I have been in the group for more than three months, and the shooting is not over yet. During the Spring Festival, the director gave a week's holiday.
During the Spring Festival in previous years, Gu Yanshen would not answer any announcements, but chose to go to other places alone.
From childhood to adulthood, many festivals are spent alone. I used to think that I could celebrate the holidays with my family, but after I passed the age when I needed the company of my family, I liked being alone instead.
He still remembers the first New Year's Eve when he met Lu Wenxing. It was Lu Wenxing who agreed to take the role in "Hundred Ghosts", and the two talked on the phone.
It was also the New Year's Eve of that year. In addition to the company of the bell, there was also a sentence of "Happy New Year" from Lu Wenxing.
Gu Yanshen once again realized that it is a happy thing to be accompanied by someone.
Seeing that Gu Yanshen was holding the script and didn't know what he was thinking, Lu Wenxing walked over and asked him.
"The production crew is on vacation for a week, what will Mr. Gu plan to do for the Spring Festival?"
Gu Yan smiled deeply, "I used to live alone, so I had no plans. Now I listen to my boyfriend."
Lu Wenxing had heard about Gu Yanshen's childhood, and knew of his personality. The parents each formed a new family, and he didn't bother anyone, so he chose to live alone.
"I have discussed it with my parents. I will take Xiaocheng and the others to Wen's house together. Teacher Gu will go home with me."
"it is good."
Since he was going to Wen's house for the New Year, Gu Yanshen must prepare a New Year's gift. I also had to send a New Year gift to my mother who is far away abroad. I still have to go to Gu's house. In previous years, he would go to Gu's house to give gifts in advance, but he would not stay for dinner or stay overnight.
It was the same this year, Gu Yanshen took the gift he had prepared in advance and drove to Gu's house.
Unexpectedly, Gu Yanshen saw Gu Ansheng sitting on the sofa.
"dad."
"Um."
Gu Ansheng responded and stopped talking. Gu Yanshen took a New Year's gift as usual.
"Brother." Gu Yanning had been on the phone with Gu Yanshen a long time ago, seeing him coming, she came down holding the game controller. "Play games with me?"
"Do not."
"You can play with me, it's boring to be alone."
Gu Yanning has already connected to the TV in the living room, and forcefully handed the game controller to Gu Yanshen, "It's so boring to be at home during the winter vacation."
"How old are you, you still need someone to play with you."
"That's different."
Gu Yanning took a peek at Gu Ansheng, seeing that her father didn't say anything, but acquiesced to him playing games in the living room. He had played in the living room before, but Gu Ansheng hated it and asked him to go back to his room to play.
The TV in the room is not as big as the living room.
"Left left."
"Hit him!"
Gu Yanning stood up after playing the game, while Gu Ansheng sat there without saying a word, looking at his youngest son who was about to rush into the TV screen.
He looked again at Gu Yan, who was sitting cross-legged on the ground, quietly, as if he was manipulating a game controller, and sighed indiscernibly. He had rarely seen Gu Yanshen have too much emotion.
When he was very young, Gu Yanshen was like this, no matter how much he scolded, he raised his hands in a fit of anger, Gu Yanshen just stood there motionless and let him beat and scold.
I don't even know how to hide, and I don't explain, and I am very stubborn.
Later, Gu Ansheng didn't even know how to get along with this son, and basically didn't take care of him after high school.
Gu Yanshen chose the boarding school himself, except for coming back once a week. The father and son rarely saw each other, and the company was busy at that time, so Gu Yanshen didn't have to worry about his studies.
Gu Ansheng felt guilty, but he always compensated Gu Yanshen financially. Every time he brought a gift to Gu Yanning, he would ask Gu Yanshen what he wanted, and the answer he got every time was 'no'.
He doesn't know what Gu Yanshen likes, he just buys what other children of his age have, but Gu Yanshen won't show a happy expression when he receives a gift.
Gu Ansheng also had a headache because of this, but after thinking about it later, he was relieved. After all, when he was young, he didn't have enough company, and it was only natural that Gu Yanshen was dissatisfied. During high school, he thought he was very pampering Gu Yanshen.
Gu Yanshen was silent and looked obedient, but secretly held back his big moves behind the scenes. When he knew that Gu Yanshen had changed his will, he was so angry that he had no reason at all.
He decided that Gu Yanshen deliberately used his future to revenge him.
This reminded Gu Ansheng of Gu Yanshen who was abused by the nanny when he was a child but kept silent and deliberately waited for him to find out.
As if taking revenge on him, watching him feel guilty.
This really made Gu Ansheng feel a thorn in his heart. He never thought about why a five-year-old child has such a strong desire for revenge.
Knowing that Gu Yanshen decided to take the actor's path, he slapped Gu Yanshen, and also deactivated Gu Yanshen's card, driving him out of the house.
He thought he could wait until Gu Yanshen confessed his mistake, but he underestimated Gu Yanshen, how could he come back and admit his mistake
From then on, Gu Yanshen rarely went home. But on the eve of the New Year's Eve, Gu Yanshen would go home, simply visit and give something away before leaving.
It was almost lunch time, Gu Yanning asked him to stay for dinner. He had already guessed that he would be rejected, but Gu Yanning would ask every time.
"Yan Shen, your father happened to be here today. I haven't eaten at home for several years, so stay here." Jiang Li took off his apron and walked over.
"That's right, brother, let's stay for dinner. Today's dishes are made by my mother and my aunt at home. Don't you like to eat the dishes made by my mother?"
Gu Yanning pulled Gu Yanshen, always looking at Gu Ansheng, hoping his father could say something.
"No, I..."
"Let's go after eating."
Gu Yan was slightly taken aback. When he left home a few years ago, he would avoid coming when Father Gu was at home, and leave after giving something away. Occasionally, it's just a few light conversations and it's over.
This was the first time Gu Ansheng asked him to stay for dinner after Gu Yanshen left home.
"I made the shrimps and crabs today." Jiang Li persuaded again, "Your father asked me to make them. He said you like them."
Jiang Li knew that Gu Yanshen liked to eat shrimps and crabs, but she specifically said that it was Gu Ansheng who told him that she wanted to ease the relationship between the father and son.
"it is good."
Hearing Gu Yanshen's agreement, Gu Yanning happily pushed Jiang Li to the kitchen, "Mom, I want to eat crabs too."
At the dinner table, Gu Yanning and Jiang Li were enlivening the atmosphere. Gu Yanshen and Gu Ansheng both listened silently, occasionally answering a few words.
After eating, Gu Yanshen didn't intend to stay.
"It's getting late, Dad, Aunt Jiang, I'm leaving first."
"Drive slowly."
As soon as Jiang Li finished speaking, Gu Ansheng suddenly said, "When did you and Lu Wenxing happen?"
Gu Yanshen paused, and Gu Ansheng asked again.
"Since when did you like men?"
"After meeting Lu Wenxing."
Gu Ansheng opened his mouth, Gu Yanshen raised his eyes and looked straight at Gu Ansheng.
"If it's not a blessing, then it goes without saying."
"Whether you accept it or not, I will only be with him. Just like you didn't agree with me going to film school and entering the entertainment industry at that time, but this will not change any of my decisions."
Gu Ansheng frowned, "He likes you now, after that? Will he be with you too? He is one of the heirs of the Wen family, and he will definitely find a girl to marry in the future."
"He will not."
"Even if not. Are you sure you can be together?" Gu Ansheng's tone was calm.
"You have never been in love, and you have no close friends or classmates. Since you are with him, you must like it very much. But if you like him so much, will he always like you?"
"He is seven years younger than you, and he doesn't have much experience. How much does he like you? Maybe it's because of the filming together. If he cooperates with other people in the future, or meets someone who is more compatible, contact If there are too many, will he still like you?"
"Your mother and I have been very romantic from the time we met to when we got married. I love her very much, and she loves me very much. I never doubted our love for each other, but how long can love last? You will find out as you live. Not suitable."
Gu Yanshen said seriously: "I know if it's suitable or not."
"I'm worried about you." Gu Ansheng suppressed the anger in his heart, "Yes, what happened to you when you were a child is that I am not competent as a father. I didn't want you to forgive me, I was reminding you."
"Especially in a place like the entertainment industry that is easy to get lost, relationships never hold their value."
"I don't doubt that he likes you now, but how long can he like you?"
"So..." Gu Yanshen asked calmly, "What do you want to say? Let me break up with him?"
Gu Ansheng was choked, knowing that Gu Yanshen was with a man, his first reaction was to be annoyed, but Jiang Li stopped him from looking for Gu Yanshen.
Knowing that Gu Yanshen would be back today, Jiang Li also talked a lot to Gu Ansheng last night. Just like what Gu Yanshen said, he opposed Gu Yan's entry into the entertainment industry, but his opposition would not change any results.
In the few years when Gu Yanshen first entered the entertainment industry, Gu Ansheng also thought about it. Maybe he came back after the novelty. Without the capital behind him, it is very difficult to gain a firm foothold in the entertainment industry, especially Xiao Transparent who just debuted.
Until now, Gu Yanshen has shown with his actions that he does not need to rely on anyone, nor does he need the help of his father.
In Gu Yanshen's life, he seemed to be just a father, but he never really participated in his life.
Jiang Li immediately came out to smooth things over, "Your father just cares about you and has no other meaning. You and that child will be fine, and let Yan Ning send you off."
After receiving Jiang Li's gaze, Gu Yanning walked over. "Brother, when will you take me to meet the stars, I want to show off to my classmates with his photo."
Gu Yanshen didn't go to see Gu Ansheng, but told Jiang Li. "Aunt Jiang, I'm leaving first."
"Okay, slow down on Yan Shen's road and be careful."
Gu Ansheng opened his mouth, but didn't say anything else, looking at Gu Yanshen's back and sighed.
Jiang Li sat next to Gu Ansheng, "I understand. Lu Wenxing is a good boy, and he won't have the things you worry about. The child finally agreed to stay for dinner, why do you just say things he doesn't like to hear?"
"You are like this, as long as you say something nice. Yan Shen will not refuse to live at home for so many years. When I was young, my father didn't care, and my mother was not around, so there was no one to say anything about. You don't feel bad, I see I feel bad."
"His stubborn temper, if I ask him to stay, will he stay?" Gu Ansheng was also angry, "Looking at the silence, every disturbance is a big commotion."
…
"Brother, don't take dad's words to heart." Gu Yanning carefully observed Gu Yanshen's expression, but Gu Yanshen often had no expression and could not see any emotion at all.
"You and Brother Xingxing will definitely last forever."
"When you get married, I will give you a big gift..."
Gu Yanshen walked to the car door and glanced at Gu Yanning who was not wearing a coat. "Go in, it's windy outside."
"I'm not cold, I'll wait for you to go in before going in."
Gu Yanshen didn't say much, started the car and left Gu's house.
Seeing the car leave without worry, Gu Yanning felt a little blocked. Some things he remembered when he was a child, some he didn't remember.
I only know that when he was a child, he was mischievous and troubled Gu Yanshen a lot. Sometimes he would be jealous that Jiang Li treated Gu Yanshen better than him, and even said some bad things.
He heard from Jiang Li that Gu Yanshen was eight years old when she married Gu Ansheng.
For the appearance of Jiang Li, the stepmother, Gu Yanshen did not resist, nor did he show any displeasure.
Quietly not like a child of this age.
After Jiang Li arrived at Gu's house, he assumed the responsibility of taking care of Gu Yanshen, and the two lived together peacefully.
For a while, Jiang Li could feel the change in Gu Yanshen's attitude towards her. Jiang Li was a little happy, because she found that Gu Yanshen seemed to be a little closer to her.
Gu Ansheng was also a little relieved, which made him temporarily forget that he was an incompetent father.
The days seemed peaceful, until one day, when Gu Yanshen came home from school, he saw Jiang Li who was unconscious at home alone.
Gu Yanshen was a little flustered. He didn't know how long Jiang Li had been in a coma and whether his life would be in danger. He hurriedly called 120 and Gu Ansheng, but no one answered.
When Gu Ansheng rushed to the hospital, the doctor said that Jiang Li was pregnant and his body was a little weak, so he had to take good care of it.
Gu Ansheng's first reaction was to go to see Gu Yanshen, he was a little guilty. Worried that Gu Yanshen would misunderstand that he was about to be abandoned again, he dragged Gu Yanshen to explain for a long time, making sure that he would treat him badly because he had younger siblings.
Gu Yanshen just looked at him indifferently, and responded calmly, without any special reaction.
This made Gu Ansheng feel uncomfortable, but he tried to get along with Gu Yanshen, but Gu Yanshen's reaction made Gu Ansheng a little tired.
Later, Jiang Li's belly gradually grew, and his mind was placed on the unborn child. He didn't want to be regarded as an incompetent father again, so he took special care of Gu Yanning.
Like all fathers, he appeared when his children needed company, and Gu Yanning was really lively and cheerful.
Most of the time, Gu Yanshen just stood aside from a distance, neither disturbing nor participating, as if he didn't regard himself as a member of the family at all.
Gu Yanning was doted on since childhood, Jiang Li has a gentle personality, but Gu Ansheng didn't know how to make up for Gu Yanshen, so he could only turn all his guilt and paternal love to Gu Yanning. He wanted to be a good father, which led to excessive spoiling.
Gu Yanning was like a bully when she was a child, especially with a bad skin.
Because Gu Yanshen didn't let anyone enter his room, and Gu Yanning was so skinny at that time that he wanted to enter if he wasn't allowed to enter.
They also deliberately tore up Gu Yanshen's textbooks and homework.
After Gu Ansheng knew about it, he didn't protect Gu Yanning. He taught Gu Yanning a lesson for the first time, and even scolded him to tears.
Gu Yanning felt that she was wronged, and when she saw the things in the house, she would smash them, whatever was expensive.
Both Jiang Li and Gu Ansheng thought that Gu Yanshen would not care, but the result was beyond his expectation, Gu Yanshen hit Gu Yanning for the first time.
It was also that time that Gu Yanshen took the initiative to communicate with Gu Ansheng.
"I beat him not to vent my anger, but to educate him. If he did something wrong, he should be punished. He lost his temper when he did something wrong. Now he smashes things at home. What happens next?"
Even though he was still a junior high school student, Gu Yanshen spoke like an adult.
It was also after that time that Gu Yanning hated Gu Yanshen because his parents wouldn't really hit him, but Gu Yanshen would. And when Gu Yanshen beat him, Gu Ansheng and Jiang Li would not intervene. During that time, Gu Yanning learned to pretend to be good.
For a long time, he hated Gu Yanshen. Until elementary school, the compositions written by others were all about the closest family members. Only Gu Yanning wrote about my most hated brother.
Later, when Gu Yanning went to junior high school, he was in the rebellious period again, always causing trouble, and somehow got into trouble with the gangsters, and even clamored for gang fights.
How could Gu Yanning have beaten those before? She was pressed and beaten. His face was bruised, his hands were broken, and he was too scared to go home, so he met Gu Yanshen who lived nearby while wandering in the street.
At that time, Gu Yanshen had already been kicked out of the house and hadn't returned for several years.
Gu Yanshen forced Gu Yanning to take him to find the gangster who beat him. He called the police and sent him directly to the police station.
For the fourteen-year-old Gu Yanning, the matter of asking her parents to call the police is particularly degrading and not cool at all. But that was also the first time he knew that Gu Yanshen didn't seem to hate him.
But Gu Yanning only found out later that the group of gangsters who beat him were beaten up by Gu Yanshen.
When he saw that he was injured all over, Gu Yan said coldly that he deserved it, and warned him not to fight. In the end, she secretly vented her anger for him.
After that, Gu Yanning stuck to Gu Yanshen. Even though Gu Yanshen said disgusting words, he would still take him home.
He changes so many walls every year, he is not really chasing stars. It's just that when discussing the entertainment industry, he and Gu Yanshen will have more topics to talk about. He will also help him get autographed photos on the wall, and he can also use various reasons to stay at Gu Yanshen's house.
Thinking of this, Gu Yanning suddenly felt that her fan Lu Wenxing was right. He even fancied his brother with a date, and someone will accompany his brother in the future, and they will be together forever.
…
As soon as Gu Yanshen opened the door of his house, he saw Lu Wenxing sitting on the ground choosing a disc.
"you're back?"
Lu Wenxing smiled when he saw him, his eyes sparkling. At this moment, all the unpleasant emotions in Gu Yanshen's heart were swept away.
"When I went to your small villa last time, you gave me the key here, and I came in by myself." Lu Wenxing stood up and took the bag from Gu Yanshen.
"What did you buy? Let me see."
"Snacks, and your favorite dishes."
Gu Yanshen and Lu Wenxing agreed on tomorrow, and on the way back, he made a detour to the supermarket to buy some Lu Wenxing's favorite food.
I just didn't expect Lu Wenxing to come over early.
"Have you been waiting for a long time? Why don't you call me."
"I want to surprise you." Lu Wenxing opened a bag of potato chips with the corners of his eyes crooked.
"I planned to come over early tomorrow, but I suddenly missed you when I woke up in the afternoon, and then I came to you."
Lu Wenxing raised his head to kiss Gu Yanshen.
When Gu Yanshen opened the door and came in, he noticed that Gu Yanshen was in a low mood, and guessed that something happened after returning home. But Gu Yanshen didn't say anything, so he didn't ask, and said it when Gu Yanshen wanted to.
"Mr. Gu is not happy to see me?"
"Happy." Gu Yanshen raised his arms to hug Lu Wenxing, and responded to him seriously. "Extremely happy."
"I haven't eaten yet." Lu Wenxing let Gu Yanshen hug him, leaning against his chest, "I want to wait for you to come back to eat together, why are you so slow."
"I didn't know you came here and ate at my dad's."
"It doesn't matter, then you have to eat with me." Lu Wenxing asked him while taking out his mobile phone from his pocket. "Is there anything delicious near your house? I'll order a takeaway."
"What do you want to eat? I'll make it for you."
"I love everything you cook."
Gu Yan was deeply worried that he would feel uncomfortable in his stomach after being hungry for a long time, "Let's cook a bowl of noodles, it will be faster."
"OK."
Lu Wenxing followed Gu Yan into the kitchen, "What are you doing here? Go sit on the sofa."
"I didn't say that just now."
Gu Yanshen:
"I miss you so much when I wake up, and I will follow you now."
"If you recruit me again, I will..."
"That's it?" Lu Wenxing hid a smile in his eyes, but also a little unscrupulous.
"kiss you."
Lu Wenxing raised his chin, as if waiting for Gu Yan to kiss him deeply. "Huh? Darling."
Gu Yanshen: "..."
"Don't make trouble, I'll cook you a bowl of noodles first."
"If you don't kiss me, I will kiss you."
Before Gu Yanshen could react, Lu Wenxing put his arms around his neck and kissed his lips.
The two were so close that they could hear each other's heartbeat and feel each other's breath.
Soft and fiery.
People can't stop sinking.