Ever since Su Jingyang was hijacked by the system and came to this world, he suffered a series of unreasonable disasters, and his desire to go home has always been firm.
—It is not so much an idea as a belief.
Even if there are A Li and A Xuan who are like relatives to him, Liang Lu and Rong Hua who are kind to him, and Rong Ci who has no clear relationship with him... But the belief in going home is as stable as a mountain Standing in the heart.
He wants to go back, even if he is alone after going back, it is the place where he grows and takes root, where he will no longer be entangled and coerced by the system!
If you tell him not to collect energy and give up returning to the original world, it means that he will be at the mercy of the system for a lifetime, compromise with the dog system, and bow to the evil forces! ! !
As long as Su Jingyang thinks about it, he feels a sense of suffocation in his heart, and every nerve is clamoring to refuse! No one can make him pay such a high price!
But I don't know when it started, he started to change unconsciously, he who originally just wanted to make a deal, he became more and more used to Rong Ci's company, used to him hugging his body temperature, used to the love he gave. An Xin, even if he was furious because he was deceived, in the end he died because he was worried about his injury. Su Jingyang had to admit that Rong Ci's purpose of deceiving him into marriage had been achieved, and he cared so much about him, but he kept telling himself secretly, never to trap him.
One foot in and it's over.
And now there are two more children, and they have only been together for a month. Although crying on weekdays makes him have a headache and upset, the longing that grows from his flesh and blood is overwhelmingly eroding his heart, making him feel panicked. .
Sometimes when he quietly looks at the children sleeping in a small group, looking at their cute faces, Su Jingyang will feel a little sad and sad in his heart, he is really... very afraid that if he continues like this, he will not let go drop.
That night, the two children woke up to eat the night milk, and it was Rong Ji who called them. Usually the child wakes up from hunger and moves around, Su Jingyang wakes up quickly, and then calls the nanny to come in, but today he lay still, eyes closed, as if he didn't notice anything.
Rong Ci knew that he was actually awake, his dark pupils flickered slightly, staring at his back to his figure for a long time.
Rong Ci felt that he was acting weird this day, and also had an intuition that it was not simply because he blamed himself on the child, it seemed that he had something on his mind.
Rong Ci stretched out his arms and leaned his body to hug him. It took a while for Su Jingyang to move in his arms, and he opened his eyes and turned to look at him.
The eyes of the two met, and Rong Ci stared at him deeply. He was about to speak, but Su Jingyang raised his hand to cover his mouth, frowning to prevent him from speaking. I'm afraid that his interfering will make me even more upset.
Rong Ci's breath was slightly heavy, his eyes were fixed on his face, and after a while, he pulled off his hand and held it, kissed him, and said in a deep and soft voice, "Go to sleep, the child should be fine later There's going to be a fuss."
He didn't ask, which made Su Jingyang breathe a sigh of relief, and answered vaguely, but he didn't sleep, and waited for the child to finish feeding, then got up and took both of them back to his side.
Fortunately, the two of them fell asleep together after playing for a while.
Even though Da Fan fell asleep, he tightly held a finger of Su Jingyang with his little hand and refused to let it go.
The tip of Su Jingyang's nose was filled with the fragrance of the child's milk, his heart softened, he didn't take out his hand, tucked the quilt over Xiaofan, lay down and closed his eyes while maintaining this position.
After he realized his sexual orientation, he didn't think much about his children, and he just went to bed after getting home from get off work every day to play games. At that time, how could he have expected that his night life could still be like this.
Su Jingyang slept relatively deeply this time, and when he woke up suddenly and opened his eyes, he found that the two children had already woken up. Although their eyes were clouded with tears, their noses were reddish, and their mouths were flattened, they were strangely silent. .
Su Jingyang felt very astonished. He froze for a moment and turned around suddenly, only to find that Rong Ci, who was dressed in snow-white single clothes, was sitting cross-legged beside him, with arms folded, looking at the two children coldly and sternly. The deterrent look in the eyes feels like eating people.
Su Jingyang was silent for a moment, "...what are you doing?"
Rong Ci looked at him and said: "I think they can live without crying, treat them, so as not to make you so hard because of the endless noise every day."
As a result, as soon as the words fell, the two children let out a groan, and cried out of grievance, their little mouths trembling from crying.
Acceptance: "..."
Su Jingyang closed his eyes, his chest heaved and heaved twice, he gritted his teeth and shouted: "Rong-ci!!!"
Rong Ci's eyebrows twitched suddenly when he shouted, and he pursed his lips tightly, but didn't say a word.
While holding the child in his arms, Su Jingyang scolded him like a dog, Rong Ci blinked and blinked, and he was more and more afraid to tell Su Jingyang that he had actually used a little trick just now to prevent the two children from humming in the morning Haw-haw woke him up.
However, the too simple technique seems to have little effect on these two little guys. What's more, they found the right backer, but they were very airy, and now, he was the only one to be scolded...
After listening to Su Jingyang's scolding, he couldn't stop cursing. Then he let out a long breath secretly, started to put on his clothes, put on his shoes and got out of bed, and ordered someone to prepare hot water for the child to take a bath.
The heat rash on Dafan and Xiaofan's body was almost healed after three days of ointment, and the stone in Su Jingyang's heart had fallen to the ground, but after that, he became more careful, as Lingli said, the experience is all his own Find out slowly, don't be too nervous.
Ah Xuan has been with the lord wizard during this time, and Rong Hua hasn't come back yet. The only one who comes to accompany Su Jingyang every day is Lingli. When the weather is good, Su Jingyang and Lingli will take the children out to bask in the sun. Let the wind out, and when the weather is bad, I will stay in the bedroom.
While Su Jingyang took care of the children, he chatted with Lingli to relieve his fatigue. If Rongci's matter is finished and he comes back to accompany Su Jingyang, Lingli will sit down for a little more tea before leaving.
Unknowingly, another twenty days passed by, and there were sporadic snowfalls outside that day, so Su Jingyang didn't go out.
Not long after Rong Ci left, Lingli came with Ah Xuan, and they sat down and chatted together. Su Jingyang suddenly remembered something, and asked Lingli: "By the way, Ah Li, has Ronghua not come back yet?"
While teasing the little fan in his arms, Ling Li softly laughed and said, "He is related to Xu Mei, maybe he will stay there for a few days."
Su Jingyang snorted, it's nothing to play there for a few days, Su Jingyang was just worried that something happened to him. However, Rong Hua is cruel and arrogant, so he usually won't let himself be bullied.
Su Jingyang hugged the little boy for a while, then put him back in the crib and let him lie down, and started to play with the big boy. The two children can only do this, take turns to hold him, otherwise they will be too partial. Fortunately, they are crying a little bit now Less, and more suitable for Su Jingyang's arrangement.
A Xuan looked at Su Jingyang with his big bright eyes for a while, and suddenly asked: "Uncle, why are you unhappy?"
Su Jingyang was caught off guard by the question, and looked at A Xuan with wide eyes in surprise.
Master Wizard's treatment is very effective. Now that Su Jingyang looked at Ah Xuan's clear and bright eyes, he couldn't help but think of the scene when he saw the child for the first time. In fact, it didn't take long, but it really seemed like a lifetime away.
Su Jingyang curled up his mouth and smiled at A Xuan, "Uncle is not unhappy, but a little tired."
Rong Ci knew that he was bored and tired taking care of the children all day long, he was in a bad mood, he was so worried that he couldn't laugh, so he gritted his teeth every day, never retaliated when he scolded or hit him, unexpectedly even a child could see it now.
Lingli stared at Su Jingyang for a long time, his lips moved, and said in a low voice: "Jingyang, if only I... could do something for you."
He once said that he would devote his whole life to repaying this person, but so far, he didn't seem to have done anything, he could only watch with his hands tied, and couldn't help him.
Su Jingyang was stunned for a moment because of Lingli's words, but quickly concealed a smile and said, "It's okay, I'm used to it now, didn't you say that after three months, the child will be more obedient? I am now It can be regarded as half of the time, and it will be easier if you persist.”
Two days later, Rong Hua finally came back. Different from the irritable and gloomy time before, he was completely quiet and depressed. After coming back to see the big and small troubles, he went back to his room and didn't come out for a few days.
It was snowing outside, and it was inconvenient for Su Jingyang to take his two children to see him. After Ling left, he came back and told Su Jingyang worriedly, "Ronghua was not in a good mood. I asked him what was wrong, but he only said he was very annoyed and felt Nothing is right anywhere."
What's wrong? Su Jingyang tilted his head, his face full of confusion, "What's wrong specifically, did he say it?"
Ling Li shook his head and sighed: "I don't dare to ask more, I feel that he has a very serious mind."
Su Jingyang waited for Rongci to come back, and asked him if he knew what was going on, Rongci was a little confused, but he still said: "Don't worry, I'll go see him tomorrow."
In the end, Rong Hua was taken to Master Wizard by Rong Ci. After listening to Qingxinling for more than a month, he gradually improved slightly. Sitting in a daze with the cold wind blowing on the roof.
Su Jingyang also ignored him for a while, because almost three months had passed, but the two children still didn't want someone else to take care of them. of. But for Su Jingyang, this did not relieve much of the burden.
His hopes were in vain, and the anxiety that had been suppressed in his heart could no longer stop them surging up together. Do you really want to stay at home with the kids? Then when can he go out and continue collecting energy? The longer the time dragged on, the more he feared that it would be difficult for him to get out.
This morning, Su Jingyang fed Su Dafan water, accidentally fed too much and made him choke, but it turned out to be terrible, and he kept crying. Su Jingyang was also worried that he suddenly felt unwell, so he called Li Yin came to see him, and Li Yin said that the child was fine, but he just cried, crying heartbreakingly like being strangled by the neck.
After crying for almost half an hour, his voice was hoarse from crying. In the cold weather, Su Jingyang was sweating all over his body, but he still couldn't coax him well.
Because of looking after him all the time, Xiaofan became unhappy and began to moan and whine. Su Jingyang went from being distressed at first to irritability and finally to anger.
Throwing Su Dafan on the bed, he roared angrily with red eyes: "Cry, cry, cry! I know how to cry every day!! I don't care about you anymore!!"
Although Su Jingyang was a bit irritable, he had devoted all his thoughts and energy to taking care of them during this time. The child is too young to speak, and the only way to express his emotions is to cry! Su Jingyang also knew this, and tried his best to endure it, but there was still a moment when he couldn't hold back his emotions, especially when he was already upset, the crying of the child undoubtedly added fuel to the fire.
After the child was thrown on the bed by him, he looked like a poor little abandoned creature, fluttering his hands and feet and crying more and more fiercely. After a while, his voice was silent, and his face was flushed with blood, as if he was about to cry in the next moment.
The maids who were sent by Su Jingyang to wait outside the door heard that the crying was not trivial, so they hurried in to see what was going on, and saw Su Jingyang forcefully brushing off his messy hair and squatting on the ground, they looked at each other and approached, But Su Jingyang got up suddenly and turned back to the bed, hugged the child with red eyes, the sullenness between his brows and eyes had not dissipated, and continued to coax him with resignation and bitterness all over his body.
In the end, both children were tired from crying and fell asleep in the shaker.
Su Jingyang felt exhausted all over, and slumped on the ground at once, muttering: "Damn, when will you be tall these days?"
The system appeared and snorted coldly: "When will it be the first? Let's wait until you have ten children."
Su Jingyang's heart trembled suddenly, and his whole body was filled with a bone-chilling chill, which couldn't be shaken off no matter what!
He tugged at the corners of his stiff mouth sadly, he really didn't have the strength to scold it anymore, his body slowly fell back, and he lay on the ground with a numb and motionless expression.
Lingli's face appeared in his sight at some point, his expression was full of worry, "Don't sleep on the floor, it's cold on the floor."
Su Jingyang just lay there, staring at him blankly for a while, and suddenly said hoarsely: "A Li... I want to drink some wine."
Lingli was worried about Su Jingyang's body, so he didn't let him drink too much, but he didn't stop him. Su Jingyang drank one after another, and finally got drunk with indulgence.
Su Jingyang's later affairs were a little blurry, and he just cried a lot while hugging Lingli to vent his anger, but Su Jingyang didn't remember the drunken things he said at all.
But the only thing I remember is that Lingli patted his back lightly and kept comforting him, comforting him, tears began to fall on his neck continuously, it was so hot and biting, it made his body twitch involuntarily.
Rong Ci seemed to have come back too, but he threw him out and locked the door behind him.
It was already evening when Su Jingyang woke up with a headache. He opened his eyes and subconsciously looked to his side. The children were there, but I don't know if it was because he lost his temper today. He lay obediently in the bed without crying.
Su Jingyang didn't know what it was like for a moment, he pressed his throbbing eyebrows, and when he sat up slowly, he felt a gentle force helping him.
Su Jingyang's sluggish brain seemed to react now, and looked at the person sitting by the bed, with a delicate and pale face, and when he looked at him quietly with his light-colored eyes, there was a kind of gentle and firm power in his eyes.
It's Lingli.
"Wake up." Lingli smiled slightly on his lips, and said softly, "You sit down first, I'll bring you hangover soup."
Su Jingyang's inexplicable heart palpitations pulled Lingli back: "Ah Li!!"
Lingli sat down again, "What's wrong? Is there something uncomfortable?"
Su Jingyang scratched the back of his head in annoyance, and then looked at him and said with a hoarse voice: "It's not... that Li, did I go crazy with alcohol, what nonsense are I talking to you?"
Ling Li pulled the corners of his lips and smiled, his eyes were as calm as lake water, without the slightest ripple.
He held back Su Jingyang's hand tightly, and said softly, "I didn't say anything, you just cried a lot."
Lingli nodded seriously, "Really?"
"Really not." Lingli smiled again, and said to him in a relaxed tone: "Could it be that you have something embarrassing to say that I'm afraid I'll hear it?"
Su Jingyang only felt that his ears were burning, and he raised his hand to wipe his face in embarrassment, and stopped talking, letting out a sigh of relief in his heart.