After Ronghua came with the news this time, Lingli cheered up a little bit, but his brows and eyes were often gloomy, and when he was a little free, he would sit at the table in a daze, not knowing what he was thinking.
Su Jingyang sleeps with Lingli every night, but after five days, he will still return to his room. Even if he knew that the system would not let Lingli find out that he had disappeared suddenly in the middle of the night, it would make him feel very uncomfortable to come back and lie next to Lingli after the incident was over.
During this period, Lord System No. 1 finally appeared briefly, answering some doubts that Su Jingyang had accumulated.
Su Jingyang's first problem is that the guy in the dream has self-awareness from time to time, otherwise why would he be angry and awkward, and the first two times he always tried to draw and remember his facial features with his hands, although he avoided them in the end up.
System One told him that this is absolutely impossible.
"He has no self-awareness, and is still completely controlled to do things according to instructions. It's just that his willpower is very strong, so he will have some instinctive personality reactions and actions. But don't worry, even if he perceives your outline at that time, Wake up and won't remember."
Su Jingyang felt very depressed, "That is to say... even if he realizes that this once-in-five-day dream is wrong, and wants to refuse and resist, he can only obey the system's instructions, right?"
"right."
Su Jingyang's eyes froze, and his chest was flustered, "I have been resisting him, but maybe he also disgusted me after waking up from the dream. After all, I have caused others to be troubled."
System One said, "I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry?" Su Jingyang twitched the corners of his mouth, "If saying I'm sorry can bring me back to the previous world, I can turn around and say ten thousand or one hundred thousand sentences to you without hesitation."
System One was dumbfounded for a while before he said worriedly: "Our original intention is to help those in need, listen to their wishes, and solve their problems for them, but we never thought that it would turn into a weapon that can harm others. What makes me uneasy is that now it is not just overcorrection and extreme, but a pure vent. By the way... You'd better be calm when talking to it in the future, otherwise, he will also take the opportunity to absorb the negative energy in you , will become stronger. At that time, things will be more difficult."
"..." I'm going to be fucking calm!
System One smiled wryly, "I know you're aggrieved, but follow my instructions, otherwise the energy you collect will never catch up with the speed at which it absorbs grievances, and it's hard to offset."
Su Jingyang gritted his teeth, his heart was full of anger and he was about to explode.
Su Jingyang often gave those little beggars the endless meals in those restaurants, and collected some energy every day. Most of the rest of the energy came from Lingli, especially during the period when Linji Xiaoguan just started, Lingli's gratitude value was almost endless, and Su Jingyang almost thought that the progress bar could be half completed , but the number displayed by the progress bar is still like a joke.
System One was silent for a moment, then sighed heavily, "I'm already under severe restraint, if I give you a reminder, I'm afraid I'll never be able to get out, but..."
Hearing its struggling tone, Su Jingyang's chest heaved for a while and he didn't answer.
Before System One disappeared, he was soft-hearted and told him to remind him. It is to tell him to do good deeds not to always stick to some trivial things, but to focus on a relatively large spiritual level, such as helping to fulfill one's greatest wish in life, such as promoting a good marriage, or helping to unravel the problems of many years. Heart knots, helping separated relatives reunite and so on.
If you succeed in such a situation, it is often easier to get an explosive and concentrated energy value, which will be many times more than what you usually get from helping an old man or giving alms to beggars.
Su Jingyang was very depressed. He hadn't thought about this before, but he was finally guided in a new direction, and the negative emotions in his heart gradually dissipated.
Regarding the greatest wish in life, Su Jingyang's first question was naturally Lingli.
Lingli was chopping vegetables in the kitchen at home, Su Jingyang's questioning hadn't finished yet, Lingli seemed to have accidentally cut his hand because of Huangshen, and blood spurted out immediately.
Ling Li stared at the blood on his hand, standing there indifferent. Su Jingyang hurriedly pulled him to the water tank, washed his hands with water, and then took him into the house to bandage him.
Su Jingyang muttered softly, blaming himself: "I really shouldn't have distracted you while you were chopping vegetables."
In the dead of night, Su Jingyang and Lingli were sitting at the table in the living room. The lights on the table were dimly lit, which reflected the silhouettes of the two people very softly.
As soon as Su Jingyang tied the gauze on Lingli, a wave of energy melted into his body immediately. Lingli is like this, Su Jingyang usually pours water for him, and he can get a lot of small colorful circles from him.
Su Jingyang said: "You hurt your hand today, don't do it, can you take a good rest?"
Lingli said yes, Su Jingyang packed the medicine box and said: "You are too hardworking, you have done a good enough job, the guests are full of praise, and you still study so hard."
Ling Li looked at his face and said softly: "But I want to do better, I don't want to let you down."
After hearing this, Su Jingyang shook his head and disagreed, and said seriously: "The original intention of me opening the Linji Restaurant is to let you have a worry-free life, not to put pressure on you, so you don't have to worry about it when you come back every night. Tired enough."
Lingli's eyes were as clear as water, he shook his head and said he was not tired.
The corner of Lingli's mouth twitched, and he said again: "By the way, Jingyang, you just asked me that..."
Su Jingyang smiled when he heard this, and he said: "I just want to know Ah Li's wish, tell me, maybe I can help you fulfill it."
"To fulfill my wish?" Lingli looked at Su Jingyang, his quiet and deep eyes fixed on Su Jingyang for a moment, and suddenly asked softly: "Jingyang, why do you always treat me so well?"
"Why? Why is it good for you?" Su Jingyang replied without thinking.
Lingli's breath was flustered, and he suddenly seemed afraid to meet his clear eyes, and quickly lowered his eyes, "Maybe, maybe I'm not worth it at all."
"It's worth it if I say it's worth it." Su Jingyang said: "You haven't told me yet, what is your greatest wish?"
Ling Li shook his head and stopped talking, Su Jingyang put his hands on his shoulders, leaned over and asked, "Say it, tell me, Ah Li."
Lingli seemed to be looking down at his wrapped finger. After Su Jingyang's repeated questioning, he pursed his lips, and then said slowly: "My biggest wish is... I don't want to be separated from you in my life."
Su Jingyang's heart trembled violently when he heard this, and he froze for a while.
He had thought that Lingli's wish might be to clear his reputation in the town, or to find his adoptive father's ashes to be buried, or to make A Xuan healthy, but Su Jingyang never thought that it was related to him.
But, he is doomed not to be able to do it. He will leave after all.
Lingli didn't hear Su Jingyang's response, and suddenly understood most of it in his heart. He still lowered his head, but his breath trembled obviously, "Jingyang, from now on... you will leave me after all, won't you?"
Su Jingyang was a little caught off guard by his question, anxious and flustered, his mouth moved and moved, a little afraid to answer this question.
Before he asked Lingli about his wish, he never expected to jump to this question.
His silence made Lingli lower his head, and suddenly, drops of tears began to drip down, hitting the freshly bandaged hands.
Su Jingyang hurriedly said: "A Li, don't cry! Don't cry!"
Ling Li raised his tear-stained face, he cried quietly, even forbearance, but his appearance was a bit embarrassed, his cheeks were flushed, and he tightly grasped Su Jingyang's hand, like a drowning man grasping a piece of only Driftwood that can save itself, so hard. Trying hard to restrain his choking tone, Lingli begged Su Jingyang intermittently: "Can we not leave? Let's take Axuan with us and live like this. No one else, no one else, the three of us live like this, it's good , Jingyang, I, I love you... I don't want you to leave, I'm afraid, I don't know how I would live without you by my side, I dare not think..."
Before Lingli finished speaking, Su Jingyang suddenly reached out and hugged him in his arms. Su Jingyang caressed his back, and Lingli almost subconsciously embraced Su Jingyang with his arms, tightening them tighter, even Su Jingyang was strangled by him.
Su Jingyang felt more and more wetness on his shoulders, and frowned, once Lingli cried, he really didn't know what to do, let alone crying like this.
Su Jingyang's eyes were red, and he said in a low voice, "I made Ah Li so sad, if I had known, I wouldn't have asked."
Ling Li shook his head in his arms, weeping silently, one hand tightly grasping the clothes on his body.
Su Jingyang couldn't promise Lingli that he would never leave for the rest of his life, and he couldn't comfort him at this moment, "the moon has its ups and downs, and people have their joys and sorrows." Su Jingyang could only hug him and comfort him like this.
In fact, when the time comes to leave here and go home, Su Jingyang will definitely be reluctant to leave.
But... he still wants to go home, he is not from this world at all. Facing Lingli's tears, Su Jingyang suddenly felt that he was so heartless.
That night, the two still slept together, and after a long time after the lights were turned off, Su Jingyang, who opened his eyes wide, knew that Lingli was also awake.
Su Jingyang thought for a long time, and finally turned slightly to his direction. Lingli felt his movement, moved slightly, and turned his face to him.
In the darkness, the two faced each other like this, and Su Jingyang spoke softly: "A Li, I don't want to lie to you, let me tell you, I'm trying to find a way home now."
Lingli's breath moved slightly, and his voice was a little nasal, "...go home?"
Lingli always thought that he was homeless, but this was the first time he heard the word "home" from him.
"Well, my home is far away, so far away that you can't imagine... I have a way to leave, but ah, that way is very difficult. I'm afraid I will have to wait for many years before leaving, so don't be sad, I will still leave Yes. When you are sad, it makes me feel bad."
Lingli grabbed Su Jingyang's sleeve and asked anxiously: "Very far? How far? I still have Ah Xuan, can I go back with you?!"
Without asking the system, Su Jingyang knew that this was just a fictional world, and it would be difficult for him to go back, let alone bring two people back.
Su Jingyang hesitated for a moment, but chose to tell the truth: "My home is very special, and I can go back alone, A Li, you..."
Lingli's breathing seemed to be stagnant for a while, and he didn't ask Su Jingyang why he was the only one who could go back. The hand that was holding him gradually loosened. After being silent for a long time, Su Jingyang thought that he would not be able to speak, so he repeated in a dull tone: "Only... can you go back alone?"
Su Jingyang felt uncomfortable and hummed softly.
Lingli asked again: "Jingyang, is this your greatest wish?"
Su Jingyang didn't make a sound.
After Lingli was silent for a long while, he suddenly turned around and turned his back to Su Jingyang.
"...Jingyang, you know what I'm thinking right now?"
Lingli's low voice came suddenly, and before Su Jingyang could answer, Lingli had already said on his own: "I'm thinking... How can I trick you into telling you how to go home, and then I will destroy it?" To stop you, not to let you leave. I was thinking, how can I do my best to fulfill my wish. "
"A Li???" Su Jingyang was so startled that his body stood up, and he paused with his hand to touch his shoulder. Su Jingyang could feel his shoulder trembling slightly.
"Aren't you frightened?" Lingli sensed his shocked tone, his breath trembled violently, his tone seemed to be crying but not crying, and there was a strong self-loathing in his words, "You always say hello to me, but in fact I really No, I'm not good at all. I'm shameless and selfish in my heart. I said that I would spend my whole life to repay you, but I didn't. You only want to help me fulfill my wish, but I just want to destroy your wish. I even I want to keep hiding it and keep destroying it, but I am actually this kind of person, and this kind of person is the truest me."
Su Jingyang felt angina in his heart, leaned over to pull Lingli's body over, and said to him in an unprecedentedly solemn tone: "A Li, don't say that about yourself. Hello, you are really fine."
Su Jingyang has been with Lingli for so many days and nights, and he is very clear about his nature. Su Jingyang was indeed a little surprised just now, but he will not change his opinion of him just because of these few words.
"You think so because you care too much about me, don't you?" Su Jingyang stroked his tear-stained cheek with his hand, felt his hot and humid breathing, gently wiped the teardrops with his hands, and spoke with all his might The gentleness: "Actually, everyone has such a side, which is normal, but because you are too kind, you will be scared by yourself. You look like me, I don't, I sometimes encounter That kind of annoying, annoying person, I have tortured him thousands of times in my head, and I still feel puzzled! But as long as you don’t actually do anything to hurt others, it doesn’t matter.”
Su Jingyang was talking, but found that Lingli's tears became more violent.
"No, no, I'm not kind." Lingli grabbed Su Jingyang's hand that wiped his tears, shook his head vigorously, and cried in a suppressed voice, "I've done something to hurt you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry Jing Yang, I feel ashamed, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
He kept saying sorry like atonement, and Su Jingyang was in a hurry: "You raised me fat and white, how can you forgive me? Also, I really won't leave now, Ah Li, Ah Li is obedient, we Stop thinking about it, okay?"
However, Lingli seemed to be blocked in his throat, so choked that he couldn't even say I'm sorry. Even if Su Jingyang couldn't see his face clearly, he could still feel that his body was full of endless sadness.
Su Jingyang felt exhausted and helpless, he stroked his trembling back with his hands, and didn't know how to persuade him.
He originally planned to go to Jincheng alone after a while, but now it seems that he has to make another plan.
The two of them stayed up almost all night, so they lay quietly on the bed until it was light outside, and Su Jingyang turned his back to his Lingli and said in a clear tone as usual: "Ah Li, let's have breakfast in the morning." Egg pancakes and sesame porridge, I'll make it!"
Lingli still didn't turn around, but just called out to him who was about to get out of bed in a hoarse voice.
"Jingyang."
Su Jingyang sat by the bed and immediately looked back at him.
"Actually..." Lingli paused for a long time before continuing, his voice was so soft that it seemed to disappear, "Actually, it was just a misunderstanding between me and Ah Yi."
Misunderstand? ! Su Jingyang was severely stunned by these words, even breathing became cautious.
Su Jingyang really didn't know why Lingli said this suddenly, and he didn't know what his words meant, he just felt that his mind was all confused. Su Jingyang didn't understand, it was so obvious before, how could it be a misunderstanding? What happened that he didn't know about? !
Su Jingyang was full of astonishment and confusion, he wanted to know what was going on, but Lingli was obviously already extremely fragile at this time, Su Jingyang didn't want to make him sad anymore, so he calmed down, suppressed the desire to continue questioning, and leaned over to hold him tenderly Consolation, "Then let's leave him alone, my Ah Li will definitely, definitely meet the person I love so much in the future."
Su Jingyang stayed with him for a while, put on his shoes, got up and went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.
Lingli listened to him leaving in a daze, his pale lips trembled, he raised his hand to cover his red and swollen eyes, his hair stuck to his face in a mess, as if endless tears flowed down between his fingers It slipped down silently, soaking the still wet pillow again.
The person I love deeply will never be there again in this life, never again.
Su Jingyang was a little uneasy, always felt that after that day, Lingli's eyes always inadvertently revealed a kind of dead silence like calm water, which made him feel inexplicably sad. Su Jingyang always wondered in his heart whether it was because of what A Yi said before, Lingli pretended to be calm to the critical point, and because he said he wanted to leave, he suddenly lost control of his emotions under the double blow.
Ling Li seemed to know what he was thinking, with a clear and soft smile, denying everything.
"It really has nothing to do with Ah Yi, I just miss my child too much, that day too... I miss Ah Xuan, and I hear you say that you will leave in the future and I am so reluctant to let you go, that's why I haven't controlled my emotions. It's not because of Ah Yi. I told Between him, there is really nothing from the beginning to the end." Lingli's last sentence was very serious.
Su Jingyang was skeptical, "But Ah Li, your condition is not right."
Ling Li was stunned for a moment, then subconsciously touched his face and said, "Really? Is it obvious? How come, I..." He quickly turned his mouth and smiled at Su Jingyang, "Maybe, it's been a while. The reason for not sleeping well, I will work hard to adjust, and I will definitely adjust... "
Su Jingyang had no choice but to wait for Ah Xuan to come back, and with the children's company, Lingli should get better.
On the night when Rong Ci came back with Ah Xuan in his arms, Su Jingyang was picking up eggs by the chicken coop again. The scene was so similar, but when Su Jingyang turned his head, what he saw was not the back of A Yi who entered the room indifferently, but just bumped into the back of A Yi. Look at the deep black eyes he looked at.
Ah Xuan, who was lying on Rong Ci's shoulder and was about to fall asleep, saw Su Jingyang immediately became energetic, straightened up and stretched out his hand happily towards him, "Uncle, uncle!"
Lingli heard the movement, ran out of the house in a hurry, took the child over, kissed and kissed with tears in his eyes, and then kept saying thank you to Rong Ci.
Rong Ci hummed lightly, turned around and was about to leave, when Lingli suddenly said: "A Yi, let's go after a late-night snack."
Before Rong Ci responded, Lingli turned his head and stood there without moving Su Jingyang: "Jingyang, I'm going to take a bath for the child, can you help me make some egg pancakes?"
Su Jingyang said: "Okay, okay." He took the eggs he just picked up and went to the kitchen. When the busy work was over, Ah Xuan had already fallen asleep, while Ling Li and Rong Ci sat on each side in silence, the atmosphere was so quiet that it was strange.
… What's going on here? ?
Su Jingyang, who had a midnight snack, was hairy all over his body, only felt that Rongci was staring at him with an unclear expression, Su Jingyang bit the soft cake, his heart skipped a beat, what to look at, what's wrong!
Rong Ci disappeared for a few days after that night before returning home. How did Su Jingyang find out that he had returned home? It was the chicken that flew to the next door in the morning as if it had been injected with chicken blood, and Su Jingyang knew, oh, the wild man next door who seduced it has returned.
Su Jingyang went to knock on the door to catch the chicken. This time, the door opened without waiting for a long time, and Rong Ci in black appeared behind the door, holding the chicken in his hand, and handed it to him.
Su Jingyang said thank you, took it and was about to leave when he caught a glimpse of the Pixiu jade pendant on his waist from the corner of the eye.
Su Jingyang: "..."
Rong Ci crossed his arms and looked at him, "I don't wear them only because I like them, but you are so stingy, if I don't wear the things you give away, you will definitely find an excuse to go back."
Su Jingyang hugged the chicken, and after realizing it, he took a step back in shock. How could this person know that the jade pendant was given by him? ? ! Ah Li, what did Ah Li do?
Su Jingyang turned his head and wanted to run back to ask Lingli, but was grabbed by Que Rongci and pulled him back to him. Facing Su Jingyang's big eyes that were blinking nervously, Rong Ci lowered his head slightly, staring at him with black eyes, and said in a cold tone: "Su Jingyang, if your stupid brain dares to make random matches for me in the future, you can just chop it up yourself and take it." Go feed the pigs!"