"You really, don't love me at all?" Gu Jiu asked him.
Tang Ziyou nodded, "I don't love you anymore."
I dare not love anymore.
Tang Ziyou sighed, feeling desolate in his heart.
Before today, he never felt that there was anything wrong in his love with Gu Jiuci. There are grudges.
But at this moment, after Gu Jiuci clearly uttered what he had said, Tang Ziyou realized that love had already changed him into someone he didn't even recognize.
All his predicaments were actually created by himself.
Gu Jiuci appeared in his most embarrassing and confused days. He helped him take care of his seriously ill grandfather, listened to his troubles, and solved the problems he couldn't solve.
He unconsciously began to rely on him, liked him, and wanted him.
So after hearing that his grandfather was worried about him, brought up the old matter again, and talked about the marriage contract between the two families, he said without hesitation that he wanted to get engaged to Gu Jiuci.
He knew that Gu Jiuci was unwilling, and also knew that because of this incident, Gu Jiuci began to treat him coldly, and he even didn't want to come to the hospital, but he still wanted it.
Gu Jiuci once asked him, "Am I not good enough for you? Or do I owe you something? So you must use my next life to make up for it?"
Listening to the resentment in his tone, he whispered, "I like you, and I will treat you well."
"But I don't need it, do you understand? I don't want what you want to give."
Of course he understood, but at that time, he always felt that the two of them didn't know each other well enough. After they got to know each other, Gu Jiuci might find out that he was good and would be willing to love him.
He is like a person who wears sunglasses and pretends to be blind. He knows everything, but he is unwilling to take off his sunglasses, deluding himself into believing that everything will be fine in the future.
Even more so afterward.
He forgot what he had said, and held Gu Jiuci tightly, like a poor man holding his last wealth.
He has no other relatives, he only has Gu Jiuci left, so he put all his enthusiasm on Gu Jiuci.
He always asked himself, why doesn't Gu Jiuci love him? Is he not doing well enough
But why does Gu Jiuci love him
Who will love a person who pushes himself and doesn't keep his promise
However, he is obviously not like this.
Since he was a child, he has never been such a selfish character, let alone someone who doesn't count his words.
He shouldn't have become like this, into such a character that he hates.
One thought begets love, one thought begets hatred, and one thought becomes demon.
Gu Jiuci has long been his demon in his obsession day after day.
So he distorted his character and made himself ugly, and because of this, he missed what he wanted most.
Love is the most beautiful thing in this world, but he lost himself in love.
At this moment, Tang Ziyou gave up completely.
Whether his love or resentment towards Gu Jiuci, they were all let go at this moment.
He doesn't want to become someone he doesn't like for anyone, so he doesn't want to repeat the mistakes he made in his previous life.
"Gu Jiuci," he raised his head to look at him, and smiled softly, "I am very grateful that you came to talk to me today, and thank you for liking me, but I have already left that relationship. I don't want to go back, so I wish you a new lover."
Gu Jiuci looked at the smile on his face and listened to his open-minded words, his heart was full of obscurity, "I don't understand, it's been less than half a month since I left before, what happened in the past ten days What? That's why you said so suddenly that you don't love me and you don't love me anymore."
"I had a dream." Tang Ziyou said calmly, "In the dream I still loved you until I died, but before I died, you still didn't love me. After I woke up, I thought about it for a long time. Maybe it’s the so-called not getting what you want, so I gave up, I don’t want to live in the obsession of not getting what I want all my life, that’s too pitiful, I shouldn’t be like this.”
"But I already like you now." Gu Jiuci looked at him, "You are no longer what you want, we are in love, so why, you don't want me to chase you?"
"In your perception, as long as you look back, I will be happy and be with you?"
Gu Jiuci was stunned for a moment, and then said after a long time, "I don't take it for granted that you will like me forever. I just think that you like me and you hope that I like you, so as long as I turn my dislike into If you like it, your request will be fulfilled, and we can have a good relationship, won't we?"
Tang Ziyou shook his head, "Of course not."
He looked at Gu Jiuci, "Love or not love is a matter of thought, just like you will suddenly fall in love with me, I will suddenly stop loving you. Gu Jiuci, do you believe that when you meet Before you, I also hated the person who kidnapped someone with love, with the promise of an elder."
"I was also the kind of person who would say, 'No one told him to like him, it was his own wishful thinking, so it's normal that the other party doesn't love him'."
"I will also remember every promise I made, and I hope that I will not cause trouble to others, and that everyone around me will be happy and happy."
"But, I've changed."
Tang Ziyou took a deep breath, and said dryly in his throat, "It's because I fulfilled what I said, so you don't think I want to tie you up forever, so you think you misunderstood me and you have prejudice against me, Is that what caused our current situation?"
He shook his head, tears rolling in his eyes, "You are wrong."
Tang Ziyou said in a deep voice, "You didn't misunderstand me, because I have long forgotten the words I promised you. I left, and I broke up with you, not because I realized that we are not suitable, but because I did I had that dream, that dream was so realistic, I looked back on my life before I died, and felt pitiful and pathetic, so I left after waking up from the dream.”
"But if I hadn't had this dream, I wouldn't have left you at all."
"Is it rare for me not to know that we are not suitable? I knew it a long time ago, but I just want to tie you up for the rest of my life, because I love you and because you are my only relative."
"So you don't misunderstand me, that's not prejudice, that's the real me."
Tang Ziyou's tears flowed down, he raised his hand to wipe it, and said calmly, "But I don't want to be like this anymore."
"Love is supposed to be beautiful, isn't it? I don't want to embarrass myself like this anymore. I'm not such a person. I don't want to let myself be someone I don't like anymore."
He looked directly at Gu Jiuci, his eyes were clear, and tears kept streaming down his face.
Gu Jiuci approached him and reached out to wipe his tears, but Tang Ziyou grabbed his wrist.
He leaned back slightly, left his palm, and said quietly, "If it wasn't for that dream, if I were still living when we were just engaged, now, you say you like me, I will be very happy to be with you of."
"Because at that time, I couldn't see myself clearly."
"But now, I've seen it, so I can't promise you."
"Gu Jiuci, I'm very grateful for you telling me that you like me too, but I'm not what you think."
After he finished speaking, he smiled, sad and open-minded.
Gu Jiuci fell silent, not knowing what to say for a moment.
Tang Ziyou released his wrist and stood up, "If there is nothing else, I'll go back first."
"Wait." Gu Jiuci also stood up.
Staring at the person in front of him, he always felt that he had never understood Tang Ziyou, and felt that he had never been so close to Tang Ziyou.
"Are you afraid or unwilling?"
"Both." Tang Ziyou said honestly, "I dare not like you anymore, and I don't want to like you anymore."
"Not at all willing?"
Tang Ziyou nodded.
He said, "Gu Jiuci, you deserve better, and I deserve better."
After he finished speaking, he turned and walked towards the entrance.
Gu Jiuci did not chase him, but just watched him silently until he closed the door and left.
He sat on the sofa, thinking about what Tang Ziyou said just now, the tears just now, and sighed deeply.
Gu Jiuci did not leave in a hurry, he stayed in a nearby hotel.
However, he didn't rush to appear in front of Tang Ziyou, but waited for Shan Qikun to finish his work and returned to the set, and then he appeared together, which was called "visiting the set".
The production team of "Spring Affair" naturally welcomed Gu Jiuci's arrival, and even Qu Wenyi's face, which has always been indifferent to answers, showed a little smile.
Tang Ziyou didn't quite understand Gu Jiuci's thoughts, but Shan Qikun and Gu Jiuci knew each other, and it was reasonable for him to come to visit the class, so he didn't say much.
"What do you mean?" Shan Qikun squinted at Gu Jiuci, "Visiting the class? You?"
"Can't you?" Gu Jiuci asked back.
Shan Qikun nodded, "Okay, tomorrow I will let the crew open the first batch of media visits. When the reporters come, I can still see you. It will be great for us to create momentum for this drama."
Gu Jiuci is not afraid of him, "Okay, am I afraid?"
Shan Qikun was helpless, "Did you come here for Xiaoyou?"
Gu Jiuci looked at him, "Otherwise, I really came to visit you?"
"What's going on with you two now?"
"We broke up." Gu Jiu resigned.
Shan Qikun was shocked, "You agreed?"
"Otherwise? I can't drag him around."
"So are you staying with me now?"
Gu Jiuci was silent for a moment, and then replied, "Don't ask."
"Why?"
"It's not clear in a few words, so don't ask."
Shan Qikun was speechless, and couldn't explain clearly in a few words, didn't he just couldn't get it and couldn't let it go, so did he observe closely? What is unclear about this.
He shook his head and let him go.
However, when Shan Qikun thought of Tang Ziyou's eyes and his innocence when he was close to him, he felt inexplicably regretful.
As for what to regret, he didn't think about it.
Tang Ziyou saw Gu Jiuci at dinner the next day.
Shan Qikun invited him, "Together."
Tang Ziyou refused, "No."
Shan Qikun was about to say something, but Gu Jiuci suddenly said, "I'm sorry."
Shan Qikun:? ?
Tang Ziyou looked up at him with obvious puzzlement in his eyes.
"I didn't tell you before that I and Akun are friends."
Tang Ziyou nodded when he heard the words, he thought it was something.
"It's all right," he said, "it's over."
"At that time, I didn't want you to know too many people around me and get involved with my friends, so I didn't tell you. But I told them about your existence, and they all knew about our relationship."
Tang Ziyou said "Oh", and said to him, "You don't need to tell me these things, it's all over, it doesn't matter if you know it or not."
"Well, you're right." Gu Jiu resigned.
Tang Ziyou didn't speak any more, and walked past him sideways.
Shan Qikun listened until Tang Ziyou left, before saying, "You let him go just like that?"
"Otherwise?" Gu Jiu resigned, "He probably won't be able to eat with me, so let him eat well, after all, he has to film in the afternoon."
"So you stayed with the crew just to see him and say a few words occasionally?"
"of course not."
"That is?"
Gu Jiuci looked at him, not knowing what to say.
His eyes once again showed the image of Tang Ziyou crying in front of him the night before, "But I don't want to be like this anymore, I wasn't like this in the first place, I don't want to let myself be someone I don't even like anymore".
He cried very subduedly, but at the same time he was very open-minded. Gu Jiuci almost couldn't help but want to hug him and hold him in his arms, but he restrained himself.
Because Tang Ziyou held his wrist before, he refused his touch.
At that moment, Gu Jiuci suddenly realized that Tang Ziyou really liked him too early. As early as in his memory, it was Tang Ziyou who liked him, the Tang Ziyou who knew he didn't want to but insisted on forcing him Yo.
He thought that was Tang Ziyou's character, and also thought that to Tang Ziyou, it was logical and undeniably correct.
But it is not.
In fact, he had never seen Tang Ziyou's most ordinary appearance at all, let alone understood his most essential character.
So he wanted to take a look, to get to know Tang Ziyou again, to get in touch with him again.
They almost became the closest people in the world. Even if they can't become a couple in the end, they should know each other and know each other's character.
But he didn't know Tang Ziyou's character, he owed Tang Ziyou this, and he wanted to make up for it.
Gu Jiuci visited the class for three days, Director Wang saw that he would not leave, and asked Shan Qikun curiously, "Akun, how long does Xiao Gu plan to visit your class?"
Shan Qikun wondered what this had to do with him, Gu Jiuci clearly used him to build plank roads, and waited for Tang Ziyou to spend time secretly.
"Who knows," he said.
"You guys have a good relationship." The director said with emotion.
Shan Qikun let out a cold snort, his heart can be pulled down, he is chasing his wife, he really thinks he is here to see him.
Director Wang approached him, "Since you have such a good relationship and Xiao Gu is not in a hurry to leave, how about letting him play a cameo role?"
These words have been on Director Wang's mind for two days!
There is no way, Gu Jiuci is such a movie king who is in the crew with Shan Qikun every day. Director Wang looks at it and feels itchy in his heart. If he can make a guest appearance, and the double movie king's gimmick is played, the ratings of their TV series will not be blown up. up? !
"Anyway, he's idle because he's idle, so it's okay to make a guest appearance?" Director Wang's eyes were full of encouragement.
Shan Qikun thought about it for a while, and felt that there was nothing wrong with it, "Okay, I'll talk to him later."
"Alright." Director Wang said excitedly.
The author has something to say: Xiaoyou:? ? ? I do not want!
Xiao Jiu: This is my new number plate, do you look good
Xiaoyou: Don’t look at it, just take it away.
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