Seeing that An Xin no longer resisted him, Ning Yan rushed over and hugged An Xin and said, "Is this the last tenderness that Qing Qing wants to give me before she leaves?"
An Xin heard this and her mind was full of thoughts. Her eyes were filled with complex emotions, but she could do nothing about it. She could only say helplessly, "Stop making trouble and take a rest. I don't know who you drank so much with..."
"I just met Lord Gao and drank a little on a whim. It's okay." Ning Yan explained, and then he said: "Lord, although I was a little drunk just now, I was still conscious. I heard everything you said!"
"I'm not afraid of you knowing about this. Isn't it very obvious?" An Xin said with a smile, but only An Xin knew how heavy her heart was.
I thought we could still be together for a long time, but I didn't expect our separation to be so sudden.
"Qingqing, will you come back after you leave this time?" Ning Yan asked somewhat uneasily.
An Xin heard this, looked at the candlelight in the distance, and her thoughts were a little vague. She said faintly: "Yes, I will come back, maybe in another five years..."
Ning Yan felt happy for a moment when he heard An Xin's definite answer. An Xin finally answered his question directly.
But Ning Yan always felt that An Xin had something else in her words. Even when An Xin said this, her voice was so ethereal and empty. It was as if An Xin was about to disappear into the void without a trace.
But it was overwhelmed by greater excitement. Fortunately, this relationship did not end in vain!
Afterwards, An Xin looked at Ning Yan with some doubt and said, "Why do you feel that I don't care about you in my heart?"
Hearing this, Ning Yan's peach blossom eyes seemed to be smiling, but with a hint of grievance, and he said, "Qingqing, all your actions make me feel insecure. They make me feel like you don't care about me anymore?"
Upon hearing this, An Xin touched Ning Yan's cheek with some heartache.
I couldn't help but sigh in my heart that love can really make a person's eyes filled with inferiority and make them no longer like themselves.
No matter who you are, you cannot escape this theorem, even if you are as noble as an emperor.
An Xin sighed, her voice choked with sobs, and said: "Ning Yan, do you know? In fact, I have forgiven you for everything you have done. Forgive you for wanting to kill me to silence me. Forgive you for using Meng Bao to force me to marry you, and then I had to shorten my life by twenty years and use medicine to delay the birth of Meng Bao. Forgive you for wanting to keep Meng Bao on the surface, but secretly wanting to abort Meng Bao. Forgive you for your eagerness for revenge, causing chaos in the Three Kingdoms, and finally harming my relatives in the Anguo Mansion. I also forgive you for being angry with me and causing Brother Youran to have an accident. I also forgive you for jumping into the glacier to save you and being infertile for life. I have forgiven you for everything, because I care too much and love you too much. It's a pity that forgiveness is forgiveness, but I can't let it go, because these injuries are not only on me.
Ning Yan was shocked when he heard this. He hugged An Xin tightly, his body trembling slightly.
He never knew that such a petite girl like An Xin could endure so much, and now she could be so gentle and tolerant of it all. What kind of gentle and warm woman is she to swallow all these sufferings alone
An Xin's words were like sharp knives piercing Ning Yan's heart.
In fact, it makes sense to think this way. After all, it's because I know that the time I have left in this world is only five years. I am willing to tolerate all this, but I can't treat it as if it never happened. Then I can live a peaceful and loving life with Ning Yan. This is not something An Xin can do.
Ning Yan heard that An Xin had given so much for him and had said so many things. He was shocked for a long time and felt very complicated. He said, "Qing Qing made you suffer. It's all my fault..."
In fact, sometimes, Ning Yan also knew it. But he didn't know what An Xin had silently done for him behind his back. For example, this life span, this lifelong infertility. He suddenly felt that his previous crazy jealousy, in front of An Xin's efforts, seemed like a jumping clown, so pale and powerless.
It wasn't just because of Gao Qilin's persuasion. Ning Yan now felt that he had no qualifications to beg An Xin to do anything for him or to give him extra feelings, because he really wasn't worthy.
An Xin smiled faintly, looked at Ning Yan with a warm face and said: "This is not your fault. It's just that the world is unpredictable, and you and I have too much to bear. In fact, if there is a chance, I hope that our next life will not have these intrigues and swords. Our parents are still alive, our friends are healthy, we simply meet, love each other simply, live a plain life, and grow old together, how wonderful it would be..."
Ning Yan felt a warm feeling surrounding him when he heard the words. His cold and dark world seemed to be enveloped by a light of peace of mind. From then on, there was no more haze in his world. There was only the gentle breeze, the warm sunshine and the beautiful smile of the woman in the red dress beside him.
It's a pity that it's all too late. If he had met him earlier, he wouldn't have made such a big mistake...
Ning Yan hugged An Xin tightly, kept saying sorry and kept scolding himself.
This time, An Xin finally hugged him back tightly and whispered in his ear, as if saying goodbye for the last time: "Ning Yan, I love you, deeply..."
At this moment, all the pretense of strength that Ning Yan had put on in front of An Xin collapsed like a dam bursting. He saw An Xin's beautiful and quiet face, gently touched her red lips, and then kissed her.
At this moment, he just wanted to possess all of Anxin, her breath, her soul, everything about her.
Love in this world is so bitter. Perhaps only after losing something, people will know how to cherish it and realize the mistakes they have made. How nice it would be if we could spend all the time we had quarreled on getting along well!
But now, they will be separated in just a few days.
Seeing Ning Yan's enthusiasm, An Xin gave up resistance, and bitterness rose in her heart. An Xin kissed back, and for a moment, the two were inseparable, entangled, and the veil on the side slowly fell down.
The red candles flickered, and the room was filled with spring light for a moment.
An Xin is like a small boat dancing on Ning Yan's body. She only wants to sink to this point, and doesn't want to be separated.
Vaguely, An Xin seemed to hear Ning Yan murmur beside her: "Qingqing, you must come back, don't... fall in love with anyone!"
The two of them kept fighting until dawn.
The next day, Ning Yan sent someone to announce the marriage with Lan Cang. He did not go to court and stayed with An Xin.