"When I grow up, I want to be a glorious people's policeman like my parents!" Luo Yi, who was seven or eight years old, stood in front of the sofa. The police cap was put on Luo Yi's head.
Luo Su stepped on the sofa, and then looked at Luo Yi at the same level, with his hands behind his back, looking at Luo Yi with a mature and serious face, with a puckered mouth, baby fat on his cheeks, and a milky voice, "Comrade Luo Yi, please Do not disappoint the expectations of the party and the people!"
Luo Yi tenderly saluted, "Yes!"
The moment the ceremony was over, Luo Su smiled and rolled into Luo Yi's arms.
"When my brother becomes a policeman, no one will dare to bully me!"
Luo Yi hugged his chubby buttocks, "Is someone bullying you?"
Luo Su didn't care at all, "Yes! But I don't care about those brats, I have a brother, they don't!"
After many years, the immature and firm vows made when I was a child are still ringing in my ears.
Luo Yi asked himself that he was not a complainer, but sometimes he couldn't help thinking that if he hadn't lost Susu back then, Susu would not have been kidnapped, and his parents would not have sacrificed for it.
He knew and remembered that it was all his fault.
So for the rest of his life, he no longer had the right to choose happiness.
He has to take good care of his grandfather and Susu. For this reason, he can give up his childhood dream to study medicine.
Both the police and the doctors are saving lives, there is no difference.
Luo Su survived the catastrophe, Luo Yi thought that from then on, Luo Su would live a stable life, but unexpectedly, Luo Su found out aplastic anemia.
As a medical student, he naturally knew what impact this disease would have on Luo Su's future.
But fortunately, he and Luo Su's bone marrow matched.
On the day he became an adult, he took Luo Su to the hospital for a bone marrow transplant.
The operation was a success, and he didn't regret being in the operating room, because that was his younger brother, and he was even a little lucky that he studied medicine and became a doctor.
As long as Luo Su is good, it's worth all he has to do.
Later, Luo Su wanted to enter the entertainment industry.
Luo Yi really didn't want him to enter.
Let's not say that the entertainment industry is a big dye vat. After entering that place, he has no ability to protect him. Even his body that has just undergone surgery will not allow him to enter the entertainment industry.
The trick of crying and making troubles was played out at home, and finally grandpa came forward and promised to let him enter the entertainment industry, and that was the end of the matter.
During that time, Luo Yi was really angry, angry that Luo Su insisted on entering a place like the entertainment circle regardless of his own health.
For about a month, he ignored Luo Su and didn't answer a call even if he called home. He wanted to teach this wayward child a lesson.
Luckily for Luo Su, there was no phone call for two months.
Who is teaching whom
Luo Yi couldn't bear it anymore, and secretly went to ask him for news.
Look at that heartless little guy entertaining himself, he is the only one who has been sulking in the past two months
But Luo Yi has figured it out, as long as Luo Su is happy.
Perhaps because of the sequelae after the operation, sometimes there is memory loss.
Sometimes what happened five minutes ago will be completely forgotten five minutes later, and sometimes a child's face will suddenly flash across.
It was a child he had no memory of.
In fact, it is quite ridiculous to talk about sequelae. Luo Yi is a doctor himself, and he knows what sequelae are caused by any disease. How can a bone marrow transplant operation affect the brain.
It's just his wishful thinking, to find a convincing excuse.
When the news came that Luo Su was hospitalized due to physical reasons, he was not without anger, but when he was more worried than angry, everything else seemed less important.
It's just that he doesn't quite understand that Luo Su, who woke up from the hospital, seems to be a little different.
The simple and tolerant Luo Su in the past has become a little strange to him.
He has seen countless patients. If he hadn't experienced something, how could he become so calm overnight.
Luo Yi couldn't let go of the unbalanced solemnity between his brows and eyes.
Perhaps because of this hospitalization, Luo Su's career in the entertainment industry seems to have improved.
In the past, he always laughed at Luo Su, he didn't act in a play, and he always put on some entertainment programs to make people happy.
Luo Su usually doesn't care. She said, "It's also one of my jobs to make people laugh."
But when he got his wish to act, Luo Yi regretted it again.
That Ji Yunshen looked like a gentleman on the surface, but he could tell that what was hidden deep in his eyes was covetousness.
He didn't want Luo Su to fall into Ji Yunshen's trap ignorantly. He has never experienced darkness, and always treats others with kindness. His heart is too soft, and one day he will suffer.
After many years, Ji Yunshen recalled that visit to the film and television city, and still didn't know how to face it.
He was glad that he went, but also often asked himself why he went.
Xue Yao is a well-known and aging director. He grew up together. He had a good personality when he was a child, but it got worse and worse when he grew up.
He entrusted Luo Su to Xue Yao, but he didn't expect this Xue Yao to be useless, and let fans sneak into Luo Su's room.
Originally, I just wanted to go to the crew to see him and comfort him, but unexpectedly, a photo...
Luo Yi laughed helplessly.
If it wasn't for that photo, maybe he would just treat Luo Su as his own brother for the rest of his life.
Seeing that photo, he suddenly understood why there was no photo of Luo Su's childhood at home. He used to think that it was because his grandpa burned it because he was afraid that he would blame himself and be sad. But after thinking about it, he was afraid that he would know the truth.
Luo Su is not his own brother.
No, you can't say that.
Luo Su is his own younger brother, but Luo Su died in the sea of fire together with his parents in the kidnapping case more than ten years ago.
And now in front of him, he doesn't know who it is, he only knows that he has called him "Luo Su" for more than ten years, and has taken care of him as his younger brother for more than ten years.
Without an identity of her own, she is willing to live instead of Luo Su.
Luo Su could accept it, but he couldn't.
Luo Yi decided not to muddle through, he began to actively cooperate with the treatment and went to the psychiatric department.
During the treatment, he was isolated from the world. When he woke up every morning and digested everything in his mind, Luo Yi felt that he was going crazy.
Really going crazy.
Sometimes I will give up on myself and think, I am crazy.
He could always see 'Luo Su' standing in front of a fire, covered in blood, pointing at him, accusing him, why didn't he save him, and treated someone else as a younger brother.
But in a blink of an eye, Luo Su was standing beside him again, holding his hand, looking at him timidly with big misty eyes, and asked him softly, "Do you want me?"
When he didn't speak, Luo Su continued to cry and asked him, "Don't you love me?"
'Luo Su' screamed in front of the fire, retreated and disappeared into the sky full of fire.
Back and forth, he could not get forgiveness from 'Luo Su', nor could he convince himself to accept Luo Su.
Luo Yi felt that he was really going crazy.
Maybe tomorrow, maybe tonight.
When he was most difficult and when he wanted to give up the most, grandpa came.
He gave him the only photo taken two hours later, "Luo Yi, grandpa knows you are a good boy, and so does Susu. All these years, grandpa has treated him as his own grandson. What happened back then, grandpa I don’t blame you, your parents don’t blame you, and Susu doesn’t blame you. At the beginning, grandpa didn’t want you to be a policeman. He just didn’t want you to live in guilt and the past. Grandpa wanted you to look forward, grandpa Hope you are happy."
He looked at the photo of himself and Luo Su when they were young, and smiled brightly and innocently.
The child in the photo stopped at the age of three before he had a good look at the world and knew how wonderful his life would be.
It's his fault he didn't take care of him.
He clutched the photo and wept bitterly.
That night, he saw 'Luo Su' again. He was still three years old. Standing in front of the fire, his body was clean and free of stains, and he smiled cutely. He squatted down and wanted to hug him, but' Luo Su' stood on tiptoe and wiped the tears on his face.
"Brother, you have to help me take good care of him."'Luo Su' smiled with plump cheeks, "Brother, forget me too, I am with my parents now, and I am not afraid at all, but I I don’t want to see my brother feel sad and guilty.”
"I hope my brother will be happy, even without me and my parents, I can live happily."
That night, Luo Yi hid under the blanket, and it was March in Yangchun, but he shivered like he was in the depths of winter.
But in the end, he and the past settled down.
"Do you hate him?" Ji Yunshen came to him because tonight was Luo Su's birthday.
Not 'Luo Su', but Luo Su's.
He sat on the window sill and smoked for a long time, his throat was so dry that he couldn't say a word, looking at the dark night and bright light, his eyes were sore, but there was no tear.
How could he hate Luo Su? How could Ji Yunshen think so.
He should thank Luo Su, if not for Luo Su, he would have gone crazy long ago.
He was just hating himself, hating himself for being forever powerless.
"If you hate him, I hope you can look at the love for so many years, forgive him, and let him forgive himself."
Why not forgive yourself? Luo Yi didn't understand.
You are a victim, it was not your fault that you were kidnapped, why can't you forgive yourself
"I don't have any other ideas, I just want Luo Su to unload his burden and live on."
Luo Yi understood what Ji Yunshen meant, he knew very well how tiring it is to live with burdens.
Luo Yi turned around and nodded, "Okay."
Four years later, Luo Su fulfilled his wish and became the hottest actor of the moment. He still lives in Luo's house. His grandfather's health is getting worse and worse, so Luo Su quit his job to concentrate on taking care of his grandfather.
On Luo Yi's twenty-ninth birthday, they spent it in the hospital.
Luo Su carried the cake with candles on it and walked in front of him.
The flickering candlelight reflected him flickeringly.
"I have a wish..."
"Brother, since it's a wish, don't say it, it won't work if you say it."
"good."
Luo Yi had a wish hidden in his heart. He once wanted to tell Luo Su, but Luo Su didn't listen.
Since you didn't listen, let it always be just a wish.