of a cat.
Wade lay under the flower tree in the posture of a white tiger. The wind blew and the petals fell on them.
He once again felt the gaze of the God of Light, but this time, he managed to block it with his own abilities.
The destination for the sixth day surprised Lucian. They were heading to the Siren's territory. Lucian said, "I've never been here before."
"Travel." Wade said, "Let's see all the scenery here together."
Lucian curved his eyes and said, "Speaking of which, we have actually traveled to every corner of this world, every race, for your divine blood..."
"The meaning this time is different." Wade smiled, "It's not for a certain purpose, not for a certain mission, it's just our..."
"Just escaping."
Lucian stood at the entrance of the cave, looking at Vader's back. At that moment, he realized what Vader might be thinking.
Perhaps, he was trying to tell Lucian something through all the escape.
"… A drop of Siren's blood was hidden in a clam pearl. When I entered, I heard the Siren's bewitching song. At that time, I thought of you again. I saw you standing in front of me, reaching out to pull me and walk with you into the abyss beside the sea."
Walking on the seabed, Vader told Lucian the story that Lucian had never participated in. Lucian walked beside him. He looked at the extremely dangerous abyss and whispered, "How did you get rid of the illusion at that time?"
"I hated myself at that time, for loving you so much after being fooled by you." Wade said, "I found that I still love you so much, Lucian. I know I can't stay here, because I want to see you and let you see my hatred. Only in this way... will you stay by my side."
Lucian stopped.
"It's so strange." He heard his own voice. "What have I done to you? What makes you... love me so much? After what I did to you... Vader, tell me, are you being unreasonable?"
He did not expect a reply from Wade, but simply tightened his fingertips. Something in his body was beating rapidly, as if it was about to break out of the ground at any moment.
Vader closed his eyes.
"I have asked myself this question before," he said. "After you ran away from my marriage, I studied very hard, thinking that I could forget you. But in every book, the characters of your name appeared."
"I became a general, a demon king, and an emperor. I conquered the world, hoping to forget you with blood. But I always wondered if you would see me like this and how you would feel. I became famous, I was on the newspapers, and I made everyone in the world remember my name and be afraid of me. At this time, I thought, you who live in a corner of this world, even if you avoid and hate news about me..."
"I will also have to hear my name from their mouths."
"I told myself that you were a betrayer, and I was a complete loser who fell into your game. I ran out of ideas to explain the love between us, to explain its irrationality and shallowness. I told myself it was because of hormones, because of your scent, your skin, your body. I told myself that they were just a combination of flesh, blood and bones. I analyzed so many formulas, elements, and percentages that made them up, as if everything was just science."
"But the next night, I dreamed of you again. Science collapsed."
"I took apart everything between us one by one and thought about it logically. Later I found that they were illogical. I only know that if I forget you, I will feel pain. That pain will always be with me, and I will still remember the pain of loss until a long time later. Unless I stay away from everything related to you."
Lucian closed his eyes and breathed hard through his open mouth until Vader held his hand.
"I stayed away from the demons, away from white hair, away from red, away from light, away from white clothes, and away from everything related to you. I destroyed all my feelings, but in the end I found that I couldn't stay away from myself."
"There is a person who has been watching you since you were a child. He has been observing you. Whenever you feel the most lonely and desperate, there is actually a pair of eyes following you. When you are about to die, he is the only one who pulls you up and erases your memory, because he still needs you to hate him... That person analyzes all your psychology. When everyone ignores you, you are always in his eyes. He is like a person who exists in this world for you. He is like your property."
Lucian was stunned. He had never expected that Wade had also seen that incident.
Wade's tone became fierce: "Even if he is not that good and is a bad guy, he can only be a bad guy to you! And how can you... not love him? Not love the only thing you have? You will disappear in the eyes of everyone, but he will be the only one who will always look at you! Isn't... that the case?"
"I can stay away from everything, but I can't stay away from myself - myself who has been thoroughly marked by another person. Lucian." Vader's tone softened in the end, "So I finally admit... I love you."
"I can't explain why I love you, but I'm sure I can't help loving you."
Vader's voice sounded hollow in the deep sea. Lucian felt he couldn't breathe. He bit his lips in repression and suddenly thought of the conversation he had with the system many years ago.
It was many years ago when the system accidentally mentioned to him that he had accidentally saved Wade. It was when he had just entered this world and had not yet joined it, but was still monitoring and observing Wade.
Wade bit the teacher to death, and accordingly, he was suspected by the teacher's brothers. One of them took Wade to a dark alley and forced Wade to tell the truth with a knife.
According to the original novel, Wade would be beaten to pieces here. The system was a little reluctant to watch, but then it saw Lucian walk out of the void in the form of an adult and knocked the brother unconscious.
system:
Young Wade looked at the stranger warily, asking him what he was going to do. Lucian didn't waste any words, he simply erased Wade's memory and slipped back.
System: "...Lucian, what do you want to do?"
"Didn't I originally plan to meet him next week, think he's handsome, and take him home?" Lucian said, "Now that he's been beaten, he'll be disfigured for at least a week, right? I don't want others to think my aesthetic taste is weird."
system:…
Lucian never took this matter to heart, because he really had bad intentions. Even when Vader read his memories later, he only cared about the memories of him framing Vader.
But he didn't expect... Vader remembered it.
At this moment, he remembered the warnings that the system had nagged in his ears after it followed him back to Cecil's house.
"This Vader is so scary, like a beast."
"Beasts, I like to tame beasts."
"But you've been watching him for too long."
"It's a nightmare-level mission. He's my capture target. If I don't observe him, who else can I observe? How can I tame him if I don't observe him?"
At this moment, Lucian thought of another sentence.
—You think you are a tamer training an animal, but taming is a two-way process. While you are taming it, you are also being tamed by it.
—Lucian.
Lucian clenched his fists, and after a long time, he loosened them.
They stood at the bottom of the sea for a long time, listening to the sound of the water. Finally, Wade hugged Lucian from behind.
"I shouldn't say this." Wade said softly, "Let's continue to escape."
"good."
Wade originally thought that he would see Lucian who was depressed, excited, or calm. But when he saw Lucian looking back at him, he was stunned by Lucian's expression.
He saw Lucian was smiling. Lucian seemed to have let go of something completely, and looked at him tenderly.
Gentle and bright.
"you… "
Lucian looked at him, as if he wanted to see every contour of his face, and finally, he smiled.
"You are so beautiful." He said suddenly.
Lucian stood on tiptoe and kissed Wade's forehead, then the tip of his nose, and then his lips. He hugged Wade and kissed him passionately. Finally, he said, "One more day, right?"
Vader looked at him, and after a long moment, he also smiled quietly.
"Yeah," he said.
"Then let's continue to run." Lucian said, "Tell me more about you, about why you like me..."
"good."
…
They set out in the early morning of the seventh day.
"… Vader."
As he entered the final teleportation array, he heard Lucian's voice.
"What?"
"Nothing." Lucian smiled and shrugged at him. "Telling you now will make you feel proud too early. I will tell you at the end of today."
The author has something to say: I had a hard time writing this paragraph, because if I wrote it according to my ideas, there would be long paragraphs of dialogue and emotional analysis, but from the perspective of writing, it cannot be written like this, because it will seem watery and without a plot. So I wrote it with great pain orz, and can only rely on readers to feel each of their mental journeys hidden in their hearts.
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