Lucian lay on the bed. Now that he had no eyesight, he could not see anything and could not make any sound. He took a deep breath and suddenly understood why Wade had left him alone on the bed again.
But he was indeed "hungry". Lucian was even a little confused, he was ready for something to happen between him and Wade.
Then he heard Wade's body swaying, and then a muffled groan that sounded like pain.
Lucian:
The memory rushed into Vader's mind in an instant. Its force was so great that it made Vader's nerves ache. This was not like the normal process of obtaining memories from the developing stone, but it was like some kind of strange attraction, its purpose was fusion. It was like a part of the memory was pouring out of his body because of this light spot, and they wanted to rush towards each other happily and merge with each other.
—This memory belongs to his spiritual body, but Vader doesn't know it.
Then, all the images and sounds filled his eyes.
He also saw Lucian's memory.
Lucian was walking in a place that looked like a library—this library made Weed feel very strange. He was sure that he had never been to such a library before, but all the furnishings in the library felt very familiar to him, as if they originally belonged to him.
Lucian was walking among the heavy bookshelves. His steps were hesitant, as if he was at a loss, and as if he was afraid of bumping into someone. The neatly arranged books flashed in his vision, and it could be seen that the owner of the library should have a certain degree of obsessive-compulsive disorder. He heard Lucian's breathing, a rapid, tense and confused breathing, and it felt like Lucian was lying next to him and whispering to him.
Then, a black corner of clothing flashed before his eyes. Wade could not clearly identify the owner of the black clothing because of the dim light, or perhaps because his memory was only retrieved in a scattered and rough manner, resulting in errors or deviations. The owner's figure was only a blur in his vision.
But at that moment, he felt his heart tighten.
—That feeling of being seized by some strong premonition.
Lucian's escape was unsuccessful. He was pinned against a row of bookshelves by that person. His vision was shaking, and he knew that Lucian was struggling fiercely.
Wade's face was so gloomy that it looked like water was dripping out of it. Everything that was happening from Lucian's perspective was still going on, and Lucian's struggle was quickly suppressed. The man stuffed his hanging hem into Lucian's mouth, and then Lucian's vision began to shake violently.
He first seemed to slide down, and then was suddenly lifted up. At this moment, Wade heard Lucian making a very strange sound.
It was a voice that seemed to be enduring something. After hearing the other voices coming from below, Vader realized what that voice represented almost instantly... At that moment, he heard his rationality breaking, and a strong desire for destruction prompted him to want to kill the man who was "doing something" to Lucian.
The sound ended very quickly, perhaps because the man's movements were so hasty, or perhaps because the succubus's physique made it unnecessary for him to go through so much trouble... After his vision briefly shook again, he heard Lucian opening his mouth and seemed to want to say something—the voice was exasperated, but also with the uncontrolled intonation that Lucian usually had. He seemed to want to call the man's name, but soon, there was a sound like a wail.
He had never heard Lucian's voice like this before.
The sound was painful and shocking, and the throat seemed to be suppressed by all the senses, leaving only the breath after a short scream. In the memory of Lucian's perspective, Vader saw and heard everything that happened next - everything from pain to comfort. Lucian was like a clam whose shell was forcibly opened at first, and then, like a wet, sweet flower that bloomed beautifully and exuded nectar. He scratched the other's shoulders hard and buried his head in the other's shoulders, tense and hard for fear of falling off.
The other man was trying very hard—he could tell from Lucian's voice. Later, Lucian even begged him in a fragmented voice, both in his voice and in his actions.
Wade cracked his knuckles, recalling everything in Lucian's memory. Dark thoughts burned everything in an instant with unprecedented force.
He should kill that man, he thought indifferently.
Kill him, grind his bones to powder, grind his flesh to pulp, let that person die, and then suffer the same torture after being forced to resurrect...
Lucian's voice still lingered in his ears. That voice was sweet, sticky, and had a charm that was difficult to conceal. That voice was all made by that person, and that was the only thing that made Wade extremely sure.
His body couldn’t help but feel hot because of Lucian’s current demeanor, and his heart was getting colder and colder - like extremely cold ice, freezing him completely.
But it doesn't matter, he will remove all traces of that person left on Lucian and put his own mark on him...
Vader thought darkly.
When his vision was shaking violently due to trembling, that person's face finally appeared in Wade's eyes for the first time!
Vader froze.
That face appeared for only a moment... but his face was engraved in his heart.
That face covered with magic patterns...
It's clearly his own face!
The memory finally reached the end. He saw Lucian unconsciously burying his face in that person at the end. He rubbed against him again and again, like a subconscious intimacy caused by comfort, and like a cat begging for mercy. At this moment, he realized that he saw Lucian's face.
That red, tearful face.
—From Lucian’s perspective only, he couldn’t see Lucian’s face.
…
After Wade went to pick up the stone, he no longer paid attention to Lucian who was still lying on the bed. Lucian was really upset now. He had been "awakened" and now lying here was like a place for him.
What on earth is Vader doing? he wondered.
The atmosphere in the room was getting more and more dangerous, but Lucian didn't notice it. He couldn't speak now, but he could only lie down and walk. Driven by instinct, he crawled to the edge of the bed, trying to find where Wade was.
Then he heard the sound of the chain being pulled again.
—He was dragged back by the chain on his ankle.
This time the force was stronger, more urgent, and more furious than the force used to play with prey. Lucian was really hurt this time. He opened his mouth and wanted to say "What do you want to do?"
But no sound came out, and another thing was stuffed into his mouth.
Vader's finger.
Then they go to another place.
…
Lucian thought he was going to be killed.
In fact, at this time, he almost had no room for thinking. The spiritual world and the real world were indeed very different. No matter how many times one "practiced" in the spiritual world, it was still the first time for a person to practice with a real body. Lucian could not help but feel pain and difficulty.
The real body temperature, the real body, and the feeling of being completely possessed and dirty made him even more excited.
"When." He sobbed as he listened to Wade asking in his ear over and over again in an extremely ferocious tone, "When!"
"tell me!"
Lucian couldn't make any sound other than whimpering. And after receiving the energy for the first time, he was so comfortable that he gave up thinking and let his instincts take over. No matter how fierce Wade was, he couldn't get an answer from Lucian.
It's like a vicious cycle, or positive feedback control.
Vader seemed to have forgotten that he had sealed Lucian's voice, and tried to force Lucian to answer with his actions over and over again. Even though he was conscious, Lucian began to doubt whether he was a succubus. Was a succubus who was made into this state by a human still decent? Did he still have the dignity of a succubus
His memory was completely confused. Everything that had happened in the spiritual world and everything that had happened after he was brought back to this world overlapped in his mind, and his IQ and consciousness were a mess. In the end, he began to suspect that he had returned to the time when he first came back to this world and was still pretending to be mentally retarded - only he understood why his body was so strange.
Is this the new way that Vader intends to kill him? Otherwise, there is no way to explain why he is always on the verge of passing out and crossing a black and white line. He seems to have passed out long ago, but he is always waking up.
He used up the last of his strength and took the initiative to move forward and kiss Vader - he seemed to know that he was using this method to tame Vader's murderous intent.
From that moment on, everything became much gentler. But this feeling like being soaked in nectar made him completely unable to control his tears anymore—no matter where.
He felt like he was really broken.
He didn't know how long it had been, or how many days and nights it had been. He only knew that when the spell on his throat was finally released, he heard the last question from Vader.
This sentence means "when".
…
"...Lucian." He heard Wade's hoarse voice, which was uncontrollable due to emotion, "Do you like me?"
“…” He only heard his own crying.
"Do you like me, Lucian?"
Wade stood up and insisted that he must give him an answer. Lucian, on the verge of collapse, finally made a sound.
"Like... like you..."
All movements stopped. He seemed to hear Vader's heartbeat stop at that moment, and felt abundant energy—the kind of energy that could almost give him the 100% energy he needed and successfully leave this world.
Then he uttered the second half of the sentence in a daze.
“… do this to me,” he said. “It feels so good… keep going…”
Although he was conscious at that moment, he still felt that Wade's body temperature seemed to be getting colder and colder.
—As if he heard the answer he wanted to hear.
…
Lucian didn't remember when he woke up.
When he woke up, his lower abdomen was still a little sore and swollen - this was common sense, generally speaking, succubi would quickly absorb the energy left in their bodies. His little finger trembled slightly, and when all his memories had not yet returned, he just half-closed his eyes and lazily lay on the bed.
Soon, someone held his waist from behind and helped him stand up. Lucian subconsciously shrank back and dodged to the side, saying, "I can do it..."
"Here's some water for you." the man said softly.
Lucian then sipped the tea that was brought to his lips in a daze, like a kitten licking water. He still felt like he had been soaked for too long, so that his memories and thoughts had not yet returned. After moistening his lips, Lucian let out a soft "hiss".
"Does it hurt?"
Lucian nodded and rubbed against the other's arms - at this moment, he finally came to his senses.
Lucian: …
The person holding him is Wade.
The person who fed him water was Wade.
The culprit who made him like this now... Vader.
At that moment, Lucian suddenly wanted to hit himself to death on the bed.
He closed his eyes tightly, trying to escape from reality. But soon he heard the voice he wanted to hear the most...
"Open up." He heard Wade say in a hoarse voice, "I..."