On the long-distance bus, Han Doudou looked at the destination on the ticket and said, "I remember my great aunt's home was in Jian'an County. My great aunt once brought Wang Yurui to our house. That girl was very naughty. She broke my crystal doll but didn't tell me. She secretly threw it under the bed. At that time, I suspected that she broke it, but you didn't let me say anything. After they left, I searched the room and finally found the crystal doll that had been broken into pieces under the bed... ... That's not all. Before she left, she even tore up my exercise book. In short, our home was a disaster during the few days she came to our house."
Her tone was full of resentment. Thinking about what Wang Yurui had done at that time, whenever she mentioned her great aunt, she would reflexively think of Wang Yurui's mischievous behavior, and she would still feel indignant.
Han Ze asked her: "How old was she at that time, and how old were you?"
Han Doudou said: "I remember that I was in the sixth grade at that time, and she seemed to be going to the first grade when school started in the summer vacation."
Han Ze said in a deep voice: "She was six years old at that time, and you are twelve years old now. Why can't you forgive a child who is six years younger than you for doing something unintentionally? It has been so many years, but you still can't forget it? Maybe she has regretted what she did back then?"
Han Doudou curled her lips and said, "She didn't do it accidentally. She did it on purpose. She was over six years old and broke other people's things. She was afraid of being scolded, so she just hid the things under the bed. She is more cunning than the stars in the sky."
Han Ze asked her, "At least Dad believes that she definitely didn't break your crystal doll on purpose, nor did she tear up your book on purpose. As for hiding the broken crystal doll to avoid being scolded, this is not a right way to evade responsibility. Have you never done anything wrong?"
Han Doudou stopped talking. Of course she had done something wrong, but she lied to her father to avoid being scolded.
Han Ze sighed: "Have I forgiven you?"
Han Doudou's face flushed, her lips were tightly pursed and she said nothing.
Han Ze continued, "You did something wrong, and Dad could forgive you, so why can't you forgive Wang Yurui? Besides, that happened a few years ago, when she was young and ignorant. We should be more tolerant. Maybe she has changed for the better and is no longer naughty."
Han Doudou looked unhappy. Was her father saying that she was being petty
She bit her lip and said, "Well, she was six years old then and didn't know much. I think she should be less annoying now that she's in elementary school."
Han Ze looked at her and said with a smile: "You think she is annoying, but sometimes Dad also thinks you are annoying..."
Han Doudou looked at him with dissatisfaction.
Han Ze said, "You like playing games, not studying, but buying clothes. Last week you wanted to buy shoes, and this week you wanted money for concert tickets. Dad only makes a few thousand dollars a month, and you're always asking for things."
Han Doudou lowered her head.
Han Ze looked at her, paused and continued, "Sometimes when Dad sees you really want those things and you cry so hard, I can't bear it and want to satisfy your request, but I don't have the ability. At that time, I will blame myself and even feel inferior. I hate myself for not being able to do it, why I can't make money like other parents, and why I can't give my daughter a rich life. I can't even afford to buy my daughter a piece of brand-name clothing."
self-abasement
Han Doudou was shocked and looked at his father.
Han Ze said: "Dad urged you to study hard, not to satisfy Dad's vanity, but because I hope you will have more choices in the future and I hope you will not have the same inferiority and regret as Dad."
Han Doudou lowered her head, and Han Ze couldn't see her expression, but from her drooping shoulders, he could tell that she must have heard what he said.
Han Ze sighed and said, "But more often than not, Dad thinks you are immature and don't understand Dad's difficulties. You always want to compare yourself with others in everything. I'm angry at you for not being as obedient as other children. I think you're annoying."
Han Doudou slowly raised her head and looked at her father in astonishment. She couldn't help but ask, is she really that bad
Han Ze added, "Of course, you can't be blamed entirely for your personality. It's our parents' fault for not giving you the right mindset. When your grandparents were alive, they had retirement pay and the family was financially comfortable. You were the only child, so they bought you whatever you wanted, which led to your self-centered personality. This is my fault. I was busy with work and didn't have time to take care of you. If I could take the time to spend more time with you and teach you, you might not be like this."
Han Doudou's tears suddenly welled up.
Han Ze blamed himself: "You can't just blame the child for being disobedient. You were still young at that time, what did you know? Good character is cultivated. When you were a child, your father didn't pay much attention to you. How could he expect you to grow up and grow up to be a child who meets your father's requirements?"
Han Doudou's tears flowed like a fountain and she couldn't stop them.
Han Ze patted her hair gently and sighed, "Since Daddy has not done well, how can he be strict with you? You are Daddy's daughter, but I didn't raise you well. Daddy apologizes to you for the mistakes he made in the past."
Han Doudou wiped her tears, sniffed, and said nothing.
Han Ze knew, however, that the child took his words to heart, otherwise he would not have cried so sadly.
Han Doudou calmed down a bit, and she whispered, "Actually, I was wrong too."
The words that her father once felt inferior and could not give her a good life really shocked her. It also made her realize that although she did not mean to ask her father for things without any scruples, it really made her father embarrassed, even to the point of making him feel inferior.
Han Ze touched her head and said nothing.
Han Doudou added: "In the evening, I will call Xu Yining and tell her that I will not go to the concert tomorrow."
Han Ze looked at her and thought to himself, even if you want to go, you can't. We are going to the countryside and can only come back tomorrow afternoon.
Han Doudou explained softly: "One thousand six hundred yuan is enough for my monthly expenses."
Now that I think about it, she was indeed irrational. Xu Yining and her family had a monthly living expense of tens of thousands of yuan, and spending 1,600 yuan to see a concert was a daily routine for them. But for her, it was a luxurious meal, and once in a while, it would allow them to save money for a long time.
Because of her greed for enjoyment, she makes her father embarrassed, blames himself, and even feels inferior. It seems that she is really bad. She needs to learn slowly, but she can start saving money and try to consider her father from now on.
Han Ze thought for a moment and said, "Let me tell you a story."
Han Doudou looked at her puzzledly: "What story?"
Dad jumped around so quickly that she couldn't keep up.
Han Ze smiled and said, "It can't be considered a story. It happened when my father was in the army. When my father was in the army, there was a comrade-in-arms whose family was even richer than Xu Yining's. They lived a luxurious life and a watch cost hundreds of thousands. At that time, I doubted my life for a while. Others wore watches worth hundreds of thousands, but I didn't even have a watch worth tens of dollars. Why was the gap so big?"
Han Doudou nodded, feeling that this mood was somewhat similar to hers. She urged, "What's next?"
She wondered if her father would ask her grandparents for money next. Even if he didn't buy a watch worth hundreds of thousands of dollars, he would at least buy one worth a few thousand yuan.
Han Ze changed the subject: "We were not good friends at first. It was not until a few months later that my friend exchanged his watch worth hundreds of thousands of dollars for one worth a few hundred dollars. When we went out to eat, we just went to random restaurants. That's when I became good friends with him."
Han Doudou was stunned. It was different from what she imagined. She became even more curious: "Why did he change his watch and invite you to a regular restaurant for dinner, and you became good friends?"
Han Ze said: "At the beginning, we were both new recruits, and he wanted to be friends with me, but I hesitated."
Han Doudou frowned and looked at him with curiosity in his eyes.
Han Ze smiled and explained, "Although Dad is from an ordinary family, your grandparents taught me not to take advantage of others. The first time we went out to eat, he invited me to a big hotel. Even though it was his treat, I insisted not to go. There was no other reason, just that I was afraid that I couldn't afford to treat him back and he would look down on me. You may think this kind of self-esteem is ridiculous, but Dad insisted."
Han Doudou agreed. She also held this idea, so she never accepted Xu Yining's expensive gifts. She hurriedly asked, "What happened next?"
Han Ze said with a smile: "Later, during the holidays, he repeatedly invited me to go out and play, but I still insisted on not going. He didn't give up, and seemed to have found the reason why I didn't agree to go out and play with him. He changed his watch and packed a barbecue for me outside. I ate it with a smile without hesitation."
Han Doudou was puzzled: "Why did he change his watch? If he doesn't change his watch, will you stop being friends with him?"
Han Ze shook his head and said, "Actually, he doesn't change his watch. As long as our relationship is within my expectations, it doesn't matter. After all, Dad can still resist temptation and won't want something just because he sees what others have."
Han Doudou turned her head away uncomfortably. She looked down on her father, but she couldn't resist her curiosity and asked, "Why did he change his watch?"
Han Ze smiled and said, "Later, he jokingly told me that since we are all friends, we should share the good and bad times during our military service. I don't even have a watch, so how can it be that he wears a watch worth hundreds of thousands of dollars?"
Han Doudou exclaimed, she never expected this to be the reason.
Han Ze raised his eyebrows and said casually, "You and Xu Yining are good friends. Her family is rich. You must be under a lot of pressure to go out with her. I believe she will not call you when she goes out shopping, and she will not mention how many brand-name clothes and shoes she bought in front of you. Because you are friends, she will definitely know, and she will make you uncomfortable if she says these things."
Han Doudou looked at him blankly. She didn't know why, but after hearing what her father said, she felt uncomfortable. She didn't know why she felt uncomfortable, so she subconsciously asked, "What does this have to do with Xu Yining?"
Han Ze smiled and said, "We are both lucky. We both met a good friend who treats us sincerely when we were young. Dad is happy for you. If Xu Yining can be like my comrade-in-arms and not show off her wealth in front of you everywhere, Dad will be more assured that you can be friends with her."
A thought flashed through Han Doudou's mind, but before she could think about it carefully, the thought disappeared in an instant. She frowned and asked, "Why?"
Han Ze touched her head and said, "Young people are easily tempted. If she shows off her wealth in front of you, you will feel inferior over time. You will feel pressured to be friends with her. The pressure from studying is already great. Dad doesn't want you to feel pressured in other aspects."
Han Doudou stared at her father blankly: "Yining often told me that she bought a lot of big-brand clothes and cosmetics..."
Han Ze frowned and asked in a deep voice: "What do you feel after hearing this?"
Han Doudou said ashamedly: "I'm very envious..."
At this point, she was a little speechless. In fact, she not only envied, but also wanted to have those things. It takes a lot of courage for a person to admit his or her shortcomings, and she didn't have the courage.
Han Ze nodded: "You are young, maybe she doesn't know that saying that will make you envious, let alone that it will make you uncomfortable. After all, you are good friends, she can't deliberately show off in front of you to make you jealous."
Han Doudou didn't think that was the case. Xu Yining was very smart. She might not be unaware that she was uncomfortable, but she still chose to show off her wealth in front of her. Thinking of this, she lowered her head silently, feeling a little sad. For the first time, she began to doubt her friendship with Xu Yining.
Han Ze said no more. Han Doudou was silent for a long time. She slowly raised her head, looked at her father, and asked, "Are we going to my great aunt's house?"
Han Ze nodded. "Your great aunt fainted due to compression of the nerves in her cervical spine. She had surgery not long ago. Let's go see her."
Han Doudou asked worriedly, "When did it happen?"
Han Ze said guiltily: "It's been two months. I haven't had time to visit her."
Han Doudou frowned: "Then why are you packing my old clothes?"
Han Ze sighed and explained, "Yurui's father died in a car accident. Her mother works in another place and doesn't earn much. Last time your great aunt had surgery, she borrowed money. Every month, she doesn't have much left after paying off the debt. The child is growing fast, and Yurui's clothes are all too small. I called your great aunt yesterday. She thought you were older than Ruirui, so she asked if you still had your old clothes so she could give them to Ruirui."
Han Doudou learned about the situation at her great aunt's house and frowned, "It's not nice to give her old clothes. Why don't you buy her two new sets of clothes?"
Han Ze patted her head and said, "Instead of helping her out of poverty, why not give her a few hundred yuan to buy her two sets of clothes? Let her buy books and school supplies. Besides, your clothes are just a little old, not torn or patched. What's wrong with that?"
Han Doudou said, "Ruirui is willing to wear my old clothes? Doesn't she dislike it?"
Han Ze smiled and said, "You think everyone is like you? Ruirui didn't mind at all. When she heard that I wanted to give her your old clothes, she was very happy and even said that the clothes in big cities are more beautiful."
Han Doudou was ashamed at first, then asked doubtfully: "Can that naughty boy talk so well?"
Han Ze glanced at her and said, "You'll know whether she can speak or not when you get to your great aunt's house."
Han Doudou said "oh". In her impression, Wang Yurui was still a naughty kid. She couldn't imagine what she would look like when she grew up.
This was Han Doudou's first time back in the countryside. She looked at the two-story building in front of her and asked in surprise, "My great aunt's family isn't poor, how could they afford to build a building?"
Han Ze looked at the house in front of him and explained, "This house was built many years ago. It was built when your great uncle was alive."
Han Doudou said "Oh".
Wang Yurui came back from outside with a basket of vegetables. When she saw Han Ze and the others, she said in surprise, "Uncle, Sister Doudou, you are finally here. My grandmother was just talking about you."
Han Doudou turned around and looked at the skinny and dark-skinned Wang Yurui, and asked hesitantly, "Are you Ruirui?"
Wang Yurui was chubby and fair when she was a child. It would be fine if she lost weight, but why is she so dark
Wang Yurui smiled and said, "I am Ruirui. Have I changed a lot?"
Han Doudou nodded: "Yes, it has changed a lot, a little darker."
Wang Yurui said nonchalantly, "I'm in the sun every day, so I'm definitely tanned. I'll become white if I cover myself up."
Han Doudou disagreed, "Why do you want to go out in the sun? Just bring an umbrella or put on some sunscreen when you go out."
Wang Yurui burst into laughter. "Sister Doudou, you are so funny. How can I hold an umbrella when working in the fields? When the time comes, will I be working with my hands or holding an umbrella? Besides, I don't have any sunscreen."
As she spoke, she led the two of them into the yard.
Han Doudou groaned, feeling embarrassed. She glanced at Wang Yurui and said, "Aren't you a student? Why are you working in the fields?"
Han Ze carried his luggage, followed the two of them, and listened to their conversation.
Wang Yurui scratched her head and said with a smile, "Students can also work in the fields. My grandmother had an operation, and although she is feeling better, she still can't do anything. Our peanuts are ripe, and my grandmother asked my cousin to help harvest the peanuts for us. My grandmother can't go to the fields, so I have to go with her to see her."
Han Doudou asked curiously, "But you don't have to go to school and do homework?"
Wang Yurui said: "The teacher didn't assign much homework, so I could finish it in the evening. And I got bored while picking peanuts, so I recited the book while picking peanuts. That way I could recite the book fluently and save a lot of time."
Han Doudou stared at Wang Yurui blankly, a feeling of sincere admiration rising from the bottom of her heart. She had never known that it was possible to recite books while doing farm work. What kind of learning spirit was that
She was deeply shocked, and then she was filled with shame. Compared with Ruirui, she was really too bad, too bad. Her father didn't let her do anything, just asked her to study hard, but she felt that her father was nagging and annoying.
At this time, my great aunt came out of the house with a cane. She smiled and said, "It's getting dark, and you and your son are finally here."
Han Ze smiled and called her "Auntie", and Han Doudou followed suit and called her "Grandma Auntie". Han Ze put his luggage on the stool next to him, walked over to support her, and asked, "Are you feeling okay?"
My great aunt sighed, and a smile appeared on her wrinkled face. She said, "It's a little better now, and I feel much more relaxed than before the operation. But I still can't do anything. Ruirui is busy doing everything at home and outside."
Wang Yurui smiled and looked at Han Doudou, saying, "Sister Doudou, let my cousin chat with my grandmother, and you help me light the fire. The rooster is ready, and we just need to stir-fry two side dishes."
"You cook?"
Han Doudou stood there motionless. She stammered, "I, I don't know how to light a fire."
She was so ashamed that she had no face to show. She was six years older than Ruirui, and Ruirui could cook. When she was twelve, she had never cooked or done housework.
Wang Yurui said, "Grandma is not in good health. If I don't cook, we will go hungry. It's very simple to make a fire. I'll teach you."
Han Doudou looked at his father for help, "Dad, why don't you cook?"
Before Han Ze could say anything, his great aunt said, "Let Ruirui cook. Even though she's small, she can cook pretty well."
Han Ze didn't plan to do anything either. He smiled and said, "Go ahead, go ahead and help your sister light the fire. Just make something to eat, don't make it complicated."
Han Doudou couldn't believe that her father no longer cared about her.
Before Han Doudou could say something to protest, Wang Yurui had already pulled her into the kitchen.
My great aunt said kindly, "Rui Rui heard that you were coming, so she caught the big rooster at home last night and killed it when she got home from school. She didn't know how to pluck the feathers, so she asked her aunt next door to help her. She worked for a long time and it's just cooked."
Han Ze smiled and praised: "Ruirui is really sensible. A twelve-year-old girl actually helps with housework. I really should let Doudou learn from her."
As he spoke, he helped his great aunt sit on the recliner, and his great aunt asked him to find a chair to sit on by himself. The two chatted casually.
Wang Yurui couldn't believe that someone couldn't actually learn how to make a fire. She said, "Sister Doudou, just sit there and watch. I'll do it myself."
She was cooking and adding firewood at the same time, and she was doing it faster. Sister Doudou was here to cause trouble.
Han Doudou was disliked and stood aside awkwardly. She hesitated and said, "How about I cook? You light the fire?"
Wang Yurui looked at her suspiciously and asked, "Sister Doudou, have you ever cooked?"
Han Doudou straightened his chest and looked up: "Although I can't light a fire, I have cooked before, and your cousin praised me for my delicious cooking."
After what happened just now, Wang Yurui was not so sure about what Sister Doudou said. She said, "Forget it. You should just sit there and take a rest. It's just two vegetarian dishes. They will be cooked quickly."
Han Doudou stared. Was this little brat disliking her
Wang Yurui looked at Han Doudou. She was not disliking Sister Doudou, but she couldn't be too unreasonable since Sister Doudou was a guest. She asked, "Sister Doudou, what grade are you in?"
Han Doudou said, "Second year of high school."
Wang Yurui looked envious: "Oh, it would be great if I could also be in the second year of high school."
Han Doudou curled her lips and said, "What's so good about being a sophomore in high school? It's so stressful."
Wang Yurui said, "When I enter the second year of high school, I will be seventeen years old. I will be an adult soon and can go out to earn money. My mother won't have to work outside the city, and there will be someone to take care of my grandmother when she is sick. Last time my grandmother fainted, I couldn't hold her. It would have been much better if my mother was at home."
Han Doudou paused, looking at the little girl who was a head taller than her, standing by the stove, cooking in an orderly manner. She asked carefully, "Are your grades not good? Don't you plan to go to college?"
Wang Yurui said casually, "Primary school knowledge is relatively easy, so there's no need for good grades, right? I heard that after going to college, you can also go out and find a job."
Han Doudou choked. It was amazing that she had good grades. The knowledge in primary school was easy. She remembered that she had good grades in primary school, but she didn't think it was easy at all. She asked, "How many points did you get in each exam?"
Wang Yurui said: "I can get 100 points in math, but sometimes I have to deduct points for my composition in Chinese, so I can only get 99 points. But most of the time, I get full marks for my composition."
Han Doudou was ashamed. She asked in disbelief: "You do so much housework every day, and you can still keep doing so well in your studies?"
Wang Yurui said: "Primary school knowledge is easy. Besides, although I do housework, I have completed all the homework assigned by the teacher. My grades are not very good, and I easily lose points for my essays."
Her tone was matter-of-fact.
Han Doudou asked her: "The composition is not good, didn't you hire a tutor?"
Wang Yurui shook her head, "Our family doesn't have the money to hire a tutor."
Some people in their class are taking extra classes at cram schools in town.
Han Doudou said: "But for the sake of learning, you should also hire a tutor."
Wang Yurui looked at her strangely: "My grandmother has always been in poor health, my mother's salary is not high, and the crops we harvest from the land at home can't be sold for much money. I don't have the money to hire a teacher to tutor me."
Han Doudou bit her lip. In their family, her studies were more important than anything else, and she would give in to anything that involved her studies. She didn't expect that the reason Ruirui didn't hire a tutor was just because her family had no money.
Seeing that she didn't say anything, Wang Yurui continued, "Besides, our Chinese teacher said that if you want to write a good composition, you have to read more. There is a small library in the town. Our teacher lives in the town. She often helps me borrow books and reads them to me. I read more extracurricular books and accumulate words and sentences. It's the same."
Han Doudou was speechless and ashamed again. She also knew that reading more and accumulating words and sentences could improve her writing skills, but she never did it. She only thought about improving her writing skills through the tutor. Think about it, the few minutes of tutoring are certainly useful. But if you don't work hard and take the initiative to learn, the effect of tutoring will not be great, right? Hiring a tutor is just a waste of money.
After the meal, Han Doudou took the initiative to help wash the dishes. Han Ze smiled and said that as long as she had a sense of shame, it would be fine. After washing the dishes, Han Doudou called Xu Yining in front of Han Ze and said, "Yining, I'm sorry, I'm at my aunt's house and can't accompany you to the concert tomorrow."
Xu Yining clenched her phone tightly, her tone slightly accusing: "I didn't say I was going to the concert. Didn't you and Pan Hao agree to go together? You should have told him."
Han Doudou frowned slightly and said, "Then please tell him for me. I'm at my aunt's house in the countryside in the suburbs."
Xu Yining said angrily, "Since you're going to the countryside, you shouldn't have made an appointment with Pan Hao to go to the concert. Although the tickets are not expensive, it's not good to break appointments frequently. What do you think?"
Han Doudou clutched her phone and agreed, "You're right. I won't do that again."
Xu Yining smiled and said, "That's right. Since we can't go to the concert this time, you can make an appointment next time. It will be the same."
Han Doudou said quietly, "No need. I won't go to concerts anymore. I have something else to do. I'll hang up now."
Xu Yining listened to the beeping sound on the phone with cold eyes. Han Doudou actually dared to hang up on her
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